Anon, I threatened to hurt myself and my older adopted brother (who was also abusive to me just like my adopted family) three times in 2015 over the course of three weeks, after I was abused (included sexually) by my adoptive father.
Unfortunately, after I destroyed my relationship with her, I didn't leave her alone, and in the span of several months, her family put a one-year restraining order on me.
Yes, I have apologized and have been forgiven by them, but I wish to restart a relationship with her.
That's true, and I look to God every now and then to help me cope with the tribulations. It's totally up to God to see what his plans are for me.
The traditions she is losing is that she abstains from alcohol and other drugs, sex outside of marriage, and avoiding consumerism. She's still a virgin, just like me, but unfortunately she seems to be drinking alcohol and getting sucked into consumerism.
I am sure, but she is busy going to university down in Tucson, Arizona (she is a junior). She might eventually have some free time to hang out with me, especially once she graduates.
Yes, and even though we don't maintain contact except by snail mail, she is fine with me contacting her.
I really would love to come closer to God, and if God permits, marry her, move to the Midwest or Florida, and start a family with her.