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What Im learning from, heavy drug abuse, which is irony at its finest; is that anxiety is really just a thinking pattern like anything else.
I noticed that, at first, I was freaking out over something that felt like it was reality. But I had convinced myself that it was reality. That I should freak out, and make a mountain out of a mole hill. For no reason. Didnt matter what was really going on.
Its really a trick of assessing reality. Which, again, is so ironic coming from me. and what I love about this even more is how much I love irony I know that I go on and on about how reality isnt real, and its our own subjective perspective, etc. But within the realm of PERCEIVED reality, what we define as, "real" around us, and things we give meaning to. Its a matter of assessing such things: what's really real within the perceived reality (strictly referring to black and white, concrete, factual reality as its perceived) and what is a delusion brought on by pure negativity that alters your subjective reality? Its a simple matter of this that I've learned recently.
I went from feeling like I'd die and calling EMT, despite them saying Im completely 100% healthy by mere social interaction and checking my pulse. What had happened is that I let the negativity fester and alter my subjective reality, and it ripped me away from the perceived reality. Ergo there is cognitive dissonance as to what is real and what is false. Again, I reiterate that everything within the perceived reality is a falsehood in of itself. But its what grounds us to a sense of reality, which we can refer to when our subjective reality is displeasing us. But I digress.
What happened is that I lost a grip on what's black and white (I was a bit dehydrated, experiencing common/normal side effects of the drug I took, was in no real danger of death as no such symptoms manifested themselves in any way, shape, or form). This being said, I let go of the perceived reality that we anchor ourselves to as a point of reference; and allowed myself to spiral downward in my worry over . . . absolutely nothing.
The mind is a very powerful thing. Its our entire world within a mass of tissue, blood, nerves, synapses, etc. Its powerful enough to give us consciousness, which, obviously, projects the perceived reality around us; Shrouded in a hue of our subjective reality all at the same time.
Anyway, this brings me to my next point of psychosomatic reactions.
>Psychosomatic: "Of or relating to a disorder having physical symptoms but originating from mental or emotional causes."
A prime example of this is phantom limb syndrome. Victims will have an entire body part severed from them. For example, an arm. But the victim will claim that they feel very, very real pain in their phantom limb; Despite it not existing any longer.
How does this happen? Well, in-depth scientific explanation aside; It brings us back to how we allow ourselves to lose touch of the perceived reality. Again, this acts as a point of reference. If you lose touch of it, your subjective reality takes full control. This can go many ways though. Ranging from dark depression to full blown mania, but more notably; the source of your anxiety!
Anxiety is really just a pattern of thinking. Nothing more, nothing less. Its losing touch of what anchors you to reality. Allowing your hue of the perceived reality become more than just a personal touch. Without the black and white, grounded, perceived reality; The colors you once knew and loved . . . pale. Without the black and white to compare the color to, what good is the color anymore? Its a necessary balance. Without any black and white, there is no color.
Without either, you feel dead inside. Everything is confusing, nothing is understanding. At this point you are completely and utterly blinded by despair of your own creation. You can no longer decide what is real, and what is a product of your illness.
In closing, we go back to good ol irony!
The perceived reality of the situation, at that point, is that everything inside and around you are a product of your illness.
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No.52869
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No.52870
>>52844
it didn't turn out good
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No.52871
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No.52872
>>52870
Aha, that's okay~ Wouldn't ever improve if you didn't try.
>>52871
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No.52873
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No.52874
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No.52875
>>52873
>>52874
Made me smile ^.^
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No.52876
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No.52877
>>52876
In onld English, the double 't' in hottie would be pronounced as two sounds (just like in hot tea).
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No.52878
>>52875
well at least I have that
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No.52886
>>52884
How very nude.
>>52885
Even more so!
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No.52895
>>52893 (pretty sure she is lying on top of someone, you are being a lewd and a horndog)
>>52894
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No.52906
>>52902
that is a nigger dick
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No.52907
>>52905
>>52903
Beautiful lingerie.
>>52906
Too bad for you then!
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No.52908
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No.52909
>>52907
that shit will make us not friends anymore, mouse
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No.52910
>>52909
Don't be silly.
>>52908
Is Monsterbee silly?
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No.52912
>>52911
Ah thanks, I was worried it was just me!
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