/mental/ - Mental Health, Illnesses and Disorders

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How do you get when you get a trigger? Not talking about specifically PTSD either, but autism, BDP, etc.

I have ADHD, so when I get RSD, I get sharp electricity in the left side of my brain, my heart racing and my vision gets blurry, I tense up and it gets hard to breathe and I start to get shaky and it's followed by me wanting to cry while feeling boiling hot anger inside me, it's actually similar to my fear triggers but without the panic and desperation. I internalize everything, so I don't actually sperg the fuck out in public or anything, I'm going on SSI when I get my naturalists certification though.

My depression started mid August but the whole of it starts before my depression started. Since near to the end of year 8 I had a crush on this one girl in my year, we share the same exact birthdate. Fast forward to the last week of year 9 and the girl came up to me Infront of her friends and said "Hey (my name), we're going to be in the same class together". I was surprised because no other girl in my year came up to talk to me (especially Infront of her friends), I said "Hi" and we talked for a bit. Fast forward again to Year 10 and I was so nervous to go to my I.T because she was going to be there but that's all I cared about at the time, when all of my class for down and sit in the seats that we wanted to sit in, it turned out that the girl and her best friend were sitting behind my friend and I. For about 20 minutes of the lesson my friend and I talked to them. Throughout the school year I talked to her in I.T and it made me feel like everything was ok, she was the love of my life and I didn't want to lose her. At the end of Year 10 I saw her walking out of school and on the way out I stopped to talked to her and she seemed really nice so we exchanged eachother's Instagram names. Throughout the Summer her and I messaged a lot. On the 18th of August her and I were messaging, I was messaging some online friends at the time and they were cheering me on saying stuff like "Go on, ask her out". A few days before that I had told her a funny story about one of my friends and she asked me to tell my story first (she never to this day has told me a funny story about one of her friends). So I asked her if there was anyone that she loved and who it was. I saw the person's name and my heart sank, I felt like crying but it was my sister's 18th birthday party and all of my family members were there. I just sat and read that message over and over for multiple minutes. She asked me "Hello?, Are you there?", So I told her "Yes" and then I told her that I loved her..

Let's talk about tripfags. Not specific tripfags, because that's what they want. Let's talk about why people use tripcodes outside of their own threads. How do their minds work? What makes one desire a name on an anonymous image board? Autism? The anger it creates? Attention? All of those?

Yo can anyone here tell me what it's like to have self-defeating personality disorder. cause i kinda feel like i have it. cause i feel like every time i am doing good, i find the worse desicion to possible make and fuck everything up.

I get nightmares when I sleep late, does this happen to anyone else? I think I may have abandonment issues.

Fucking gay cock in my ass, how the gay shitting fuck do I fucking deal with my gay bullshit Tourette's? Assballs.

THE SECOND PART OF MY DEPRESSION (SO FAR)After my sister's party I went home and I cried for about 20 minutes listening to Lil Peep thinking about the girl that I told I loved her and that she doesn't love me. My heart ached for 2 weeks straight and I cried myself to sleep for 3 weeks straight, I started to think about the rope and that there was nothing else to live for because she was the only person that I really cared for. At the start of year 11 I tried to hide my emotions from her and tried to show her that I wasn't depressed. Since December 2018 I've started to try and not think about her and that I keep telling myself "Oh, here we go again" everytime that I think about her but it just isn't enough and I feel a growing hatred towards her even to this day. In January, 2 people in my year spread a rumour saying that I wanted to become a school shooter because I want to work for the Law Enforcement, which doesn't make any sense in my eyes because I've never committed a crime before and I'd never become a school shooter. The girl that I opened up to messaged me on Instagram first (starting a conversation), in the past she had only messaged me once but that was because she needed something and wanted something from me. I thought that it was strange but I went on with it and she ONLY messaged me to indirectly call me a school shooter, she messaged me "have you heard about the school shooting rumours?", she literally went from "Hey" to that. My heart sank and out of all the people to believe the rumour I thought that it wouldn't be her but I guess that I was wrong. I said "Yes, I've heard about he rumours and I don't want to become a school shooter". She said "Oh, that's good to hear", I said "I just thought that maybe you would've wanted a nice conversation for a change". She sent messaged but I ignored them because I was so upset with what she had asked me. I kept deleting and reinstalling Instagram because I wasn't sure what to do over the next few weeks but a few days later the 2 Police officers came to my house and asked me "Do you have a gun, Do you want to kill people and do you want to kill yourself?" I said that I don't have a gun, I don't want to kill people but I do want to kill myself. About 3 weeks later I unblocked the girl on Instagram and found out that she was dating a guy and I cried myself to sleep again. I just really don't know what to do with myself. So I tried harder to forget about her but in one of my sciePost too long. Click here to view the full text.

If so, what for?

Hey, /mental/. I'm kind of scared shitless. For the past week, I haven't been the same. I'm a a happy guy, but now I've been reduced to a numb brain and a funny feeling in my legs. Please read through the whole thing. I want to be happy again.

Just to be clear, I have been afraid of irrational things before, like the 2012 Apocalypse, Global Warming, Slender Man, Herobrine (don't laugh), creepypastas, the Sun dying in a gorillion years, etc., but I haven't experienced anything like this.

Thing is, last Thursday I went shopping with my mom. I was already stressed out with something or other, it just didn't bother me. But then, I just lost my shit, told her she started it and that she was being ridiculous. She didn't want to go on with it, but I kept pushing her, even after we went home.

After letting go of the whole debacle, I saw a specific scene from Food of the Gods II, which scared me more than it should have. I tried to take my mind off it, watching movies and the like, but it just wouldn't go away. So, I tried and get some sleep and hope it would go away. Next thing I knew, I had a nightmare. Woke up sweating bullets and wouldn't go back to sleep. I woke up my mom, told her I didn't want to be like this, that I wanted to go to bed, etc. Two more nightmares ensued the day after. Then, my brain decided to filter out my emotions and all I can feel are my legs when I get nervous, anxious, afraid, etc. Since yesterday, I lost some of my appetite (can only stomach half of what I usually eat) and started throwing up because my stomach was too full. I don't know how this relates to the other things, just wanted to lay everything down to better solve this shit.

Yesterday, I went to a psychiatrist, will go again on Friday, and am also taking homeopathy meds (don't help much, but I don't want to risk getting fucked up by regular meds). I'm not 100% sure, but I think all of this is due to lack of sleep and from these fucking nightmares. I managed to sleep today, even if it was for a short time, which alleviated some of these things I've been going through, but I want an endgame to all this. I've read that nightmare disorders can lead to dissociative disorders and sleep deprivation can make the brainPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

hi /mental/

i figured this is the best place to post this, i have in recent times been having more trouble with school especially since starting year 11 and year 12 and having to do more assignments/homework tasks & handing them in on time.

ive never really done homework consistently before, when i was in primary school i did barely any of the set tasks but it was fine mostly because they weren't super strict about it and all i would usually do is sit out a few lunches doing work

when i started high school we got less homework but had one big test or project to do every term, which was a lot better because there was no weekly grind and i could usually finish the projects during class. as for tests i have always been very good at tests so having a test was always nice.

occasionally i would have a teacher where they expect me to show them every piece of work that you were supposed to do in class which i never had. i remember quite a few times when i spent hours kept back after school to finish work, and also many times when i would be sitting at home doing homework tasks for the teachers who threatened to fail me, and it felt almost physically painful to complete them, like an ache in my bones and in my chest.

anyway, i got by and things were going reasonably well until last year where the 'important' part of high school started, there was a lot more work given and i feel like i started disconnecting more and more from school. as always, i didnt do my homework and my grades have started dropping in every subject except chemistry (which i really like), i know that i could be getting very high marks in my classes but i have no motivation to do the work and even if i do, depending on the task, it takes me such a significant amount of time that i feel i would be spending anywhere between 3-4 hours daily to finish all the assigned work.

sometimes i think im just a perfectionist but then i look at what i produce and its shit.

this year, theres a new system for who they decide gets to pass, and the criteria is that you have to complete a set of 'hurdle' tasks to pass the class, and the test/assignment only counts to measure the grade you gePost too long. Click here to view the full text.

Just post your favorite type of art in general. What do you like, anon? What's something that's enjoyable to see, makes you feel good/bad or musters a complex indescribably intense emotion?

I have attraction towards younger boys who are in their teenage years. and sometimes it goes as low a 11 years old. What's strange with it is that i don't seek to be powerful towards them, it's the total opposite i which i'll be dominated by them and i always have this desire to submit myself because it's this that arouse me sexualy. i'd like being threat by a boy or sometimes raped softly but i'm not a fan of physical pain and all this shit, i just want to be treated like a girl by a boy and i'll get with sex games with him but he'll treat me good in the relationship. Sex is one thing that i love but i don't place it in top of my interested. I'm more of a love person and most of my fantasies turn are about a relationship with a young boy and i'll be his girlfriend. It's particularly hard to deal with this because i don't know where could i found boy who interested me as i had rejected all the guy that text me in grindr because they weren't my type and they were kind of too old for my criteria

I'm a 18 yo boy btw