/hikki/ - Hikikomori

I bought a pre-modded used white PSP GO for about $70 (no box, only the console and charger) on a mom and pop videogame store, but i realized way too late that it has been tampered with, why do i say this? Because i've looked up some info and it's not supposed to have a black analog stick, in every single picture and unboxing i've seen it's entirely white except for silver rings around the face buttons and the glossy L and R (both of which are faded on mine, or maybe were sanded off), the battery also lasts a really short time (3 hours tops), but i can always swap it for a new one and it doesn't bother me anyway since i barely leave the house, still it's a shame that i couldn't get a stock console, i live in the middle of nowhere and going to "the city" and back to swap it for another one/get my money back would take me 5 hours, it's just not worth it, it works perfectly after all and it looks nice, i'll take some pictures of it tomorrow.

Anyway i've been playing monster hunter portable 3rd and darius burst, i can't make sense of anything but the gameplay on both is great, i've also considered starting over in black rock shooter because my save is from 2013 when the game was released in english as a PSN exclusive, my PSP 3000 broke in december of that year and i basically threw it in a corner and never bothered to get my saves back until now, and i don't remember anything about the story, i saved just before a bossfight against a pink haired rabbit girl that doesn't take damage until you kill about 30 of her flying turrets and i'm low on healing items.

Granblue Fantasy since 2016

Princess Connect since 2018

Idolm@ster Starlight Stage since 2015

Played WoW from WotLK to MoP but being a hikki and playing a videogame that requires normal social interaction with a guild and raid members to progress made it difficult to fully enjoy the game.

I play/finish a lot of trash that's not worth mentioning or talking about, to be honest. My OCD inclines me to see many crappy games through to the end that I'd otherwise rather drop. So much time I've thrown down, and continue to throw down, the drain on smelly trash, when much better experience are, but a few clicks away.

Here's the list of games I've finished since April 2017. Maybe someone will find something interesting in there. Feel free to ask me anything you might be curious about.

List: https://pastebin.com/2C544VFv

>>7051

Yeah. I just hate the fact that for every Deus Ex, Shadow Warrior or System Shock I manage to play/finish there's about 10 crap tier indie games like Viking Squad, or Tokyo 42 that soak up needless time & energy that could be better spent playing something else. Hell, I just got done slogging through Immortal: Unchained the other day and it was a truly dreadful experience. Probably one of the worst games I've played in a while (certainly the worst Souls-like out there, even though it feels dirty to even refer to it as such) and yet I finished it anyway because I'm a glutton for punishment and hopelessly chained to slavishly fulfilling the random whims & arbitrary rituals of my obsessive compulsive mind. Mostly for completionist's sake and because I hate leaving things unfinished. And also because I have all the time in the world and got nothing better to do.

Instead of diving into something like Homeworld Remastered, or Arcanum, or Arx Fatalis, or The Witcher 2/3, or Skyrim, or Fallout New Vegas, or the hundreds of available ROMs & ISOs of classic games, all of which I've never played before, I instead, mostly play the short, mechanically repetitive, indie trash that fills up most of what's in my list. Crap like ECHO, or AER: Memories of Old, or Downward, or Styx: Shards of Darkness, and it just drives me crazy. Why do I waste my life playing games that are far inferior to other, better games that I've never played before? It boggles my mind. It's like having a gourmet meal in front of you and choosing to eat from whatever's in the shit encrusted trash can out in the piss covered alleyway instead. If I had to give an answer as to why, I'd say laziness. On some level it makes perfect sense, given my overwhelmingly lazy sensibilities, to play short, inoffensive garbage that I can finish from anywhere to 1 to 10 hours, as opposed to long sweeping games that require many times that amount to get through. It's easier, in a bizarrely masochistic sense, to play a short shitty game, than a long good game. It just feels like too much effort to sit down and play a game that I know is considered a classic and is something I'll probably like. It's almost like the expectation it will be good wears me out on an emotional level and playing something more mediocre & dismissable instead seems far easier & more doable. I have to be in a very unique mood to play a good game, otherwise I just seem to stick to the same sort of bland porridge overflowing on Steam and elsewhere that I've mentioned above. Anyway, I don't know. I just wish I wasn't like this. I have such copious amounts of time to devote to gaming and the way I waste, piss & squander it away like this, never fails to bother me.

I still haven't even finished Stalker: SoC with the OGSE mod, despite enjoying it quite a bit. Granted I got a bit too bogged down with the side quests (never made it the Red Forest, for instance), and the constant running back & forth between zones got pretty tedious (even with the addition of vehicles, despite how impractical they are given the terrain & enemy spawns). I think it's been like 6 months since I played it, which makes me sad. And then I go ahead and instead play shit like Attack of the Earthlings, or Solstice Chronicles MIA, or Tartarus, or some such other crap that I finish in the length of an afternoon. Why do I do this to myself? Why can't I just play good fucking games instead of mediocre ones, when the good ones are right fucking there? Why does it feel like too much effort? I just really don't get it. I guess the simple answer is that I'm too lazy to get invested in a long, complex game, or that, even if it's short, that its goodness will be too wearying to handle. At the end of the day, I just really hate myself, I hate how ass backwards my preferences are, and I wish I could slam my head into the wall until it somehow functioned properly.

I'd also like to get a PS4 at some point. Bloodborne and The Last Guardian are two games I'd really like to check out, but I know I probably never will. I got the time, I got the money, but I just don't have the excitement or the willpower to make it happen. Easier to just slump back down into the alley.

>>7068

>Well one advantage of having those preferences is that sometimes you could even find some rare gem among that pile of trash.

Yes, I suppose that's true. Vaporum & Ghost of a Tale were two such recent games that somewhat fit that category, I suppose. They sure don't come along often for me though, with "rare" certainly being the best way to describe it. On one hand you can certainly appreciate a good game a lot of more once they do present themselves, but on the other you're also so worn out from slogging through crap that you're too tired to derive joy/satisfaction from anything, even if it's good. What a predicament to be in.

>Though maybe you should try to find another time waster like idk reading books,making miniature boat models

Nope. Too lazy & don't have the energy. I'm far too used to instant gratification to swap it out for slow, boring crap like that. Hell, I haven't even read a book (not counting graphic novels & manga) in like 12-14 years. Last one I tried to get through was Hyperion, by Dan Simmons. It was actually pretty good and had me pretty gripped and interested to see it through, but right around the half way point (when they're in that boat that sails above the tall grass) I just stopped. My attention wanders and random thoughts will start to intrude as I'm reading and I end up having to re-read pages about 20 fucking times so I can visualize everything perfectly to the smallest detail in my brain, mostly as a result of my OCD, which itself is a very exhausting process, and all together it's just too much. My mind just won't give me a moment's peace. It's hopeless. Same would be true for any other more traditional hands on hobby. For or better or worse, modern entertainment is all I have to work with.

>archiving porn

Never saw this as a hobby, but man have I done a lot of it. I've probably spent well over 1000 hours just browsing rule34, XVideos & Pornhub, among many other websites, just adding stuff to my encrypted porn vault. It really is quite a time killer now that you mention it. I can only do it when I'm edging though, which I can manage to keep up for a couple hours now. Otherwise it's too boring.

>as long you can "swap" the scenery for a bit so you can remember why you started on that path.

It's far too late for that, but I appreciate you trying to help, nonetheless. Sometimes problems like this don't have answers. You're simply at the mercy of them until you die. It is what it is.

i quit videogames when i left a gaming discord like a year ago and havent played anything since because without anyone forcing me into it i simply have no motivation to play. my daily routine is slowly becoming mind numbing stale and i really want to get back into videogames but im not sure where to start. i was thinking maybe an mmo because the level up grind is enough to motivate me to continue playing. what kind of mmos are good right now? i played wow and trying to decide between private vanilla server or retail, or maybe a totally different mmo altogether, like maybe elder scrolls online. anyone here play any mmos or should i look into other games like the witcher series? im also open to broading my horizon with types of games i never played so far, like visual novels or hidden gems.

Man, I just want an FPS that captured my interest like when I was 12 with CoD and I could play for 15+hrs straight a day. I'm on PC and I've tried Siege, Pubg, CoD, Destiny 2, Quake, tf2, Fortnite and still nothing captures my interest. Siege comes the closest but I can only play for like 8hrs a day before I get frustrated. I remember the good times I had in old cod, playing SnD for hours on end, grinding out levels/prestige. God, I wish I could just re-create those times, when grind was fun as hell. I think the only game I haven't tried on PC for FPS games is CS:GO. Guess I'll be trying that.

I've been delving back into Skullgirls on Linux PC recently. Been trying to wash off the fighting game rust. So far, not so good. Can't seem to get the timing down on a few combos with Parasoul.

I'm trying to beat Contra without dying. Haven't played it in years, but I can 1cc it easily after playing it a little bit for a week or two. And now I have a great replica of an SNES controller, so my arcade stick isn't my best option for that anymore. Having a good d-pad again is very nice. Trying to completely master a short game, playing it a few times every day, can be very fun. I wish I could do that with shmups, but being pretty much on rails kills my motivation. It's difficult for me to play something many times if I can't make it go faster as I improve, so I play games like that too infrequently to really get better. Platformers, on the other hand, just let me hold forward and go as fast as I can. I like having that level of control, but that preference unfortunately seems to limit my overall skill.

This is gonna be a blogpost, but bear with me because it's videogame related.

PSP GO anon here, sorry for not posting the pictures i said i would, but my phone's camera is garbage, please understand that my 2016 moto G is a $100 budget phone and i only own it because my parents wanted to keep in contact with me, even though i'm inside the house 100% of the time, and this thing was the cheapest, most reliable phone i could find at the time (i did not want them to spend $1000 on a gay iphone piece of shit i wasn't going to use).

Anyway, i bought a Vita two weeks after i got the PSP. I received a bit of money (plus other stuff) for my birthday and i decided i wanted to play some atelier and neptunia on my bed. I managed to find a premodded OLED model with original charger, 32GB SD card, a 3.0 SD2Vita, a 4GB memory card and acrylic case for $145, no box but who cares, it's not new anyway. It proved to be an excellent purchase, everything my PSP did this thing does better.

Since i ended up using the PSP less and less i somehow left the charger on my pants and when mom washed them it got ruined, so i tried charging it with the Vita's brick (solely to transfer saves, this thing does not have a SD card) because it had the same voltage and a quick google search told me it was compatible. What an horrible mistake, the PSP turned on by itself and it felt extremely hot from the back, so i opened it and the battery was swollen, i panicked and removed it as fast as i could. I ended up ruining the R trigger in the process (broke the ribbon cable), fixing it would set me back around $40 and i'd rather fix my old 3000 model instead so that's effectively $80 dollars down the drain. I knew i should have bought the clear blue 2DS instead.

The refurbished O3DS i've had since 2013 ended up dying that same week, i was playing pokemon and wanted to take a piss, so i put it in sleep mode and when i came back i wasn't able to turn it on again. I reseated the battery, removed it and ran power directly from the charger, opened it and cleaned the internals. Nothing worked, so i left it in a drawer for roughly 5 months. A couple days ago i was reading something on gamefaqs, some guy with a hacked O3DS had the same problem and he fixed it by blowing air into the SD slot. It worked. BUT, turns out i ALSO RUINED the fucking triggers while i was cleaning it. So it's worthless for basically every game but pokemon, and i've only got pokemon ultra moon left to play. I'll assume repairs are gonna cost me around $50 so i might as well upgrade to the newest model.

There's a N3DS in the local pawnshop going for $130, it's the rare mario edition that was sold on black friday a couple years ago, assuming the console is in good condition AND i manage to scrounge up/beg for enough money i'm going to buy it tomorrow because i really want to give ever oasis a try.

No pictures of my Vita, but this time i have a screenshot as proof.

>>7499

Fun game. I wanted the achievements originally, but I never bothered getting everything. There are just too many of them, and I don't like having to look up how to get things in games. I played the challenges, kinda mastered the game and then stopped. Maybe because I reinstalled Linux on that PC and never reinstalled Steam. For some reason the game makes my fucked up Windows 7 machine blow up, freezes everything and gives me a BSOD, or something like that, so I never played it on that. It gets to the menu and then everything goes horribly wrong. Even on a fresh install, for some reason this computer just hates that game, though I have been having random issues with it for a while, since the previous HDD died.

It was a better experience than playing the original game, though. Maybe the item combinations are just more ridiculous in this one, or maybe I just got luckier. I happened to find a screenshot of one of the early good runs, with some insanely huge fireballs, so I decided to talk about it. I don't have the seed, unfortunately. It was ridiculously overpowered. The crazy item combinations make this game. Really fun. I should play it more, actually.

I can only play Touhou at this point. I'm not sure what to emulate though.

I've been playing through the Telltale Games roster for the past week or so. It's really a shame they went defunct; they've been the most innovative thing to happen to gaming for the past decade.

Being in your room all day doesn't give you the opportunity to make the kinds of moral decisions that Telltale Games' lets you make. It's really been an interesting series to play through.

Played Asteroids Deluxe for 2 hours after being drunk for 6 hours. Now I'm going to continue to play Morrowind again, because I'm a procrastination master, so I do everything except what I should be doing, even though I have no actual obligations. Today was a good day anyway, I guess.