/doomer/ - Doomers Club

I wish I could go back to the hot afternoons where I played catch with my school friends, or the rainy days where we spent the break time talking about morning cartoons, those times where everyone was your friend and you only wanted to play everyday, childhood on it's fullest.

Even when I visit and walk in my old school, even when I visit my old town, it doesn't seem like the same place. The light is different, the climate is different, everything it barely resembles it but it doesn't have the same feel. It's like all that happened in another dimension, one far beyond my reach.

>>6424

> What do you wish you could experience again

a non-jaundiced outlook on the world, and the youthful energy to match it. Generic answer, but its the only one that strikes me as honest. I'd rather have the energy and the Will to Power of a based zoomer, than recreate a world that never was.

tfw you have given up on nostalgia

>>6424

The tiny thing mostly, kinda similar to what you said. I wasn't in good terms with my grandmother, shortly before she died we found path to each other, then when she passed away I realized the most retarded thing and that is I will never eat her apple cake again. I miss being autistic kid making my own stories in head while playing old GTAs, I miss my first love of my life even though we basically haven't seen each other in a decade, I still have dreams about her even though I wouldn't want to have anything with her anymore. I think I miss more that innocent childish clueless love which will never be possible again. I miss times where I could spend time watching just how it rains outside and I miss times where I could go outside without anxiety. I lost me as a dreamer, anything was possible in my head. I miss times when summer was summer, autumn was autumn and winter was winter, not this fucked up shit weather. I miss playing football (soccer) with friends after school until night. It's all these tiny little bullshit things. I also lost all my illusions about my parents and about myself as well so in last 3 years I spent kind of re-discovering myself because I never truly knew myself, which sounds weird.

>>6482

same, I can no longer enjoy them, but I remember when I could.

>>6431

You beat me to the punch. I, too, look back at the days where I had things like hope and a belief in some kind of greater good.

>>6424

I wish I could go back to the time before I had the knowledge of good and evil. I wish I could see the police and our neighborhood friends, the president as our hero, and salute the flag with everyone else. I wish I could see McDonald's as tasty tread after school, not soy pumped garbage aimed to weaken me. I wish I could watch TV or go to the movies without noticing all the forced interracial couples and growing angry. I wish I could drink and dance with my friends without a care in the world. I wish I could be innocent again, and in turn see the world innocently.

>>6482

I've gone through a renaissance for a bit. for now I guess.

>>6480

I have a load of Star Wars shit but don't play them really at all.

>>6437

so is yer mum, wide hips. nice tits. breddy gud

10/10

>>6569

Do weeb girls really not like men now? I know there are less fujoshits it seems like, and maybe part of the reason is those communities gradually getting filled with more males. Idk.

There's something really sad about it.

>>6424

i miss seeing nice girls in high school

im not a high schooler any more

it was just looking at them

Quiet honestly nothing. Almost every day is the same stupid bullshit. Atleast Im no longer in high school. That was hell incarnate. Uni isn't much better, but atleast Im no longer forced to be with normalfaggots for half a day…

>>6597

>20s, going to metal shows

Envious af.

>>6474

>People in their teens

Zoomers still exist. But seriously, I know what you mean and I think it's part of adulthood because I've seen the same thing. Guys become obsessed by money for some reason and girls are starting to realize they have about 10 years left go get a chance for healthy baby. When you think about it, it all makes sense. Men subconsciously try to chase security and stability (unfortunately only that material ones) and women children (unfortunately often without any clue they are the ones who create "home" for the family). This cocktail of normicism is becoming very interesting when you add to it first serious life failures and/or emotional and psychological instability; and I think then you can see some doomers emerging from that pile of crap.

>>6500

>I miss the days where I could delude myself that everyone else is wrong that the problem is them and that in the end I will be a winner. That doing well at school will fix all my problems and beeing social misfit is no problem at all.

I went from everyone is a mistake but me, to I'm fucked up everyone is right, back to everyone is a mistake but me, but sometimes I fuck up too. One of biggest disappointments in my life came when I realized most of the people (at least those I knew) were and are worthless imbeciles, from peasant up to highest politician. It isn't so egoistic as it seems, it helped me to allow myself to do things wrong because everyone else is complete mess. Before that I was pathological perfectionist, scared to do anything because it wouldn't reach my desired ideal.

>The days where you just walk out of your house and hang out on the playground with the 20 other children

Are kids even doing this anymore? When we went outside as kids during summer day, there were kids everywhere, we as group randomly met other groups and went to playground or on bicycles and went fishing or something like that. When I go outside I rarely see any kids just doing bullshit in park or on streets.

>Past elementary I never had this ever again and I think it destroyed my ability to feel alive as a person. Like something just died inside me for good

Definitely my ex "killed" me. We were together for so long and from the beginning it was this pure love but then she started becoming sexual and - yes it will sound totally retarded for muh alpha males here - it made me just be interested in her much less. However we were together for years and when she started with ideas of living together and travelling (cancer) together I realized at this age being in relationship is just not something I am capable of nor it's something I would desire. It all seemed as everything about love and it boiled down to "if we can satisfy of material and practical needs (mostly hers)". This love is possible only if you are kid because you have no responsibility. Also people lose with age their innocence and that's irreversible.

>At least you had a relationship with your childhood love BO, I never had the courage to tell her and after elementary we drifted apart completely.

It wasn't so simple though. I was extremely lucky to have it at least and I think it was the most beautiful thing that happened in my life but it quickly turned into nightmare after our paths split up and I kept my feelings for her. Luckily, it seems the truth is that time heals every wound, only if I could stop meeting her in my dreams. Every time that happens my following day is totally fucked up and I can hardly focus on anything else. But still I kind of wish I never stop dreaming about her, it feels like drugs, it drags me down but it sometimes feels good. You had something nice as well, after all, be glad you at least met her, these memories shouldn't be source of regret.

>I can identify with so much what you write…

Yes it seems you went through similar stuff. It's weird because there wouldn't be day during which i wouldn't ask myself if I am even real. I would also like to know what is the endgame of existence. Let's hope we will eventually get some answers about ourselves.

>>6569

School system is complete scam, isn't it? They start with building optimism in you when you are child, oh sweetie, you can do anything in your life, you can be anything. Then it quickly breaks and suddenly you are forced to decide between very few career choices which often require years of additional effort. Schools are concentration camps for live stock of government (that's why governments are caring about children being born, because it's their capital). They don't even let kids play anymore, fucking 9 year old kids today talk about professions like some business strategists, when I see that every time it just makes me vomit.

>Now thanks to all the cherrypicked/faked stories about men being rapists, the quiet nerd-ish girls have lost their interest in dating men.

I'd rather have woman with freedom to be left alone than woman with social pressure on her shoulders because muh kids and marriage even if she doesn't want it. But that's the catch, it must come from her free decision, if she is socially pressured into becoming lesbian, asexual or whatever, then it's not good either.

We are overpopulated anyway, the less people fuck the better for planet.

>>6606

>We are overpopulated anyway, the less people fuck the better for planet.

Not really, it's just there's too many useless eaters. Africa, China, and India are the main culprits.

>>6610

Ah, still too much illusions about western world? Trust me, you are not wrong but we don't need that much whites anyway, natural resources are very limited even here in Europe or in America.

>>6612

*what would have happened

>>6600

it wasn't always fun, constant run-ins (way worse at shows that featured punk bands) with thugs that tried to lecture and concern troll you over things like feminism and veganism and all that gay crap. I'm still sort of "part of the scene" but who ever told you scene unity is cool lied to you. that's why I do bedroom/basement projects and stay away from "scenes"

>>6574

There's fewer fujoshits because they're getting pushed out. It's not about gay dudes anymore, now it's about dykes, because with two women there's no ugly, stinky, sexist men involved. You even look at modern pandering media and you'll notice that among the official couples, there's few/none involving two gay dudes. It's all dykes. Doesn't help that we had yurifags before all this calling it the "purest form of love". And I guess there are more men like you said. Said men just think they're women, and you know how trannies are with their lesbian fetishes.

It's funny. Back then I found fujos annoying because they wouldn't shut up about shipping their two favorite bishies, but now? I've gained a slight appreciation for them. Because at least they still like men to some degree. Plus dykes hate them for that same reason.

>>6614

>basement projects

I wanna hear your shit. This is where I am now, too, except I wanna form a new band to gig and sell my shit (like I used to do). I don't know, I enjoyed finding my 'scene' for a while here - my stuff has always been zany enough that I wasn't sure I would, but now I don't get gigs like I used to because my band is over.

>>6619

What I remember with /y/ is it had this chill af atmosphere which I think owed a lot to the unique vibe girl perverts have compared to autistic chantard boy perverts. Over time more boys discovered yaoi and kind of helped ruin it. I think.

But yeah, you're right about the gay men, too. Gay maleness is getting fucked.

>It's funny. Back then I found fujos annoying because they wouldn't shut up about shipping their two favorite bishies, but now?

Ngl, I never saw a problem with them. Same with women in general who really admire erotic male aesthetics in that kind of obsessive artistic way. That's great.

>>6635

Suck my dick, faggot.

>>6569

>I also miss when socially-awkward women still liked men

well, the one I know does. She had this dude she liked. Her brother's best friend. They spent so much time together but he was too much of a coward to admit his feelings. Imagine that, having your perfect girl handed to you, both having similar attitudes and hobbies, spending quality time in parks hugging each other and then you are too much of a coward to just seal the deal and tell her how you feel.

it was the perfect real life anime story and I wanted it so much to happen

and she is a fujo in most regards. likes the typical otaku shit, very sensible and tender in nature. I hope one day they find to each other.

>>6604

>Are kids even doing this anymore?

Well, on my old school yard we had this soccer field. We used to be there at least 2 or 3 times per week when we were not on our own playground in the neighborhood. There was always someone playing. Last summer when I went past there on a sunny day in sunday it was nobody there. It was even summer vacation. I do see kids there from time to time but it is less than back in the day for sure.

>This love is possible only if you are kid because you have no responsibility. Also people lose with age their innocence and that's irreversible.

Another piece of wisdom. Really sad what happened BO.

>You had something nice as well, after all, be glad you at least met her, these memories shouldn't be source of regret.

I am glad I met her, yes. She was a wonderful person and it was a beautiful feeling. Regret is part of the experience but what hurt me more was that feeling of not beeing good enough. Whenever I encounter it again in life I can't help but feel reminded of this experience. The feel of not beeing good enough…

>If I am even real

Sometimes I ask myself if I am the fake one or society is. I am not sure …

>>6606

>school is concentration camp for livestock

and another piece of wisdom

>fucking 9 year old kids today talk about professions like some business strategists

let me tell you the story of albert

>be anon

>have sister who is teacher at private school

>parents with cash and high ambitions send their kids there to make it into academic high school and later in college

>there was this kid albert

>10 years or something

>already the signs of beeing a future /b/tard

>"Miss teacher, let me show you a game I programmed"

>programs in html

>Sister: "I was so mesmerized by him, blah blah"

the worst thing is they don't even realize that this is a ted kachinsky in the making. He has all the warning signs of a wasted youth and frustrated adulthood. His parents pushed him to some shit he will use interest for and then he will have nothing left in life. One other kid was talking how he wanted to be a "hardware developer". Kid, when I was your age, I had no idea what electronic circuits are, let alone the desire to design them. Society produces broken humans and then complains about them later in life.

>>6620

it sort of puts Third Positionism and filters it through lenses of Absurdism and Situationism

most of my fans are Atomwaffen incarnate.

dunno if I should be happy about that or not

some of the most recent stuff:

https://archive.org/details/ArseterrorWhiteWolfInBlackSheepsClothing

https://archive.org/details/ArseterrorNoahDobbsMariaGivesAIDSToKids

https://archive.org/details/ArseterrorAmmoKilsonFucksChildren

https://archive.org/details/ArseterrorZureSexuBerekoLangileaBortxatzenDu

https://archive.org/details/ArseterrorKimKiliKashZuAleudwAltanasuliuAlnasawiaAlfasid

I've heard a lot of noise/industrial/experimental superfans say what I do is too much for them. that speaks volumes, so to speak.

here's a bonus one for all you yid lass fetishists

https://archive.org/details/ArseterrorMaybePunkRockShouldDie/

>>6635

I'm sorta pro-ISIS jsyk. for keks ofc.

>>6693

Woo, yeah, this is harsh stuff.

>>6717

yeah been doing since the myspace days (2006 to be exact), started as a mere gorenoise/noisecore project that started going off in experimental directions once I discovered HNW, power electronics, experimental industrial and drone and ritual ambient music

I got kicked off bandcuck twice due to "objectionable content" and got my paypal yanked so idgaf about making money from it. I am an outsider.

there's some rhythmic noise in there too

Saturday Morning Cartoons while mom cooks breakfast with cinnamon rolls. After breakfast call my 2 neighborhood friends and go explore shit. Spend all day in various forests and end it with sharing a meal all together at one of our houses.

We all took a bit sperate paths in life and I don't talk to them much anymore. No hate, just not much to relate to anymore.

>>6693

>most of my fans

you dont have any fans here nigger. no one cares about pol pot or reddit spacing you faggot nigger. GTFO

>>6721

>there's some rhythmic noise in there too

you don't know how to play music so you rationalize those sonic turds with goofytalk. you suck. go away

>>6748

>>6750

Nah, man. This stuff is harsh for me and also kinda long for me, but Ammo Kilson Fucks Children bangs.

>>6685

>but what hurt me more was that feeling of not beeing good enough. Whenever I encounter it again in life I can't help but feel reminded of this experience. The feel of not beeing good enough…

I felt completely the same with my last ex even though I did my best all or most of the time. After we split up I realized I was good enough but maybe not good enough "for her". Now I don't mean it as she had huge expectations, just we wanted something different from life. I don't want to give you some meaningless advice but what if you were good enough, just you being good enough wasn't enough for both of you? Nobody who tries his/hers best should feel in relationship/love as being something less or not good enough, that's pure torture.

>Sometimes I ask myself if I am the fake one or society is. I am not sure

Image you are the fake one and society is real. That's one of the scariest thoughts ever.

>that story

I know what you mean but nonetheless there are kids who are interested in all kinds of this stuff. I was always interested in computers as a kid and I had few classmates in elementary school who were building all kinds of electronic circuits for fun. Not like it matters, one was stereotypical asian and other was a gypsy. What I found disgusting in this case was that I saw how they turned this gypsy kid into nobody over the years because every day teachers made him feel like he is worthless without any future. That's pretty rough for a kid, I think he now works at farm or something like that. It's very weird situation, clever kids who love "nerdy" (I hate this word) things are pushed to back as weirdos while every other kid sits there with expensive tablet and at age 9 is talking about career development. Take a look at /g/ sometimes, these people are already in IT sector and it changed the environment drastically. Even in work, people you call "kachinsky in the making" will quickly burn out and start to hate tech just because they have to work with idiots who are there just for career while they want to work on piece of software or hardware and being left alone by the rest of the world.

>>6798

Yeah, I remember the time before the internet. It really feels like a whole other world at this point. It feels like we traded our souls for instant information; a twisted, digital kind of Faustian bargain.

>>6424

A sense of community. I kinda wish I could go back 100 years ago and work on the land with a small own around me. Where you know everyone and there's no foreigners around. Even when I go shopping today I don't:t know any people there, because there are too many mixed with tourists.

>>6750

being able to play succintly is not the point of harsh noise.

I think you're missing the point here. if people hate me, I get off on it. you understimate how little negative feedback has on me.

>>6748

>reddit spacing.

this meme is retarded as your comment. that's nice, now suck my cock nigger faggot. by fans I mean people that aren't on here, pretty narcy of you to assume that I was talking about this place. I don't care and duly noted.

>>6758

I understand. but I don't expect people to like me, I rather have a legion of haters than fans. I don't like humanity and watching it die is lifefuel.

>>6815

I unironically like that attitude. How can I help spread your music to people who will actively hate you?

>>6816

its because I've been bullied online since the dawn of the internet and even IRL. I don't even leave my house much these days, smoking and loads of caffeine is my diet. I dunno just post it on normie social media. thats an easy route but still. hell make discs and write names of local bands on it and say its an advance copy of their demo and then pass them out. you might become a target so just make sure you know your surroundings.

I miss the time when technology still felt out of reach.

I built my current PC in 2013 and haven't needed to touch it, it still plays modern games at 60FPS, and even though I could afford upgrade to something more modern and go up resolution and refresh rate, the drive has gone.

As a kid I loved reading through the mini-catalogues in computer magazines, looking at computers, laptops, accessories I could never hope to afford. Things seemed so new and exciting. That's all gone now. The cheapest computer you can buy new will do everything your average joe needs or wants to do.

>>6814

>>>/cow/

>>6834

that's cool. nice pic. is that you?

>>6830

cianigger containment board. you should go there and not come back.

>>6915

Agree a lot.

In fact, even YT used to be a community site. It wasn't corporate back then, people talked to eachother. Now sites like FB and nowadays YouTube actually deliberately make it harder for people to bond over ideas or communicate… and in their place is the corporate shit.

>>6827

Wanna do a split?

I'm a folky/rocky singer/songwriter and I'd really like to fuck with the few fans I still have.

>>6919

>FB

For me it became only wall of sponsored posts. Fuck social network sites and other bullshit, nobody uses it as when it was fresh thing, and maybe that's actually good. Now you won't read about anything else other than how Facebook and any other place where people can write what they think is filled with "trolls" and hate speech. Thanks sns.

>>6920

This is a serious offer, by the way. I can host this shit for digital, and if you wanna make CD-Rs of it you can.

Jerking off.

>>7623

>a lot of them are not raised but groomed into shit like becoming trannies, their whole worldview is being skewed into this bizarre contraption that is nothing but a temporal aberration of current artificial trends and has no value compared to the rest of history, or the future that's coming. And this is having a long-lasting effect.

I don't know where started this meme that zoomers are anything good. Some people unironically thought kids who eat xanax pills like candies in their 14 years of age, know no life outside of their trend bubble of social media etc. are somehow the future of conservative movements or some shit like that. They were literally born into mind cage, there is no other way of describing it. They are fully in control of trends which are all the time nothing but artificial crap. Imagine being on psychomeds because you are not fitting in because of your wealth, status, clothes, other bullshit. I don't say we hadn't got trends and people my age weren't trendsheeps in their teens, but the pressure on us weren't so big as it is on today's kids and it's paying huge toll on their well being.

>when those things came out when I was in my early 20 I remember I thought I would have killed for having that tech as a kid when the best you could get was a palm pilot with a green screen and 16MB of storage and no internet, or a game gear that took 6 AA batteries to get maybe 30min of gaming at best.

I remember at certain point I wanted PSP when it came out and smartphones were truly something amazing from tech perspective when you had like shitty phone with was only infrared or if you were lucky it had bluetooth to transfer data. Now I hate to use smartphones. It makes me angry to type something on it, it makes me angry to use internet on it because I have maybe shitty fingers or something, I don't know. Basically I pick up few calls from time to time and that's about it, wouldn't make difference if I had some really old phone from early 00s, at least it had some good games i could play while taking a shit or something.

>But hindsight is a bitch and now I realize having a fucking do-it-all device that puts the best PCs and consoles of my era to shame, broadband connection, cloud storage and can run for 8 hours without a recharge is not such a good thing for kids.

With exception of psychological pressure I think the most overlooked threat is that young people who use these technologies completely lost sense of privacy. Everything about you is out there and anybody can harvest all data about you in blink of an eye.

>you dont have so much access to information you also dont get to see all the bad shit happening in this planet.

As children you even shouldn't. I even disagree with putting pressure on kids when it comes to future professions in schools. Kids should be kids, "knowing nothing", playing around. There will be plenty of time dealing with pains of the world later as adult anyway.

>>7623

>But hindsight is a bitch and now I realize having a fucking do-it-all device that puts the best PCs and consoles of my era to shame, broadband connection, cloud storage and can run for 8 hours without a recharge is not such a good thing for kids.

Lol smartphones are shit-tier, bro. Can't even run flash, and "cloud storage" is literally just web hosting.

>>7626

>Kids should be kids, "knowing nothing", playing around. There will be plenty of time dealing with pains of the world later as adult anyway.

This is something I really hate about today - primary school grades are, liek, super important but when you're done they won't get you a job (even like carrying shit or greeting or something bog standard like that) or a life. So you get to adulthood, and suddenly you're supposed to just mill around like Scooby-Doo and play video games or some shit, and all the new* kiddie flix have, like, 20-something heroes. Like the dude in How to Tame Your Dragon would have been like 13 if that movie had come out in the '80s, but now he's 20s because everything's been delayed and old motherfuckers think that's just the way it should be or that the Y-gen faggots just naturally like that shit.

>>6500

>At age 20 I knew what I wanted in life, today I don't even know who I am and what values I represent. Am I even a real person?

Happened to me when I was around 16. Two years before that my familys problems escalated and then my dad died.

Maybe, for me such feelings came with guilt. I felt like I was a retarded kid. I tried to "build up" a personality with bulding something up like a portfolio what media I think I should like. I couldn't develop any skills back then, since after we moved I had literally nothing but a slow internet connection, an old computer and a tv. The public transport was too expensive to visit some old friends (I found out how they changed to shit like I said) and was completly isolated for months, before school started.

During that period of six year of fucking hell the only people I got known to was the really bad kind ones, mostly criminals, nazis and stuff. So I isolated myself again. Now I'm retaking college and I have this same feeling of emptiness like you described again, but less naive like with 16.

Now more than 2 years passed and I'm still hollow with no joy in anything. Guess my whole life was about being eaten alive slowly.

>>7680

>being famous for the sake of being famous, not actual talent or making OC.

Something even happened to art and I think it's not because of zoomers. All music sounds the same nowadays and I'm not even talking about ultra popular crap. Post-rock has this problem, shoegaze/dream pop has it, any indie rock has it like since 2010s at least. It's as if people only can copy one another and if you have somebody with something original, it's always coin toss, either he/she will become appreciated usually after paid media campaign, or people will hate it, while listening to same crap imitating some other band. I won't comment visual art, I don't understand what's happening there nowadays.

>I remember not being a poser was a big deal when I was a teen

Definitely but there were some trends going on in fashion and music even in 90s/80s and a lot people followed them. But I agree, going against the stream was much bigger thing, nowadays it seems it's bad attitude if you don't follow some trend.

>Some of these kids are gonna get their lives ruined 20 years from now because all the stupid shit they do now is gonna be stored forever. They could easily get blackmailed with it.

It's big problem in politics. If you have politician you can blackmail, you have leverage for your interests.

>>7708

>who walked around with a tshirt that had a logo on it and now kids go nuts over supreme which is just a cheap ass shirt with a big fucking logo in the middle or literally full of logos all around, and overpriced as fuck

Yes, they basically pay insane amount of money (for a clothes) just to be walking advertisements. It's not even artsy as in Warholian sense, it's just retarded. However, didn't this originated in skate culture? Stuff they sold was basically just all kinds of skateboards and tshirts with just logos on them but at least it had usually some interesting design.

>they track everything and have social graphs for everybody, even if you aren't on facebook or google they can infer who you are from what other people say about you

There is one more way how to cheat that and that is actually admitting your flaws of the past and being open about them. It doesn't mean more information about politicians will bring us better government sadly, we see it in EU. Politicians basically can do anything and it takes ages for people to even respond or go to streets. We've became very passive sheeps, no wonder """elites""" are laughing on us and not taking us seriously.

>>7719

I just guessed, I was never a skater so I have no idea.

>Then again I been out of the subculture for a while and wasn't there during the transition to whatever it is now

The only company I heard complaining was Thrasher because their merch became trend or something. There were a few articles about that.

>Dunno man, I wish people here had the balls to do something like the yellow vests in france, we have even higher taxes here and everybody seems happy to be fucked over by the government

There is hope that yellow vests will spread out all over Europe, however if you pay at least slight attention to media, I don't know how it is in your country but here you won't find any info about it. They inform about it once in two weeks like it's some regular violent protest while in fact this thing is going on for months. It's maybe hard to believe for some, but really a lot people have even no clue or don't care about yellow vests

>>6606

>We are overpopulated anyway

And all of that "over population" comes from Africa, China, and India. So you're just gonna cuck your genes out of existence because the 3rd world is breeding out of control?

>>7739

There is roughly 740-750 million people living on this tiny continent of Europe. Cities like London are overpopulated monstrosities (not even speaking about whole anglo-tumor is one big plague of this planet). We don't need to feed cities full of people who produce no real value other than virtual capital. Europe has big problem with agriculture and this problem will keep on rising, our soil is becoming not fertile enough to feed us. And you are telling me Europeans should outfuck the Africa, China and India. Retarded cunt, listen here, I was talking all the time about reducing the world's population. If you think our population counts are sustainable in west or east without having wars then you are blackest gorilla nigger. Even if Europe would be the only continent on planet and it would be populated only by Europeans, still I would call for reducing population. You argue like typical sjw, creating strawman whenever that is possible, ignoring the context.

>>8100

Imagine beating Hitler 1v1 in Quake arena

>>8123

you know damn well hitler would spam LG

>>7410

sure why not. just don't try a pull some pedantic "I feel sorry for you" bs that one dude did on /mu/

if you feel sorry for me, you feel in vain. there is only the void.

but if you're legit, then sure.

>>8134

Why would I feel sorry for you?

>>8237

Nvm this question

>>8134

Hmu when you're back on, gimme some way to contact you or I'll give you mine

>>8524

This was my childhood.

Pokemon and Yugioh cards.

I am glad you found some friends through it. For me it was me and 3 other guys from the playground. We used to play every now and then. Slowly we disbanded. Then it was only 2 of us left. Then the last one got busy with life as well.

Anyways I enjoyed collecting more.

>metagame

first it was the chaos

then it was the monarchs

then it was zombies and DAD

then lightsworns

then windups/sixsam/dino rabbit

then elemental dragons / dracossack and big eye

and eventually I was just pissed off and gave up following it

However, I am glad that I was able to complete my collection. When I was a kid I was growing up to poorfag parents. My cousin was a richboy. He always had the latest consoles and games, could buy cards whenever he wanted and he had his own tv in his room. I wanted this stuff. Then when I got older and could afford it after my first job, I bought all this crap.

Then completed my card collection. I was so happy so find all the cards I wanted since 2003. And eventually I understood that my youth was over and that I did not even need this crap now.

When I was chasing this materialist crap I felt like I have some thing to look forward. Some things to do. Researching where to buy. What quality. Now I don't have anything left to work for because I already have this materialist crap. Basically modern economy works by sticking the carrot to people in sight. People thinking they will be happy when they buy stuff and work work work to buy buy buy.

What do I do when this is not the case for me anymore? When there is no passion left for anything?

>>8553

We played with friends in the yard and anything we found was in our imagination some pokemon. I remember having big poster of all pokemons on wall. Then I don't know what happened, I kinda grew out of it and also pokemon went to shit when they introduced new season or new pokemons or what it was.

>>8134

Assuming you come at least once a week, bumpin' so you'll see this now that it's Wednesday. HMU

>>8797

link me your project so I can see where I can safely email you. don't want either of our emails to be shown on here

>>6424

I miss the rifle team in high school, my first seargant who ran it, him teaching me how to meditate, and gifting him a fruit tree.

I grew up isolated in a small town so most of my childhood was playing with my toys ot N64. Now I can only get pleasure from N64 games I played as a child and I feel so pathetic for that.

>>8952

Just scroll over my name in the post you just replied to, m8, idgaf

>>8979

email sent brah

>>9932

Ahh, the abominations I made in that game…

How badly do your miss parents that pass away? Both my parents are alive and I live with them so we interact often. When they're gone i Imagine it'll be like the sky suddenly turning neon green.

>>6424

Sadly, I don't even miss my pass. I just miss the present.

I want to play RuneScape in 2001 for the first time again more than I want to continue living

I wish I could go back to Super Mario 64, Pokemon Red and Silver, and Smash Bros for the first time

I miss vacant lots, animals, and enjoying the feeling of adventure in all the cartoons

>What do you wish you could experience again for the first time?

IV Opiates.

>>6801

>tfw you will never be able to explain to your kids what life was like without having instant internet in your pocket at all times

Shit even pre-smartphone internet was still great. You'd make friends from your local neighborhood, go to school, then go back home to your computer and have LAN parties or browse messageboards but it was much more decentralized. Even if you were shy and didnt make friends easily you still had much more human interaction than kids today.

>>6424

I always loved old video game sound effects. How would I go about creating stuff like that, not 8bit soyshit, but smooth airy pad-synth type stuff?

>>11435

Same as chiptunes. Those old synths worked that way, you had some programmed wave and you controlled pitch and/or velocity etc. Believe it or not but airy pad-synths are the same thing. Cheapest way? Download some free VST and program MIDI sequences manually if you don't have midi keyboard.

Can rec this plugin, you can get some oneohtrix point never sounds out of it as well, it has chorus and delay built in, you can get pretty decent variety of atmospheric sounds out of it, considering it's free.

>>11437

>>11438

Thanks, anon. Have a nice, smooth track.

>>14614

I have one install too but I still like Win2K more. It sucks dude, it really does. I'm paid to do programming but I totally lost all interest in computer stuff. I have to learn some new trade.

>>14614

I played with some early 90's CD-ROM infotainment titles in dosbox this weekend. You can get quite a lot of them on archive.com. The early 90s cyberdelic culture is somewhat of a forgotten counterculture today, but its influences are everywhere.

I wish I could wake up at 8 AM on a Saturday morning and start my day by eating Pop Tarts and watching cartoons. By noon, I'd be finished with cartoons, and spend another nine or ten hours playing outside with friends. This will never happen again.

I wish I could enjoy school again. It didn't feel like a chore, I was a pretty good student, and I was able to socialize pretty well.

>>6569

>I also miss when socially-awkward women still liked men.

Yes! Weirdos and art girls used to be so much fun. Most of them were pretty accepting of attention, even if they didn't reciprocate flirting, though when they did it was an almost immediate guarantee you were going to have sex. I made friends with so many random art thots and nerds during the 00s, and managed to screw several of them while I was at it. We're never going back to that. By the time I hit my late 20s, the seal was shut. Girls under 26 are just a different breed and girls in their late 20s and 30s have either adapted to semi normie lives, become seriously devoted to a partner, or hit a fucking wall so hard you don't even want to know them anymore.

>>6915

Everything in this post. The normie takeover at the turn of this decade ruined our fun house. Worse, it turned everyone into a brainwashed social justice hoe or a plebe tier conservative. I just miss being a jackass for no reason. The Internet used to be a place to have fun without consequences, now it's become a platform for a culture war without end in sight, while big tech moguls rape us for our data.

The 14-yo me would very dissapointed if he sees what I've become, and wasting my time, instead of sucess in my dreams which I got them planned for nowadays.

>>25991

I'm prety sure we talked about that board in meta thread

>>6465

fuck, I used to do this every day after school. ride my bike to 7-11 with the other neighbor hood kids and shit

>>10408

>Silver

I still have my copy of Silver after all these years. I always preferred books over vidya tbqh (and I was always the kid who read the classics over what was hip and popular - I read at a "university level" but my parents were too busy hating each other to really capitalize, so I hit the burned out gifted kid bingo pretty quickly) but Silver was one of the very few games that I can still play now and then if only because of the feelings it gave me - I remember telling a younger relative about it right as the news broke that the WTC was hit. I've always said that 9/11 was the day the world ended and everything since is just the world taking its sweet ass time coming to a full stop. Regardless of what people think of it, I think future historians will point to it as the turning point. I like to think 2007 was just pissing on the grave compared to 9/11. I could be wrong, but whatever.

>>6424

To answer your question, I miss when I used to watch vid related. Hockey (the only sport I ever really got into) was my escape when I was a kid - my parents were either utterly uninterested (Dad) or trying way too hard to be because we had NOTHING else in common (Mom), and I never really knew anyone who was a fan of it, or even sports at all, so I'd watch the games, I'd play them too (still have some in their original boxes even), and I'd just zone out for as long as I could. A lot of the anons here have posted about having much more exciting pasts than I did - mine was pretty much trying to watch hockey while my parents bitched in the background like one of those "it's 2009 and you're playing MW2…." videos. I didn't really have friends (Mom's paranoia scared them off because she kept saying no to them coming over and Dad, being as pussywhipped as he was, eventually caved in after token support of me) so I lost myself in hockey and books. Nowadays, though, I can't even stand either.

>>26089

>I've wasted my best years of neuroplasticity on learning the names and characteristics of fucking pokemon instead of real world animals.

What's funny is that I used to be the exact opposite; I used to know a shit ton about animals, particularly dinosaurs. Even went to a museum to see all the fossils and shit. Problem was, my parents didn't really care. They'd "that's nice, dear" the shit out of me with literally ANYTHING I got into to the point I didn't get into anything at all because I was like what's the point, nobody cares. To this day, I still have trouble getting into anything because of this negative association. I'm barely able to even comment on this board, I couldn't imagine going outside and approaching somebody and say hey, man, you into X or Y or even Z?

israel isn't a legit state

>reply to ancient posts in a necrothread

Sure, why not.

>>7869

Someone might read all that and think you're a retard. I never did that sort of thing, but I get it. It's the thumotic impulse, which in the greatest men is stronger than the fear of pain:

>jumping off the park equipment all in the pursit of purposely trying to break a bone for footage.

A few years ago I saw a skate video called "ok buddy fuck whatever" which was a half hour compilation of guys doing tricks on rollerblades, intercut with stupid shit you do when you're 20. Shit you might only appreciate later in life, through nostalgia goggles.

It had nothing at all to do with me, or with the shitty existence I had led all through my 20s, but I still saw it and thought holy fuck, this is what I'm nostalgic for; not dicking around with a controller in my hands or any other kind of consumption or comfort, but having that impulse and the glorious freedom of not knowing any better.

>>8553

>What do I do when this is not the case for me anymore? When there is no passion left for anything?

You'll probably kill yourself with drugs, statistically speaking. Otherwise, you might find that this "negative" lack can be reframed as positive freedom: What happens when you're relieved the burden of empty consumerism? What has modernity pushed out of your heart that might come back to fill the vacuum?

>>26558

>As it turns out you can be borderline retarded in academic terms but if you've charisma and make friends with the right people you still get a free ticket to the top. And they say nepotism isn't a thing.

It's not just nepotism. Like people were saying in that thread about the flagrant drug dealers, a big part of getting ahead in life is to stop getting in your own way and just do whatever it takes.

There's this video series on youtube that illustrates the concept perfectly, over and over again: Vagrant Holiday. Dude only gets in his own way one time in all six parts, which is when he insists on fucking with the coke mafia in portugal. The rest of the time he's hopping freight trains and trespassing everywhere he goes, because he doesn't let bullshit stop him from doing what he wants. He mentions someone telling him "I couldn't go into the train graveyard because there were workers" and the dude is like "no shit there are workers. Fortunately, they don't care," and he just walks in in broad daylight and explores the rusty old trains to his heart's content.

We're so smart we can't even live our own goddamned lives anymore. Too clever by half, I guess.

>>26817

>Like people were saying in that thread about the flagrant drug dealers, a big part of getting ahead in life is to stop getting in your own way and just do whatever it takes.

The vast majority of those guys dont last long, in that same thread they mentioned how most of the people in that line of work make less than a wagie in a mcjob, only the mob bosses make any actual money

>There's this video series on youtube

Gonna stop you right there: most youtube channels doing that stuff are edited to fuck or even scripted, its really fucking hard to make any money on that shithole website these days with 100k views only getting you like $5, so you have to go for the clickbait shit and "alternative travel" is really profitable clickbait

>>26828

>said prodigies grew up with a healthy home life, with parents that are decently wealthy and educated; all unlike how I grew up

This, everybody fails to mention how bill gates was the son of a millionaire lawyer and had access to a computer as a kid in the 60s when that was rare as fuck. And how zucc from fb was also the son of wealthy parents who bankrolled his way to harvard and even payed a private CS tutor to teach him

At least you weren't born in a third world shithole like me and >>26799 did, thats a real handicap

>>26868

>This, everybody fails to mention how bill gates was the son of a millionaire lawyer and had access to a computer as a kid in the 60s when that was rare as fuck. And how zucc from fb was also the son of wealthy parents who bankrolled his way to harvard and even payed a private CS tutor to teach him

And that's just the billionaires. Go one step down to the millionaires, where it's successful artists instead of tech giants, and it's not much different, only less obvious. Think of any random musical prodigy who's been making music since middle school. He might not have had filthy-rich parents, but they had at least some disposable income. Enough to buy him an instrument and some books so he can get started. He might not have had highly-educated parents, but they were smart enough to know how to raise a damn kid, giving him enough guidance so that he knows how to socialize and work smart instead of hard, and also enough freedom so he can chase his dreams.

Crazy what difference a decent fucking upbringing can make. Without it, you're one of those former gifted kids that's stuck working a dead-end job. With it, the sky's the limit.

>>26902

>>26868

http://7chan.org/rnb/res/22493.html

>>26828

>We will never be the great person that we spent years making up in our heads

how to cope

>>26817

>you will kill yourself with drugs

nah I prefer the good old hibachi method

but thank you for your compassion

>What has modernity pushed out of your heart that might come back to fill the vacuum?

I honestly don't know. I don't feel human anymore. It is as if something inside my sould died but my body is still hellbent on living.

I lost my will to live on for whatever reason

I lost my hunger for more

>>26991

I think your soul hasn't died, but is vestigial and atrophied, and is in fact only now beginning to live. You might be passively rejecting NPC consoomer programming, whereas you need to actively reject pissearth and its poisonous assumptions to become your own person— a real human being with a purpose and sense of meaning.

The way you feel is normal under the circumstances. "The circumstances" include things like pics related. The answer to that has to come at least partly in reaction to how shitty and meaningless everything about living in the first world has become. We're herd animals, so we see the future set out for us, and the spiking suicide rates, and "the circumstances", and inwardly can't help following suit. It's only natural.

So the first step is to consciously decide to be a little unnatural; to differentiate yourself from the herd, and from the future they're choosing. You even need to be a little arrogant and say that while normies need to be told what to think at all times and have nothing to live for but consume product->get excited for next product, you, on the other hand, do have a soul and a will to strive for something that matters. You don't need to be led by the nose like cattle. You have the capacity to think for yourself, and to question your programming, and if you embrace that then purpose will come in time.

>>6424

I miss nothing. Due to my sheltered upbringing, my life to date has been little but a hollow shell, and I'm objectively more driven than I've ever been. Whatever good things from my past that are worth experiencing are still available to me.

>>26902

>Crazy what difference a decent fucking upbringing can make. Without it, you're one of those former gifted kids that's stuck working a dead-end job. With it, the sky's the limit.

Exactly. It pains me to think just how much potential we've had squandered because of the lack of that, it really does.

>>27003

Thank you for your reply

>become your own person

yeah this is the problem. I don't think I am a real person

I have no passions, no real hobbies and my interests are mostly only temporary. When I read about people, surfers for example, how they spend the entire summer at cape town, australia or Hawaii, surfing entire day I cannot relate to them

I find it beautiful that they have this burning desire to do what they love but at the same time I find it hard to relate because I never had anything like that. Whenever I got interested in something I lost interest shortly afterwards. Happened again in the recent years. I tried drawing, music, sports. Nothing ever lasted

Sometimes I just think I am an evolutionary failure. Born to be lazy, slack off and do nothing entire day then hating yourself the next day for wasting the previous day watching youtube videos or doc movies

you wrote much about the herd and things like that.

I never felt the desire to be in any herd or group. I feel no kinship with anyone. not even with people who like the same stuff I like

This is what I mean when I say I must be defective somehow. Nobody with half a functionning brain would have this attitude.

Something just went deeply wring with me and I see no future for myself on this planet here

>>27015

look it is same with everything in nature. If you have no connections you are unlikely to ever join the club.

when you watch doc movies about yellowstone national park in the rocky mountains

you see animals have their quarters. They will not tolerate any outsiders coming to their territory

Same is true with most professions and business related crap

It is a big boys club and you ain't their friend. This is why lawyers have those never ending lawyer tests you have to pass before you can actually become a lawyer yourself. They hate competition and they want nobody in their club cannibalizing their profits away. In the end, we are just like those animals in the wild.

>>27023

Haha, that was a fantastic video

I didnt know there was an Alex Jones version of the

>Akiramen dayo

video from that japanese fisher guy

>Fatherless men

yes I identify with this. daddy was a good for nothing, still is today even. He never seemed to be interested in his family.

I once asked him jokingly if he just married because he was afraid his neighbor would suspect him of being a homo or what.

and I deducted my mother must have been brain damaged to be attracted to someone like him or just looking for the first escape ticket from her own retarded parents

I have his exact worst characteristics lazy, no own initiative, never risk anything, pessimistic outlook on most things in life etc

Sometimes I think if I was adopted by a normie family, I could have been a functioning member of society today

>spend our childhood hyper-stimulated in front of various screens,

yes, TV was my #1 activity. cuckime and cartoons. but the interesting thing is my parents are tv junkies themselves so here again, children turn out like their parents in most cases. I just exchanged the tv for internet

as more time passes, I see more and more similarities with them and I feel like I was set up to be a failure from the very beginning

>and then as adults find that we have no self-discipline, and have to build it from scratch.

no the thing was that when I was growing up I was an effort guy. I would put much work in my school shit

if necessary I can work towards a goal. But eventually I just reached a phase where I asked myself what good is this shit all for?

Why should I continue putting in effort when I felt dead inside already and saw no sense in doing anything anymore

This is existencial crisis stuff. You reach a mental state where you start seeing that you were a failed experiment and should not be alive anymore. In the jungle I would have probably died as infant already was very sicklish as child but science artififally kept me alive. If only the fit survive then the unfit should have an integrated circuit breaker to just system down once their lives get unbearable.

Do you have a strategy to solve these problems Kanada-san?

I really wonder what someone can do when you know there is no future for you and your life is pointless.

I only know that philosophy, art and religion are not the solution because I tried those already and they are copes only

I miss a lot of things. Mostly is the things i screwed up. But i wouldn't like to live through again if i had the chance. Why would i do that? Every memories i have make me sad and remorseful. It's rather things i wish i haven't screwed up.

>>27040

>yes I identify with this. daddy was a good for nothing, still is today even.

So's mine - he couldn't even stand up for himself when his wife, my mother, fell for a pump-and-dumper and then boasted about it to her children as if she won the lottery.

>I have his exact worst characteristics lazy, no own initiative, never risk anything, pessimistic outlook on most things in life etc

Same here. My old man quit every job he had within two weeks because "somebody" screwed him, talking to him about anything other than the shitty movies he bingewatches is like trying to pull your teeth out with tweezers, and if someone said no to him for anything, he'd literally run off to his bedroom and sulk over it for the rest of the day - of course, he'd then say his kids doing that were just "lol what babies" - y'know, I'll never forget the day he kicked my TV in with his foot, then smashed up my bedroom. If it wasn't my mother writing my name on every little thing I owned, it was him breaking every little thing I owned.

>Sometimes I think if I was adopted by a normie family, I could have been a functioning member of society today.

Same here - I literally feel like I spent my whole youth living with roommates more than actual family. We literally had nothing in common, were at each other's throats….but honestly? I'd rather just not have been born period. I mean, Papa Anon literally asked me:

>Son, why can't you just be NORMAL?

Right AFTER being told that he had a GIFTED child on his hands. I honestly think he hated me because I had "mild autism" (allegedly - my parents never really cared enough to learn about it) in contrast to my brother, who although he was a high school drop out who stole over a thousand from my parents, was still their favorite because he was the normal one. I'll never forget the moment when my mother had an opening at this store she worked at. I was a teen struggling to find work, but y'know what she did? She recommended my brother, who had no work history whatsoever: at least I had volunteered before. My brother never even showed up for the job, and my mother STILL hates him for "embarassing" her in front of all her "friends" and I'm like what the fuck? You had a son who would've KILLED for even a shitty retail job like that, and you gave it to the NEET who eats everything in the house and once busted a gaping hole in the wall because you threatened to take away his shit for a change?

>yes, TV was my #1 activity. cuckime and cartoons.

I'll never forget when I watched certain shows like Hey Arnold, Daria, or some other similar show, and my old man comes up to me and says:

>anon, why do you watch this shit, do you wish you lived with those families?

I didn't tell him, and I still haven't, but honestly? Yeah, I'd gladly take the Morgendorffers or the Foutleys or the Hills or even the Duckman 'fam over what I was cursed with.

>no the thing was that when I was growing up I was an effort guy. I would put much work in my school shit. if necessary I can work towards a goal. But eventually I just reached a phase where I asked myself what good is this shit all for? Why should I continue putting in effort when I felt dead inside already and saw no sense in doing anything anymore?

I was the exact same, anon, but after seeing my brother literally get spoiled rotten even though he did nothing with his life whatsoever - got away with stealing over a thousand from our mother, dropped out of high school, ate so much of the food that the grocery bills reached over three hundred on a shoestring budget because Papa couldn't hold a job and Mama basically didn't wanna do anything but curl up with a nice dose of strychnine…hell, whenever I was able to have my "friends" come over from school, he'd literally take them from me and they'd end up spending the day with him….I was like well, why the fuck should I bother? I literally and deliberately fucked myself over, wasting countless opportunities, just because I was jealous of how my brother had it so fucking easy. I know, I know, I was a fucking retard, but to a child, that shit hurts, y'know?

>>27040

>I only know that philosophy, art and religion are not the solution because I tried those already and they are copes only

Anon, did your family ever trash your interests non-stop? I know mine did. I literally couldn't do ANYTHING without being called stupid, idiotic, retarded, etc for liking something like a show or a book. Somehow, everything I liked sucked, was shit, etc, but if I said that about THEIR interests, all hell broke loose.

>>27061

>Anon, did your family ever trash your interests non-stop? I know mine did.

Yes they did. And they did it with my sisters as well. Everything was seen as useless or something negative or dangerous. You see they are timid people afraid of everything except television. So they never lived their lives only wasted it for TV

And the worst thing is they inherited this shit characteristic that is not compatible with turbo competitive capitalist society to me. Whenever possible they would seperate me from other kids from school or playground

>no anon, don't go to other people's house

>we don't know them, they might be pedophiles

It is okay when you ruin your own life. Everyone should have the freedom to do so.

But children who grow up with parents like this. They never had a chance at life from the very beginning.

>So's mine - he couldn't even stand up for himself

same but mine used to mock me in childhood for not being bold enough. like I had a role model to learn from …

>My old man quit every job he had within two

well mine at least held his jobs. But he always all the time talked how much he hated his job

this comes from the man who told me just get an education, it will fix all your problems in your life

interestingly his degree helped him jack shit in life. They give you advice that didn't even work for them. Who does that shit?

>Son, why can't you just be NORMAL?

oh I love that one. They did do this crap with me too until I leashed out and trashed them for all the crap they did wrong. Then they stopped. It is really funny isn't it? When a farmer puts seeds into his soil, he keeps an eye on his field, gives it water, fertilizer, protects it from droughts and hail. You cannot just put seeds in soild and say

>okay friends, now look for yourself what you do now

and then expect anything good ever comes from it

I am really sorry for that story with the job opening and your troublemaker brother. This was really unfair but see it positive.

After that incident you found out what you really meant to your parents

>well, anon is a genetic dead end, let us focus on troublemaker timmy instead, at least he will procreate

this is the typical reasoning behind decissions like those. fuck this gay earth

>Hey Arnold

I loved that one.

It was a show about immigrant kids growing up in a New York neighborhood. It was a modern tale every single episode

I loved those urban legends that Gerald would always tell about. The shark in the city pond or the steps kid.

Then they would all together go to adventures. Everyone was good with everyone. Everyone had fun with each other until sunset.

Those were good times and I thank you for reminding me of it

Of course reading your story, now for everyone it is easy to just tell you

>well duh, anon, the solution is simple

>your family is just toxic

>you need to find a job and move out from them

yes it is true but until someone understand something like this it is usually too late already. The damage was already done

Children don't have the capacity to find out themselves that their families are toxic and before they find out as adults, they are already set up for doom

Their lives are already damaged beyond repair and in many cases not worth living anymore. Fixing things takes lots of years. Nobody who gave up themselves has the interest of doing that

But of course people have to tell you it was all your fault for not doing anything against it. It was so easy after all. Just find a job in our fucked up job market where they can kick you any time again at the first economic downturn and you end up homeless and worse then before and move away from the problematic people.

There are no simple solutions for complex problems

>>28349

Everyone likes to blame everything on leftism, but in reality, human nature determines things not political leanings.

>>28357

>Exactly. In the end, biology trumps ideology.

Actually its socio-biology.

But at the end of the day, humans are just creatures of instinct. We tend to forget that being blinded by our ability to build machines that can terraform or go to different realms.

To justify or explain our behavior we indulge in politics and philosophy, the world of metaphors and abstractions.

It's very sad that most adults dont know jack shit about natural science. Seriously, how many boomers must tell me the earth is flat or that hurricanes and wildfires are divine punishment?

They say the academic scores of the youth are dropping by the year, but why does it matter? Adults don't care about math and science anyway.

All they care about is their motivational seminars and conspiracy theories.

>>27444

Pretty shallow dream. The Internet is still edgy even with PC culture breathing down your neck.

>>29017

It's not edgy in the right way, though. You have to remember imageboardcels don't really give a shit about the internet, they just want to say NIGGER everywhere like they're twelve. Then again, considering how most millenials, the only ones who really use imageboards as much, are so fucking stunted, is it really surprising?

>>29048

Not all Millennials are imageboard users. It's just this sect that are.

And besides, nobody grows out of middle school.

Would be easier to list the things I dont miss than the ones I do, for I miss almost everything from my past

>>27023

>It's hard to stick to things when the reward pathways in your brain have been wired to seek the easiest, most pointless shit. And I see this all the time. Fatherless men spend our childhood hyper-stimulated in front of various screens, and then as adults find that we have no self-discipline, and have to build it from scratch.

Agreed, tho tons of boomers have fallen into that hole of addiction too

>>27040

>Sometimes I think if I was adopted by a normie family, I could have been a functioning member of society today

Most normie families are like yours, you're thinking a functional family

Theres a reason why most people today fall within some category of fucked-up, being functional isnt normal anymore

>I would put much work in my school shit

if necessary I can work towards a goal. But eventually I just reached a phase where I asked myself what good is this shit all for?

Same here, no matter how good my grades were shit just kept getting worse

People with far worse grades than me are doing better now

>Do you have a strategy to solve these problems Kanada-san?

Mine is becoming rich, I calculate that with 4 million dollars I could live off interests and bonds for the rest of my life. Not the uber rich life with hookers and a yatch, but upper middle class without having to be a wagie slave and dealing with office bullshit

>>27059

>my mother, fell for a pump-and-dumper and then boasted about it to her children as if she won the lottery.

Well fuck, thats heavy, what did you do?

>>27023

>It's hard to stick to things when the reward pathways in your brain have been wired to seek the easiest, most pointless shit. And I see this all the time. Fatherless men spend our childhood hyper-stimulated in front of various screens, and then as adults find that we have no self-discipline, and have to build it from scratch.

Yes and no. It's more this indoctrination about "changing the world" leading to wild expectations from elders smothered onto the youth.

And what's with this fixation on paternal influences?

I'm sorry, but most fathers aren't really passionate about child-rearing. They dump it on the wife to do. All this "male crisis" is because the machismo fantasy of male good is being broken in this neo-feminist era

All these guys nowadays promoting traditions/rites of passage a, etc are insecure idealists looking for their magical unicorn of machismo.

>>29077

Nostalgia is the main state of adulthood these days. One has to wonder if there are adults anymore?

We use 25 as the age of maturity now bc "muh brain development" but it seems to me that people over 25 devolve.

The past three generations of adults are just disgruntled grey-haired achy-jointed children.

>>6597

Just turned 20 and started going to metal/hardcore shows. The first one I went to made me feel so alive, SO alive for the first time in fucking years. The band and everyone there was so alive and emotional, the whole room was electric.

I missed it when Blacks Live Matter wasn't being shoved down my cranium and was talked about in every subject at high school. I also missed it when feminist or Tumblr users didn't try to "fix" anything.

>>6424

I miss the ability to even feel enjoyment (my sense of enjoyment disappeared at the start of high school) but I also miss when there were clear cut good/bad guys. Now it's really difficult to determine who you should support and who you shouldn't due to the persistent efforts of the mass media (and trannies on discord) to erode everyone's sense of truth. I remember political shit being a lot more simple during 2014/2015 when GamerGate was the biggest happening on the Internet and the SJWs were clearly in the wrong. These days it's impossible to find out who's doing what without having to pierce through 70 layers of psyops molded by the dicksnippers at Google. When I was a kid I never would have imagined such mendacity not only coming from the government but also the video games that I play, the shows that I watch and the people I (no longer) look up to.

>>29216

>The old board was a natural extension of /pol/

You mean failed millenialoid adults who blame everyone else for why they suck at adulting? You were so close to making a good point, but then you had to liken this place to /pol/ - also, I know you'll probably not believe me, but I'm one of those people who used to post here. I didn't even think this place was still around, and lo and behold here it is. It's /pol/ that fucked this place up. They took an apolitical, irreligious blackpill zone and turned it into everything it wasn't meant to be, and then we have anons like you who seem to think yeah, that's totally what we want. I used to be here when this place was more active - back when people posted webms of people literally shitting and cuckime fantasies about their fictional siblings. Yeah, such intellect, much deep.

>>29212

It seems to me you misunderstand not only what GameGate was, but also why it was (as gay as this sounds) significant. first off, it wasn't Zoe Quinn's questionable relationships with various figures in games journalism/indie dev scene for positive coverage that started GamerGate, it was the subsequent cover up/censorship of people even talking about the Five Guys across multiple platforms, that started GamerGate. It wasn't just "ethics in games journalism" but anons pushing back against people who were not only trying to dictate what can or cannot be said online but also acting like a bunch of smug faggots while doing so. Secondly, because the people opposing GamerGate were smug faggots they overestimated their ability to shut down dissent online (btw GamerGate would never have happened if the SJWs didn't try to shut down the Five Guys controversy and had just let anons get bored of it) leading to them fucking up and accidentally revealing the methods used to "shut down" the forementioned dissent that are employed not only by them, but the MSM as well, to a relatively mainstream audience no less. Sure some GamerGaters did some gay shit, sure GamerGate lost in the end and sure some GamerGaters suggesting that by defending their right to look at anime titties they're also defending 'Western Culture' is stupid, I'm not going to deny all that. But it wasn't just "manchild coomers" angry that some whore sucked dick to get good coverage, that view is reductive and is not an accurate interpretation of what transpired.

Also

>heh you think x is important, well why aren't you paying attention to a, b and c

>>29222

I ain't buying that, friend. Manchild coomers angry that some whore sucked dick to get good coverage (when there was literally no coverage, ironically enough - did you ever hear of Depression Quest at any point? Be honest) and acting like journalism was corrupted by the SJWs when it was corrupt since its very inception as a field no matter the topic is exactly what Gamergate was. Also, most people never even heard of GamerGate - even when that shit was at its peak, most gamers I saw were telling both sides to STFU and stop spamming forums, etc with their shit.

>anons pushing back against people who were not only trying to dictate what can or cannot be said online but also acting like a bunch of smug faggots while doing so.

Like you guys wouldn't? If over night, the roles were reversed and it was hip and cool to be "based and redpilled," you'd be doing the exact same thing and being even smugger just to own the toppled libs. Then again, what would you have to say? Gamerwords and pseudoscientific excuses for millenial failure? In an ideal world to most people, neither you anons nor the SJWs would be permitted to speak, just saying. The SJW threat was overrated anyway. It's a glorified fad that's going to explode with tons of lawsuits over trooning out and economic hardships induced by the Boomer Pox pretty much reminding people there's more to life than pandering to loud, vocal minorities of millenial losers. Don't gloat, though, because you anons are among them. Imageboards will likely be gone this decade.

>>29223

Also, I'm gonna be blunt. Gamer culture was a giant shitheap of unapologetic marketing by a bunch of dudebros who looked down on people like you for actually giving a shit about games. The people you met who genuinely shared your interests existed independently of that zeitgeist. SJWs invaded? It's just one soulless corporate wasteland exchanged for another. If anything, SJWs are just vultures that eat whatever everyone else left behind as roadkill once they were done with it - I see this all the time in so called "SJW infected" hobbies and media; ComicsGate, for example, was born out of the belief SJWs, rather than pedophobically pushing kids out of comics back in muh good old days and pandering to neckbeards, is what killed comics. Essentially, SJWs in media is just a consoomer civil war - anyone who actually gave a shit about (insert media here) having long since fucked off. If people really cared about games, Gamergate would've been about things like how locked DLC on physical copies of games means that future generations will never be able to play the full game like previous ones did. Where is the movement for vidya preservation? Where is the movement to get rid of microtransactions, always online, etc? Gamers have done far more damage to gaming than SJWs could ever dream of.

>>29230

I've become convinced you are for some strange reason hellbent on making all of the remaining posters in the board leave with your insane autism or you're just an insane autist. I've even gone as far back as a month ago and I recognize your vocabulary on older threads, please stop, you are owning no millenials, I assure you most people you talk to in here, myself included, are mostly zoomers.

Not even doomer, just really tiered man, but i really miss old chans and old internet in general.

Grass literally was greener back then.

>>29235

>old chans and old internet

You do realize the old chans helped kill the old internet, right?

>>29268

Hey, I wrote that! I'm >>29232 too.

I knew I recognized your writing when I said you had been making comments like these at least months ago. What's so hard to believe, dude? I mean it's not the craziest story ever, incest is common all over the world (which I don't use to justify it when it comes to having kids, that's fucked up), even if not both parties are "in love", I was definitely infatuated with my cousin for a while. Right now, as I said at the end of that thread, I'm attempting to isolate myself like I used to before I got out of my comfort zone, I'm feeling better than before.

I don't care enough to read what you guys were fussing about, just felt like chiming in, I just can't believe it takes you this much to believe me, perhaps you haven't met enough strange people online? I've made other posts here, many dating to a year ago, I'm a weird person, a degenerate.

>>29287

Yeah, if you are going to chime in with your millenial talk in each thread I don't see a reason to keep posting here, I was going to stop posting a few days ago but I thought I would try to get to tell you again that I'm indeed not one of your millenial caricatures when I saw you linking my thread.

I'm going to ignore the second paragraph entirely because is the same schizo ranting you do in each post. I don't disagree with gatekeeping in this community when it comes to certain things, some people here posting Discord links would be people I wouldn't welcome, people talking about how they want to dress like doomers just because is trendy would be people I wouldn't welcome, people that insert their politics in their posts instead of their personal problems would be people I wouldn't welcome. Do I really deserve to be picked apart? did I ever say my pain was equal to that of a war veteran, a single mother, a drug addict? no, I was talking about my thoughts, the thoughts of a young person that has isolated himself from human connections so much that he starts to attempt to project all sorts of feelings onto everyone who speaks to him even in a slightly nice way. But that wasn't even the reason your posts upset me, it's your lack of belief in the story and simple namecalling and millenial schizo ranting that truly disgusts me, even now you don't believe me, so I don't see the point in continuing talking to you, I just want you to know that not everybody that disagrees with your worldview of all pathetic faggots today being millennials, is indeed a millenial, I'm a zoomer, born in the 2000s, and I came out fucked up, deal with it, or call it a fantasy.

>>29291

For someone who claims to not be a millenial, you sure do know how to whine like them.

>Deal with it, or call it a fantasy.

That's what I'm doing, boyo. I'm calling it a fantasy.

>Do I really deserve to be picked apart? did I ever say my pain was equal to that of a war veteran, a single mother, a drug addict?

All I'm saying is that if it really meant that much to you, you would've posted it somewhere else, not on /doomer/ because there's nothing doomer-related about it. Just like all the other anons on here who post about "muh wimminz troublez" and expect asspats because to boast of one's inferiority complex and masochistic tendencies towards women is seen as based on imageboards. I'm an oldfag. I've seen tons of posts like yours. You have to at least admit that it doesn't sound any different than all the rest.

Also, what is a zoomer doing on an imageboard, anyway? You shouldn't be posting on one to begin with. Imageboards are meant for failed adult losers like millenials and based and truthpilled folks like me who fuck with them on the regular. You need to tell your story on a medium worthy of it. I would suggest abandoning imageboards entirely and opening up a blog or something.

But hey, if you want to go down that imageboard rabbit hole, go for it. Just know they'll likely be scrubbed off the internet by 2025-2030.