/mental/ - Mental Health, Illnesses and Disorders

My ex just posted the video of me trying to overdose the I sent him like on multiple platforms like on YouTube and also like another thing that I forget the name of. I don't know why I sent him that. I think I was just really angry and I wasn't really thinking straight but I really feel bad about it. It shows the whole process and my face is in it and everything. He knows all my information. I am screwed. He knows my address like I'm basically done with living. He says he's going to tell shit to my college about me but yeah. I don't know what I sent him that video I think I've been in a mental episode like the past week because like I've only known him for a week and I thought I loved him really fast and I don't think I actually did I think I was just having a mental episode this whole time including the shit I've been saying and the fact that I recorded myself doing that and sent it to him I don't even know why I did that and that's really horrible and I feel bad but I think I kind of deserve being posted on the internet for that because I shouldn't have said that to him I should have just done it and never told him. I should have stopped chasing after him after he told me he didn't want to be with me anymore. I should have stopped begging for his love. I should have just left. I think I'm going to end up alone because of this but I think I deserve it. I think I'm just going to end up dead or in a mental hospital by the end of 2026. I don't know why I've always been so impulsive and do shit and say shit I don't really enjoy doing or only enjoy for a short period of time. Maybe they were right. Maybe I did deserve to like actually die and I should have done it right. I don't know what to do right now because that was posted publicly and I feel really horrible for making him angry and uncomfortable to the point that he would do this. I should have not disrespected his boundaries. I should have not begged for his love. And I especially should not have sent that video and it's going to affect my life now but yeah and maybe I deserve that, I think I do. It's selfish of me to want to be happy right now. Maybe I can like change my name legally and change my hair and lose weight and get piercings and just try to be different but this guilt will always be with me. I just picked a random non-related file for this because I don't even know what I can do right now I don't even know what I can do and I just feel so fucking bad right now for Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

I met this guy online by coincidence, he started off talking to me to troll me but we ended up in a gay relationship and for some reason I still loved him when he randomly sent me gore and called me a retard all the time. I loved him so much I forgave him every time. But I was too clingy, I spam messaged him all the time and I couldn't handle an hour alone. He said he wanted to marry me and have kids with me one day so I thought he was being honest and I got super into the idea. He told me was into stabbing and cutting people sexually and I loved him so much I told him I was willing to let him stab me and I absolutely meant it because I loved him so much. He tried to kill himself recently and I spammed him begging him not to. I love him so much. He left me today because I sent a 3,777 character message about how much I loved him, wanted to marry him, would let him stab me, wanted to do anything for him, etc and he freaked out about it. I thought he'd like it. I cut myself a few days ago cuz I made him sad and I felt bad about it. I've sent him money for his medicine and I don't regret it no matter how many slurs he calls me and no matter if he never loves me back. I loved him so deeply. I never wanted to hurt him or make him uncomfortable. I just wanted him to be all mine and now he's all gone an I don't know what to do. I have his name written on my bedroom wall but I'll paint over it. I tried to overdose like last night with old pills from surgery but it sadly didn't work and he cared enough to tell me to vomit it up and I lied and said I did but I didn't but I ended up still alive this morning somehow. I miss him so fucking much. I wish he loved me back the way I loved him. I literally chased after him so fucking much and spent so many messages and emails chasing after him and whole new social media accounts to message him and a whole new email and fuck I even used my college email for a school I applied to and got a college email account with and I'm probably not gonna go to that college now cuz if they see that shit I'm screwed. I am so sad. I wanna fucking die.

Ever since I was very young I had intense crushes and they got even more intense as I grew older. I am a young adult now. I won't say my exact age for privacy reasons. But between 18-21. I find myself very excited by the idea of being stalked and obsessed over as well as me doing the same towards someone else. Specifically in mostly romantic and sexual driven contexts. I have no idea how to be normal and I don't know what's wrong with me. Advice needed.

The Center for Disease Control, studies viruses, bacteria, and psychiatric socio-syndromes.

Per the purpose of technology and technique.

When the word came through the pipe that an NSA, David Michael Charlebois, had been portrayed by Tobey MacGuire, as "Spider-Man", in three films directed by Sam Raimi, an immediate tactical hit notice went up through NSA quarters.

Spider-Man was declared a pedophile, by the comics world.

That's how we get "Bones", Leonard McCoy; the economist cop, an NSA already.

And as for the world of hacking, it got even deeper.

Hitmen, obese women, and actresses.

I contend that Spider-Man is a pedophile.

Because the Scarlet Spider is a rapist.

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Mates, I have to fake an audio gram test(it determines your hearing impairment). Mates, can you give ideas to fake it or suggestions on drugs which can affect hearing for short time(their effects should wear off in few minutes or hours),I want the test results to be mild. Mates usage of drugs(how to administer them in which quantity) will be needed.

Fresh OC from this morning, my expectations meeting my family physician later on today.

It took me several times to post here. Not out of shame but rather out of desperation. I am discouraged with life and i want to give up entirely. I either wait until I die or I will kill myself. It's just a matter of what comes first at this point.

It's been almost 3 months now that I have been on a fucking waiting list to see a therapist at my local health clinic. I jumped through the all the hoops necessary and attended the mandatory meeting to be on another fucking waiting list with just meds on the side that I got from my family physician which in itself takes YEARS to wait to obtain one. Otherwise, say I have a panic attack due to my General Anxiety Disorder and I miss work, sometimes I can't even get a paper at the urgency of my local hospital motivating my absence from work.

So for the past 3 months, I have been trying to get my life back on track. Trying to go back to school to learn a new trade because when I was homeless at 19 because I just went into customer service since I was still going to college at that time I never managed to get a diploma that would be giving me another more enjoyable for me and would pay more than near minimum wage all the fucking time. Even going back to school is laborious because I had to run after so many fucking retards to obtain the papers I needed to just enroll for the exams that despite being a school on weekdays during business hours would not return my call until 2 days later to tell me how can I get the necessary documents to go to the next step of enrollment.

And then, there's work. Due to my adherence problems with my anxiety issues, I was demoted to a lesser important position at work to minimize the impacts when I miss. This is already depressing in itself but now, at least 3 times this month alone, they changed my schedule 3 times without barely leaving me time to adjust. Now I went from 1 to 9pm to 10am to 6:30pm to 11PM to 7:30AM in the last 3 weeks. In the last few weeks, my family physician gave me a leave of absence for two so that I can adjust to the medication (Zoloft) and I took every day I had to knock on more doors and more ressources for hePost too long. Click here to view the full text.

Who /trichster/ here?

>Trichotillomania (pronounced: trik-oh-till-oh-MAY-nee-uh) is a condition that gives some people strong urges to pull out their own hair. It can affect people of any age. People with trichotillomania pull hair out at the root from places like the scalp, eyebrows, eyelashes, or pubic area.

Nowhere near as bad as the guy in the pic but scared i'll get there eventually

Had a fidget spinner (gay I know) that actually worked but it broke

How do you deal with it?

So i just started a new job and I'm fresh outta school. I made a few mistakes, but not really. It's not fuck ups it's more like needing to pay attention to small details, and focusing on meticulous shit. Boss gives me criticism, but also tells me not to worry too much and I'll adjust one step at a time. I feel like I'm getting better each day although i still have this sense of impending doom that one day she's just gonna fire me because how I am. I work hard obviously it's just little things that i treat as a huge deal which makes my whole mental and physical go full on panic mode. Any tips? I wanna ask her if I'm actually doing a good job, but I don't wanna sound like a cuck either

I am a victim of domestic violence. My parents beat me since I was a child, and they often fought. When I grew up, I abused animals. I couldn't restrain my desire for violence and killing. I don't know why I was prone to violence. It's like my father. I once wanted to be a school shooting murderer, but I failed. Now I often hurt myself. In my hands, I need someone to tell me what I should do.

Hi 8kun! I'm honestly writing here for the first time, but I hope to find understanding.

I'm 15, I've had homicidal tendencies for almost my whole life and I stopped torturing animals a year ago when I killed a cat. I'm really scared, I want to be human, I want to be loved, I want to feel safe, I don't want to be an outcast. My mother used synthetic drugs and she degraded, I live poor and basically everyone ridicules me for not having money for brand-name clothes (although I have difficulties with ordinary clothes).

I liked to torture flies when I was 7 years old, but then it got worse, I killed a mouse and then beat a cat until I killed it. I cried, I felt that I was wrong in my life, but still I don't want to be an outcast.

How can I redeem myself?

i am exhausted….:/:../. i can no longer cut …. dulll blades…

weed

What is wrong with me??

I am fucked up mentally. Ever since my birth I've been the most fearful guy in the room .I flinch easily, even things others don't even think about scare me. I've got terrible anxiety,and cannot connect well with anyone, I have an inferiority complex and cannot see others succeed , internally I hate everyone and wish their failure .I am clumsy af and have no mind body coordination, slow as fuck.I cannot even bond with my family well ,I stay away from them but don't even feel like calling them I do so only dutifully just for the sake of it , but still I get intense negative thoughts of losing them especially at night . I am a nerd and kinda have a very very good long term memory , which in turn also makes me remember negative stuff from years ago. I am in college but get anxious in the classroom . I have had this low gaze since childhood, I am always thinking about something and how hard I try my eyelids are always low , cannot make eye contact with people , and feel awkward in every sentence I speak. I am afraid of women and haven't had any female friends or even had an in person conversation with them for effectively my entire life. I don't even have any preferences, I will do whatever others say to me , I have no say in things , no decisions to make . Everything is fine to me , don't even form political opinions, I've too much info on both sides , that I just state facts but have no opinion. I am an atheist and have no purpose in life . This may sound like a rant but I am rotting away…idk if anyone would even read this