>>52558
You sound very similar to me, mang, very very similar.
I grew up in a pretty abusive home in the and my school experience was traumatic to say the least so in the late 90s I found "home" online. Cyberspace was the only place I ever felt safe and happy. I could be who I wanted to be and was limited only by my imagination. How they were such glorious days, exploring the edges of Cyberspace, a place built for the realization of dreams. I made so many friends and had perhaps hundreds on my MSN and every day I always had someone with whom I could discuss anything. My handle was the only thing necessary for our bonding and it wasn't "weird" to seek out and meet strangers to just experience it all together.
Anyway, if you'll allow me, I'll tell you a story of cyber romance.
I met my first love online. She contacted me on LiveJournal of all places. I remember all too well. She added me on MSN and said hi. At first I just took it as another one of an infinite number of interactions I'd had with others but she was nice and I gradually enjoyed talking to her more and more until we fell in love. It's weird you know because I was never even interested in women even back then, or even men in any sexual sense, but she swept me off my feet unlike any other.
She was such a kind soul, genuine, introverted like me. We both loved playing games and we played hours of Day of Defeat and Minecraft together. I forget who said it first but we started to say "I love you" to each other. Looking back with today's perspectives it would seem so silly but we were deeply in love. I went out of my way to remember everything about her and wanted to do anything to make her happy. She lived on the other side of the world so I'd stay up to ridiculous hours just to speak with her even for a little while, just to say that I loved her.
In any case, I was studying a course at the time and it was going well but I was sick with love. I'd never felt love before but oh boy did I feel it. As a pretty young person (I was about 18 or 19 at the time) IPost too long. Click here to view the full text.