No.14483 [View All]
>be like 10
>watching bleach
>see that scene where some chick is naked, barely covered by fog
>curiously look up naked pics of her on the internet
It was all fucking downhill from there. Hentai has without a single doubt ruined my life. I know I shouldn't blame other people for my problems, but why in the name of fuck did my parents let me have a computer and unrestricted access to the internet at that young age? I've jacked off to the most depraved shit imaginable every single day for ten years, and it has destroyed my brain, my health, my personality, my social life, my intelligence, my free time, my morals, my sexuality, my chances at romantic love, everything.
Drugs can't do pic related to you, but hentai/porn will make you think it's normal. Porn/masturbation is essentially an opiate. It shoots a blast of dopamine straight into your brain, which you quickly become addicted and dependent to. Then you gain a resistance to that dosage, so you crave harder and harder hits (more depraved porn), and normal things in your life that SHOULD give you pleasure feel like nothing. This is just one of the countless problems with fapping, but imo it's the most important one. Anyways, I've been trying to do nofap for a while, the longest I've made it is 7 days. I'm on day 2 right now, which is an improvement from twice a day. Maybe I'll do one of those journal things.
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No.14707
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No.14712
>>14693
>>14702
Yeah, the same thing happened with me. I'm on Day 33 at the moment, but I was full into /d/, tranny, doujin and 3D stuff. When that wouldn't do it for me, I'd go to e621 to escalate further, or look at m4m ads on Craigslist / Locanto and fantasise.
Like, I don't think I'm even gay, I'm just escalating to something that is easier to get than real vagoo. I messaged a couple of guys but always chickened out when I finished fapping. Thank fuck.
The thing I'm confused about at the moment is escorts, they're completely legal in Australia. My last streak before this was 12 days, and I relapsed looking at them online (yep, basically porn). My friends want me to hop on Tinder and Bumble, and I'm reading Models by Mark Manson and it's really helping.
Basically, I see escorts as a last resort that I probably won't need. Being a virgin probably has some unresolved issues attached to it, so if it gets to a point where I'm fucking up everything because of that, I'll take the easy out. I don't think that's the case though.
Anyway, nofap is a great confidence boost but what am I in for the next 60 days? Any tips?
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No.14713
>>14712
Gay people claim that homosexuality is something you are born with and don't develop. They are mostly right. You can develop a fetish for the same sex just from exposure to it when you're fapping. I'm not a psychologist, and I've never seen any research on this, but in my opinion fetishes arise because your brain associates the pleasure of porn, masturbation, and orgasm with whatever you're looking at. So when you were younger, you whacked it to "normal" vanilla porn. Eventually you gained a resistance to that (as I explained in the op) so you searched out "harder" porn. This is where fetishes begin. I'm sure you know that things that would be disgusting to you normally can be hot when you're already horny. So you whack it to something weird, and eventually after doing that daily you start to have a pavlovian reaction of arousal to things that would otherwise be disgusting to you. This is why straight men jack off to traps, this is why people get into depraved bdsm stuff, this is why weebs claim "2d is better!", why people dress up in fursuits/kigurumi, etc. (this doesn't apply to scat/vore, those have a different reason for existing altogether.) I also think that bisexuality doesn't exist, and that it's just a fetish. The good thing about this is that you can get rid of your fetishes just by going several months without watching porn.
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No.14724
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No.14727
>>14712
>Basically, I see escorts as a last resort that I probably won't need. Being a virgin probably has some unresolved issues attached to it
Do you know that tired empty sad feeling you get when the rush passes after you fap? You will still feel this with a woman. Real women are just another kind of porn. Unless you develop real mutual feelings for one another, it will always be just as pointless and soul sucking as jacking off. It sounds like you're incredibly fucking desperate, and I'd like to help, even though I've never been that far gone. When I was into really degenerate fetishes, I started by restricting myself to fapping to porn without dicks (lesbians). Eventually I weened that into only fapping to solo female. I finally quit porn and just fapped to my imagination, and then quit fapping all together. This took me a couple years, and I did have relapses every now and then. When you're really truly addicted to a drug, it's really difficult to quit cold turkey without having someone to hold you accountable. I think this weening strategy was right for me, and maybe it is for you.
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No.14730
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No.14736
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No.14745
Day 6, barely made it, once again.
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No.14747
>>14745
I had a spell of what I can only describe as "mind fog" earlier today. You CAN do this. You're almost out of the gutter.
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No.14753
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No.14773
>>14753
One week down, good job man.
Keep it up.
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No.14779
Day 8
>>14773
Thanks, I feel like I'm doing better this time.
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No.14791
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No.14792
I edged a bunch but managed to get control of myself and didn't orgasm, but I still kinda feel like I relapsed. How bad is edging really? Obviously I shouldn't do it, but should I restart my streak or something?
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No.14808
>>14792
>Obviously I shouldn't do it
Agreed
>but should I restart my streak or something?
IMO you shouldn't. Your streak is a mental thing, and resetting it every time you slip up can be demoralizing, and lead to more fapping than the edging you were doing.
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No.14810
Well I relapsed anyways. I'm seem to be having trouble getting past a week. I'm gonna be more vigilant with not looking at porn.
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No.14818
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No.14826
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No.14836
>>14810
Do it right this time.
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No.14837
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No.14843
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No.14848
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No.14954
I had the first wet dream of my life. I wouldn't have counted it as a relapse, but I was so horny afterwards that I ended up fapping anyways.
Day 0
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No.15010
Relapsed again. I can do this.
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No.15023
Keep having wet dreams… I'm not fantasizing about sexual things, looking at porn, or touching it at all so I don't know why it's happening. Do they stop after a while?
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No.15031
>>15023
Day 311 still no wet dreams
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No.15117
A good hint I've found is that your bed is only for sleeping. Don't lay in your bed just to relax, only lay in it if you intend to sleep. ESPECIALLY don't do anything that requires thinking while laying down, because when you are laying your brain starts resting and you become less alert. You've also (probably) been conditioned to associating your bed with jacking off, so try to avoid it. Also, don't use your phone or laptop at night before going to sleep. Not only will it tempt you to look at porn, but it also makes it hard to fall asleep.
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No.15184
Finally made it to day 7 again.
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No.15198
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No.15199
>>14532
I honestly think I'm so addicted to my phone it is horrendous. My eyes ache and I'm going blind. I always need to use it to feel alright, but without it I am dead. I wanted to beat the shit out of it and smash it to pieces to free myself from this, but nowadays I need the phone, and it pisses me off. Maybe I have a tumor in my brain because only one of my eyes is going bad and I feel like one side of my body is not as able as the other halve if you understand what I mean.
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No.15200
When I do nofap I think that I feel more shitty but I act more confidently in some situations. I look more manly but maybe it is just the exercises or a placebo.
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No.15218
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No.15248
Day 1. Not looking at porn is harder than not fapping and it leads to fapping.
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No.15256
Foolish fucking boomer parents giving me unrestricted internet access and letting jewish doctors take my fucking foreskin away without the slightest urge to even question why. Fuck my parents
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No.15268
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No.15284
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No.15350
>>15199
OP, if you are still alive, then what you need to do is understand why you need to use a phone and porn in the first place. As I have learned wrestling with my own vices, we humans are drawn to sin because it distracts us from thinking about the harder truths in life, like death and the afterlife. What you need to realize is that porn is taking away what little time you have left on this Earth and no amount of fapping will ever change this fact. You need to confront your sex demons and use your sexual energies to become the man you always wanted to be.
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No.15364
>>15350
OP here, that's not me lol. My phone isn't that big of a problem, I literally only use it to chat with friends and watch Youtube, and I haven't even been doing that as much because I'm busy. I keep it away from me at night because it's way too easy to spontaneously look up porn on it.
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No.15480
Relapsed again, not to porn though. Doing a bit better.
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No.15702
>>14727
Not sure if you're going to check this, but just wanted to let you know that I'm currently on day 71 PM free, and lost my virginity to a old friend I hadn't seen in a while, it was really beautiful and we laughed a lot.
Thanks for talking me out of that one, it would have been a waste. Just know that you're the only thing that stopped me in the end, I'll buy a girl a drink on your behalf.
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No.16483
OP here, relapsed really bad. Counting the days on here helped I think, so day 0.
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No.16506
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No.16521
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No.16531
>>14547
Your cock must be huge
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No.16540
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No.16548
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No.16582
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No.16600
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No.16628
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No.16652
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