No.15118
I need some measure of accountability to keep from fucking my shit up again and again.
I've got brain fog, social retardation/awkwardness, a short attention span, procrastinate like crazy, puss out of workouts and push them back constantly due to "lack of motivation/morale", "not feeling it today", and "I woke up too late so now it's too crowded to go even though it's across the street", and a motley of friction burns on my junk from chronic fapping.
This post also took me hours to write because sorting out my thoughts is like pulling teeth, and I kept deleting what I typed. Some of these things might not even be due to fapping, but I won't find out until I have a deep run with all the stops pulled.
My current streak started on 3/2/19 at around 3AM, so this log starts on:
Day 2
Getting back in the gym tomorrow morning after doing fuck all in February. My last recorded poundages on the OHP/BP/SQ/DL were 85/95/145/215, so I'll be seeing if I can repeat them this week, and take each day from there.
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No.15125
Those numbers are in kg right?
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No.15127
>>15125
I wish, but hell no, they're in pounds. I'm a weakling
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No.15128
>>15127
What program are you on?
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No.15132
>>15128
PPL done 6x/week, last set of the main lift is always AMRAP
Pull
>1x5 Deadlift / 5x5 Barbell Row
<3x5 Squat
>3x8-12 Pull-ups & Chins / Lat Pulldowns
>3x8-12 Chest Supported DB Row
>5x15-20 Face Pulls
>4x8-12 Hammer Curls
>4x8-12 DB Curls
Push
>5x5 Bench Press / Overhead Press
>3x8-12 Overhead Press
<3x5 Squat
>3x8-12 Incline DB Press
>3x8-12 Triceps Pushdowns (superset with 3x15-20 Lat Raises)
>3x8-12 Overhead Cable (superset with Lat Raises too)
Legs
>3x5 Squat
<5x3 Front Squat
>3x8-12 Romanian Deadlift
>3x8-12 Leg Press
>3x8-12 Leg Curls
>5x8-12 Donkey Calf Raises (superset with 5x20-25 Tibia Raises either before or after) / 4x20-25 Seated Calf Raises
The extra squat sets are there for more leg volume and accelerated weight progression, but I'll probably phase the extra back squats out the closer I get to 225 depending on how I feel.
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No.15133
Day 3
I actually got up early today, even if it meant only having 3 hours of sleep, though I took a nap sometime after my workout.
Pulled 215x8 on the DL this morning, pleasantly surprising since my last pull was 215x7 on 1/31/19.
Got some reading and studying done as well.
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No.15138
>>15132
>215x8
Wait, isn't 215 the 1RM you listed in the OP?
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No.15141
>>15132
I forgot, the second lifts on Push days should read as
>3x8-12 Overhead Press / Bench Press
>>15138
Oh, I wasn't thinking about one-rep maxes when I wrote those numbers, they're just the heaviest weights I was most recently successful in lifting according to their respective set and rep schemes in the program, if that makes sense.
So according to the numbers listed, I've done 5x5x85 Overhead Press, 5x5x95 Bench Press, 3x5x145 Squat, and 1x5x215 Deadlift - I'll just use this notation going forward if I feel like it's worth mentioning. There's only one working set for the Deadlift, which immediately makes it an AMRAP set and in that case I just note the total reps completed as in >>15133 , but for the purpose of that list, I'm capable of pulling 215 for at least 5 reps.
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No.15149
>>15141
Well, that makes more sense. How are you handling progression?
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No.15150
Day 4
Woke up really late and had to workout at 5PM, but got through it without issue, doing 95x16 on the Bench Press - I forgot I did 95x15 last time until I checked my logs and didn't think I'd be able to get that far, but I did it anyway. I skipped the extra squats though since I was already running late for something.
On previous streaks, I'd always feel more creative just a couple of days into it, and it seems like that's the case here as well. Concentration has improved a bit as well.
>>15149
As long as I get 5 reps every working set, the Deadlift increases by 10lbs, and the Squat/Presses/Barbell Row by 5lbs. Once the Deadlift becomes too difficult, I'll lower the increases to 5lbs. I increase the squat poundage whenever I clear the extra squat sets too, but those aren't AMRAP in the final set.
I don't increase any of the assistance lift weights until I get the max reps for the prescribed reps, with the exception of the Face Pulls, Lat Raises, and Tibia Raises which I can expect more infrequent/irregular increases on. Once I can get 12 reps on the Pull-ups & Chins on a consistent basis, I'll start throwing weights into the mix.
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No.15167
Day 5
I nearly relapsed - thankfully I managed to stop myself in the middle and never reached the point of edging - sometime after waking and using my phone for a while in bed, since it's currently the only alarm in my room. I'll try keeping my phone on top of my dresser tonight, which will force me to walk across the room to shut the alarm off and incentivize me to grab a shirt from the drawer and start my day immediately.
Had to do my workout later in the evening once I came back home as a result of staying in bed too long, but I pulled off 145x10 in the Squat, did the extra Front Squats afterward and got through the remainder of the workout without much issue.
One of my goals in doing nofap is to be able to properly handle the awe of female beauty, namely by reprogramming my response from dumbly touching myself in a near trance, to drawing/painting/creating something that said beauty inspired in me - though in general it would be more appropriate to just say I want to transmute my sexual urges into being more productive. It's all the same, anyhow. How I go about doing this, however, is another thing that I've been working at for years with bits of success here and there, but the choice has to be made almost instantaneously, and certainly if I somehow manage to catch myself creeping toward relapse like this morning. It doesn't help that I've had so many random breaks from drawing as a result of (perhaps fap-induced) mood swings, which dampens the response, though I could have also substituted other flow-induced activities. There are catalysts in my life that have given me a slightly greater sense of urgency to accomplish this though, among other things, as getting a hang of this aspect of myself would facilitate my success elsewhere, so I feel especially encouraged to redouble my efforts or I am super fucked.
Additionally, due to spending so much time trying to think about how to coherently articulate myself with these posts, it seems easier to stave off any urges, not simply because I can only focus on writing this thing at the time and thus circumventing any bouts of boredom which could lead to masturbation, but also because the introspective aspects are helpful in clarifying what I want out of all this.
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No.15168
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No.15179
Day 6
Woke up fairly early compared to the recent days, around 10AM, which was before my alarm went off. I only had 4 hours of sleep by that time, but there was little point in trying to fall back asleep since I was more or less wide awake, and going to bed tonight should be easier and earlier as a result of this anyway.
The 3x5x150 Squat after today's rows was tougher at the tail end, but still manageable. While writing this, I remembered that the other reason I wanted to do extra squats was because this was the lift that I dreaded doing the most back when I did SS years back and got past the >185 range, so perhaps I'd lessen that feeling by squatting more often. I think it's working, but belief in the process is part of the magic.
Last night, it also occurred to me that I should not only be using moisturizer (Cetaphil or some equivalent) to deal with my friction burns, but also some form of talcum powder (I use Balla Powder) in order to deal with the sweating around the groin that I've been having lately. Apply the moisturizer maybe 30 minutes to an hour before using the talcum powder so that the moisturizer sinks into the skin, preferably done right before sleeping.
>>15168
That's the plan
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No.15186
Day 7
It's been awhile since I've gotten this far.
Slept until night again, so I worked out at night again. No extra squatting as I put all my effort into the presses beforehand.
My sleep cycle is still messed up, but at least I'm getting enough sleep. Sleeping early has always been difficult for me.
Not much else to say here.
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No.15207
Day 8
Felt dour and more easily annoyed by even small things for what short time I was awake. Might be a result of not having seen the sun in a couple of days, and testosterone levels or something.
There's an opportunity for me to fix my sleep schedule here though, so I'll just turn in early tonight and do my workout whenever I get up in the morning, which should be early as well considering how much I've slept already.
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No.15210
>>15207
Day 8 is when I found /nofap/..I need to work on fixing sleeping habits as well. Sleeping at Walmart gives you insomnia.
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No.15220
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No.15296
Day 16
I didn't want to post for the past few days since I edged myself into limbo multiple times from Day 9 to Day 15 after randomly touching my dick, but I was planning on having more infrequent check-ins anyway despite that. Somehow I've managed to keep from busting, although I paid an additional price by delaying workouts several times and other shakeups in my schedule due to all the edging, and now I have to redo my Deadlift from before at 215 since I don't trust my body to pull 225 without issue unless I was actually consistent.
I should be able to stabilize from this point on, as no previous streaks of mine have ever survived such an onslaught of edging like this, and I'm more or less back to my senses. At least I hope so.
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No.15323
>>15296
> I edged myself into limbo multiple times from Day 9 to Day 15
Please stop anon, you need to nip this shit in the bud.
> pull 225
Do you use a belt? Also do you have a home gym?
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No.15340
>>15323
>Do you use a belt? Also do you have a home gym?
I don't currently use a belt, I'm getting closer to a point where I should probably be using it. And I wish I had a home gym, but I train at a commercial gym across the street from me, yet I still manage to be inconsistent about doing my workouts, ridiculously enough.
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No.15496
Day 31
March passed with less workouts and more edging done than I had hoped for, so this month I'm just going to get as many workouts in as possible and get purposefully busy so I don't touch my junk. It'll be a win if I've worked out for more than 50% of the days in April, but ideally the closer to the full 30 days, the better.
Consumption of other people's creations, content, artwork, etc. needs to be minimized, and more stock and faith placed in my future ability to produce results. In other words, I need to take myself more seriously so I can actually reach my ideals, even if I don't think I'm good at any of this stuff I'm working on right now.
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