What is something you could do, yet something holds you back, and in the end, you still haven't done it?
Time keeps ticking by. It’s getting colder outside. I still haven't gone out for a walk. I’ve barely been outdoors at all this year - only a couple of times. I went out more often over the last five years, but only when necessary. I haven't gone for a walk - even alone (since, obviously, there’s no one to go with) - a single time in the last few years. Always at home. It’s monotonous. I don't talk to anyone, either - absolutely zero contact, even with my family, it’s very, very brief and strictly about practical matters. Physically, I *can* go out for a walk, but it’s just too hard. I’ll try to make an effort to get outside at least once this autumn, because I dislike winter and just want to breathe the air, you know? Maybe I should at least talk to someone online. After all, It’s actually pretty easy for me to meet new people. But keeping a long-term connection going requires at least some effort. Hehehe... I guess I’m just really stupid. FUCK. I hope I get out at least by early November.
