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 No.15735 [Open thread]

I've felt an all consuming attachment to a video game character since I was around 12, I see surreal outlines of her blended together from the thousands of images I've seen of her over the years when i close my eyes sometimes and in hypnagogic states. When I think I see her somewhere she doesn't belong I feel anxiety that persists after I realize it's not her. I have semi-recently begun to seek out the worst most degrading depictions of her I can, I've spent 10+ hours at a time on booru sites looking at her combined with all the worst most filthy paraphillias I can imagine in tandem. There is a twitter bot that posts images of her and I feel a sort of voyeuristic manic thrill/abject despondence looking at the people who follow and and like its tweets and how disgusting they are, the idea of her being sexual in any way brings me emotional distress and sadness, It's a strange form of emotional self harm.

Is it possible any of this is a result of brain damage? When I initially became innocently infatuated with her I developed a response of punching myself in the head repeatedly for periods lasting up to 15 minutes when I imagined or saw her being defiled in some way, As it's gone on I have increasing facial twitching

and periods of mental absence with nausea, along with almost no short or long term memory now (I sometimes slip into quasi-psychosis and do all of the above with increased furvor without sleeping or eating that last for three or so days).

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 No.15847

>>15837

I feel like I wish I had exaggerated my response to play into you wanting to harm me, I guess you can tell it'd be out of "masochism" (I dont derive pleasure from any of what I've done). You did succeed in making me upset more than I let in on in my post.

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 No.15849

12:09:54 No.15735

Hello,

I'm having trouble configuring a reasonably short response to your post. My initial reaction was to instruct you to seek counseling, but I suspect that the degree of your self-harm would result in an unnecessary involuntary institutionalization. Therefore, the best I can do is to explain the underpinnings of your actions. First, as the brilliant novelist John Steinbeck stated, "The worst disease experienced by Western man is a childhood devoid of parental love." As a trained clinician and a victim of a childhood "devoid of parental love," I call this phenomenon the behavioral passage of trauma from one generation to next. In simple terms, it's the unconscious, compulsive, repetition of child abuse. In your case, you defended against your childhood pain, when you discovered an idealized character who fulfilled a mixture of unfulfilled childhood needs and your necessary defense mechanisms. As for the downward spiral of your emotional stability, your naive belief that using this open forum as the means of remediation proves the existence of your unconscious embedded trauma and your compulsion to resolve this past childhood trauma in the present. While your attempt at resolution is a normal, but misdirected human function, you could not have chosen a worse venue to remediate your pain.

Since, this is the worst possible venue for any substantive discussion of emotional suffering, I offer my counsel to guide you to a protected online group with people suffering from similar emotional conflicts. If you are interested, please leave your anonymous email address, and I will forward you the url address.

By the way, you are not psychotic, unlike the above psychopath who attempted to increase your pain, you are a feeling human being in search of love, adventure, friendship, and good times. In any event, no matter your decision, I wish you the best.

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 No.15850

12:09:54 No.15735

Hello,

I'm having trouble configuring a reasonably short response to your post. My initial reaction was to instruct you to seek counseling, but I suspect that the degree of your self-harm would result in an unnecessary involuntary institutionalization. Therefore, the best I can do is to explain the underpinnings of your actions. First, as the brilliant novelist John Steinbeck stated, "The worst disease experienced by Western man is a childhood devoid of parental love." As a trained clinician and a victim of a childhood "devoid of parental love," I call this phenomenon the behavioral passage of trauma from one generation to next. In simple terms, it's the unconscious, compulsive, repetition of child abuse. In your case, you defended against your childhood pain, when you discovered an idealized character who fulfilled a mixture of unfulfilled childhood needs and your necessary defense mechanisms. As for the downward spiral of your emotional stability, your naive belief that using this open forum as the means of remediation proves the existence of your unconscious embedded trauma and your compulsion to resolve this past childhood trauma in the present. While your attempt at resolution is a normal, but misdirected human function, you could not have chosen a worse venue to remediate your pain.

Since, this is the worst possible venue for any substantive discussion of emotional suffering, I offer my counsel to guide you to a protected online group with people suffering from similar emotional conflicts. If you are interested, please leave your anonymous email address, and I will forward you the url address.

By the way, unlike the above psychopath who attempted to increase your pain, you are neither psychotic nor brain damaged. You are a feeling human being in search of love, adventure, friendship, and good times. In any event, no matter your decision, I wish you the best.

JAH

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 No.15856

>>15850

That's a long well composed response, I dont disagree with anything you said.

I am having difficulties articulating further thoughts than that, I am interested in that online group and how the pains of the people in it relate to mine. You can reach me at adornoswimsuit@gmail.com if you're still interested.

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 No.15858

>>15847

Well fuck my ass, now I also wish I had called your bluff.

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 No.14057 [Open thread]

My whole life I've wanted to be a serial killer. I want to kidnap, rape, torture and kill small girls, cut them up and eat their flesh. I've tortured animals, made plans, I have weapons and tarps, this obsession keeps growing and growing. It surges through me and burns like fire in my viens. Serial murder is BEAUTIFUL and i want to paint my very own bloody picture.

Then they caught the golden state killer because his distant relatives took a DNA test. I felt sick for a week. I still feel sick thinking about it. If they caught him there is no way I could get away with it. I feel like the shadow in which I live is suddenly visible to the world. I scream and rage inside my head because it's just not fair. I don't want to spend my whole life in fear just waiting for the cops. And there is so much in the world besides murder and I can't STAND the idea of being locked up. This is no longer the daydream it once was it is an obsession. It progresses further and further as time goes on.

So fuck. Fuck fuck fuck FUCK. I want to lash out and destroy as I feel everything closing in.

I want to see the people cower in fear, see me as the monster I am, want to go down in the history books. I want people to see my art and recoil.

But part of me doesn't want this. I want to crawl into the light, head held down, asking for help, to declaw me and let me live with them, as one of them. There is so much in the world I cannot stand to be taken from it.

Are there any support groups or resources to deal with this sort of thing? I can't do anything without anonymity, I'll be locked up.

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 No.15641

I recommend you read the Gospel of John

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 No.15659

>>14057

get job at butchery

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 No.15740

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>>14064

Same. Women deserve the worst for what they do to autists like rape, strangulation, stabbings, blood eagle. Same goes for women who treat men who can't laid.

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 No.15743

>>15740

Who is that guy and what is the context?

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 No.15851

want to be a serial killer. Patient 06/23/18 (Sat) 23:59:14 No.14057

Hello,

If you are caught in a downward spiral falling ever closer to acting on your homicidal obcession, I strongly suggest you contact an attorney with advanced training in forensic psychology. By retaining an attorney, you have a right to absolute confidentiality. Therefore, should testing prove your belief that you are a psychopath and a potential serial killer, absent a statement of intent to kill immediately, an attorney cannot disclose your identity or even disclose that he/she is representing you for any legal issue.

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 No.13940 [Open thread]

Hi /mental/,

First time posting here. I have anxiety and depression. It doesn't get in the way of work (IT network technician), but I have a hard time with relationships out side of work. I'm 25, still live with my parents, I'm lucky to have a GF (even though she's fat I love her and she genuinely loves me) and I paid off my college debt a year ago because my job pays pretty good. Usually when I'm having anxiety issues I want to leave my GF for ever. The last "episode" I had resulted in us taking a week and a half break before Thanksgiving and that helped up until now. I started seeing a councilor a few weeks before that who was a quack (talking about meridian lines and pseudoscience shit like that) so I switched to a new councilor who's better than the first. However that's not enough so through my work's employee assistance program I'm seeking a psychiatrist. My cousin whose like a brother to me sought out a psychiatrist a few months ago and he's doing much better with his anxiety (runs in the family) but he's taking 4 medications. I only want 1. Also I have a bit of a drinking problem, it usually means that I have $40-60 less in my wallet every week but sometimes it sets off my anxiety a lot and sometimes there no effect at all on it. I've been trying to drink less (like one or two drinks on a Friday and Saturday evening) and usually that's the case in the past few weeks, but last night I drank a whole bottle of wine and had a few shots, then texted my GF that she doesn't need all of my bullshit and she's better off without me. She was calm about it and knew I was depressed at the time, but not drunk. Is it possible to only drink once or twice a week and still keep anxiety under control?

tl;dr what should I ask a psychiatrist for anxiety and depression that I don't have to take every day, only as needed?

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 No.15718

>>15717

A house is not a sound investment, I'd have to advise against it honestly

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 No.15816

>>15718

Seriously? And it's better than pissing money away on an apartment how?

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 No.15817

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>>15816

>And it's better than pissing money away on an apartment how?

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 No.15825

>I'm lucky to have a GF (even though she's fat I love her and she genuinely loves me

you disgusting pig

you have a girl that loves you and you call her fat

you could have said she was not perfect or she had her own flaws but calling her fat is disgusting

you don't deserve your gf and I doubt you love her. I feel like if you had the oppurtunity to upgrade, you would do without second thought.

greetings from /tumor/

t. Sven Johannson

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 No.15838

>>15825

I agree

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 No.15400 [Open thread]

What do you do to pass the time? I just listen to music and meditate. I try to draw, but get discouraged because I suck, even though I know I've improved a little bit and can improve more, I just have this shitty executive dysfunction that keeps me down, so I mainly just imagine a lot of things in my head.

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 No.15746

>>15470

I wanna see some of them

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 No.15750

Reading

drawing

painting

diary writing like a mf

>>15400

art in general is hard as shit but you should keep trying, it feels good to improve, however slowly

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 No.15751

>meditation

>/fit/

>drawing

>electric guitar

>gardening

>cooking

>making memes

Shit I do, but want to do less of:

>imageboards

>wasting time on Youtube

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 No.15754

Fapping, vidya, tv etc. is literally all I do

I wish I had no hobbies and had a job because being a hedonistic piece of shit is a major contributor to my extreme self-hatred

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 No.15829

Reading Chuck Palahniuk and watching cunnys mostly. I also write shitty sci-fi stories on GoogleDocs

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 No.13715 [Open thread][Last50 Posts]

Let's get to know each other.

I was diagnosed with severe depression and put into weekly therapy when I was 8 after I started expressing suicidal thoughts. This wasn't prompted by any negative events in my life, and my parents say my behavior didn't ever suddenly start getting worse (aside from telling them I wanted to die instead of just thinking it), which makes me think I was either born depressed or developed depression so early that I might as well have been. I wouldn't be surprised if I was autistic and/or schizoid, too, but I've never been evaluated for those things. Either way, I was NEET for three years after graduating high school, and even though I'm slowly getting my life together now, if someone told me I was going to die tomorrow, I'd think "fuck, what a relief". I don't think I'll ever stop feeling that way.

What about you?

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 No.15725

23 male with major depressive disorder and mostly likely Schizoid.

I first got diagnosed when i was 16 as a depressive and have been taking meds ever since. Currently unable to enjoy life and planning on working min wage after college (been in 6 years because of continually delaying, forced by parents ofcours) trying to find something with minimal interpersonal interaction. Already know that i dont want to work in the degree that i choose to study.

Also currently trying to escape a south american shithole that i was born into, to live a comfy isolationist life in hopefully a first world country.

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 No.15760

>>14557

Faggot family

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 No.15781

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I have something called General Anxiety Disorder. I can end up in full-blown panic attack at times but I got some Zoloft I take daily for it.

I got back in school in April to learn a better trade. I spoke about it briefly a couple of months ago here on how my job was a dead-end job and it was difficult to go back to school.

While I do have better self control in my anxiety, it can still show up in other ways than a panic attack. I can get emotional and want to cry often. I have the shakes especially on days I return to school/work because of the pressure of thinking of starting another week. I can sweat heavily too.

Also, being a student makes me live in scarcity in terms of food and money since I am paid very little by the government while I go to school full-time and any amount I'd make above 50$, the gov will substract it from the funds it sends me twice a month (roughly 550$ each). It's hard, man.

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 No.15782

>>15781

Fuck, I meant to say I got back to school in February, not April. Not that it changes much of anything.

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 No.15784

I've been diagnosed with anxiety and shit, I guess I'm just here to see how others are. I don't even want to go to the doctors again, I'm scared i'll probably get locked up

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 No.14875 [Open thread]

About a year ago I went to a psychiatrist because of horrible academic performance (almost got kicked out of college because of too many failed courses). Got diagnosed with ADHD and got meds for it. It's been a year after and even if I doing better at school, there's things that I still struggle with.

In my 4 years of college I haven't been able to make a single friend. I almost can't look at someone in the eyes with talking with them. This happens even with family and close relatives. I avoid any social interaction because of how awkward and uncomfortable I feel. The ones who know me have always said I'm very intelligent, even though I've never really felt like it.

wtf is wrong with me? Is it just social anxiety or something else? Sometimes I think I may have aspergers but I really don't know.

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 No.14917

>>14916

If you do, it may be something done by your government, you should investigate.

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 No.15018

I wanna fuck link

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 No.15020

>>14915

It would not be profitable if it did. mainline psychiatric education is heavily subsidized by the pharmaceutical industry, the drugs they sell do not treat the underlying causes of disorder but artificially manage the symptoms, making people dependent upon them. ADHD can be a number of things really, sometimes you get diagnosed with it just because your mind has a different way of learning things that the public schools don't know how to accommodate.

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 No.15021

>>15020

what do you propose to deal with this problem? get rid of mandatory licenses for being a psychiatrist?

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 No.15756

Avoiding eye contact and impaired ability to socialise can be indicative symptoms of autism/aspergers, you may have a mild form of one of these thats not prevalent enough for others or yourself to identify as an actual impairment.

If I were you I would get an examination by a specialist.

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 No.15639 [Open thread]

I usually take Kratom to numb it, but when I don't, it usually feels a deep repulsive rancorous anger towards people who are obnoxious. It's like a burning fucking magma and I just want to kill people I deem a cancer to society, I.E cuckchanners who invade this site and the people who enable them to stay. Even the people who think they're individuals, like those /tumor/ cuckchan faggots, are ironically following a trend and the fact that they can't see that grates me.

I feel like I no longer have a place of belonging and it's getting harder and harder to function each day. It's such a desolate feeling.

I don't know if this is only a Schizotypal trait, but it's getting unbearable.

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 No.15640

>>15639

libertarian

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 No.15646

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It's pretty normal to get peeved at obnoxious lemmings m8. I usually just channel that contempt into a condescending remark of some sort that lets them know how how lowly they are in my appraisal of them. Though I only do this if they have first shown that they truly posses no desire for true individuation. Should your remarks be delivered with brevity then the unenlightened lemming will not be able to produce an appropriate response further depreciating themselves even in the eyes of their peers or perhaps even resort to fisticuffs, allowing you to indulge your violent desires without fear of reprisal from the nanny state. Convert the source of your rage into a source of amusement, there is no need for a wolf to be so vexed by such lowly domesticated rodents. Their Odious comments are but a defensive screen intended to cover for their sensitive egos. Reach into yourself and access the archetypal image of the noble court jester who's words cut deeply into the psyche of such people due to their cunning and truth. You may also want to take up some kind of martial art or simply buy a punching bag to work out your aggression.

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 No.15647

>>15646

This is so fucking cringy that you surely must be meming

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 No.15650

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>>15647

Dapper memes are the best memes.

Leagues better than the average shitpost.

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 No.15745

>>15647

>defending normalfags

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 No.15715 [Open thread]

What's something that gets you through the day? I have bad ADHD in the morning, so 350mg of wellbutrin XL with a scoop of wild green kratom helps me.

I don't take Coffee because it gives me horrible shits and anxiety.

What helps you?

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 No.15744

Genuine question, how does cocaine compared to adderall and how does it compare to caffeine?

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 No.15041 [Open thread]

What keeps you guys awake at night filled with a pit in your stomach and regrets in your brain, anons? Do you generally make regretful mistakes often in your day to day or did you majorly fuck up in a few split second decisions that made you this way?

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 No.15656

>>15161

>social anxiety and generalized anxiety

Are these really different things?

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 No.15657

>>15656

yes, apparently

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 No.15683

>>15041

My entire life is regrettable.

My father hates me, is disappointed in me, or both. I've been unable to do anything productive in my life, I've never even had a job and I'm 18 for fuck sake. I don't know how to do anything meaningful in life, and I just waste every day away doing the same shit over and over and over. I hate myself and I wish I would just die already, but I'm anchored to this Earth by the love I have for my family and the responsibility of being a surrogate father for my little brother.

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 No.15704

>>15041

Tried no fap, got incredibly horny and somehow fucked a total degenerate I used to go to school with who lives in the hood. I'm filled with the greatest sense of regret and disgust.

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 No.15738

I often self sabotage but not by own will but rather my inability to interpret people's intentions. Like today, I was supposed to attend my aunt's funeral but assumed by the language my mother used she was gonna pick me up but then she talks to me a second time and it's clear I need a ride. I'm sure my family hates me but at this point it's like "Why bother?"

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 No.15670 [Open thread]

has any schizotypal ever achieved something significant?

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 No.15719

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Actually, yes!! John. R Dilworth (Courage the Cowardly dog creator) is a Schizotypal!

He has a small following and you can reach out him easily, I did and he confirmed he was Schizo! It gave me a lot of closure.

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 No.15720

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>>15670

well he sure upset the hell out of the children's table!

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 No.15722

Is it true that Walt Disney had ADHD?

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 No.15724

>>15722

I mean, he couldn't draw very well (or at all) so probably. He was best as a director.

https://uk.answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20080824040743AAzCRIJ

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 No.15737

>>15678

Nice DPRK

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 No.15312 [Open thread]

I'm considering getting medication for my depression, the problem is that I'm afraid it'll turn me into a numb zombie.

What's your experience with medication? Do you recommend it or not?

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 No.15642

>>15328

By that logic it's better to take the bullet

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 No.15705

>>15312

Personally, pills are too frequently pushed. Especially ADHD pills. Doctors and the medicine industry make an absolute fortune off this. I have been in a deep depression for 4 years and I have yet to cave into the pill meme. If you are on pills for things such as Schizophrenia or Autism, fine. Pills are the easy way out and a sign of a weak personality.

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 No.15706

>>15705

>anon said, shortly before the rope

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 No.15733

File: 32ee27cdb536445⋯.png (139.89 KB,1127x329,161:47,4042C1C0-AFEA-4E97-BE84-41….png)

OP again. They upped me to 20mg. Hopefully this doesn't become a problem.

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 No.15734

>>15733

Are you feeling better on the higher dose?

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 No.15620 [Open thread]

since i was a child i never finished a draw or something like that due to a lack of will

But now it's worst, im confused i want to do nothing but im doing studies to become a doctor or pharmacist, not because i like that ( i like nothing ) because i said that i want money but in fact even when i think about the money i can get with these professions i still dont care about it, i do not care about money, my futur or everything else, i want nothing, i like nothing no jobs come to my mind, i want truely nothing, im bad at school, im curently in a medicale school and if i do not just skip class i just do nothing in there, i come from a low social class and i live in a ghetto, im french, nothing here give me hope, i don't even have a family, i live with my mom and i have just 1 friend ( a woman ) but she rarely respond to me. I feeling alone, im not depressed i can laugh or whatever else, i just feel alone, and disturbed in my soul

It's like i tried everything possible on this planet, even good food attract me less day by day, i want nothing, i tried every kind of porn, i traveled to different places and i know pretty everything of this world from the evolutions of languages, to the evolution of life, astronomy physics and chimy, politics, human history, aeronautics, nuclear power, even small facts that no one cares, i still know them, i can draw a map of the earth with all of its biomes without a model, i know everything, every climates of every places, every mountain zones, i know every deserts, i know fucking every places of this world since i am 2 hours everyday on google maps just to pass time, boys and girls, what am i going to learn, to do next ? I am learning languages because i have nothing to do, i know lots of alphabets, lots of words of every languages my hobby is to compare every language i can, i know every pokemon openings in : Russian, Arabic, French, German, Dutch, Norwegian, Danish, Swedish, Finland, Spanish… same for other animes, it's boring now, there is no languages that makes me feel good, the last language that make me feel good was Dutch because of it's harsh sonority ( i love harsh sonority that's why i like arabic german and dutch )

What am i going to do ?

Wat ga ik doen ?

Was soll ich tun ?Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

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 No.15638

>>15623

nigger

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 No.15645

>>15638

Double nigger

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 No.15665

>>15620

You are the textbook definition of undiagnosed Adult ADHD. Not a near definition, but you are the textbook definition. It's ADHD beyond any reasonable doubt.

Get your prescriptions brother.

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 No.15671

>>15667

>>15668

>>15669

I diagnose you with autism

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 No.15732

>>15665

Man im not hyperactive, im really a lot patient, and i have a good memory but only if i like what i memorize

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 No.15663 [Open thread]

I tried to kill myself on Monday and I'm going to try again soon.

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 No.15677

File: 87d55aa3d00d1ca⋯.jpg (44.13 KB,640x647,640:647,hzJAtDM_d.jpg)

Could you at least give some context into your an-heroing? Why are you doing it? How are you absolute in your choices?

Do you have a manifesto?

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 No.15679

You'll never actually go through with it.

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 No.15728

PROTIP: Don't.

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 No.15730

fag!

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 No.15731

Can we get a livestream link?

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 No.14355 [Open thread]

That's right! I'm looking for banners and banner ideas, some of the banners here feel like they're too closer to neurotypicals standards (Katy Perry being an example. I want to change that!)

As usual, it has to be 300x100 and below 1mb.

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 No.14472

>some of my banners got used

Feelsniceman. Now every once in a while I refresh threads over and over until I get a banner I made so I can pretend that highschool digital design class was worth an art credit.

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 No.14708

Need 20 more banners! Step right up, folks!

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 No.15356

Still lookin!

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 No.15384

>>14355

Based Pol Pot

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 No.15714

Go on…

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 No.13868 [Open thread]

Death anxiety, suicide and self destructive thinking thread. I didn't see it in the catalog; so I figured I'd make a thread for once.

Does anyone else experience a bizarre dichotomy between death anxiety and suicidal ideation? I find myself torn between these two extremes of thought; perhaps having to do with my own manic-depressive /mental/ state. One night I'll be wide awake in bed, imagining the best and quickest ways to kill myself. Going over which ones would be the most efficient, leave the least mess and so forth… Conversely, other days I will be straight up terrified by the prospect of some accident or disease causing premature death. I'll worry I'm never going to get a real life, and I'll be dead before I even have the chance to grow old. I'm honestly not sure which gives me more anxiety; termination of my existence prematurely, and outside of my control, before having the chance to make change and get a life… or living on, hopeless, helpless, and just continuing to watch the years melt away as other people get jobs, families, and really LIVE.

Has anyone else had similar thoughts to this, similar experience? Semi-related, also used to self harm very badly. Required stitches on more than one occasion; nearly died from one laceration with narrowly missed an artery; required two rows of nine stitches and I lost over a pint of blood.

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 No.14728

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There's no comfort in death. You're only allowed to believe that there's nothing because nobody who's been stone cold dead will ever be able to talk about what's beyond. Things could even be worse after you die.

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 No.14750

>>14728

/x/->

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 No.14756

>>14750

First off, link boards like you've spent even a fucking week here.

>>>/x/

Like this.

Second, nobody knows shit about what happens to you after you die. You're retarded if you find any solace in something so unknown like that.

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 No.14761

>>14756

answer is very simple

you get eatten by worms

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 No.15713

DID SOMEONE SAY DEATH ANXIETY!?

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