if anyone has the lost books A Suspension of Ethics and A Journal From Hell by Alceste Esseintes, i would highly appreciate a share. These books are wiped from the internet, and nowhere to be found.
a while ago I saw a bunch of videos, ranging from drone-like pieces of music to video essays, made by a user by the name of Alceste Esseintes, a (presumably) deeply pessimistic schizophrenic, antinatalist, extremely isolated individual dabbling with occultism and satanism, about whom I could only read a few personal rumors through some blogs and posts in forums. Alceste Esseintes wrote two books, "A journal from hell" and "A suspension of ethics", that self-published and sold through Amazon, until he suddenly retired them from the website, alongside all the videos from his youtube channel. Afterwards Esseintes dissapeared from the Internet, and nothing is known about where is he now or why did he left.
https://www.goodreads.com/author/list/15204491.Alceste_Esseintes