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Dear Diary Anonymous 04/11/19 (Thu) 03:32:28 No.15605

Well, I've been on and off nofap for about two years now. Most I've ever gotten was 55 days when I was sort of living innawoods. Whenever I go into a new living situation I try to not develop a fapping ritual, but eventually do and it gets easy to relapse from there. Failed an exam today and decided to be despondent all day and jerked it to some pretty queer shit. Basically, after turning it in I decided I was going to relapse, but pretend that I wasn't. It's always the same routine, but I just go on autopilot once I start going into my room with the computer. And Lord help me if I go to my parents' house where I fapped my teenage years away. At the end of the day I can't run from my problem forever because I can develop a ritual wherever I go.

I'm very glad that there is a place to discuss this that is not… reddit. I don't expect anybody to really care about all that whiny bullshit, unless you have anything interesting to say about getting all of these habits set up. I'm just going to post here and would really appreciate it if somebody would call me a faggot if I relapse.

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Anonymous 04/11/19 (Thu) 03:57:11 No.15609

Reminder: Why I do not fap:

>When I let myself totally go, I cannot think of things to do. I am not a creative person, I have no independent thought. I am an NPC when I'm on porn. I wasted years on it, I ignored women and lost friends.

>I can't be against any form of degeneracy if I consume the type of degeneracy that is easy and convenient to use. I am a total hypocrite if I use porn. No better than any redditor.

>I know what it's like to not use porn: I feel like the grown man that I am. I take rejection well, and can man up over my problems.

>I hate how I am a total automaton when I fap. I hate how I mindlessly seek this pleasure and shut out the voice that tells me to stop. I hate how even though I still have a choice, I shut it out and continue. I hate how I deny what I am doing until I cum, and then act like I just made a terrible mistake with that last pump, when I was doing so all along and just denying it. I even know that I am lying to myself, but just try to not think at all.

>I hate how after I fap, I go on to mindlessly seek pleasure. Watching stupid videos, eating tons of food even though I'm on the cusp of being overweight. I skip going to the gym. Just mindlessly browsing and listening while learning nothing. So when I fap, I am signing up for 24 hours of being subhuman.

>When I just seek out my pleasure, I am not a man, I don't face discomfort and act out of cold rationality. I don't think of problems, only of my own feelings and urges. Those urges are not more real than my feelings. If I think so, I am 9001x worse than any SJW. At least they have the courage to do something outside themselves, even if its stupid.

>When I fap I have nothing in common with the pioneers or my ancestors who fought and died in the muddy battlefields. What right have I to look a real man in the eye after castrating myself like that? Women too, for a different reason.

>I was made in God's image, but debased self pleasuring is completely against God's image.

>I hate how I can try to forget all of the reasons that I do not fap if it becomes convenient for me, but act self-righteous and superior when I am not currently tempted.

tl;dr don't touch it

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Anonymous 04/12/19 (Fri) 01:29:03 No.15639

Day 1: Went pretty well today. Actually went out and talked to people and that might have something to do with the fact that I have absolutely no urge to watch porn right now. My addiction might have something to do with being a bit damn depressed and not really believing that I could enjoy not PMOing.

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Anonymous 04/13/19 (Sat) 16:48:09 No.15675

>>15639

Day 2: Shit day and slept badly but fapping didn't occur to me and it's just not an option. I do like being able to have a shit day without hating myself though. Kinda manly.

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Anonymous 04/14/19 (Sun) 04:05:41 No.15695

Day 3: SUCKED!

but no relapse

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Anonymous 04/19/19 (Fri) 00:45:20 No.16439

>>15695

Whelp it's a week now. No full relapse but I have peeked twice. It's pretty tough right now. Might go visit a friend.

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Anonymous 04/20/19 (Sat) 17:09:45 No.16475

Relapsed last night. Pretty late after a stressful social gathering to some real degenerate shit. Not really good at all, but not gonna binge.

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Anonymous 04/22/19 (Mon) 01:51:26 No.16497

>>16475

Day 1: Went well. Sad day, despite Easter.

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Anonymous 04/22/19 (Mon) 12:19:50 No.16503

>>16497

Aaannd I relapsed. I made the whole little dance of moving towards it, such as using my computer too late and using it in bed, looking at shit saying I'd stop, stopping a few times and continuing because I did not physically remove myself from it. At this point, nofap is going to have to be noritual. It's unreasonable to say that I should only stop at the point of pulling out my pecker.

I suspect there are many shills on this board.

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Anonymous 04/23/19 (Tue) 03:33:41 No.16510

>>16503

Today was not good because I just peaked. Time for bed.

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Anonymous 04/26/19 (Fri) 00:36:15 No.16555

>>16510

Relapse today. Sort of non-typical because it happened around 6 rather than around 11. Just got the intention and urge to do so, did the little dance, and did it again. Getting out of this is hard.

So far my "streaks" are:

>9 days

>1 day

>3 days

Not the world's least shameful display.

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Anonymous 04/26/19 (Fri) 01:28:43 No.16556

>>16475

>>16503

>>16555

Faggot

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Anonymous 04/29/19 (Mon) 22:00:51 No.16627

Again today relapsed after 4 days sorta clean. FUCKING ANGRY because I stopped myself mid-relapse but went back on gaming computer later. All of these little justification are shit. I'm living so comfortably right now that it's hard to get myself to have discipline that I had living rougher. Once I move toward using I must be done with computers in a private setting ALL DAY. How the hell do I stop my own little bullshit? Gonna go back to actually posting here more.

>>16556

You have no reason to think otherwise.

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