What Im learning from, heavy drug abuse, which is irony at its finest; is that anxiety is really just a thinking pattern like anything else.
I noticed that, at first, I was freaking out over something that felt like it was reality. But I had convinced myself that it was reality. That I should freak out, and make a mountain out of a mole hill. For no reason. Didnt matter what was really going on.
Its really a trick of assessing reality. Which, again, is so ironic coming from me. and what I love about this even more is how much I love irony I know that I go on and on about how reality isnt real, and its our own subjective perspective, etc. But within the realm of PERCEIVED reality, what we define as, "real" around us, and things we give meaning to. Its a matter of assessing such things: what's really real within the perceived reality (strictly referring to black and white, concrete, factual reality as its perceived) and what is a delusion brought on by pure negativity that alters your subjective reality? Its a simple matter of this that I've learned recently.
I went from feeling like I'd die and calling EMT, despite them saying Im completely 100% healthy by mere social interaction and checking my pulse. What had happened is that I let the negativity fester and alter my subjective reality, and it ripped me away from the perceived reality. Ergo there is cognitive dissonance as to what is real and what is false. Again, I reiterate that everything within the perceived reality is a falsehood in of itself. But its what grounds us to a sense of reality, which we can refer to when our subjective reality is displeasing us. But I digress.
What happened is that I lost a grip on what's black and white (I was a bit dehydrated, experiencing common/normal side effects of the drug I took, was in no real danger of death as no such symptoms manifested themselves in any way, shape, or form). This being said, I let go of the perceived reality that we anchor ourselves to as a point of reference; and allowed myself to spiral downward in my worry over . . . absolutely nothing.
The mind is a very powerful thing. Its our entire world within a mass of tissue, blood, nerves, synapses, etc. Its powerful enough to give us consciousness, which, obviously, projects the perceived reality arounPost too long. Click here to view the full text.
