/hikki/ - Hikikomori

>>7081

>School is a glorified daycare service designed to make you a good little wind-up toy drone.

It's another scam. That and the prisons are way to use the poor so that the government can tax private prisons.

Maybe it's daycare with wiki, but given that no one ever remembers what was on the last test or what they studied last year, it's not even that.

>>7111

Thank you for the answer. Your story feels close to mine and it was nice reading about it.

I excelled up through grade 10, then barely scraped by for the last 2 years of high school and dropped out my first year of college. My narcissist dad always told me for as long as I can remember that I was a genius, but he only said that because he wanted to control and exploit me. Unfortunately I was too young and stupid to know better, so I believed it. This had the consequence of making me completely unable to deal with any form of failure or adversity. I also dropped out because I hated how my parents were trying to control every facet of my life and future. And on top of that I'm autistic and didn't even get diagnosed until the ripe old age of 20.

>>7554

>I believe I have successfully reintegrated society.

>Let me know if you guys want to talk about something.

What motivated you to reintegrate? How did you do it? What did you do to learn normal social skills? Did you have any leftover resentment against society and how did you deal with it?

Sorry for the late replies guys.

>>7587

I am not the one who started working at walmart, no. I quite enjoy walks out at night, personally.

>>7619

>What motivated you to reintegrate?

For me it was the fact that I know that the lifestyle wasn't sustainable for me. I can and still do live with my parents, and if I didn't work I would have all my expenses covered, but for how long? I figured the sooner I started reintergrating, the easier it would be.

>How did you do it?

Signed up for school and went. Got an internship after my formation and work for the government now.

>What did you do to learn normal social skills?

Experience, I guess. Most of it was learned through exposure. Maintaining a conversation is as simple as asking questions. Ask a question they can't answer with yes or no, you get them going for a good 30 seconds. Majority of people just like hearing themselves talk.

Something else that came as an epiphany to me that you may know already but really helped for me was that being a social human being is all about surface level appearances and facades. Asking how people are doing, pretending to care about what they do on the weekend, etc. Pretending to care makes people like you, pretending that you are always 100% happy makes people like you. Always smiling makes people like you.

And that people are extremely conflict adverse and dislike negativity. I don't know why, but you disliking something, even given valid reasons will often make people have a poorer opinion of you.

So simply, I avoid conflict unless necessary, and apply the "if you have nothing good to say, say nothingPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>6981

whats the reason you are on SSI?

>>2611

move on and be strong. I chose to stay at home and not have a job ever in the "outside world" and I go outside to do things like running or reading a couple pages. It doesn't mean being in a bad spot in life rather it's what you chose and in no definition digging ones own grave. There's no failure unless you leech of your parents like the guy in the anime.

I readed entire themes of wikipedia i spent all time go to links that put in . And the jump to other and other link and readed ones complete other medium i let went three years of my live.

>>7761

worlds.com

>>7761

reading Chinese web novels with machine translator, and when I got tired of their propaganda all over the place I try to write my own until losing all motivation and return to read more Chinese garbage novels.

8kun, a lot, and dev. I also play mmorpgs tho. Since I’m kinda bored rn I am making a desktop client for 8kun and anon cafe

I feel you friend, i am in Venezuela. Is all a twisted hell. First worlders are lucky, they coast on neetbux and don`t actually starve for being like this.

Negrito, i thinked the same shit and i dont be a scream faggot (im not considered me a hikki becose i grow up in a west country is a third world country but my parents gave me a good live wasnt be better but i feel with 25 years better that my hate fully youth think. Ok i was short use to all bad feelings for you came for your dreams, if you did the stupid faggot in your life and took the last floor you feel more free to take your choice,

Read the art of war for you take the betters choices and the manual of urbanity the manuel antonio carreño for you being a chad in your behavior of your own life.

hello, i am filipino. we share your pain

The fuck is a scream faggot

>>7832

beats me.

I've completely given up on the concept of friends at this point. I find people insufferable and I can't deal with their shit, online or offline. I tried the discord meme but it wasn't worth it and social media is horrible so I deleted all of my accounts there. I did have a friend online that I was in contact with for a longer time but I was tired of hearing of his own problems and it just felt like a massive drag that I had to deal with, so I just moved on. I also can't stand normalfags.

The few IRL and online friends I've had weren't the clingy type, just chill people I shared mutual interests with. We mostly played games, shared our creative progress or funny/interesting links with each other. Lost all of them after becoming a hikki as an adult and losing Internet access for a while. Tried to reconnect with them but it didn't work out.

After a long period of solitude I''d like to recreate that kind of relationship with someone, but I don't want it to become too personal so it feels clingy or too impersonal that it feels distant and we drift away from each other.

>>3157

I'll rely on you, anon, I have no literally no friends.

>>3247

>running away from it won't do you any good.

People also forget that other people don't automatically understand how they feel. If they don't say anything, people will assume the worst either about themselves or the person they were talking to. Boundaries can be set without hurting people, and it's easier to do by talking.

Though, not going outside in years is a pretty big boundary.

>For you.

A lot of ramen for a hired gun!

"friends" are just parasites leeching off of you. I don't have any friends at all, not even online but let me tell you that I had to remove a lot of parasites from my life who started out as friends but then just turned into a massive waste of time and energy, obsessed freaks who wanted to chain me and hated my free will and my wish for more space. They shame you and demand loyalty when you evolve and change but the truth is that you are not anybodys slave. It's better to be a lone individual than a braindead herd animal.

I always had a hikki and neet mentality but still had friends and even a gf back then, only after I started to work on myself it really developed further. I absolutely don't need friends or relationships anymore. It is fun to chat with fellow anons on imageboards or stuff about stuff you are interested in and stuff you like, but that's it. Here is a good post on loneliness from another board made by another anon:

>I don't know about all the rest, but loneliness is a symptom of some kind of lack and attachment. Think about it. It doesn't make sense to be "lonely". It's an absurd concept that presupposes people are not worthy on their own. "Loneliness" is the pathological need to be in anybody's company (not somebody, but anybody). Forget about enlightened beings. I'm a fucking degenerate and I only feel lonely when I need validation. And then I realize this and simply reassert my legitimacy. It's not that enlightened to be worthy. Besides, you are literally never, ever, alone.

This was a reply to a question as whether enlightened sages such as Lao Tzu or the Buddha ever felt lonely. I don't think any enlightened man or man of intelligence actually has any "friends" as we understand the term in this day and age. Beings you are friendly with and collegues/comrades you can share ideas with from time to time, help each other out once in a while and have a nice chat, thats a different story. "Friendship" is just an artificial concept created by modern idiots. NPCs giving each other validation and comfort, that's all.

>>7805

to elaborate a little more mom's bf when on a whole spiel on how his job is to make sure my moms happy, and I get that. and then she tried to come up with the excuse that "sometimes I don't even want to come home because the house is a mess" which is bullshit. you stay with your boyfriend because you like staying with him. also we have two drastic ideas on cleanliness and I try to meet her in the middle. After that he proceeded to ask me what my long and short term goals were and I just mentioned some stuff I was looking into (because I think it's about time I put my NEETdom to an end before I blow my brains out) and refuted everything I said because I didn't give him the answer he desired.

They probably do want to help, but they don't know what you need because you are probably very quiet. They also are normies so their idea of what you should be doing is different than yours.

>>7805

>They tried to have a discussion with me about what I plan to do in the future and whatnot, and also why some of my behavior is "problematic".

It's a genuine concern that they have about your future, but they also need to be aware that you've been living an isolated existence and even going out is a struggle when you just want to be alone. For them to bring all that up at once is only going to likely push you away. If you can, sit down and talk to them about some little things that you feel comfortable talking about at your own pace.

My condolences. Best of luck with your treatment/surgery and take care of yourself in the meantime, that shit can be ruthless.

Ok, you are lucky bastard, say to god motherfucker for me, i went gotta fast for i am said to him this and f i will found you.

>>7799

at least… sorry bro

>>7799

Sorry to hear that man. Not sure what to say. My mom also had it, I try to not think about her.

>>7799

Remember to drink lots of water then.

>>4262

I agree. The book was definitely more grounded in the real world, and the ending was good because even though it wasn't necessarily a happy one, it was realistic and open-ended. Life was uncertain for Satou at the end of the book, but he pressed on because he had no other choice. That is one of the big ways in which Satou's life is very much like ours.

>>4264

>Life was uncertain for Satou at the end of the book, but he pressed on because he had no other choice. That is one of the big ways in which Satou's life is very much like ours.

Very true.

>>4091

>I think we can all relate to Satou in several ways. After all, he's a hikikomori written by a hikikomori, so he's bound to be a lot like us.

This is very true i think it's kinda true as well that someone isn't really going to enjoy NHk unless they can relate to it in some way considering the fact that the majority of the people in it's fan base are Neets Hikkis and Otakus.

>>4046

he's literally me

>>7224

You'll need vitamin K2 to supplement your vitamin D3 intake.

>>7299

are you sure? i thought the need to supplement k2 is still not scientifically proven hence why i think nutritionfacts never wrote something about it afaik

Drinking a glass of water or two before eating fills your stomach faster, making you eat less and thus ration food better

If you jerking off the best way is close to up the window or door for nobody spying you.

>>7443

If you feel better from it, then it's worth it. And don't take the weak stuff, you'd have to take like 40 capsules per day to feel an effect. This is the brand I use

https://healthnatura.com/vitamin-k2/

my mom used to come into my room and shove me and get into my face yelling at me to get out and i usually just stood there ignoring her until she pushed my door open and i slammed the door back on her and she landed on her ass and looked scared

i also started throwing things at her, she is much nicer to me now than ever before.

she also locked me out before by letting my cat out and then telling me to go get him and locking the door behind me so i broke in through the basement and hid in a closet while she drove around for half an hour looking for me because i disappeared lol

I try not to cause problems, clean a room once in a while at night, don't make loud noises, etc. just so there's the idea of "there's no problem, just an introvert". I don't understand the hikkis who break walls and scream, obviously you'll be thrown outside if you do that.

Just keep your head down and prepare if the worst happens.

>>7819

or join to legion etrangere france

>>7312

Background, small body 1.60, girly looks since I was a child, molested twice by a family member and a classmate, bullyed all life until HC.

19 years old about to graduate as an accountant in one more year in therapy and meds actually feeling good, despite being an outcast at college I dont get bullyed thanks to the work amount and not being ugly, managed to get a job in a small building as an auxilary acc, my boss is a nice guy in his 30s Im making money and theres this qt3.14 18 yo whos also working there as a phone operator I end up being good friends wiith her, my life couldnt be any better, FF i graduate, Became a full time accountant qt is now in college and planing to quit and she asks me to go for a drink after work, sure thing, were drinking shes carring the conversation all the time (I suck at talking) she starts telling me how shes been really happy this past year, and how she didnt even want to work here in the first place, but having someone thats dumb and awkward like me around, but tries so hard made it so much easier and funny. Im not really angry nor surprised shes usually like that, kinda insulting me but also complementing me at the same time, then she drops the bomb, "hey anon I really like you, what about you? do you want me to stay here with you?" all of this while she was leaning against me.

I honestly dont know what to do or say, no one had ever done something like this to me before, I can only say sorry Im not interested in a relationship right now, stuttering the whole time…

>>7795

That's brutal. The main problem is that you don't seem to know what you actually want to get out of life. Take the time to figure that out. It's not uncommon to be completely lost and confused when you're young. Progress should happen naturally over time as you do things and have more time to think, and to know yourself. In your current state, you can't possibly handle a relationship, so even though the way that you handled that situation was disastrous, it wasn't the worst possible outcome. You probably won't be ready for that anyway until your late 20s or early 30s, so that should not even be an option until you are stable and developed enough, and comfortable with who you are.

Worst, i was a very stupid person that im now, the faggot scream time go pass and once again a felt as i wanted someday in spent 3 years feel like one more time in my fucking life .