/fringe/ - Fringe

>>141056

Of course it's just hedonism, it's also escapism since most things in real life went to shit and it takes unholy amounts of work and time to be at least fixed, if even possible. In the few minutes I enjoy porn I'm in a place where I think life should have truly been for all of us. Instead we are in this hell of unfulfilled desires. I suppose ego death is the answer but it takes so much to do it I can't stick to it long enough to see a glimpse of peace.

>>139574

OP, stop wiring your brain to enjoy watching strangers fuck on the interweb

Your subconscious thinks you’re in the room watching it happen

+ flash hypnosis to this shit

Not worth the trouble, chastity ftw

Only chimps in captivity masturbate think about it you degenerate fucks

Still OP, I'm done trying to quit my only pleasure and passion in life. If I can't live with it, I won't live. Can someone give me some tips on how to kms without it looking like a voluntary act? Car accident is sus

>>141135

your problems will only get worse if you kill yourself

>>141137

I don't believe in reincarnation or the afterlife

COOMED 11/27/23

It all started from a dream that I was fucking some bitch for days on end, she was riding my cock day and night for ten days and I've missed some courses in some school I was in. Anyway, got to work and didn't even try to stop my horny compulsion. What I've learned is that most mistakes happen when I don't actually talk with the urge, I acknowledge it but do nothing to stop it. I had about five urges and only one I talked down. The others convinced me. I should do the talking down more often

COOMED 12/8/23

I HATE MYSELF. I HATE MYSELF FOR WHAT I DID. MY MIND AND MY BODY WAS CRAVING THIS UP UNTIL I COOMED. AFTER THAT I WAS ALONE LIKE ALL THE OTHER TIMES. I WISH I DIED LONG AGO. I WISH I WAS NEVER BORN. EVERY TIME IT'S THE SAME STORY. I GET FOOLED BY HORMONES. I'M DOOMED TO THIS MISTAKE UNTIL I GET OLD AND FLACCID

01/11/24

I came. There is no edging indefinitely. There is no escape. There is no freedom.

You can do it coomanon. When you feel the urge to coom, just come back here and read your previous post-coom posts. Remember what happens after you coom. Even in your strongest most irresistable urges, part of you will remember the impending aftermath and shake you back into control.

>>142410

Doesn't work. The addiction comes both from the mind and the body, there's nothing the mind can say that can turn this off. I tried

01/27/24

COOMED. Don't have anything more to add. It always goes the same way. I avoid the urge for a while, I put it in the back of my mind, then it's back. No matter how many times I tell myself I'm tricked by hormones it doesn't change the outcome.

4/2/24

COOMED. I can never go back to regular cooming. I can never go fully without cooming. I'm stuck in this state. I've been stuck for more than 7 years now. Name one method to quit, I tried it. Name one book, one video, one religion, done that.

6/4/24

COOMED.

>>142565

Wow

>>142569

I haven't had a visitor on my own private blog on this site in six months. Why you here? What's your relationship with porn?

6/27/24

Coomed.

I'm starting to hate porn, and I mean really hate it, before I get my post nut clarity. I hate that I can't enjoy it without cumming snd fucking up my whole state, physical, mental, all my energy goes out of wack. I mean I would love porn if I could find a way to never coom. But right now I was edging and I started shooting ropes of cum without me ever reaching orgasm. It started happening this year with my longer streaks. So guarding against orgasm does nothing now, I lose energy and get fucked up no matter what I do. So it's a lose-loae situation every time. I get mesmerized by women and their bodies but as soon as I start enjoying them, I get to pay for my pleasure. Very bad trade. I'm so fucking pissed, I'm not saying I won't relapse again, at this point I believe I'll never be free. But I'll go at least a month before I forget this bad experience and try porn again

7/1/24

COOMED.

LMAO what a joke of a post, I went 4 days without porn

I stopped yesterday from watching porn by reminding myself how it's not really pleasurable except the anticipation and 10 seconds into the act. After that, I get close to the edge and I have to limit myself, can't enjoy it fully, all the excitement turns into anxiety and fear of cum. If I try to brainwash myself and be like a simple degenerate and coom freely whenever I want, I suffer for hours on end the rest of the day and even a couple days after. Then if I coom again that day or the next day the bar for my baseline genital pain/exhaustion/mental capacity/mood goes even lower. If I just live to edge, let's say I edge and quit early before cooming, I would be always frustrated, always looking to watch more porn in dangerous places like at work or around family. And that would of course ruin my life. Cooming at least gets the demon out of the system for a couple of days. So yea, as I stated before, there's no winning with porn and lust. That's simply how we were built. We are exploiting a monke instinct for pleasure expecting it to bring infinite euphoria but sadly it only has the coom purpose and pleasure is only there to make you want to coom. Cooming for the purpose of getting it out of the system destroys the system! I'm very tired, I'm very moody, I'm very unmotivated, my genitals hurt! I don't enjoy anything, even games I really liked yesterday, I only want to coom! But I'll coom and I'll only want to die

7/27/24

I just felt mistreated by my life and wanted to feel something good once this month. So I went to the only heaven I know on this earth. And of course, reality doesn't work like that. I came in about thirty seconds, it was so underwhelming, I had already closed all tabs, after just looking at the split screen pmvs and it was enough. I clenched my whole being trying not to cum like this. Still my body did not care. My body is built for this monkey early ejaculator and I can't change that. Just like someone can't run long distances I can't go one minute without cooming. I feel physically bad, exhausted and the room is spinning with me. I should come back here and read this, next time I want to go back

no…

>>140095

Sure anon, I know how to do it - literally just squeeze the muscles around your asshole when you begin to orgasm, hold on (it's not easy if it's a powerful orgasm) and hold it in. It's harder to do if you're without a partner, if you masturbate, the sensations will stagnate more in your genitals and sit there longer and make it harder to hold in. With practise you'll see what I mean. I can usually have three orgasms in a row and lose no sperm or much energy.

>>142597>>140095

I'll add on to my post.

- Holding your orgasm in is… intense. There is a reason why the body tries to get rid of your orgasms by ejaculation - it's the easy way out. The anons who say "you need to send it somewhere else" aren't incorrect but it's also not necessary, just literally squeeze the muscles around your asshole for long enough and the orgasm will pass. Your penis might nod a few times.

- If you're going to masturbate, I honestly recommend using a fleshlight because it's easier to hold in an orgasm that comes from something outside of you, it's a psychological thing.

- In the moment, you will feel a lot of sensations that trick you into thinking you've failed, that you are ejaculating, that you haven't hold it in. But look at your penis - nothing of the sort is really happening.

8/7/24

>>142597

I've being doing that for six years at this point. There's a chemical imbalance at brain level that you will not avoid with that. And it lasts at least for a full day or sometimes more. Your mental state deteriorates from failing agaim. Of course, it's better than just busting that's why I'm doing it

OP here, after my latest relapse I noticed a trend that started about four or five relapses ago. I'm not that desperate anymore, I feel like the pull of porn is getting weaker. In the past I could kill myself after a relapse if I wasn't so chickenshit. Now, I can't really say honestly that my relapse was godlike. It was so quick and so much pain for so little pleasure really starts to feel like a bad deal. I don't need that much motivation to refuse urges lately

I came 8 times this year so it's not that bad if you count how many days I was clean. I'm on a right track I think and I'm feeling hopeful. I stopped looking at a relapse as a reset more like a lesson and getting more clean days is the current goal. I hope I'll get to finish the year with even fewer relapses than my current frequency

>I came 8 times this year

That's pretty good, all things considered

8/9/24

Camed again, I'm going through a bout of depression, my life has not been this bad in a decade. Went and quickly coomed. Not much to say about it. Not very great experience but it is what it is. I'll be cooming again this year, I'm sure of it, there's no point in lying to myself. There's no indication that I've been cured of this. My hormones still control me. I don't know if I'll be able to keep the 1 cum per month average this year, that's my only goal this year.

OP here, I don't understand what's so bad about fucking? It's just fucking, genitals mashing each other so it feels good. Why am I putting all this stress on myself to not cum to it. Who the fuck are all these people telling me it's sacred energy that I'm wasting. Nigga I don't see you flying around or living eternally by keeping your loosh in. What's the benefit? Can't see monks living twice as much as someone who just fucks and sucks all day.

>>142613

Hey guy, everyone moved to https://8chan.moe/fringe/

>>142614

Yea but this is my personal blog at this point, I tracked my year here.

20/8/24

10th coom of the year. I don't know what's up with me, I went through these falling off the wagon type of streaks before and I eventually recovered, at least the monthly streaks. I can't coom anymore, at least this year. I had a fucking goal goddamit, I always believe I can watch some porn without cumming. I CANNOT WATCH PORN WITHOUT CUM. I CANNOT EDGE. EDGING IS FOR OTHERS LIKE MONEY OR TOP TIER PUSSY. I DON'T HAVE THE ABILITY TO EDGE. NOT EVEN FOR FIVE MINUTES

>>142616

What exactly are you trying to achieve with this? What end state are you aiming for that once attained you could recognize yourself as having 'completed your goal'?

>>142622

The freedom from the pussy spell. Pussy has ruined my life, both IRL choices and with porn addiction. It will take decades to be free from the prison I have put myself in. And I'm not talking about porn addiction. Right now I don't have a time machine, I only had one life and I ruined it, I try to enjoy what I have left when I can. What I can do is stop watching porn. That will free up some time, a lot of energy, I'll have a better mental state and will help a bit with drooling/ogling for pussy. I saw I have an average of less than one coom a month this year. It's really good, I've come a long way from twice daily. This year I want to finish without any other cooms, I say it's doable since the last few relapses have been very underwhelming, not even pleasurable, let alone godlike. I seem to have built so much fear/anxiety around the act that I get migraines just by thinking about porn. It's not enjoyable at this point to edge, I coom so rarely I'm so pent up I can't last three minutes. I don't even touch my dick and I coom when watching porn. And what's good with watching 1 minute of porn then closing it? I get this huge sexual frustration, i want to watch more and that means I'll coom in a couple minutes. So I close again until I eventually lose it. That's been the cycle of relapse for all year. And finally my stupid brain stopped enjoying it.

>>142623

I guess I needed 9 years (from discovering nofap) to go from full on gooner to once a month coomer that doesn't really enjoy porn anymore. I was so deep in that I would run to my dorm and jack off to porn everytime I saw a beautiful girl or one weekend I prone fucked a leather stool lubricated with spit because a fleshlight would have given me away.

Which esoteric methods can I use to go from being homosexual to straight?

>>142626

go ask on reddit, I heard they're good with that

>>142616

09/30/24

11th coom and we're not even in October. Once again I've made the same mistake, thinking I can watch without busting. There is no avoiding it. You will bust if you look. No matter how little. You watch 10 seconds, you'll coom

10/16/24

12th coom of the year. I lost the battle after fighting my addiction for three days. Gave in like usual, not with the intention to coom, but just to enjoy myself. Such a stupid man, I don't know how many times I will have to fall until I learn that I'm not to be trusted when it comes to busting. So just like that, my last ticket this year is gone. If I want to reach my goal I'd have to stay cum free for another two and a half months. That's a very rare feat. I did that only about four or five times in my life. If I fail again I will be wasting mote time and energy on this stupid fruitless pursuit

10/22/24

13th coom of the year. And just like that I failed the challenge I imposed on myself. I don't feel bad, I don't feel anything. I just am here, empty, in front of a pc. I got my fix. I'll be fine for a few days. I'll see you soon

11/9/24

14th coom of the year. So I no longer get hard for regular pmvs after I installed a hentai game. And for the first five days I did not coom playing the game because I was focused on the mechanics. Now I coomed to that too and suddenly I don't want to play the game. I did not tell myself that, it came from the hormones. They were done, mission accomplished so they stopped pushing me. Horniness is a on off switch and I've been reminded of that with a game too. I'm no longer interested in the story or the gameplay, I busted and it's done. I'm not interested in anything right now. I'm spent, I'm tired from a week of wacking off, I'm disappointed, I'm not hopeful that in the new year I'll do better. As soon as the hormones come back I'll listen to them not to the person I am at this moment. This person will be just a memory that doesn't really communicate the real feelings of nutting. The lethargy, pain, brain fog, genital pain, headache, disinterest in everything, no willpower to get out of bed, disappointment, despair, sadness, irritability, anger.

I was so giddy and excited while I played this game, I was waking up like I was a kid on Christmas morning, eager to jerk it to this hot hentai jrpg. But ultimately I busted to it and now I don't give two shits about it.

11/10/24

15th coom of the year. NNN is really turning out to be a big failure. The whole end of the year was a mess, I'm extremely horny and I forgot how to say no to porn