i could have been so much better if i just had someone to talk to .
if i would have just gotten therapy earlier
people wouldn't have the chance to know this about me.
i'm destroyed. the rest of my life is ruined
i'm nothing more than a nigger slave for the rest of eternity.
they'll always just say i'm a pedo. shut up pedo
i tried so hard to be normal
i blocked my wife now
she can no longer send me text or try to get at me emotionally.
it's become overwhelming.
i'm paying $450 in child support. no court order.
i know the court is just going to make it more because life is just shit.
i fucking hate everything about being black
for a good fucking reason
but society will just say "oh, just love yourself" when no one on fucking tinder or bumble will. and of course black people will hate me. when they obviously struggle with the same shit
how the fuck am i not getting anyone on these apps. not even on the black dating app
i need to get out this weekend. maybe.
i don't know where to go. everything will cost to much. i need to save money.
the gym has been good. but i'm still lonely.
there are nice girls there, but they've all been working out for a while now. i just got started.
what the hell do i look like just talking to them?
a black guy talking a white girl.
people say "oh that's still taboo" no.
no it's not taboo. they just don't fucking want us.
and i unironically only get paired up with fat chicks if any on these stupid apps.
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