>be adopted as little kid
>earliest memories are being taken to different people
>only hobby is vidya
>adopted grandmother had already fired out 3 kids
>family basically does not interact
>have the mightest whip cracked to do chores
>hate them but not sure if justified
>repress
>watch Lilo and Stitch
>the ending where the Stitch gets recognized as family gets me
>don't understand why
>grow up
>have gay boyfriend
>his mom/family is trash and treat him as such
>"anon, the only reason you can say that is because you've never had anyone"
>realize I missed out on having a mom
>breakdown
>have a fantasy of being loved on in a way a mother would
>get the weirdest boner
>be adult
>eventually meet biological mom
>shes a bitch
>"okay, I could probably make this happen"
>find out the reason I was adopted was because she is into heavy drug use
>have to share same bed
>she passes out in bed from (who knows what was stuffed in that bear)
>"I can't do it"
>cry
I just want to know what its like to have a mom that has affection to give