Hi 8kun! I'm honestly writing here for the first time, but I hope to find understanding.
I'm 15, I've had homicidal tendencies for almost my whole life and I stopped torturing animals a year ago when I killed a cat. I'm really scared, I want to be human, I want to be loved, I want to feel safe, I don't want to be an outcast. My mother used synthetic drugs and she degraded, I live poor and basically everyone ridicules me for not having money for brand-name clothes (although I have difficulties with ordinary clothes).
I liked to torture flies when I was 7 years old, but then it got worse, I killed a mouse and then beat a cat until I killed it. I cried, I felt that I was wrong in my life, but still I don't want to be an outcast.
How can I redeem myself?