This is day 0, I want to end this addiction, but I'm still unable of convincing myself and as a result keep falling on the trap time and time again, long story short, I'm 27 years old, soon to be 28, my background is similar to many of the ones I've read on here, no sense in dwelling in my past or assigning guilt, still, I know I did this to myself, I became addicted because I choose to look out for the filth instead of engaging in other more productive activities while in middle and high school, maybe I was sheltered, and shy because of that, still had plenty of chances to come out of my shell and didn't take them, the only gf I had was in middle school, at least I was the one that asked her out (over the internet but still), only ever got as far with as to hold her hand before we broke up and I just went back to porn, so still a virgin, since I avoided relationships or female contact all together since then, even when they approached me.
I have been drifting through life without purpose or meaning, have a job, but no career prospects, no moving out of my parents house plans in the near future, etc, but I know what it must transpire to even start thinking about bettering my situation, and that thing is to stop pissing away all my time and energy either sleeping, mindlessly watching youtube and the like, and of course masturbating which drains me of my energy and time, have read the Paul Allen's hacked book, easy peasy method to stop porn addiction two times already, but always come back to square one, I want to keep myself accountable now, that's why I made this thread,
It's gotten to this point, because I wasted away the sunday in which I had to do car maintenance and cleaning around my filth loitering about all day on sexual chats and on and off viewing porn, only to be here, awake until 6 am after binging in sexual chats again and finally rubbing one out, only to do so again two hours later, I'm going to sleep now, upon waking up I'll do a deep look to remind me not to engage in porn and the like.
I'll post the book which I grabbed from a thread on /v/ before the site shutdown if anyone is interested, couldn't find it in the sticky, the times I've read it I understand and agree to everything but I'm unable of changing my routine I keep drifting, Post too long. Click here to view the full text.
