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of course bitcoin is over 20k

and … of course my irresponsible ass has 0

I am surprised of all movings I've never been here, though maybe it's too obvious, maybe I don't care, and now that's 3 places consecutively on 8chan, which I hate 8chan I haven't gotten into that recently though it's for the same reason to hate any grouping on the internet exclusively yes there's some similarities to real life probably but not many, but that's 3 all in the same place, like the next 3 olympics taking place in asia, and people may have forgotten already the embarrassing mascots for japan 2020, the anime characters, naruto and sailor moon and goku sure, but I can't understand the others being there, does japan think they're popular outside japan, or even in japan, I don't know, is it a way of advertising anime more abstractly, and of course where is nintendo, don't do these characters, just put pickachu and mario right, I mean they'll probably be there somewhere if they really do have these fucking idiots appear at any point in the ceremonies. But maybe not, is nintendo getting the shaft because their a big monopoly in japan. is japan trying to use this as a way to get it's other things more popular, I guess in that vein did companies pay to have their anime characters as official mascots, well of course fucking not because if that was true we'd actually see the characters we'd expect, and I don't know what's worse. Like who takes the blame for the shameful roster, and just why, it must be a group think it's always a group think, "oh this! ok ok, yeah" and no one says, "hey this is a fucking dumb fucking idea stop" because they're all millionaires with simple big incomes and they juts want to go home it's not like anything they can do can make them make less money. this is how windows 10 got made, and yeah yeah.

my questions are various, and I shall continue this intriguing self-dialectics another time

I feel lost. So very lost. Never once have I felt as though I was part of this world. In my eyes, I was always a "monster", while the rest are "human". I hate this. Even though I know that autism is probably why I'm the way I am, I wonder if it's more than that.

I feel so empty. So bored. So meaningless. Like I could clip through the floor at any moment and fall into the planet's core. I just want to be a real man, someone with desires, aspirations, talents and friends.

I found a suicide partner and we'll be killing ourselves on the 13th of July at 1am or so.

We'll be dying by using the charcoal burning method. I'm might livestream it, but it wouldnt be interesting.

I'm 20 years old, born Britain, my parents are from bangladesh, aka im a shitskin feelsbadman.

I've recorded a note, but I that was over a month ago. I'm going to record another one, but Not sure what else to talk about.

Any ideas?

i went and got my haircut and my barber was cute. we both apparently hate sunlight and had a 30 minute discussion on how much we both fucking hate the sun and sunscreen.

I made bread.

The skepticism behind lolicon. People attracted to children are pedos. People attracted to Cream the Rabbit are waifuists. These can be connected ('grooming'), people can 'want more next', but there's no guarantee. I grew out of loli early 17 and never felt attracted to kids afterwards.

This was going to be a Tweet but I don't want to publicly admit I used to like loli.

Goals:

I want a better body

I want to get a car

I want to finish my first website

I want to finish my 2nd

I want to Learn machine learning & how to stay anonymous online

I want to make a lot of money from my projects

I want to master manipulating people

I want to get better at mathematics and genetics in 6 years

Passive Habits:

I want to learn how to fight & rockclimb

And I want to be at the beach and swim more.

I want to get better at learning again. Be more excited about it.

I want to stop trying to see myself as needing to be a social person. That's corny to me. and there's something wrong with it. Polite I guess, but I need to stay away from being that guy that needs to do it.

I run to the gym later today. After I go to sleep. That should be good. Hopefully meet someone that wants to train me. People tend to want to do that. When I was younger they did. Not sure if I was just bait or they saw I had potential.

I'm going to get back into minecraft and then hopefully catch wind of the next latest game.

>love life

I'm so distant from people already. and I've been with her so long everyone else feels like an alien.

and the way that I love. so exposed. jesus. I've accepted that it's gonna take a while. I just look at people and it's chilling to even get to think of knowing someone else like that. and then all the effort it's going to take. and then all the expectations. and sacrifice. all over again. I don't want to just keep hitting the reset button.

She just up and did it, because she was so scared of me cheating when i went to Texas. and she texts me often and tries to get at me. she still says I don't care. "You don't care enough" is all I ever heard.

We have a child together. and I feelPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

Have gender dysphoria, either because you hate your body parts or because you have great mental anguish from your birth sex? It's perfectly fine you become nonbinary.

My problem is with preachy nonbinary people that get pissed off when you question their validity and preach their gender as some important thing. I've come to learn that nonbinary is valid through my own research and experience with the confessions of nonbinary people, not because of crappy stamps and PSAs that say, "Nonbinary is valid and if you disagree you are a transphobe uwu." I've come to learn that there can be legitimate dysphoria behind nonbinary people and that it wasn't some trender gender. I've also learned to stop caring what people identify as, because there is often a reason that they choose to identify as such. Otherkin, genderfluid, people should have the right to identify as whatever they please so long as they do it with legitimate intent and not just because of some type of fashion statement.

What I cannot stand, however, are the nonbinary people that are downright irritating about their gender. In much of their art, they include the nonbinary flag, they have nonbinary right in their bio, they have a nonbinary stamp, they shun anybody who asks questions about their gender, they throw around the word transphobe like nothing, they get upset that people misgender them… it's so damn pretentious. You are not entitled to anything, you get respect in return for respect for others. Respect others and earn respect in return. PC culture has acceptance all backwards. You don't get an award for being born or walking the Earth. There are enough polluting masses of flesh and bones in the world. If you don't make yourself worth something and make an effort towards being a decent human being, you don't deserve to be treated as if you are worth anything. There are enough beggars, narcissists, and self-pitying people in the world, so why would you be entitled to anything more than them? Fancier toilet paper and better-groomed hair ain't worth shit. Assuming you center yourself around these common goals… economic prosperity makes you worth nothing more than your money. Being extremely talented makes you worth nothing more than your talent. In the end, it all boils down to your character, and a mass following is not reflective of whaPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

There are lots of artists that overcharge. But there are even more that undercharge. Sometimes I am sad to see such great art going for below minimum wage. But at the same time… well, I'm going to throw my respect out the window and just be honest here: Kayla-Na and some other popular artists have RIDICULOUSLY FUCKING HIGH prices for such BELOW AVERAGE artwork. There, I said it, I'm ready for the flame comments and hate messages.

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>Everyone goes on and on and on about how great the economy is and how everyone is hiring. I've found a near 100% correlation between people who say that and people who haven't had to look for a job in at least 20 years.

I tried to stop being a NEET once earlier this year. Got a job as a janitor fairly quickly. Only thing I hated was being called in in the middle of the night becuase other chucklefucks kept not turning up. More money for me though. Circumstance required I leave that job after a short time though. If possible, I'd like to work a relaxed job where my year round allergies wouldn't be an issue. But I know that's not possible.

Just bought two giant frozen burritos labeled "The Bomb" from a gas station. Wish me luck, /blog/.

My mom went out of town today. Now I am thickly padded with crinkley plastic adult diapers and baby powder, and am lying in bed all cosy. Feels good man.

A common observation I notice on 8chan is that people pretend to have the perspective of an oldfag, or a general quality perspective and try using it to assert their opinions on the direction the board has gone over time. Such as the board has gone to shit.

Or that there's hearsay and rumor of another board's quality, and try to persuade or disuade others from going there.

Well, for once, I'm going to start writing down my perspective of things to at least supplement my POV with evidence, and it may or may not be counterexample to whatever narrative a random anon tries to run about an 8chan board. It's still a POV rather than an all-encompassing experience, but at least I evidence mine references.