/britfeel/ - Feel Britannia

>>20277

Yes to Europe, NO to EU

>>20277

Thanks OP.

>>20281

Jokes on you, last time I made a thread was just over a month ago.

>>20282

You know when the last time I made a thread was?

Never.

>>20282

>tfw never made a thread

Except for that time 5 or 6 years ago I accidentally posted a reply on a tab that had the front page of 4/a/ open. Even though it was anonymous, I stayed off 4chan for a couple of months after that out of sheer embarrassment.

>Was going to go to bed by midnight

>Was going to get up at 7AM and have a good, productive, successful day

>Its half past midnight and I know it wont happen.

This happened on Monday >>20148

Today their burglar alarm was going off all day, non stop.

It only occurred to me now that someone may have been stealing shit.

Nobody takes these alarms seriously, people just think

>oh, there's that fucking cat again

>>20285

Sleep less, you can still make your goal!

I have lots of energy because I slept 12 hours for whatever reason.

>>20285

Same here, I ended up doing exactly the same thing I did yesterday even after making a post specifically saying I wouldn't >>20207 .

I even started today off by reading a couple of chapters of "The Now Habit: A Strategic Program for Overcoming Procrastination and Enjoying Guilt-Free Play". Although that was while I was still lying in bed at 12pm.

>>20288

I didn't get up until 12, effectively wasting a bunch of my day off. I did manage to go into the city though.

Tomorrow I'm in work at 12, and I really need to stop waking up 30 minutes before I catch the bus and doing nothing but work with most of my day.

>go to sleep early and wake up early

>expect to have a productive day filled with getting stuff done

>realize I'm having exactly the same day but my morning was a little bit longer

>>20289

>city

>work

Well I don't know those feels.

My life is a mess. I haven't even showered since this post >>19870 .

>>20291

I don't know how people go a day without a shower.

I just feel dirty and gross.

Somehow I only used to have a shower once a week up until I was 17. I don't know how the fuck I did that.

>>20291

Have you considered getting professional help before your situation becomes even worse?

>>20292

I only ever had baths once a week from childhood until I left college at 19, after which I started showering pretty much once a month, sometimes longer.

It didn't really feel dirty or gross, because it was just my normal state. I wasn't active at all, I didn't have any responsibilities or appointments, and I almost never left my room, let alone left the house, so I just thought why waste however long of my life getting clean for no reason when I could be doing something on my computer instead. Plus, I never felt comfortable hogging the bathroom for however long when somebody else might need it.

I've learnt to have a tiny bit more self-esteem this year though, so after asking my mum if it was okay I've been showering 1 to 3 times a week depending on how well I'm able to unhook myself from the computer. Recently I've been pretty terrible again though.

>>20293

I've seen two private therapists already, neither of which were able to help me because I couldn't talk or do anything except stare at my hands / the floor and say "yes" "no" and "dunno", and I wasn't able to do the things they were asking me to do like greeting people in my house or regularly go to bed on time.

Now I'm getting assessed by IAPT (NHS) for free CBT, and they've suggested I go back on to medication if I'm accepted. I had an all-round bad experience with SSRIs in the past though, so I've been avoiding them for a long time.

Just a random thought.

Did any of you discover masturbation by accident or did people tell you about it?

I found out at 11 years of age. In a swimming pool after the water jet was blasting off my cock. I didn't know about the hand thing then, I just used the water jet at the swimming pool every time I went.

>>20295

I think i was probably 10-11, doing wheelies on my bike. somehow the jerky up down motion + pedaling gave me m first orgasm.

>>20296

I don't know how to avoid sounding creepy, but did you cum?

I only want to know this because I don't think I did at the time.

>>20295

When I was a very young kid not sure when exactly, older than 5, younger than 10 I used to lie down on my front and repeatedly push my groin into my bed mattress because it felt really good.

I did that for years, but I didn't properly wank or orgasm until I was 13, after I already knew what it was and how it worked. I was sitting in the bath, thinking about a girl from school, and I had both my hands around my dick, moving them back and forth until I lost control and jizzed into the water.

I immediately felt a deep sense of understanding after that, because before then I really didn't understand why any of the lads I'd heard at school talking about masturbation would actually choose to be "wankers".

Now I knew why.

>>20297

I didn't when I was a kid, I'd orgasm then just me too sensitive to go any more, without anything coming out.

I didn't produce semen until quite late either, kids my age at school would talk about having to clean up, and it wasnt for another year or so that I understood what they meant.

I've never told anyone that before.

>>20294

I have to ask, did you stick to the medication for 3 weeks? They may take that long until they start affecting.

I'm sorry for you mate if you feel like therapy did not help you.

By the by, are you shy or do you have legit problem with speaking?

>>20300

>did you stick to the medication for 3 weeks?

I stayed on them for several months, and I tried 3 different ones in total (fluxotine, citalopram, and another beginning with "m" that I've forgotten the name of).

I can't tell you much about that period of my life, because I was completely out of it while on the meds. All I remember is a lot of lying on my bed, and feeling absolutely nothing inside, like my brain had flatlined.

The heavy weight of depression was gone, but so was every other emotion. I couldn't even muster up enough willpower to lift my head off my pillow most days. I would just lie there staring at the wall, going in and out of sleep. My parents said they were really worried too, because they couldn't get much sense out of my mouth.

So for that reason I've been avoiding them for the last 5 years.

>are you shy or do you have legit problem with speaking?

I'm physically capable of speaking, I've had many long conversations with my close family, and the friends I had when I was in school.

I just find it incredibly difficult to talk in front of anyone else, and it's gotten worse and worse over the years to the point where I'm almost mute. It's an asperger's / social anxiety / self-esteem / whatever problem as far as I'm aware.

>>20302

>Hope you start feeling better soonish!

Thanks, I appreciate it.

Goodnight finlad, and sleep well. It's been nice talking to you.

Just made scrambled eggs and bacon at 2:20am, it's not quite chocolate pudding at 4am. But I think it's fair to say i've lost control of my life. Oh well, time to continue my documentary binge.

>>20304

I know all of those feels.

>Oh well, time to continue my documentary binge.

What is it about the early hours of the morning that makes documentaries become so watchable? I rarely ever watch them, but whenever I do it's always between 12am - 7am.

I'm gonna head to bed now too. Tomorrow I vow to not start browsing 8chan before I've gotten out of bed or at least remember to stop once I reread this post, and to not turn my computer on until I've at least eaten breakfast and had a shower.

Goodnight guys.

>>20305

I started my binge yesterday with Walking with Monsters: Life before Dinosaurs, then I watched a bunch of short videos about the various periods of history from the Cambrian period up to the carboniferous, now i'm watching Planet Earth by the BBC with good old Attenborough.

I guess 12am - 7am is just the magic time for learning?

>>20306

Goodnight anon

>>20294

I was never 'taught' I should shower every day or at least every few days. I guess my mother didn't care or wanted to save on water bills.

I would go weeks without showering, my fingers would all have black dirt underneath them. That coupled with never getting a haircut meant I looked a bit feral.

I only learned in my teens when other people would talk about how often they would shower and when I got bullied everyday for smelling like piss; I smelt like piss because I lived with five cats who liked to sleep on my schoolbag.

>>20308

That's rough man, are you doing better now at least?

> I was never 'taught' I should shower every day or at least every few days. I guess my mother didn't care or wanted to save on water bills.

A lot of things like this seem to be caused by parenting. I was never allowed to play outside after school for example, and at weekends I always got taken to my dads house, all the way up to my late teens, so combined with undiagnosed aspergers I never really learnt how to socialise with people or feel comfortable outside.

They would let me play on the computer all day though, which has continued on to the present day. Hell, even at 23 they've never really demanded that I stop living like shit / get a job / leave home, they just kinda roll with it like it's totally normal. I had nobody else's input or judgement in my life besides theirs, so I didn't fully understand how incapable of functioning I was compared to other people my age or younger until I started posting in these threads.

> I only learned in my teens when other people would talk about how often they would shower

I wish I had done that too, but I can be incredibly stubborn and contrarian even with little things, especially if those things involve any extra effort on my part. I would often go out of my way to avoid things if I knew everyone else did it or they thought it was socially acceptable / cool.

>all these long ass posts

Cba to read all this tbh

>>20310

You might find that halfchan, with it's userbase that prefer quantity-over-quality who rarely make posts longer than 10 words, is more suited to your tastes.

>>20309

Better, I shower every few days and before I go outside, even for just a walk. I don't go out much though.

>>20312

That's exactly what I do too now. I can't imagine having a shower once or twice every single day like some people seem to, it seems so redundant unless you happen to work in a mine or a sewer or something.

>>20314

Which part of my post do you associate with hat tipping? It's no secret to anyone here that these threads are superior to halfchan's, that's why we're still here and not there.

If your preference is a thread filled with short, easily digestible posts with little time or care put into writing them, along with the overuse of ancient texting abbreviations and mindless shitposting, the halfchan edition of britfeel is practically made for you.

This board on the other hand is far less populous and significantly slower paced, which gives us a lot more time to write out longer, more in-depth responses that would not be possible on a high traffic halfchan board.

It's my opinion that this is what makes these threads worth visiting over halfchan's, but if it's not for you, it's not for you. However, I'm not about to shit up this thread with posts like "tfw hungry t,.,b,.,h" just because you can't be bothered to read, especially when there is somewhere else more suited to your tastes.

TL;DR: Don't go to a decent restaurant if what you really wanted was a Happy Meal.

>>20315

>responding to memeposting

Just had a rustlers hamburger.

This is no way to live.

Didn't get up early and be productive. In fact I woke up late and was 30 minutes late for work.

No one noticed. No one notices when I leave early either, it just feels like there's no point in being here.

Paris is still shit guys. Noisy, smelly, and full of the French. Which seems obvious, but they have decent weather so they just all stand around outside drinking and smoking.

>>20322

it does have nice buildings though.

>>20322

I went to Paris as a kid when my dad took me and my sister to Disneyland and to see the Eiffel Tower. It was drizzling with rain pretty much the whole time though so it felt just like being in England.

Have you done / planned to do anything in particular over there?

A ten year old kid just threatened me with a screwdriver. He had a little swing at me and told me to get off my bike. I said i was going to call the police. He said he was only joking. I said you can't go swinging screwdrivers at people. Then I called the police. Also he was a brown kid. I mean well obviously.

>>20324

we went to see notre dame today, and we're going to see a play tonight, my parents have organised everything though, so I've no idea what's going on.

>>20325

not likely the police are going to do anything for a ten year old, but they might tell the parents or something.

>>20327

I was more worried that they might do it to an older person. The screwdriver was long and could easily be mistaken for a knife, which I thought it was initially.

>>20325

If you cared for your community you would have punched him in the back of the head.

>>20325

I hate nothing more than cocky little shits that pester older people who are minding their own business.

Some little kids started giving me shit about my hair when I was walking home from school once, so I booted their football across the road into someone's garden. Little wankers.

>>20327

>>20329

>>20330

Police just called back, say they consider it attempted robbery, they're sending an officer around. I'm enjoying this completely proportion response, it's like fucking overkill.

>>20331

*unproportional

>>20325

Should have killed the little nigger. It's just going to grow up and really rob people.

>>20331

hopefully it'll scare him straight. Might not though, sometimes the parents encourage it, kids are less likely to get into trouble.

>>20331

Inb4 the kid figures out you were the one who called the police on him, and gets his 7ft tall dad to wait where you met before and jump you the next time you ride past.

>>20326

Nice practice for your french.

Or do the locals speak english?

That means someone has been feeding me wrong information…

I speak french decently, I suppose. Nice coincidence.

>>20335

I told him I was going to call the police, and I did it when he was there. I'm starting to think this was a bad decision but I can always cycle back home a different way after work.

Or even if I do get beaten up or whatever, they'll know who it was. He was fucking brown, east Asian. They aren't common here.

>>20336

I do speak a bit but everyone seems to go straight for english. I guess we're very obviously tourists.

>>20337

east asian is chinese/japanese/etc, do you mean south asian?

>>20308

That's awful, gosh.

And social authorities did absolutely nothing?

>>20339

basically he looked like a young thai kid

>>20340

Ok I forgot it was child services, duh.

>>20338

That's very convenient.

No one speaks finnish elsewhere (well, maybe in Estonia), I don't understand how the older generations survive in foreign countries.

I guess they speak the bare minimum of English.

>>20341

that makes sense, I assumed you meant middle eastern when you said he was brown.

>>20342

all I know in Finnish is perkele. I speak a few sentences in a lot of things, but nothing fluent.

>>20340

No, my mother loves me a lot but she didn't do the best job of raising me.

Also I don't think you can take a kid away from someone because they have long hair and are unclean.

Ah, brilliant. My acne cream has arrived.

>>20344

Some people are not meant to be parents even though their intentions are good.

I think uncleanliness poses a health risk, that's why child services should have reacted.

Police just came around and I gave them a little description. The kid is probably going to tell his brother and dad tomorrow and they're going to come and beat me up on my cycle home.

RIP lads.

Who /doesntwanttolivebutafraidtodie/ here?

>>20349

If I killed myself my mother would be so sad she probably would too, so I can't.

>>20348

Good luck lad, I'm sure it will be fine though.

>>20350

that was basically the only reason that kept me alive, and now things are slowly getting better.

>>20277

Fuck festival time. Booze all over the place, and it's fucking up my job because it's taking up all the room.

And the forklift they brought in is damn near silent, so it just whizzes around and nearly takes people out.

Best thing? There's a bug doing the rounds. I feel kinda shitty, and I ran out of sick days months ago.

Anyone else get so lonely they record themselves for a bit and watch it back?

>>20354

I can't bring myself to do that, the cringe I feel when seeing or hearing myself back could power a small town.

>>20354

I did that when I was drunk for 17 minutes.

It was just unpleasant watching it in the morning.

This thread is a digital representation of death.

>>20357

Not sure what you're trying to imply anon.

>>20358

It's slow right now.

>>20359

Eh, it's been slower.

I haven't done anything worth mentioning in the last couple of hours anyway. I'm eating a pizza right now, I guess that's something.

>>20352

Maybe it's the summer and all.

Every autumn/summer I realize what a mess I was during the previous winter.

Esp. for me winter months jan-feb were worst moments i've ever had in life. Yepo, this year.

I don't even want to describe what I was feeling like and doing to myself. I'm glad I seeked help before it was too late.

How's it going lads? Staying at my dad's for a couple of days. He bought me Subway which is nice and I get to hang out with his new dog too.

>>20361

hello finnish person, when did you get here?

>>20361

I know what you mean. The Autumn and Winter months are usually when I'm at my worst in terms of depression.

>>20360

Nice.

I'm on a strict diet, no pizza for me.

And they tend to be very expensive… much more affordable to cook my own food.

My parents just left, I have rest of the night to myself.

My dad was on a "good" mood, he wasn't deliberately trying to piss me off.

>>20362

A couple of days ago, I used to be 4chan regural.

The site has turned out to be a massive disappointment forcing me to flee.

>>20365

iktf

I remember one or two Finnish people posting on 49k's britfeel back when it was much higher quality, were you one of them?

>>20366

when were you posting there?

I wasn't exactly britfeel regural, I think I made 1-2 posts.

>>20365

Same story for most of us, glad you finally came over. I've been here 8chan for almost a year now, and I've really enjoyed my time here so far.

It's helped my mental state a lot too, as there's generally more positive and helpful anons around than on halfchan.

What's actually wrong with the /r9k/ britfeel?

I don't go there, just wondering.

>>20369

It doesn't have the same homy feeling as this one.

The trolls and posts about politics are euhh…

Maybe also the high number of posters, here it's much lower.

>>20361

Autumn/Winter is actually my favourite time of year, I think I have reverse SAD.

To me the cold weather is nice and cozy, and gives me the chance to wear comfy jumpers, coats and boots and stuff, wearing them in the summer makes me too hot and uncomfortable. I also have trouble sleeping in the summer because of the heat.

There's also the fact that the orange leaves cheer me up, and the wind, and sitting at a window and reading a book while drinking a hot chocolate is my idea of heaven.

I even go full out with holidays, I make my room look creepy for haloween, carve a pumpkin and put it in the hall by the front door, buy pumpkin scented candles and even dress up and watch scary movies by myself and get lots of sweets in case we have trick or treaters. Christmas is the same, but with nice christmas jumpers and music. Summer in comparison has fuck all going on to be excited about.

I even have a autumn themed tumblr that I look at when i'm feeling particularly down

>>20369

constant shitposts from normies and pakis

>>20367

>when were you posting there

I think I remember the finns from the first few months of 2015

>>20369

we all upped ship and left when /int/ came and shat up the thread, before that pakis and green voters were a constant pain. Nowadays it's even worse because of the mass reddit and tumblr migrations. Glad we decided to set this place up.

>>20372

I think you really might be my true opposite anon.

I despise the cold, I hate having to wear tons of layers, I hate the dark mornings and the early sunsets, I'm not a fan of hot drinks, and the holidays are usually the days I most strongly feel like ending it all because of the loneliness. My birthday is in Winter too, and I hate having a reminder that another year has passed and my life is still a shambles.

I really like the long, warm sunny days in Summer though, even the hot nights where I can just lie on my bed in a pair of shorts with a fan blasting at my face. There's no proper occasions either, so I don't need to feel like I'm missing out on an event that every other person my age is enjoying nor worry about what gifts I need to get for my parents and my sister.

>>20375

the problem is if you ignore that shit too often they'll think they're welcome, it's a fine balance

I remember I used to spend fucking hours posting on britfeel, there was a period of a few months where I'd wake up and shitpost till the sun went down. As I slept, I'd dream of arguing with greencucks and paki enablers. Those were turbulent times.

Gonna check out the /r9k/ thread, it can't be that bad.

>>20378

I haven't been on in a few months, don't even bother checking anymore. Bring me back some screencaps lad.

Whoever told me its safe to put hair removal cream on your neck yesterday, I hope you herniate your spine.

I look fucking ridiculous and I'm in so much pain.

>>20378

No, don't! Don't torture yourself anon!

>>20378

ugh, that was really shit.

>>20381

you just got fucking meme'd

>>20381

what did it do?

>>20386

The skin is bright red, bright fucking red and its developed into some kind of rash.

Right now it's completely covered in sudocrem because that seems to be the only thing that helps. A lot of other creams actually make it burn like hell.

I couldn't finish my shower properly, it was too painful.

>>20376

I can't imagine hating the winter. I also happen to have a birthday in it too though, right before new years so I feel like a year has gone past more than most people do, and generally I do think I've improved most years so it doesn't seem that bad to me.

I also absolutely hate shorts.

lads does anyone know what happened to lupus?

>>20387

why didn't you just shave?

>>20389

She's still alive, but I think she left here.

>>20389

she left us, probably headed off to tumblr with all the other normie trash

>>20391

>>20392

what the fuck

why?

>>20394

No idea, she never really came back after that time she went to the hospital for a week, but she definitely didn't die.

My best guess is she thinks we're monsters for making fun of a mentally ill man (Snake), I can see people thinking that from the outside, despite in reality a lot of us relating to him a lot and feeling sorry for him.

>>20395

Even though she only did it a few times, her stream was GOAT tier comfy, I miss it

>>20391

How do you know she is still alive?

>>20397

See >>20393

She also posted today.

>>20397

She still posts the odd thing on facebook.

>>20395

>from the outside

idk m8, this is the same girl who was plenty happy talking shit on pakis, maybe she's just back in hospital or something

>>20399

how the fuck did you find her facebook

you spook me sometimes doxanon

gonna have a nice warm shower/wank lads

I know I screwed it up today, but tomorrow I'm going to do it. I've written down in my journal "What a successful day looks like" outlining my new morning and evening routine.

Computer goes off at 23:00, bet proper at 23:45. Alarm is set for 7:00.

This is written down, it's real. I can do this. Goodnight guys.

>>20390

Because I thought hair removal creams removed the hair so it would make it grow back slower.

I have a natural neckbeard. The hair on my neck grows horribly fast.

>>20393

gizzus the name lad

>>20405

Should have specified it was the front, I didn't answer but assumed you meant the back of the neck, which I thought was probably okay, wouldn't have said the same thing about the front.

>>20404

Good luck m8

Hello.

Haven't been here in a bit. What happened with the lad who had a date on the Sunday just gone?

>>20404

Hope you succeed, britbot!

Read a book or something similiar prior to sleeping. It will help you fall asleep!

Is the guy who posted his skype name or something still around? The one who asked on reddit if he could pass for a girl?

>>20411

What?

Who?

>>20412

>>6318

>tfw haven't had deodorant for years

I have no clue what to get.

>>20403

I know her full name and still haven't found it

I'm that fucking useless kek

>pale

>unwell

pale master race lad

>>20411

kek I remember him

>>20414

Are you this anon>>20301 ?

Get an aluminium-free deodorant from a pharmacy, you must rejoin the normal society.

>>20413

>google image the skype name

>there's a guy called stez snorting fire

Absolute madman.

>>20416

>Are you this anon

Nope, I'm trying to rejoin society though.

I'd like a deodorant that is at least subtle, I'm not so far gone where I think lynx is acceptable.

>>20416

No that was me, but I'm interested nonetheless. I didn't use deodorant for about 8 years either, but a few months ago I asked my mum to get me some.

>>20404

Good fucking luck man, I need to follow your example honestly.

>>20417

He really is a madman.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pv7M4WJQkko

>>20421

>i dared stez to eat a candle whole lol and he did it!!!!

>14 June 2007

Holy shit.

>>20419

How old are you currently?

>>20423

23.

>>20425

nivea 48hr is GOAT

>>20422

There's more.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXrkC8ve0zs

Even more.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c0M2ZRDXHY0

What would he think about us posting him.

Fucking MADMAN

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=368SUryncZI

>>20426

>>20425

Would not spray into my mouth therefore would not use it on my skin either.

Anyone want to watch stream together (though it's offline atm).

>>20430

Yes.

>>20431

Nevermind it's stoopid

>>20405

oh shit, you put it on the front of your neck, like your throat area? Like >>20407 I assumed back of the neck

yeah, don't fucking put it on your throat you dingus

>>20432

I-I would watch something

what did you have in mind?

>>20432

we're doing it finlad

>>20433

Why wouldn't he do that?

I would think it's like any other part of the skin.

>>20409

It actually went well and we're planning on seeing each other again.

I was a bit of a sperg but somehow she found it endearing (I guess cause she was a bit spergy herself). I didn't have the guts to kiss her but at the end of the night she asked for a hug and we just sort of held each other while waiting for her bus to turn up. It was nice.

>>20434

>>20435

It's a french dude playing minecraft, speaking french obv so you understand shite.

I've been following him for a month or so and for some strange reason like it. It's my guilty pleasure.

http://www.twitch.tv/i420idrtox/v/11753021

I'm currently at 03:43

>>20438

>french

>hipster

No thanks.

>>20438

>minecraft

but that's Garry's Mod

>>20438

watching the life of brian atm so can't but would be up for something later

>>20437

good for you anon

what did you do? what did you talk about?

A britfeel Minecraft server came to mind.

I recently played it (cracked client) with someone I know over Skype and it was really, really comfy.

It also brought back memories of 5/4 years ago when I was in secondary school and played with a couple of classmates.

We three made our houses but while we were away these other two guys from school, both non-white and played call of duty a lot, came on the server and blew everything up/burnt it down.

Fucking normies. Those two guys also both 'party boy'd' me on two separate occasions, which is where you hump someone.

>>20440

Skip to 2 hours anon, then the autism begins

>>20439

Since when having a beard is considered "hispter"?

>>20442

>skype

>having friends to play vidya with

>being in secondary school while minecraft was a thing

This is not a good start.

>>20443

Beard + thick rimmed glasses + scoop neck t-shirt is the typical hipster look.

>>20444

I was 15 and I played with two people, who I was friends with for less than a year.

I know there is at least someone else my age on the board and I'm not underageb&, why even bring it up m8?

>>20433

Well, I just hope it heals in the morning.

On the bright side, the hair is actually gone.

>>20446

>why even bring it up m8

A feeling of jealousy while also being unable to relate with your younger self I guess.

Also hearing about that other anons successful date has put me in a shitty mood, fucking normalfags.

>TFW you used to have Internet friends you played Minecraft with.

>TFW it was super comfy and you spoke to them every day because you had no IRL friends.

>TFW they moved on with their lives and you didn't.

I still lurk the forums we used to post on, they're completely dead but sometimes it's nice to read old posts.

>>20448

I wish I could befriend people like you so you would stop being all mopey.

It's too fucking hot tonight lads

>>20451

Agreed. I was supposed to be asleep by now, but it's too hot so I'm playing on my phone.

>>TFW you used to have Internet friends

Nope, I never had any, I've just been alone IRL and online for years.

>>TFW they moved on with their lives and you didn't

I know that one though, just in general. My life has hardly changed at all in the last 7 years.

Although it's not as much of a problem as it was for me about 5 or 6 years ago, the loneliness still gets pretty painful at times.

>>20450

I'm not mopey all the time any more, just recently because I'm almost back where I started after some signs of progress earlier in the year.

>>20453

The first part was meant to be to >>20449

That took me way too long to cum.

>>20455

What was it that finally made it happen?

>>20442

I would quite happily play autismcraft with you guys if somebody could be bothered to set up a server

also lads, after a dozen attempts, I finally got windows 10 working on my new laptop. Chuffed to bits because I fucking hate windows 8.

I think I'm going to unplug my computer and avoid the internet as much as possible for a while. I'm tired of living this way.

Goodnight guys.

>>20456

Nothing, just had to get super focused and eventually I managed to cum.

I think it was the painkillers lol.

>>20459

Based Gavin on quitting porn

>>20459

Good, watch this for motivation.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d1JKprFG5uk

>>20461

Gavin can be pretty based, but sometimes he is wrong.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Tz4MgxOXwQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eTdgHsifK38 (I agree with some of this.)

>>20463

Spend it on weed, escorts and blackjack.

>>20463

I still have the £1000 my Grandma gave me before she died in an ISA. I'm waiting until I find something worthwhile to spend on because it wouldn't feel right to spend it on trivial things.

>>20464

I'm 2str8edge4that.

>>20457

I'd play it, I never got very far alone, but it might be fun to play with people.

>>20441

We went to the pub. We spoke about random shit like ideas for novels and where we'd like to travel.

>>20459

Thanks man. I want to but I'm not sure I even know how. I'm worried I'll headbutt her or something.

>>20465

How did your nan die in an ISA? did she get locked in a bank vault or something?

Going to try and go 1 week without any porn and see how I feel.

Finally got my shit together today lads.

Woke up just before noon, had breakfast, brushed my teeth, showered, dressed, shaved, then had a 30 minute break so I wouldn't burn myself out. After that I changed my bedsheets, cut my fingernails and toenails, managed to not skip lunch, then went out walking for an hour and 15 minutes.

Now I'm lying on my bed with my trousers off and in a clean pair of pants because it was really hot and sticky out there today. I've given myself an hour to just chillout for a bit, then I'll put dinner on, instead of leaving it until 11pm like I have the last 2 or 3 Fridays.

>>20471

Good luck mate, it's not easy at first but I believe you can do it.

>>20451

Wanna swap places?

I spent the night wrapped in a blanket, the apartment complex I live in is very cold for some reason. My first summer ever here and didn't feel hot at all.

>>20457

Meh i'm afraid my ancient chinkpaq won't be able to run minecraft without hellish lag.

Either way (vanilla) minecraft has gone to crap.

That's what you get when you trust nordics (ehm Nokia).

>>20472

Are you the depressed anon?

Keep on trying, maybe one day you have beated depression!

I went to the gym today, lately i've skipped some exercices. Normally I go thrice to the gym every week.

I feel good about NEET life

>>20475

That reaction image is strangely perfect

>>20475

There's no such thing as beating depression. Anyone who "beats" it never truly had it

>>20477

I disagree, you can eventually get well enough to manage it which some would consider "beating" it. But yeah you're not ever "cured"

>>20477

Brain scans show otherwise?

You lads have shit vibes.

>>20481

Did anyone watch the David Duke interview on Alex Jones' show? Jones got fucking demolished and has now deleted all of it from his site and YT channel.

>>20484

Yeah I watched it.

Fucking #rekt.

>>20484

>>20485

post

>>20482

Okay I guess. I'll probably be getting drunk later.

>>20486

>>20474

>Are you the depressed anon?

There are more than a few depressed anons here, but yes I'm one of them.

Anxiety is the biggest issue in my life right now though, and to overcome it I need to at least develop some sort of basic life routine first, otherwise I'm not able to do what I need to do in order to expose myself to anxiety-inducing situations i.e. leaving the house, going to the shops, talking to people, etc.

It's going a little slower than I'd like though, even if I have made big improvements already, like showering more often and going for walks a couple of times a week. I've had countless lapses setting me back, this last one being about a month and a half long. I've somehow gotten even worse at talking people than I was before I started self-improvement too. I'm not sure how that happened.

>>20487

It's still Friday for you lads right? Good time to get out and try to pick up some drunk grils lad, I usually just walk around with a litre water bottle filled with a mix of wine and vodka, and if the cops are cunts you can just carry it in two plastic bags and say you're buying groceries. If not you can just carry around in a a normal bag. Then once everyone is coming out of the clubs, you can say hello to the drunk girls and they'll be too fucked up to care about spaghetti spillage, so sometimes they talk to you (if you're a betacuck like me and can't initiate) so everyone wins

End blog

>>20490

It's about quarter to 7 in the evening

>>20491

I get drunk at 6 am lad, it's good for the soul

>>20490

>Good time to get out and try to pick up some drunk grils lad

Nah, I'm going to get drunk right here and then maybe go out for a kebab a bit later.

>>20490

w-who do you think we are

>>20490

>>20495

I think you are vastly overestimating the average poster here's abilities, and perhaps even your own predicament if you think any of us are able to just go out and do that.

>>20496

Well I'm pretty drunk. Once when I was living in Melbourne I was coming out of Safeway with two things of apple juice for my vodka at home, a girl was coming out of a club and she made smooching noises at me and said 'fwoar you're cute'. I panicked and crossed the road

So fucking bored.

>>20497

>she made smooching noises at me and said 'fwoar you're cute'

Firstly, you're obviously very regularly out and about, which is something I cannot relate to at all. I couldn't leave the house for many years until recently and I've never been to the shops without my parents even though I'm 23.

Secondly, no girl besides my sister has ever spoken to me outside of laughing at or mocking me.

So no, I won't be out on the town tonight trying to pick up drunk girls outside clubs like yourself.

>>20499

Mate I'm drunk 24/7 how else do you think I leave the house, alcohol is God

>>20500

>I'm totally one of you guys at heart, it's just the drink!

I don't drink, but there are plenty of others here that do, and as far as I'm aware they don't end up in the middle of town getting their hair stroked by a couple of girls. Except for maybe that one normie who had a successful date at a pub the other day.

Fucking normalfags man. I'm sick of hearing the "just do it"s, the "i have no friends, except for THOSE friends"s and the "i go out and talk to girls all the time but im totally a robot like you guys"s.

I considered today a good day because I actually managed to have a shower and get dressed for the first time in over a week, and then I have to read all your shit about how it's a good time to pick up girls. Fuck you.

inb4 >sounds like you need a drink. I know that's what you want to say you cheeky cunt

>>20501

Stop being so bitter.

>>20503

>Stop being so bitter.

Where do you think you are? Because whatever board you're thinking of, it's certainly not /britfeel/.

I'm NEET, friendless, KV, depressed, I'm eating shitty frozen food from Aldi that my mum always buys, and I'm pissed off at normalfags. Of course I'm fucking bitter.

>>20504

Calm down, m8.

>>20504

iktf

Didnt get shanked by a ten year old with a screwdriver today so thats pretty good.

Ludum dare starts this weekend lads, in five hours to be exact. Might remaster dolequest for it.

I wonder how many people are staring at this thread waiting for someone to make a post.

Been away for a few days lads, anything noteworthy happen?

>>20509

A Finnish guy has started regularly posting

Someone has a French flag because they are on holiday with their Mum

Some normie fuck keeps posting about his date that he can't kiss

Snake passed out on stream

>>20510

whole family actually.

They're the type who think that talking really slowly in english is fine when you're in another country. The worst part is it works. We were in a restaurant earlier and the waitress had amazing english and was a total qt and it was just awful. I felt like such a lazy foreign stereotype, not even bothering to learn the language.

>>20510

>Some normie fuck keeps posting about his date that he can't kiss

Wouldn't say I "keep" posting about it. I've made a couple of posts, all of which were responding to questions other anons asked me.

>>20514

Death befall you.

>>20515

Cheers.

Just had a pretty good wank.

Avoiding porn all day was actually a good idea.

>>20517

you trying the no-fap thing?

>>20518

No, that doesn't appeal to me at all.

Just avoiding pornography.

>>20519

I've heard it can jade you, so you end up needing harder things to get off, so avoiding it can help.

not to mention the amount of unethical shit in the industry

>>20520

It does. A lot.

>>20521

I'm weird in that I hate porn, I don't know why but it's never appealed to me. I do like written/drawn stuff though, I guess it can just avoid the nasty bits that happen irl

>>20522

You're probably better off like that.

Right now, I can't even get off to regular sex anymore. It's about as arousing as watching people feed ducks in the park.

Hopefully I can change that.

Still don't know if I have the guts to delete my folder.

>>20523

shit man, I hope things get better for you, I've dealt with addiction (not porn though) and it is some hard shit to get over, best of luck to you.

>>20524

What were you addicted to?

>tfw thingken of gun laws

Somebody post a picture of wojak feeling sad for me, I don't have anything saved on this computer.

>>20527

th-thanks

>>20525

self harm, I mentioned it a bit in the last thread as it was my one month anniversary of being clean.

>>20530

yeah, don't want to make things awkward, but I don't give a shit about talking about it.

>>20531

How bad was it?

Were you on Katie Maties level?

>>20532

I have no idea who that is, but it got pretty bad.

I was careful as I didn't/don't want to die, and I wasn't doing it for attention or anything so my arms aren't too bad. My legs are fucked though.

>>20533

She was a popular self harm camwhore back in the day.

She used to stick razers in her arm and twist them round until a circle was carved, collect her blood in bottles, stick needles into open wounds.

Still, well done for quitting though.

>>20534

I did shapes sometimes, and I did get a bit too into the blood, but I never kept it for too long.

and thanks man,, good luck with your porn thing.

>>20535

Do you ever get desensitized to the pain?

I pulled a razor blade apart a while ago and dragged it across my skin just to see how sharp it was, it left a bad cut and hurt pretty bad.

Does it always hurt pretty bad?

>this conversation

I am very glad I'm going to sleep. Talk about blood always makes me feel hyper-aware of the blood flowing through my body, and I start feeling a bit giddy.

Goodnight guys.

>>20536

when I first started yeah, but you get used to it, some people do it for the pain, which is why they keep needing to go deeper and deeper, I was more in it for the sight.

>>20537

sorry mate, hope you sleep well.

Lads, I fucking hate gypsies.

My arm fucking hurts lads. I might have to go see the doctor tomorrow, or at least register at the GP's.

>>20540

what did you do mate?

>>20539

I'm sure they hate you too. What happened?

>>20541

Dropped 12 kg of frozen chips on the elbow joint, the inside. this was about 2 weeks ago and I'm still in pain. Might develop into something serious if I dont deal with it soon.

>>20542

can you move your fingers ok? If so you've probably not damaged any of the tendons or whatever, but it's still a good idea to get it checked out, bone injuries can be serious.

>>20539

Same.

>>20543

Yeah, they seem to move fine, although I think they're a bit slower than they used to be.

>>20545

that doesn't sound great lad, you should go see someone.

>>20515

Are success stories not allowed on /britfeel/? Should we all just forever wallow in self-pity to make you feel better about yourself?

The girl I stalk a bit posted a picture of herself with a lot of cleavage. Is this too much of a success story?

>>20548

REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE NORMIE

>>20548

Not if you share the pic with us lad

>>20547

Fuck your slippery slope bullshit. I want to talk to and hear from fellow failures, autists, NEETs and complete social outcasts living in the UK like myself, and trade some stories of our various experiences and maybe know some feels. This isn't your podium to show off how well you're doing with your job or your girlfriend, go somewhere else for that.

>Should we all just forever wallow in self-pity to make you feel better about yourself?

It's you that is coming here to seek a "well done lad, you made it!" from a bunch of autistic NEET virgins that may never experience anything close to your success. Go to your girlfriend for your self-esteem boosts, not here.

Had no appetite for 3 days now. This is shit.

I fucking hate Scots.

>>20554

That's not fair.

>tfw daddy's bringing me home mcdonalds

what should I ask for lads?

>>20555

All the Scots in parliament acted like fucking niggers when they got elected. Like 'nigga we made it.'

Fucking British Empire was the English Empire.

>>20553

I've had times like that before, where food would just seem really unappealing to me, and all I'd have for the day is a bowl of cereal. Any idea what brought this on?

>>20559

I never eat when I feel down.

>>20558

>all the SNP in parliament

FTFY

>>20557

My dad got me a sweet chilli chicken wrap from McD's for the first time last week, I recommend that if it sounds appealing to you. Much better than their bland as fuck burgers.

>>20562

I reckon I'm going to go for a large bbq smokehouse meal with diet coke and six chicken nuggets on the side

might push my luck and ask for a single cheeseburger too

>>20560

I'm kind of the same, usually because I feel more anxious and I don't want to leave my room or go downstairs where my mum and her boyfriend are. Sometimes I'll go hours without going to the toilet even though I really need to go.

>>20557

They do these nice breaded mozzarella bites.

>>20563

Ah, if you're a big eater then yeah, you'll probably want more than just a wrap and french fries. I get full really quickly so I couldn't eat all what you're having.

>>20566

>big eater

CMON

>>20557

Yesterday I had this thing called the smokehouse burger, definitely recommend.

Large meal ofc lad

>>20568

>large meal ofc

haha yeah la gotta continue the bulk ;4)

>>20563

Only a large meal, nuggets and cheeseburger? Cmon bro. How about 20 box of nuggets and 5 cheeseburgers on the side? Whatever it takes bro.

>>20567

D-did I say something wrong? I'm not saying you're fat although you might be, it's more that I'm really underweight, so I generally eat a lot less than the average bloke.

>>20572

Gotta eat big to get big bro cmon. Do you not want to be a 5%er?

>>20572

one day you may bro

SIX SCOOPS C'MON

>>20573

>Do you not want to be a 5%er?

I'm not sure what that is, but probably not. I'm aware that I should supposedly eat more, but I literally can't stomach that much food.

>>20575

we're just spouting /fit/ memes btw you didn't actually do anything wrong

>>20552

I'm not the lad who went out on the date - I've never been on one myself - I just think you're a whiny little bitch.

>>20579

>givi and motorola

Slava Ukraine you fugging Gommie

>>20581

>Azov

>EU

>>20582

>Azov

>Not useful idiots for Kike Poroshenko

>>20583

>Putin's chief claim against Ukraine is they're ebil antisemtic Nazis

>wanting to trade one Jewish Oligarchy for a more authoritarian Jewish Oligarchy

topkek

>>20584

>Jewish Oligarchy that is the only reason Syria isn't a crater

>Jewish Oligarchy that is the only country against Israeli-American imperialism

I don't get it.

>>20578

>being a normalfag apologist on a no normies board

I'm not the first person you responded to ( >>20515 ) either, faggot.

If you don't whine about normalfags from time to time, then quite frankly you don't belong here. Normalfags and their apologists can stay if they want if they don't get banned, but I and others alike will post tirades about how we would prefer it if they leave.

>>20585

There are kikes on both sides of the power block, they profiteer from all war. All you're doing when you support Russia is abandoning one shitty system for one that's arguably much, much worse. You really want to align yourself with BRICS? Have you seen how the Chinks treat their citizens?

>>20587

Show me the kikes controlling all aspects of Russian politics.

I don't support BRICS, I support a hebrew-free west. I still think Novorussians are much, much better than the kike controlled EUkraine.

>>20588

but if Azov fend off the Russians they might be able to capitalise on the goodwill generated and take over Ukraine

who here /pearlypenilepapules/

>>20589

But Azov are fucking idiots.

>>20590

yes

https://youtu.be/XjmglwWS3xU

>oh dear

>>20593

>crassh4

has he seen four already?

>>20586

My point is that he doesn't come across as a normie - it is possible for a robot to make it, regardless of whether you think it's possible for you or not.

just finished my mcdonnies lads

>>20596

What did you pick lad

>>20597

bbq smokehouse meal w/ diet coke and 6 mcnuggets

still hungry but I need to hold off because I'm only a few hundred calories away from my limit now

8chan has been having the same issues on and off for ages now. I wish Hotwheels would stop fucking ladboys and fix it.

https://imgur.com/gallery/bqyiC

>>20600

holy shit, what board is this?

>>20600

the comments on this are giving me cancer.

>>20602

imgur is pretty much an extension of Reddit.

>>20602

4 chan is soo weird xdddd

>>20603

>>20604

Makes me think about just how easy crime can be to get away with if you don't do it where you live. I think sometime I'm going to go on a long weekend trip to some city and see how much shit I can get off with stealing

>>20605

If I ever rob a bank I'll be sure to post it here.

>>20606

thanks mate, I promise not to post it to imgur for epic upvotes

does anyone know what board that was on? I don't know why but I get the feeling it's actually on 8chan, I struggle to think what blueboard that kind of stuff would be posted on on 4chins, maybe /k/? But I was browsing /k/ for hours yesterday and never saw anything of the sort.

thinking of going on an Xtreme 500 cal a day diet for a few weeks lads, what do you think?

>>20608

Why torture yourself? Just go on a 500 deficit until you reach your target weight.

>>20609

it's boring and slow and I want to be slim enough to comfortably bulk during the winter

>>20610

Seems a bit counter-intuitive to go on a diet that will make your muscles atrophy if you later plan on bulking, but do whatever you think is best m8.

>>20611

Yeah, I'll have a good hard think about it. Maybe take my calories down to 1000 instead, that way if I eat strictly high protein food I can still manage my muscle mass.

Going to go have a nice hot shower lads, then watch some movies or something. Feels good.

>>20595

I appreciate your support lad. For the record I didn't come here to 'brag' and have in fact been here since the board started (for whatever that's worth)

The last thing I would want to do is rub it in anyone's face but seeing as this board is basically a part of my life it felt wrong saying nothing. But likewise I can't exactly complain about people calling me a normie because I'd do the same.

>>20613

I think as long as it's not preachy it's alright

you're just a robot trying to claw his way into normiedom and I can respect that, the only ones who have a problem with it are those who have given up on the idea of making it

>>20613

What did you talk about with her?

I can't imagine having anything to say to a girl.

>>20615

this is my number one reason for not going on dates

I feel like I would run out of things to say, so unless she outright messaged me asking for casual sex I just wouldn't bother

>>20615

>I can't imagine having anything to say to a girl.

Me neither, I can never think of anything to say to anyone in fact. If another person leaves it down to me to initiate, we will sit there for hours in absolute uncomfortable silence. I'm the same online, unfortunately for this thread.

My dad took me out for a meal this afternoon, and we didn't say a word to each other the entire time, even while waiting for the food. We were sitting next to three 40 year old blokes talking loudly and obnoxiously about football though.

Just got a mcdonalds in france. It was awful, I can only do it in the UK as I've got my order memorised, I looked like an utter retard.

>>20618

did you get mayonnaise on your chips?

>>20618

Bloody French

I wish I had money so I could dress well lads

>>20621

I don't understand clothes at all, even if I had the money. It all seems so arbitrary when people say "this looks good" or "this looks retarded".

>>20622

yeah you need kind of an aesthetic sense for it to work, you can kind of get better at it by reading up on it tho

>>20623

I've just worn a t-shirt + jeans + hoody/jacket for most of my life, all chosen and bought by my mum. I bought some new clothes this year, but it still follows that same formula, and my mum pretty much picked them out for me, I just had to pay for them.

>>20624

I've never had steak any other way, what's it like? I've always found it too tough to chew, I end up with jaw ache after dinner.

>>20626

>what's it like?

Much easier to chew than well done, I like it blue rare, which is basically just seared on the outside and raw in the middle. Tastes amazing with sale and pepper.

>>20625

>tshirt+jeans+hoody

Eh, it's obviously not exciting but atleast it's not autistic, plenty of people look just fine dressed like that.

>>20626

There's a lot more flavour, and it has an amazing texture that falls apart in your mouth. I don't blame you though, because of my parents Id never had a steak anything other than well done until I was 20, it was an amazing change. I never really understood why everyone was so big on steaks before.

>>20627

I see. What kind of clothes do you wear / want to wear?

>>20619

I do like that normally actually, but over here all the mayo has dijon in it for some reason, it's horrible. >>20627

I wear exactly the same.

>>20627

>>20628

Hm, I half want to try it, but it also seems wrong eating meat that's almost raw. My parents would never do it though, and I'm too pussy to order it at a restaurant.

Plus, steak always seems to be the most expensive thing on the menu, and I'm never the one paying because I'm NEET. I just stick to cheeseburgers all the time, although today I was daring and had chicken fajitas.

>>20630

I really don't like the fred perry shirts.

Always worn by absolute lads and legends on tour.

Payday 2 is really fun, tried it today on the free weekend.

>>20632

you're never alone when you have us, anon!~

>>20633

You could just buy a cheap frying steak from tesco, give it 30s-1min on each side at max heat and add salt and pepper. Eating raw meat is fine, the health concerns are just people being overcautious. I eat raw steak, fish and eggs all the time and have never gotten sick for it. The meat you buy at supermarkets or in a restaurant has been medicated against all sorts of ailments as well as being subject to rigorous quality testing, so I wouldn't be too concerned.

>>20630

>fred perry

Do you drink strongbow in parks?

>>20634

before they were worn by the lads they were championed by skinheads ;4)

>>20637

I-I used to drink in parks when I was younger actually