/mental/ - Mental Health, Illnesses and Disorders

I've been meaning to talk about this, but I'm not really sure where to begin. Does anyone else feel like memebase.cheezburger.com has really gone down hill over the years? I mean, let's be real; we all started somewhere. Whether it be sitting with your friends during class reading the most funny rage comics on the demotivational page (I loved those!) or racing home to laugh with the internet at le random antics of strangers that have been posted online, we all enjoyed the youthful years of guffawing until we cried at "I CAN HAZ CHEEZBURGER?????". I'm so sick of memebase now. It's been fucking overrun by idiots who don't understand classic meme culture. They probably were the ones who made fun of us when we would talk about the funny meme jokes we saw on our computers in class to my friends. I mean really.. attached is a picture that I don't find funny AT ALL! I mean even in the first picture he's… what? Drooling? Is it sweat? Is he crying? I know I am (crying).. but not because of my German test. Because this meme SUCKS! I wish we could all band together to post really good memes like we did way back in 2010 when I was 9! Those were the days! I miss back when we were all bros and could laugh at my gusta memes. I just.. c'mon guys. We need to reclaim memebase! Anonymous can strike again! Does anyone else feel this way?! I can't be the only one. I feel like my youth has already slipped past my fingers and soon we'll just be living in an age of unappreciative "normie" memes. Now a days, ANY one can say they're a "Meme Master" but NONE of them actually knows the blood sweat and tears that I–no, that WE put into making this memetic movement what it is.

Nietczhe was right, nothing is forever and there's no point to most things… I just feel so depressed thinking back to being so happy to laugh at some cute cats that just wanted they're fast food. I know you guys will understand me and how we all feel. If you want to regain the memevolution with me just post good memes with me on memebase–I'll be watching and waiting, my anonymous family.

-Signed, a guy who just wants his emmes back.

Hey guys.

I have a problem and i dont know what it is and how to deal with it.

It all started about 2 months ago, i was going about my life as usual, my life was kinda shit but nothing i couldnt deal with, then suddenly one day, i just go ape shit , get a random ass psychosis and nearly kill myself.

I dont know what the fuck happened, but since then, i live in constant fear.

I was fine before, what the fuck is happening to me?

AM I MENTAL?

at work, at home, and with 'friends', im known as the crazy guy

<doesnt bother, i get a kick out of it but i;

>have ptsd from Iraq and Afghanistan

>pick scabs to the point of scars

>clinch my teeth during the day, grind at night

>pray for death by meteor striking the earth, but im not suicidal

>have feverish lucid dreams that bleed into my day and affect my mood

i currently take effexor, helps control my unprovoked rage

im not looking for help, just want to post vids and images honestly

imageboards, i believe, are a view into a persons mind

post stuff that makes you happy

i recently got diagnosed with dysthmia/depression and ocd, and am currently taking 50mg of sertraline

have suspected myself of being /mental/ for as long as i can remember and im not expecting to live for very long

i can personally say i've noticed possible pre psychositic symptoms and have the genetic fuckups and background to possibly end up schizo but saying i am would be extremely stupid. ive been telling myself im tired of being rude, dickish, cynical, angry, and bitter all the time but im too apathetic to actually do shit about it. hell, my apathy has been straining the single remaining close friend i have and im certain im close to fucking it up, but its not like im new to isolation. im trying to at least be a better person but hell, sometimes it feels like im just innately an asshole

inb4 aspie: got tested and ruled out autismo.

Nao theru isu herupu to sutopu beingu a hiki. Join a zoku.

http://www.japantimes.co.jp/community/2017/05/21/our-lives/trouble-wrapping-head-around-japan-help-mental-health-hand/#.WSooqZ9lBnF

How do you get when you get a trigger? Not talking about specifically PTSD either, but autism, BDP, etc.

I have ADHD, so when I get RSD, I get sharp electricity in the left side of my brain, my heart racing and my vision gets blurry, I tense up and it gets hard to breathe and I start to get shaky and it's followed by me wanting to cry while feeling boiling hot anger inside me, it's actually similar to my fear triggers but without the panic and desperation. I internalize everything, so I don't actually sperg the fuck out in public or anything, I'm going on SSI when I get my naturalists certification though.

My depression started mid August but the whole of it starts before my depression started. Since near to the end of year 8 I had a crush on this one girl in my year, we share the same exact birthdate. Fast forward to the last week of year 9 and the girl came up to me Infront of her friends and said "Hey (my name), we're going to be in the same class together". I was surprised because no other girl in my year came up to talk to me (especially Infront of her friends), I said "Hi" and we talked for a bit. Fast forward again to Year 10 and I was so nervous to go to my I.T because she was going to be there but that's all I cared about at the time, when all of my class for down and sit in the seats that we wanted to sit in, it turned out that the girl and her best friend were sitting behind my friend and I. For about 20 minutes of the lesson my friend and I talked to them. Throughout the school year I talked to her in I.T and it made me feel like everything was ok, she was the love of my life and I didn't want to lose her. At the end of Year 10 I saw her walking out of school and on the way out I stopped to talked to her and she seemed really nice so we exchanged eachother's Instagram names. Throughout the Summer her and I messaged a lot. On the 18th of August her and I were messaging, I was messaging some online friends at the time and they were cheering me on saying stuff like "Go on, ask her out". A few days before that I had told her a funny story about one of my friends and she asked me to tell my story first (she never to this day has told me a funny story about one of her friends). So I asked her if there was anyone that she loved and who it was. I saw the person's name and my heart sank, I felt like crying but it was my sister's 18th birthday party and all of my family members were there. I just sat and read that message over and over for multiple minutes. She asked me "Hello?, Are you there?", So I told her "Yes" and then I told her that I loved her..

Let's talk about tripfags. Not specific tripfags, because that's what they want. Let's talk about why people use tripcodes outside of their own threads. How do their minds work? What makes one desire a name on an anonymous image board? Autism? The anger it creates? Attention? All of those?

Yo can anyone here tell me what it's like to have self-defeating personality disorder. cause i kinda feel like i have it. cause i feel like every time i am doing good, i find the worse desicion to possible make and fuck everything up.

I get nightmares when I sleep late, does this happen to anyone else? I think I may have abandonment issues.

Fucking gay cock in my ass, how the gay shitting fuck do I fucking deal with my gay bullshit Tourette's? Assballs.

THE SECOND PART OF MY DEPRESSION (SO FAR)After my sister's party I went home and I cried for about 20 minutes listening to Lil Peep thinking about the girl that I told I loved her and that she doesn't love me. My heart ached for 2 weeks straight and I cried myself to sleep for 3 weeks straight, I started to think about the rope and that there was nothing else to live for because she was the only person that I really cared for. At the start of year 11 I tried to hide my emotions from her and tried to show her that I wasn't depressed. Since December 2018 I've started to try and not think about her and that I keep telling myself "Oh, here we go again" everytime that I think about her but it just isn't enough and I feel a growing hatred towards her even to this day. In January, 2 people in my year spread a rumour saying that I wanted to become a school shooter because I want to work for the Law Enforcement, which doesn't make any sense in my eyes because I've never committed a crime before and I'd never become a school shooter. The girl that I opened up to messaged me on Instagram first (starting a conversation), in the past she had only messaged me once but that was because she needed something and wanted something from me. I thought that it was strange but I went on with it and she ONLY messaged me to indirectly call me a school shooter, she messaged me "have you heard about the school shooting rumours?", she literally went from "Hey" to that. My heart sank and out of all the people to believe the rumour I thought that it wouldn't be her but I guess that I was wrong. I said "Yes, I've heard about he rumours and I don't want to become a school shooter". She said "Oh, that's good to hear", I said "I just thought that maybe you would've wanted a nice conversation for a change". She sent messaged but I ignored them because I was so upset with what she had asked me. I kept deleting and reinstalling Instagram because I wasn't sure what to do over the next few weeks but a few days later the 2 Police officers came to my house and asked me "Do you have a gun, Do you want to kill people and do you want to kill yourself?" I said that I don't have a gun, I don't want to kill people but I do want to kill myself. About 3 weeks later I unblocked the girl on Instagram and found out that she was dating a guy and I cried myself to sleep again. I just really don't know what to do with myself. So I tried harder to forget about her but in one of my sciePost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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Hey, /mental/. I'm kind of scared shitless. For the past week, I haven't been the same. I'm a a happy guy, but now I've been reduced to a numb brain and a funny feeling in my legs. Please read through the whole thing. I want to be happy again.

Just to be clear, I have been afraid of irrational things before, like the 2012 Apocalypse, Global Warming, Slender Man, Herobrine (don't laugh), creepypastas, the Sun dying in a gorillion years, etc., but I haven't experienced anything like this.

Thing is, last Thursday I went shopping with my mom. I was already stressed out with something or other, it just didn't bother me. But then, I just lost my shit, told her she started it and that she was being ridiculous. She didn't want to go on with it, but I kept pushing her, even after we went home.

After letting go of the whole debacle, I saw a specific scene from Food of the Gods II, which scared me more than it should have. I tried to take my mind off it, watching movies and the like, but it just wouldn't go away. So, I tried and get some sleep and hope it would go away. Next thing I knew, I had a nightmare. Woke up sweating bullets and wouldn't go back to sleep. I woke up my mom, told her I didn't want to be like this, that I wanted to go to bed, etc. Two more nightmares ensued the day after. Then, my brain decided to filter out my emotions and all I can feel are my legs when I get nervous, anxious, afraid, etc. Since yesterday, I lost some of my appetite (can only stomach half of what I usually eat) and started throwing up because my stomach was too full. I don't know how this relates to the other things, just wanted to lay everything down to better solve this shit.

Yesterday, I went to a psychiatrist, will go again on Friday, and am also taking homeopathy meds (don't help much, but I don't want to risk getting fucked up by regular meds). I'm not 100% sure, but I think all of this is due to lack of sleep and from these fucking nightmares. I managed to sleep today, even if it was for a short time, which alleviated some of these things I've been going through, but I want an endgame to all this. I've read that nightmare disorders can lead to dissociative disorders and sleep deprivation can make the brainPost too long. Click here to view the full text.