Being a productive hikki? 引きこもり 01/23/18 (Tue) 21:31:41 d9f71e No. 3927 [View All]
Being a hikki I've basically done nothing but watch porn and play vidya it feels like. I'd like to do interesting things given my situation so I've installed ubuntu and started to learn emacs lisp. I think quitting porn is the hardest right now, the reason I'm trying is I want to be able to focus and have willpower essentially, which means discipline. And I'd like to get back into reading. I've had Dostoevsky sitting on my desk for about 2 years and have only read 2 chapters, that's sad.
What are you doing?
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引きこもり 01/23/18 (Tue) 22:36:41 c977cd No. 3929
>learning to read japanesse
>reading state's driving handbook
>making money online to save up for; vive and sexdoll of waifu [just 2378usd to go - i make 10 - 50usd]
>the never-ending backlog of mostly shows and games
>taking female hormones
>writing lucid dreams
>have an 8k dental bill to pay
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引きこもり 01/23/18 (Tue) 22:38:51 d9f71e No. 3930
>>3929
How are you making money online?
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引きこもり 01/23/18 (Tue) 22:44:50 e3e3c5 No. 3931
>>3927
I make video games, and host a Youtube channel. Mostly only post updates about the game I make, but sometimes it's other stuff too.
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引きこもり 01/23/18 (Tue) 22:46:39 d9f71e No. 3932
Fuck, I think I might be addicted to video games. I'm fighting the urge to re-install windows and just give up on learning programming so hard right now. It fucking sucks.
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引きこもり 01/23/18 (Tue) 22:58:02 8e8ad2 No. 3937
>>3927
>What are you doing?
Well i'm trying to figure out a way to make money online but at this current moment i mostly just watch anime and horror movies play video games sleep fap and browse the web.
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引きこもり 01/23/18 (Tue) 23:01:35 8e8ad2 No. 3938
>>3932
Stuff like that just takes time anon.
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引きこもり 01/24/18 (Wed) 01:02:50 8e8ad2 No. 3942
>>3931
>I make video games, and host a Youtube channel. Mostly only post updates about the game I make, but sometimes it's other stuff too.
Do you make money from that??.
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引きこもり 01/24/18 (Wed) 01:31:08 5df4e1 No. 3943
>tfw you try to be productive but it's one of those days where life just doesn't want you to fucking do anything but kill yourself
Anyone else have these days? I don't mean just a bad day, but where stuff just goes wrong for no fucking reason at all, to the point where you know it's not worth doing anything at all.
>try to find tutorials or a decent book on 3D modelling
>can't find anything
>can't even find this one video tutorial I watched 5 minutes of the other day that was bearable
>look through history for it
>click on literally every youtube link in my history for the last two weeks
>it's just fucking gone
>plug in tablet and decide to draw
>it has started doing this shit where it lags on the beginning of a stroke
>usually happens on a fresh install because of windows in-built touch settings
>all the settings are still turned off but it's just doing it again because lol fuck you
>google gives me no answers
>it's hot outside
>mom turned the AC on
>the smell of sewage is being pumped in through it because for some reason it just fucking reeks outside today
>go to watch a show
>remember I didn't have the last episode
>open qbittorrent and put it on download
>qbittorrent starts giving me "IO error" bullshit and now all the episodes are unwatchable for some stupid fucking reason and wont redownload
>go to play a game
>3 matches and all of them I went 0/3-4 despite having never played this bad in the 200 hours I've put in before it
Sorry for the blogpost but it just feels like there's some cosmic force out to break me because I decided today was going to be the day I started actually doing something.
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引きこもり 01/24/18 (Wed) 01:57:07 653dfb No. 3944
>>3927
I sat down today and drew for the first time in about 6 years. I drew a male face, then a female one, they came out quite a bit better than I thought they would. I plan to dedicate at least a couple hours each day to practice my drawing. Other than that, I mostly play video games, watch tv shows, browse 8chan, and fap to porn.
>I think quitting porn is the hardest right now
I have also been struggling with this. My main problem is that most days I don't have enough to do to fill my time, so I fell into the habit of looking up porn when I get bored, then inevitably fapping myself raw. It helps to find things to fill your time, which can be difficult. Fortunately, I think focusing on my drawing will help fill my time a bit more so I fap less.
>>3929
>>taking female hormones
Are you a man becoming a trap, or a woman with an imbalance?
>i make 10 - 50usd
Is that per hour or per day? Or do you do some form of commissioned work?
>>3931
>I make video games
What kind of games do you make?
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引きこもり 01/24/18 (Wed) 03:27:54 15b610 No. 3946
Eh, to me time you enjoy wasting isn't wasted time. I'm trying to cut back on jerking off though as its taking me to shit I'd rather not indulge in but as others have said, its kind of hard when you don't have anything to replace the time with. I tried nofap for like a month and it just made things worse, so I'm convinced that its bullshit.
Also been trying to get back into reading but being dyslexic and having a shit attention span doesn't help. My main issue lack a of motivation and that my focus is shot to shit and I can't go 5 minutes without refreshing boards or checking the very few chats I frequent.
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引きこもり 01/24/18 (Wed) 08:20:11 e3e3c5 No. 3947
>>3942
I wish.
>>3944 (check em)
Haven't put anything out aside from joke projects yet, but I'm working on a game about an antisocial 17 year old girl's final three days of life.
>>3946
Nofap is supposedly meant to make it really bad for two months, then make it better after. God knows though, the same people who shill for it shill for mindless exercise and "just lift bro" crap as a cure for cancer.
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引きこもり 01/24/18 (Wed) 12:19:49 4dbe48 No. 3948
>>3927
trying to study biology
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引きこもり 01/24/18 (Wed) 18:31:39 653dfb No. 3954
>>3943
I think we've all had days like that. I often wake up and tell myself "today's the day I'm going to work hard for what I want," and before midday even rolls around, I come across something that makes me terribly depressed and my motivation dies. I'm trying to fight the desire to just give up, and each day I think I get a little better at pushing myself. Hopefully I can keep this up.
>>3947
>I'm working on a game about an antisocial 17 year old girl's final three days of life.
That sounds pretty interesting. What genre will it be?
>Nofap is supposedly meant to make it really bad for two months, then make it better after.
I've heard people claim two weeks, one month, two months, and so on. I've also heard of others having serious problems with nofap, such as having wet dreams about self-fellatio. At any rate, I don't bother with nofap, I just try to fap less as it has definite benefits such as increased testosterone production and regaining focus. Nofap, however, is a waste as it makes a person more desperate for sex, and I have no interest in chasing after the bitches, sluts, and feminists that plague our society today.
The only two things that I can say for certain about nofap is:
>there is no definite time-frame where it just 'kicks in'
>the main focus (and benefit) of nofap is to avoid porn
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引きこもり 01/24/18 (Wed) 21:27:33 c977cd No. 3960
>>3930
http://pasted.co/144b13d4/fullscreen.php?hash=17d0f5c5a7d0c4fae4dc0cd6d3de45c4&toolbar=true&linenum=true
>>3944
mtf
per whenever you have it running
also just learned how to put gb/gbc/gba/ds on my 3ds
what games should i put on it?
already have;
- pokemon silver/crystal/soulsilver/plat
- ac; wild world
- mario kart [ds]
- mario; lost levels
- mega man 3
- zelda2
- ghost n goblins [ nes ]
- yoshi [nes]
- castlevania 2
- harvest moon [gbc]
- donkey kong land1
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引きこもり 01/24/18 (Wed) 21:54:29 8725ef No. 3961
>>3960
If you haven't played any of these already then:
Kirby's Dreamland [GB]
Bubble Ghost [GB]
Gargoyle's Quest [GB]
Cat Trap [GB]
Die Maus [GB]
Wario Land 4 [GBA]
Super Mario World 2: Yoshi's Island [GBA]
Super Princess Peach [DS]
Kirby: Canvas Curse [DS]
WarioWare: Touched! [DS]
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引きこもり 01/24/18 (Wed) 22:17:36 e3e3c5 No. 3962
>>3960
Try Fire 'N Ice on NES, a bloody phenomenal Puzzle game. I'd suggest Battletoads but last I tried to convert it, it hung at the title screen.
Also
>DS
Can you do it through CFW now? Fuck me, I could actually play the Professor Layton games now, that'd be neato.
And I wish there'd be a solid C64 emulator for the 3DS. There's a port of Frodo, but bloody Bubble Bobble doesn't run on it.
As for that money thing, I'm curious, but don't wanna punch my actual Paypal in. What do?
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引きこもり 01/24/18 (Wed) 22:18:37 b5cb33 No. 3963
>>3954
>the main focus (and benefit) of nofap is to avoid porn
As ever, it's the community surrounding the content or idea who ruin its name. Same with video games or anything else.
>>3960
Kirby's Dreamland 2 (GB)
Super Mario Land 2: Six Golden Coins (GB)
Wario Land: Super Mario Land 3 (GB)
Zelda: Link's Awakening /DX (GB/C)
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引きこもり 01/24/18 (Wed) 22:31:24 d9f71e No. 3964
OP here, back to playing vidya lol.
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引きこもり 01/24/18 (Wed) 23:27:49 8725ef No. 3965
>>3962
3DS have been able to run DS games since long, just need a good flashcart like DSTWO
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引きこもり 01/24/18 (Wed) 23:32:20 e3e3c5 No. 3966
>>3965
Hence why I asked
>through CFW
I don't have a flashcart, nor the money for one.
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引きこもり 01/25/18 (Thu) 02:08:34 8e8ad2 No. 3968
>>3954
>I think we've all had days like that. I often wake up and tell myself "today's the day I'm going to work hard for what I want," and before midday even rolls around, I come across something that makes me terribly depressed and my motivation dies. I'm trying to fight the desire to just give up, and each day I think I get a little better at pushing myself. Hopefully I can keep this up.
I know this feel all too well i often try to motivate myself to work hard on something that i'm really interested in or little steps on how to improve myself and my situation i try so hard to fight the desire to just give up but at the end of the day i just end up losing the motivation to do any of these things in the first place.
>Nofap is supposedly meant to make it really bad for two months, then make it better after.
>I just try to fap less
Same here i use to fap about 6 times a day and now i've cut it down to only once or twice every other day tbh.
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引きこもり 01/25/18 (Thu) 02:38:19 653dfb No. 3969
>>3968
>i've cut it down to only once or twice every other day
I do this now too. I used to fap once a day, but edge myself for 4-6 hours at a time. In my late teens/early twenties it was even worse, I would fap 1-2 times a day for 5+ hours each time. The longest I have ever edged was 9 hours. Honestly, my wrists are pretty messed up now and have been for years, they ache and pop pretty regularly. I don't think I can fix it.
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引きこもり 01/25/18 (Thu) 03:22:58 15b610 No. 3970
>>3960
Dragon Quest 1-3
Pokemon Prism
Pokemon TCG 1 and 2
Zelda Seasons/Ages
Metal Slug Advance
Mother 3
Mario & Luigi Super Saga
Tactics Ogre The Knight Of Lodis
Devil Survivor
SMT: Strange Journey
Etrian Odyssey 1-3
Pokemon Mystery Dungeon Sky
>>3969
I wouldn't really even fap as much as I'd just watch porn or read erotica for a few hours sometimes and when I did jerk off it would be a few times in a row. I've got it down to like once or twice a day and no longer then an hour. Its a start I guess.
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引きこもり 01/25/18 (Thu) 11:05:38 8bd7f5 No. 3972
>>3927
Currently learning x86 Assembly, followed by C, C++, and eventually lisp too.
I'm also working on a Game Design Document and learning Japanese.
I usually can motivate myself to do the Japanese, but it's really hard to do anything else, even if I actually like it, like programming.
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引きこもり 01/25/18 (Thu) 11:40:08 bbe68c No. 3973
Meme warfare day and night. Also do some investigating on the side. There are so many opportunities to be productive in this here digital age, enough to make serious enemies and make a real visible dent in the world if you know where to be and what to say. I'm like responsible for half of modern chan vocabulary simply because I'm online 24/7 and am a goofball that comes up with kooky words/memes that inevitably get picked up by the next online autist and cascades into irl stuff sometimes. Sometimes I feel like a legit cyber wizard and in my dreams I don't even afraid of nothing, be punching bullgods
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引きこもり 01/25/18 (Thu) 15:24:32 85bf90 No. 3974
I can freely read books (for entertainment).
I can't asspull motivation but if it was possible I'd like to start reading a book with useful information in it, learn japanese and so on.
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引きこもり 01/25/18 (Thu) 16:05:45 653dfb No. 3975
>>3973
Thank you for your service, anon.
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引きこもり 01/25/18 (Thu) 20:38:07 c977cd No. 3976
>>3961
Kirby's Dreamland [GB]
played
>>3962
battletoads for nes is easy. am on the snake tunnel level.
yes. called twloader
make a backup pp acc and just put visa cards on it then donate to yourself.
>>3963
Kirby's Dreamland 2 (GB)
played
Super Mario Land 2: Six Golden Coins (GB)
played
Wario Land: Super Mario Land 3 (GB)
playing
Zelda: Link's Awakening /DX (GB/C)
i have dat shiet. da sum gewd shiet rit thurr fam. 100%.emoji
if your batteries in your handhelds die, buy a mega memory card and put save slates on it.
>>3970
Dragon Quest 1-3
played 1
Pokemon Prism
lolwut
Pokemon TCG 1 and 2
played 1
Zelda Seasons/Ages
have a save slate on seasons
Metal Slug Advance
never heard of
Mother 3
never played any of the mothers/earthbound
Tactics Ogre The Knight Of Lodis
heh. see picture. old picture tho
Devil Survivor
never heard of
SMT: Strange Journey
never heard of smt. does that stand for Suck My Titty or Super Mega Tendies?
Etrian Odyssey 1-3
never heard of
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引きこもり 01/26/18 (Fri) 02:46:46 8e8ad2 No. 3977
>>3975
>Thank you for your service, anon.
This
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引きこもり 01/26/18 (Fri) 03:00:37 8e8ad2 No. 3978
>>3974
>I can freely read books (for entertainment).
What do you read anon??.
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引きこもり 01/26/18 (Fri) 14:59:06 606bc1 No. 3986
>>3978
Today I read The Man Who Came Early, a nice short book from an old magazine. I like 50s american fiction but the issue is that most of the writers are communist pseudointellectuals.
Next up I'll read konosuba's 12th volume, I like weebshit too. That won't last me a day, I might fill up the rest of the day with anime or a movie.
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引きこもり 01/29/18 (Mon) 11:26:59 8e8ad2 No. 4009
>>3976
Awesome collection.
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引きこもり 01/29/18 (Mon) 12:08:28 8e8ad2 No. 4010
>>3986
>I like weebshit too
Same here.
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引きこもり 02/01/18 (Thu) 00:28:23 76992d No. 4061
I've tried being productive a few times and failed completely
I can't be bothered to do anything constantly for a long period of time.
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引きこもり 02/01/18 (Thu) 00:36:55 8e8ad2 No. 4062
>>4061
>I've tried being productive a few times and failed completely
>I can't be bothered to do anything constantly for a long period of time.
I know how you feel man no matter what i do i can't really get any joy out of doing anything anymore all i do these days is sleep post on image boards watch anime and movies and occasionally play video games but even that stuff gets boring too from time to time honestly i feel like i've completely lost the motivation to do anything.
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引きこもり 02/08/18 (Thu) 09:28:11 ec9290 No. 4154
I'm already a beekeeper (still need to expand it to commercial levels) and plan on getting some land and start doing aquaponics (aquaculture + hydroponics). Even though I'll be forced to interact with people when selling my produce, I'll otherwise be living on my land, smoking weed and wasting my time on the same shit I do now. I know I'm not a full hikki, but I was for the first 5 years after high school.
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引きこもり 02/08/18 (Thu) 10:14:11 8e8ad2 No. 4155
>>4154
>I know I'm not a full hikki, but I was for the first 5 years after high school.
Recovering or former hikkis can still post here as well.
>Im already a beekeeper (still need to expand it to commercial levels) and plan on getting some land and start doing aquaponics (aquaculture + hydroponics). Even though I'll be forced to interact with people when selling my produce, I'll otherwise be living on my land, smoking weed and wasting my time on the same shit I do now
Good luck out there in the world anon when you have made progress be sure to give us an update in the moving on thread.
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引きこもり 02/08/18 (Thu) 11:57:11 936890 No. 4156
>>4154
>aquaponics
It's a pretty neat concept.
Do you live in a place without winter though? Or what do you intend to do with it during winter?
That was the biggest block for me to start doing it, I wouldn't even know what to do with hundreds to thousands of liters of water during -5°C weather.
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引きこもり 02/08/18 (Thu) 20:04:26 6ce72e No. 4158
>productive
haha, for me this means I watch a movie or a few episodes of anime instead of wasting the entire day on the internet doing nothing.
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引きこもり 02/08/18 (Thu) 22:48:16 8e8ad2 No. 4161
>>4158
>haha, for me this means I watch a movie or a few episodes of anime instead of wasting the entire day on the internet doing nothing.
I keep multiple tabs open for that kind of stuff LOL.
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引きこもり 02/11/18 (Sun) 02:12:06 221050 No. 4173
>>4158
it's exactly the same with me.
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引きこもり 02/17/18 (Sat) 14:48:05 ec9290 No. 4340
>>4156
I'm in Australia, so no winter.
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引きこもり 02/20/18 (Tue) 04:15:49 f5cf3f No. 4375
I've been solving programming problems on Exercism. I do one problem every weekday and don't play vidya until it's done; I'm trying to get used to the idea of having to work for a living.
So far, I've done C++, Python, PHP, Ruby, and MIPS Assembly, and I recently started on Lua.
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引きこもり 02/20/18 (Tue) 07:50:22 4263bc No. 4379
>>4340
>I'm in Australia, so no winter.
You're lucky that you don't have to deal with snow man.
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引きこもり 02/20/18 (Tue) 07:52:57 4263bc No. 4381
>>4375
> I'm trying to get used to the idea of having to work for a living.
How much do you earn from doing programming at home anon??.
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引きこもり 02/20/18 (Tue) 13:14:31 f5cf3f No. 4385
>>4381
I meant that I'm trying to prepare myself for future conditions, not that I'm trying to get used to a new situation.
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引きこもり 02/20/18 (Tue) 15:32:28 5c347a No. 4386
>>4379
>lucky
>live in Australia
I might not have to deal with snow, but I have to deal with 35+ degree weather.
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引きこもり 02/21/18 (Wed) 01:14:15 8e8ad2 No. 4392
>>4385
>I meant that I'm trying to prepare myself for future conditions, not that I'm trying to get used to a new situation.
Oh i see okay never mind i misunderstood.
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引きこもり 02/21/18 (Wed) 01:15:14 8e8ad2 No. 4393
>>4386
>I might not have to deal with snow, but I have to deal with 35+ degree weather.
Damn.
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引きこもり 02/18/19 (Mon) 15:34:33 9f3557 No. 7055
Reading the NHK manga for the first time back in March/April of last year helped me lose weight, begin exercising everyday, and immensely improve my diet, oddly enough. I watched the anime years ago and while it was OK, it didn't leave a huge impression me. The manga seemed to give all the characters a few more layers (especially Misaki herself) which made it a much more interesting story. Personally though, I think the anime had the better ending, since Satou hadn't really done some unrealistic 180 like in the manga, but more just had to do what he needed to do to get by and to avoid starving to death and is still basically the same person he always was.
Anyway, I don't know. I guess reading it somehow spurred a Daesu-Oh style transformation in me, to engage in something different with my time, regardless of the additional health benefits and more out of the inherent novelty, as I'm locked in my own particular space. I'm also not ashamed to admit that a part of me wanted to embody Satou in a physical sense, as being a slim, bordering on emaciated at certain intervals, stick figure and have Misaki cheer me on in my own head as I do it. Almost as if, that if I could somehow enter that world, I'd need to be as slim as Satou, otherwise it just wouldn't "work" & the continuity would be missing (for lack of a better way to describe it). The decision for me to eat only one meal a day for a few months there, actually came from one of the later chapters of the manga where Satou is starving himself, which I've now forgotten the context for. Hell, there were multiple times where I even imagined Joey from the Blackwell games encouraging me to keep doing what I was doing, for whatever random reason. It all seemed rather arbitrary in the end, whatever I conjured in my head to keep me on task, but enh. I guess that's how it goes.
I also ordered some Phoenix Tears which I took alone in my room (THC concentrate) a couple months prior to my shift in routine, and before reading the manga, after having never tried a drug of any sort before, not even alcohol, and I'd have to say that also played a not so small part in it all. It was a deeply unpleasant experience filled with palpable doom & anxiety, laced with moments of profound insight, that eventually led to me suffering from bouts of recurring derealization, which thankfully subsided after a few weeks. I only did it that one time and, as a result, I'll probably never partake in it, nor anything similar to it, ever again, but I can't deny how it probably played a large role into doing what I ended up doing.
Unfortunately, I had to stop exercising because it caused something known as ETD (Eustachian tube dysfunction) to flare up in me like crazy, which is a bit of a shame, and something I never experienced before I began those new habits. Apparently ETD is common for those who experience rapid weight loss, but it's too bad it was such a hassle to deal with. It's only bothered me occasionally since then, but I guess I just wish there was a solid way to prevent it other than to not exercise, which itself isn't a 100% effective method. Then again, I probably would've tapered off doing it anyway, so whatever. Doesn't matter, I guess. It's just a chain of worthless gestures in the end. At least I'm still eating healthily.
By a normal's standards, it's basically the only productive thing I've done in 12 years.
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