I AXEDENT-LY STOP SOME1 FROM BREATHING MONTHS AGO AND NOW I THINK I CAN MURDER THEM. LIKE THE POTENTIAL. THE ABILITY. I WANT TO MURDER BUT NOT THEM. I CAN'T STOP H THOUGHTS. I SAW THE PESTICIDE. I SAW THE PILLOW. I SAW THE PLASTIC. I COULD SIT ON THEIR CHEST. I COULD HOLD THEIR NECK. I'M NOT TRYNA BE EDGY. STOP FING CALLING ME THAT. I CAN'T STOP THINKING OF IT. MY LONG TERM GOAL NEEDS IT.
I DON'T WANT THEM GONE. IT WON'T STOP.
BUT THIS IS A MISSED OPPORTUNITY. I AM ATHIEST. MY FAMILY IS RELIGIOUS, THEY WILL THINK I'M POSESSED BY SATAN. THEY WILL TAKE ME TO CHURCH NOT A THERAPIST.
I DIDN'T THINK MY BODY WOULD ACTUALLY AGREE TO HURT PEOPLE.
I DESENSITIZE TO BASIC SLAP AND PUNCHES ON THEM. BUTT IT'S FING STUPID IT DON'T APPLY TO STRANGERS. FUCK THIS
MY GOAL WAS TO MURDER A STRANGER AND SPEND LIFE IN MY DREAM PRISON. MY MIND THINKS IF I KILL THEM... THEN I CAN KILL A STRANGER... I DOUBT IT WILL WORK... SO I WANT THESE THOUGHTS TO STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP. DON'T WORRY I AM HARMLESS. MY BODY WON'T COOPERATE.