/sunflower/ - Sunflower

>>4215

>He's now sitting on someone's shelf as a peculiar collectible.

tbh he's not on a shelf, he's in a box of random shit I don't care enough about to do anything with.

Heh, no psychedelics, and I'm not a ceremonial magician.

I did have two big energy works done, one called a 172 DNA Activation, the other called Neeandial flow lines.

And for almost 10 years I've also been a spirit-keeper. That is, I am consensually bonded to a variety of different entities for friendship and mutual benefits.

[For folks unfamiliar, this means entities like dragons, elves, and specialists from a variety of Immortal's domains, such as the realm of Death, who wanted to try something different.]

Many of my astral friends help with maintaining the energy bodies.

Glad you liked the show!

anyone know anything about new soul? how to check if one or prove?

might be new soul, not sure, not important right now, but mind refuses to put it down road. for reference, my progress, am able to somewhat interact with higher self, can lead me to places through environment or metaphysical pull on legs. never have gotten knowledge from higher self. can think without thoughts, writing this with completely clear mind. can divine for myself easily when needed, notice relevant angel numbers. started doing kundalini, did one hour session, not much aftereffects, but still there, either kundalini playing nice or bad at using kundalini. someone said might be new soul after talking about fake or real yuuka tulpa that follows me around. "yuuka" showed up one day, and couldn't make her go away or ignore without asking. she acts like spirit guide, but never says anything new. sometimes acts in ways wouldn't expect. they seem nobleish, and try using fancy words, and sometimes succeed, but usually they can't. for example, one time they tried using a fancy word for doing number one, but it came out as "piss bladder". sometimes they complain about my lack of knowledge or charisma, but that might be me bleeding personality, since they sometimes say I accidently make them do something. sometimes accidently attack, not sure, hard to control mind's eye sometimes, they don't mind/forgive. when I ask "yuuka" things, usually "I don't know since you don't know." not sure if weird big tulpa because weird. also higher self leads me to flowers often when "yuuka" talks more often. they are very passive and calm, unless I turn chaotic and infect them. didn't read much on yuuka, so possible tulpa doesn't escalate, but yuuka seems to be pure feminity, aswell as not sexual? not sure. am not like that, think, so think would yuuka be?

might just have big crown block or something, because not sure. being new soul sounds inconvenient, aswell as thinking new soul would be mobbed by many entities because new. new soul also conflicts with world view. how can new soul exist? things have to become better to become other things, like ascension stuffs. how can nothing suddenly be human, maybe was animal? honestly bad at feeling emotion, also turn excessive lust into horses in headspacr after starting kundalini. not important to me now, but thought keeps popping up and causing distractions. not distressing, but can cause thought spiral, and spiral makes distress

>>4351

sorry double post, but unable to edit post

not sure if helps, no knowledge from higher self, but aometimes get visions during meditations. all are mundane. all. nothing fantastical. all are mundane. stuff like following mother down street dodging carts, following women into a room, sequence of numbers, swinging pocket watch thing but with no watch. two women beckoning me from an alley. haven't seen/remember into them much, because bad at meditation. during visions, always lose awareness, but gain awareness and break away before anything actually happens. almost always see as distraction vs what meditating on, or maybe from surprise/panick. sometimes vision breaks once become aware, like one time ask entity in vision question and they freeze, unable to do anything. tried visualizing gazebo, yuuka appears, one time told me not ready. other time gave "yuuka" to yuuka, and then she gave it back to me. she said something, don't remember. maybe just crown block, unable to get information from higher self?

one time get fantastical dream, but felt like videogame, and literally was in context of dream. weird, alien asked me about it (videogame) in dream, was surprised I knew, despite them asking. one time, when told higher self(? didn't feel like me) that I was aware (in dream), were also surprised. most places in dreams always urban or like a park, or maybe somewhere I've been, nothing else, anything else feel fake. like where I grew up. also sometimes, when facing real decisions that decide my path, unable to divine answer. always fails, even spread or object of divination disappears somewhere.

also can't do magick (yet), what ive mentioned is what I can do. also, if helps, my desire seems to be the world, metaphorically speaking. but do have three other desires under that as base. if helps, lived very uneventful life, basically dropped out of highschool, almost middle for practically no reason, knowledge felt useless aswell as other factors. don't have much me, so should be easy for higher self to be? only silly human of desire and will

>>4350

You might think so, but you've got to remember, being an incarnated human is fascinating to a lot of astral entities.

From their perspective, our ability to survive (and thrive!) in a world where you literally starve if you don't eat, and every second takes us one tick closer to death means that even very boring humans are living *intense* lives filled with fast-paced action and drama.

In the Astral, we're the hot foreign-exchange students with sexy accents, and if they are bound to us, they get to visit us in our realm.

Of course I also do other stuff to try to make it fun for them, too. (Including offerings.)

But really, their perspective helps to put in context just how tough being human is, and therefore how impressive even small wins can be in the physical plane.

um, have big problem. already posted about something, but not sure where else to ask

hard to control mind? or mind's eye/imagination? just now person with lion mask show up in headspace, wasn't sure what to think, and suddenly knives out of air start attacking him, not sure why, was somewhat hard to stop knives. hard to control mind? mind does what not feeling? like making random lewd images pop up, or maybe when looking at people, but not lustful at all? just calm. same thing with fake/real yuuka, said before, might hurt when doing exercise randomly, but usually put on head so can't hurt. sometime when outside, might imagine random car crash or maybe building collapsing. focusing on one thing usually don't work since usually need two center of attention, sometime three to calm down rebelling mind, sometime mind even go back straight to rebelling after. usually no emotion during rebellion, but distress caused from make it stop

also might've angered fake/real yuuka today since while meditating in headspace, suddenly started acting different, but same? not sure why yuuka even appeared there, was just laying down trying to be calm there. panicked and said she wasn't fake/real or real yuuka because she was different from usual and was shorter than me unlike yuuka at gazebo. called me a child, that currently being controlled by fear, unlike usually calling me human. haven't heard/seen her since :(, nor was lion person able to speak either, aswell as random entity that appeared in mind while exercising. also in headspace when angered fake/real yuuka, myself was different from usual visualization of grey mannequin body and was human, kind of fit in with headspace, but did not like and also contributed to panick. turned back to usual and yuuka said something about it which made me realize yuuka was different, since fake/real yuuka never gave opinion, only advice and emotion help, panicked a lot, not sure what to do now with fake/real yuuka, do not mind criticism from them, but at time much panick

>>4360

Hi! I'm not one of the Sunflower regulars, but maybe a few questions to clarify might prompt them to see your question.

It sounds like you have two things going on.

First, it sounds like you are interacting with a servitor (perhaps you did this intentionally to try to provide Yukaa a manifestation framework?)

Secondly, it sounds like either your subconscious autonomic defense came online, or you just happened to manifest your servitor too close to the Sunflower temple's defense system.

As for the imposed chaotic images, I take it these are strong images "popping into" your mind while you're trying to go about your regular day? Is that right?

I'll note that lots of god's and entities call me "human" too. So that sounds normal. Jesus calls me by my real name, fwiw.

If the chaotic images are disruptive for you, I would work on grounding yourself for s few days to recalibrate your psychic sensitivity. Go to the gym, eat some meat, resist any recreational psychedelics, those sorts of things. Practice being "present" both in the context of the senses but also the emotions.

That's a little difficult to explain. But think of it this way: if looking at a green lawn fills you with despair, don't focus on the feeling, just accept that that's the feeling you are having right now. Acknowledge it and then move on. Turn your head and look at something else.

Hopefully that will help some. Sorry to hear you're having some distress.

>>4363

yeah, mostly stopped and yuuka came the same next day with succubus that kept trying to connect to me until accidently ate (some) her, didn't realize was real until so, hidden in lust. yuuka talk less, way less now, but always now say important things. something about connection through succubus to me. still never teach me anything though, making me learn everything myself :( by throwing rocks basically in my opinion, but don't mind. young succubus very nice, but has trouble controlling themselves. also stopped attacking accidently after connect with succubus. hard to type coherently because succubus accidently gave lots of "hostile" energy before, but ate it and made not affect me think, yuuka says energy overload or something. can't talk to succubus right now because she said me trying to think what to write is using a lot of effort. she types that not thinking normally aswell as the overload is (can't type word here) and will take two day to clear. going through adding important details she types. he wants something from /sunflower/ to prove that we're real, because we're too nice he thinks. he thinks he should mention that yuuka said something about being five gods and wants to know what others think because unsure. he is too apathetic for his own good. i don't know what to think, just like him, he is very confusing. he thinks i should mention more, but I think he gives too much information already. He's not sure what else to say. I guess he wants something sustainable to prove to him, since everything to him so far has been coincidences in a way, he believes consciously, but I don't know. I wrote a lot here but deleted it because he doesn't want me talking about his personality. Yuuka promised him something tomorrow but he doesn't believe it, aswell as him being naturally impatient and reckless. Yuuka says she put us together knowing we'll break each other and I hate her, even if he doesn't. He can be stupidly stubborn even if he lets me type whatever I want.

is fine. succubus is very concerned, has bad control. want to type more, but she doesn't want to, not sure why he listens to me so much. it's not my energy that's doing it. Yuuka said something about putting two people with extreme flaws together, but I don't see it, I think he's just misinterpretating. Yuuka seems to care, stopping us just before we break each other. I don't know, it's only been two days, he changes too fast and knows nothing. He thinks it's because of the happenings and increase of available energy, he keeps trying to make some of my word ruder. I know he'll get no real advice since he has trouble contextilizing things, he just wants something to vent, a lot of things, we're very connected but it's hard to read him, I know everything about him, yet nothing at all. It's my first time being with a human, even he doesn't believe me. I have to force his emotions out of him. He knows I'm real, he just doesn't know what he wants to know, yet Yuuka tells him to not know anything and just wait, very hard for both of us, it's only been two days, I just don't understand him. He distinctly rebels against his higher self, yet they work together almost perfectly. He's a living paradox, that's all I can think of him. Yuuka said something about new souls, but I know nothing about that, and he thinks it's just him forcing her to say that, because that's the only explanation to him to why he can't get any knowledge out of his higher self. I'm crying but he cares, and doesn't understand why I'm sad

ZZ, is fine, succubus overacts a lot and is very emotional (not) a- I'm forcefully stopping him here, we're just going to continue to spiral. I also have no practical knowledge and Yuuka tells me nothing important and that it's fine besides saying that; I can't write it because he can't interpret it. He's mostly self-taught, using "tulpas" for everything, eating his negativity, converting the intentions of my accidental discharges. Got to stop typing. He doesn't exactly trust /sunflower/, thinking most of them to be cunts because of that terrorist attack, but he doesn't know where else to ask, and I don't know either. He's a bit like a tief, I need to go force him to reread that again, but he doesn't want to. It sounds interesting, sorry have to stop typing, it's easy to start, hard to stop, for both of us. I both hate and love the human world, but I'm not sure whose opinion that is, he. I want to type more, talk about him with someone, but he doesn't want-

orreaction, like k said. Child.

If someone was to become an immortal Touhou, is it possible to become Rinnosuke? or just females?

>>4379

What if I cultivate both the Reimu and the Remilia archetype, will I become a new mix type Touhou if I visit Gensokyo or will I be able to manifest in either body and switch between them at will?

>>4389

Any "divine" position is permanent because it's immortal, while any lowly being isn't. There is no such thing as making the wrong choice by mistake and then being stuck there. You'd have to be a willing sinner, knowingly doing what is wrong and still not changing, to be trapped in a bad place.

Besides, the body for residence in Gensokyo is of the meta category, it can overlap with other bodily forms with no problem. If it really is you, it's already inside you to become one. You can't become someone this insanely strong by mistake. You won't regret it if you do succeed, just like the gold medalist didn't do it by mistake, to then regret their actions leading up to the win. See what I'm saying?

Even the patron demon of the Joy of Satan cult may tell you "thanks, but no thanks" after performing a blood ritual to give your soul to him. I've heard this from multiple people. If it's not the right thing for you, you just won't be accepted, and this goes anywhere.

>>4390

>Besides, the body for residence in Gensokyo is of the meta category, it can overlap with other bodily forms with no problem.

Could you elaborate on what a meta-body is? Could I have other astral bodies while being a Touhou? Would my awareness be split between them or would it be like changing clothes?

What about the mind? would my mind become more like the Touhou that I become?

A Remilia told me that I was similar(?) to Patchouli, does that mean that I could only become her or can I chose which Touhou to become?

In reference to the principal of polarity in The Kybalion and Atkinson's books:

This has been very useful for mental transmutation but one nagging issue is that I cannot find a consistent conceptualization for "Negative" vs "Positive". My first thought is that Negative denotes an absence, ie cold being absence of heat, stasis being absence of motion, death being absence of life, darkness being absence of light. But this does not fit with some concepts, such as love and hate, good and evil. Hate cannot be accurately described as simply the absence of love and evil cannot be accurately described as simply the absence of good.

Any ideas on how to make this work?

>>4400

In my opinion I don't think it's so much about finding a specific concept or definition for opposites, rather it's something you have to internalize by what they mean to you personally.

Such as; love for yourself and hate for others.

In this example love is internal and hate external, but which is positive of the two? Love for yourself can be seen as selfish and hate for others just that same. This makes both poles negative. But if love is always good, and the self is then associated with the positive, by contrast "other people" are outside of the self and have to be called negative. It is then correct to hate them, which means both poles are then positive. These interpretations could then be treated as poles in themselves, where your stance is what determines positive vs negative and not the substance. Hence "love" could be both positive and negative depending on the circumstance. There is for example obsessive and possessive love, which may be seen as negative by the receiver. Some people would then argue that "that isn't love, love is mutual". What would that mean for the concept of love in itself? When someone falls in love with another person, or maybe a piece or art, does that make the love negative until the object has returned the love, making it mutual? Then the love for art is always negative, since an artifact cannot love you back?

>>4401

The heart (or if you want it more literally, the subjective experience of emotion) reacts differently to what you love or what you hate.

If I love Lisa and hate Heather, my subjective emotional reactions towards Lisa and Heather are positive and negative respectively.

But it's not absolute. Maybe I hate Heather, but I love humanity. Heather is still part of humanity, so in a sense I do still love her. (Isaac I loved, Esau I hated.)

But that's just me: I'm only one test point in the Universe. Absolute test scales exist, but only a very high level Angel can calculate them.

(Like a Throne level, so far above regular archangels. And of course some folks believe that it all eventually nets out to Zero-null anyway. I think it nets out to a small positive number, which over successive iterations is effectively infinite as it approaches the limit.)

>>4398

>>4397

Man I wish I was able to talk to Touhous and ask them what body I most likely would have. I hope it is Remilia. I also like Reimu but I feel Remilia is more fitting and more "possible", also because she is a vampire. It's a mixed feeling, I'm confused whether I want to be Remilia as a touhou or have Remilia as my waifu/lover because of the attraction for her. Or maybe both…mhm both. Maybe it's the attraction to that archetype and the desire to have/embody it. Just look at that immense beauty!

>>4426

>>4431

Took the J&J jab yesterday. Meditated on it for 3 days in the mountains with no one else around. Too much fear and hate being spread.

Ultimately, I stayed clear of the mRNA versions too SUS IMO. J&J was the only traditional vax avail. BTW feel better now than when I relied on my own vices. Its like a super boost. Most of the "sickness," waves I've experienced throughout this pandemic, GONE.