Live in reality. Somethings you can't change. If you're born poor, you actually have a slim chance of becoming rich. if you're born male, all you can do is role with it. don't mutilate your body. you sterilize yourself, and could have medical issues for the rest of your life. every year brings something new. your thoughts and opinions will change as you age.. and if you're thoughts on this don't, you still can't change your gender. some people are born with much worse problems. you're otherwise healthy right? not retarded? not crippled? able to have children? some people would give ANYTHING to be in your shoes.
besides you want to be a real girl, you don't want to be a freak science experimentation. being a healthy boy is much better than being a freak of science.
besides, why would you want to make less money, drive worse, and wait x100 longer to use the bathroom, and then sit on public toilet seats??