No.672
just gonna use this to type some cringe word spaghetti about my inconsequential life
lost a lot of weight recently, 40 pounds over the last few months. my bmi is now in the "overweight" category. i dont feel any different. i dont even know why im still doing it. i guess im tired of being alone and i know my weight is a big problem but how will this get me a bf/gf? i cant talk to people, i dont want to talk to people i dont even want to look at people. the closest person in my life is a guy who added me from the cuteboys map last july. i have no interpersonal relationships of value irl. my family is a mess. i just want to cry and have someone there who built a life with me, so i could be there for them too when they're weak, but no one is even in my life to have a casual talk about the aesthetics that buying a mahogany wardrobe adds to a bedroom (weird fucking example but it's what i thought of for nonchalant chitchat). i remember in december of 2017 i had a panic attack i think. i didnt know it was a panic attack at the time but my roommate was gone so i had the room to myself and i fucking freaked out. 8 hours of sobbing and hitting my head on the bed frame and tearing open parts of my leg. then i fell asleep and when i woke up part of me was gone permanently. i dont cry anymore, i dont really feel hardly as much about anything anymore. if you think this post is whiny bitch mode garbage(it is) you should see what i used to write. idk one of these days i'll get around to trying suspension hanging, i've thought about it but even just thinking about confronting death still makes me shudder. i need a more immediate way like a gun so i can do it on impulse randomly one day.
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No.674
No word capitalization; didn't read.
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No.676
>cuteboys
Stop being gay. The rest will sort itself out afterwards.
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No.680
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No.681
>>680
Sorry for trying to help.
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