/nofap/ - Fappers Anonymous

Day 1

The urges are quite strong, but I either focus very hard to make them go away or distract myself with physical exercises.

I noticed that being in the state of focus helps. It sounds very ambiguous, but once you reach that state and maintain it everything gets easier.

Also, in my experience, the first 14 days are the hardest. In these from day 1 to 5 you struggle with urges, and in days 9-14 you experience a drop of mood and motivation. After that for about 20 days you fight your habits and the baits that your brain gives you.

>>12828

I have 1 hour live stream every week because that day marks my weeks of no fap I usually don't forget. This will mark begging of week 12 so I am pretty pumped.

Day 2

It's nice to see this board alive. I may sound cheesy, but it is motivating.

As for me, nothing much to report. Some of my joints hurt a bit because I have not warmed up enough yesterday before exercising, so, yeah, if you are reading this then don't repeat my mistakes. Also I have been having headaches lately. Really unsure what could be causing these.

I check and update my journal around the same time I made the OP, once a day, so I could minimize my time on imageboards and erase the risk of accidentally or so my brain would force me to think lurking around, and thus erasing the risk of seeing any unwanted content.

After experiencing failures to get a stable, unshattered nofap streak for so many years I had a few of long ones, but there's not much of a point in writing about those since I am at day 2 now and I'd better focus in improving my current streak, I can't be not serious about nofap and self-improvement in general. I limit all of my activity and entertainment to stuff that will 100% sure thing there could be no such thing as 100%, but there are still chances which are close to absolute won't have any triggers. I try to go out during the day no more than once during warm or hot seasons, evenings and nights are okay, though, since all those 3dpd female creatures dress inappropriately but when it's dark it usually gets colder, the amount of people that are out is lesser, it gets a bit harder to see, the amount of dangerous people gets bigger and lots of 3dpd stay put in their shelters. Nothing but positive things. I'm not interested in those, but a trigger is a trigger, and the only correct response to its existence is to stay away from it.

Also, starting from this post, I will be namefagging for convenience.

I hope my subpar English skills are not a difficult thing to endure.

Damn, I sure spent my time sorting out my thoughts here. And I was going only to write "Nothing much to report about."

Day 3

I felt really depressed in the morning, so I increased the intensity of my workout. Now I don't feel depressed but just tired. And no joints were aching today.

>>12838

Good luck, anon!

I'm sure you will be able not to touch your crotch.

>>12842

It's wierd to see some one post about day 3 when I am on day 83.

Day 4

Everything is stable and pretty good. Barely had any urges but I'm not going to lower down my guard.

Also have some top anti-fap material.

I thinks it's pretty dope, though

>>12845

I kind of get it. When I was at my better streaks, I got surpised when anyone, be it IRL or on boards, mentioned fapping. Like, what the hell man, why would you fap, focus on your vidya/books/films/animeys backlog instead.

Day 5

I exercised right in the morning, so I was too tired to have any urges.

Day 5 has begun already, huh? Time flies a bit too fast.

Day 6

I had a very big urge to play vidya gaems. Was too busy to do that, though.

Day 7

Spent my time fucking around with emulators. I'd probably wasted the day on fapping if I were not on my streak, so I guess that's nice.

Day 8

You know what's the most difficult thing in updating this journal? Finding pics with anti-fap potential.

My day went fine. I think I have been eating less lately, which is weird. Also no urges for now.

>>12872

Yeah. I would not relax though until I hit the 365 day mark.

>>12876

>ASMR

I would not recommend that. It's still a stimulation that could awaken your urges.

Use the spare energy for exercising, studying and creating art, like >>12877 suggests.

The energy and resources that you have stopped using for fapping are now uncontained and chaotic, and your brain is likely to deal with this the easy way - by suggest you to go back to your old bad habits.

Instead of doing that, focus your energy on something fun and productive, stuff that would make you feel good and tired. It's like making a focused beam out of masses of your energy.

Day 9

Yo, looks like I have reached day 9. Stay strong, ya punks.

I'm all sore and tired from exercising today, so it looks like I'm finally going to bed earlier. I hope this will aid me towards fixing my sleep regimen.

>>12893

Hell yah brother

Day 10

I think my libido got super low, since I haven't had a single urge lately. I don't mind that, though.

Also I have decided to exercise everyday because I have not been going out lately. Sure thing I have different sets of exercises for different days.

By the way, you guys are eating properly, right? I have been watching my diet even more as of late. The best thing I did lately is stopped eating anything that contains sugar, including the sugar itself. I'm around 20th day as of now, though I have been trying to stay away from the sugarjew for years. I don't remember if I started to feel better after that, but I haven't felt worse for sure.

Also, what do you drink when the only water available for you is either (((tap water))) or (((plastic-bottled))) water? I'm trying to quench thirst by eating lots of vegetables and fruits, though it does not really helps with hydration and I have to drink from plastic bottles.

>>12900

>decided to toss it all away

How could you and why would you do that?

>Its fucking 3am here and I did it because I need to get the fuck asleep at least that's what I tell myself

You should never ever justify your urges while thinking about relapsing. It's like negotiating with a mad suicide bomber. Just tell yourself "No" every time when your brain starts to forget that you don't masturbate. A confident "No" that banishes any needless thought away and brings you back to your senses.

Good luck.

Day 11

Still alive, still not fappin'.

Day 12

I had a very disturbing and degenerate nightmare today. I'm surprised my brain could even come up with something like that.

Still no urges, though, most likely because I'm still tired from days of training. I guess exercising is very crucial to nofap, if I'm always so tired from it that I don't even get morning woods?

I'm thinking about changing my training regimen while I rest during the Sunday, since it's a bit chaotic as it is now.

>>12909

Are you sure that this girl and other 3dpd could be worth that? There are too much risk, time investment and possibly even money investment involved, with barely any normal payoff.

Why not go full-celibacy, at least until you find an actually proper female specimen?

>>12912

Day 93 of no ejaculation here.

Feels great. women are a waste of time unless you some how find a very high quality women( not possible in my state ) rather spend time learning self sufficiency such as hunting/fishing/foraging and stockpile cash than date tatooed over weight root whores.

Day 13

Journal update.

It looks like I'm going through a flatline, and this one seems pretty tough. Even though I absolutely feel like shit right now, I have no intentions on abandoning my streak or my struggles of becoming a better man.

>>12913

>All I want is to get laid even if that implies I'm gonna have sex with a spic immigrant girl

>I do it because I badly want a vagina

I don't mean it as an insult, but that's just pitful. I hope you understand what you write and what is the state of your mentality you have there.

Either way, good luck with your nofap.

Day 15

I start to notice an increase in my concentration and cognitive skills. I also became more productive, today I did a project that would take me a week in only one day!

However I still have a creeping urge to get laid, it reached a point where I even considered to make it with an underage girl.

Day 14

Maybe it is too early to write this, but comparing myself to the man I was on day 0, I can say for sure that I have not wasted much time in making myself better physically, mentally and possibly even intellectually. If I were masturbating for these 14 days, I would never could have found time, energy or motivation needed to do anything productive.

I'm interested how far will my progress go when I will be on day 365, if I at least keep up my pace.

Also I have tested the day 1 of the training regimen I have made for myself using other training regimens for reference and adding more exercises for certain muscle groups.

It is not that bad as I could have suspected, but it is still could be improved much further.

Day 15

Mostly chilled and meditated today.

I'm still waiting for my flatline to end. That's it, if I feel really bad because of the flatline, and not because my usual flow of thoughts leads myself to depressed feels.

>>12918

>>12927

>>12932

Good work lads, never let up.

>>12901

>>12905

>plastic

Some health food stores sell 1gal glass jugs, or you can get 2 growlers and fill them up at pic related which has no fluoride. 5gal glass jugs are available online as well if you have the room.

>>12900 checked

>Better too be half asleep at work than relapsed and foggy and unable to make decisions.

Your head's in the right place for another good streak.

Day 16

Almost forgot to update.

I've got a little sick. I'll have to postpone my training to Friday, if I will get better. Can't say that exercising is super fun, but I was kind of looking forward to testing out another day of my training program.

At least I won't have enough energy for any urges.

>>12936

Thanks for the tip.

>health food stores

I doubt I could find those in my country, but since water vending machines are a thing here, I guess I'll have to find myself a suitable bag for glass jars, even if they will be a pain in the ass to carry around.

>>12936

dude I literally just became mega plastic pilled. Thanks a ton for those two tips. Gonna make a video about how bad plastic is this INSANE.

Day 17

>>12942

>>12944

I thought that info about plastic was common sense for everyone here.

It's insane how (((they))) have been lying to us for so long that plastic is a safe material for food containment.

Day 18

I felt shitty today so I decided to go to sleep right in the morning. Now it's dark out there and I still kind of want to die.

>>12951

>she is more like a whore

Sex with someone like that could break your noAIDS streak forever.

>>12954

Ah crap, forgot to post today's pic.

Day 20

Damn, my mind is so busy that I keep forgetting that I'm on my streak, so I'm late on updating the journal again.

I am finally feeling better, so I guess it is time to continue testing my training regimen.

Day 20

Fuck yeah. Just 1468 days left to hit 1488 days without fapping and porn

Day 22

I'm starting to feel very anxious and urged to masturbate. Yesterday the needs became stronger as I ran up to some trap pics. Later in the night I tried to give myself pleasure by touching my nipples and imagining I was a chick. I was about to try anal pleasure but luckily I didn't go that far and I survived until day 22. Definitely as the days pass, keeping my streak has become increasingly harder.

Day 21

Today was such a hot, lazy day. I didn't really felt like doing anything. I forced myself to exercise, but I weren't as productive as I am supposed to be.

Also I start to enjoy the sourness and bitterness of fruits and berries even more. Sometimes I want to challenge myself to eat as many of that as possible, but that stops as I realise that it won't be good for my stomach.

By the way, I haven't eaten raw onions for a while. /fit/ memes aside, onions have lots of vitamins and they are fun to eat. I recommend anyone reading this to try them out.

I see that I have succeeded at nofap for 3 weeks. Now I have to crank up that to 1 month for now.

>>12963

What will your next goal number will be after the 1488?

>>12964

>ran up to some trap pics

Wouldn't it be better to avoid any place or website where you can just ran up to your urge triggers?

>tried to give myself pleasure

>imagining I was a chick

That's some serious shit. I hope you will get rid of that as you continue your streak. That won't go away by itself, though - you have understand that it is harmful for your mental health and that it may even cause you trouble.

Day 22

My energy is at critically low levels. I don't want to do anything but meditate and chill. Tomorrow I will have to do my best to force myself to exercise and read some certain stuff.

>>12967

>>12969

Atta way. Never slacken, never surrender.

>low energy

It happens as your endocrine system is readjusting. Take the time to read, meditate, and irl journal; it will kick back up again.

>>12964

Good job on resisting. The urges will drop off significantly around day 29. They pick up againa around 56 but you guys will be better prepared to shrug them off by then.

Day 23

Totally forgot about the journal again.

Today I focused on training my reaction and quick decision making more than on training my body, just because I kind of felt like doing it. I forgot how bizarre it is to have your brain more tired than your muscles.

>>12974

What do I do with kratom?

Would making tea from its dried leaves be effective enough?

>>12983

>irl journal

How helpful is it? Is it worth the time?

WEEK 11 NO PMO

But I just had a mildly bad relapse yesterday, I binged on porn for about 2 hours, this is the first real binge I've had since I started (did not touch my dick other than to clean the precum and it was sensitive as fuck, just the light pressure of a tissue of paper over it felt like halfway the point where you cum buckets). I began trying to recount what led to this, and discovered a couple of things.

First off I use file timestamps and browser history to recount more or less a development of cravings starting from as far ago as I can, I checked the single porn folder I keep on my computer and saw that exactly a week ago I began saving a "more than normal" number of pictures, before that it was no more than 3 per week, not much considering the amount of time I spend of chans and the inevitability of finding something that really catches your eye, I tell to myself those are no biggie because I spend no more than 10 seconds on it altogether from saving the file, looking at it and moving it to my dedicated folder. Normally this isn't an issue because as I said it barely passes the 15 seconds mark, it doesn't go beyond that. But last week there've been a more than normal number of porn threads on the boards I frequent, so those normally combined 30 seconds thinking/looking at porn escalated to a few minutes. AND IT COUNTS, literally every fucking milisecond you give in slowly erodes your capacity to resist and quickly move on. Over the past days this finally escalated to yesterdays binge. There is a very subtle progression is what im trying to say. Im afraid because I know my past relapses were similar, first some extra seconds, then some "harmless" fantasizing, then some extra minutes, then some extra hours, then inescapable cravings all day and finally the inevitable

RELAPSE

My experience tells me the longest this process can go on for me is 2 weeks before eityer failing (most of the time this is how it concludes) or somehow finding the force to move on (sometimes it does happen, but it doesn't last long), and right now im halfway there, I feel I've lost about 1/3 of the battle, not yet past the point of unstoppable cravings but im getting dangerously close to that point. Of interest is noting that although my dick was sensitive by the end, the porn induced the erection and not the other way around. That means that I was not genuinelly horny at all but dopamine starved (had had very busy days, few time for imageboards and even less for vidya). That basically means im still kinda addicted to porn and not fapping per se, though from what I've read one never truly gets rid of these reward pathways so in a way me and (You) will be "addicts" for the rest of our lives in the same sense a single beer can send an ex alcoholic straight into hell with just ONE fucking beer. But as long as we can manage it we'll be mostly fine.

That goes for the porn part. Another interesting thing happened lately, I've been broke for a long time but got my hands on some cash some days ago and I couldn't resist buying 6 cigarrette packs before I ran out of money, also bought about 10$ of cookies, chips and soda all of which I'd been free of for almost the same extent of time as my no pmo journey (I was close to fully quitting most processed sugars this time). Curiously about 10 days ago I started giving in to SUGAR, yes, that fucking thing they put on mostly all food nowadays and that seems to have strong addiction-craving effects on most animals. First I had very strong cravings for something sweet, so I drank gallons of milk, then I put extra sugar in it, all day. By the time money got in my hands my willpower was too eroded and I said fuck it lets eat, but I was starting to feel doing this would harm my no pmo progress.

1/2

2/2

What am I getting at with all this? Well, it might be obvious for some but it seems to me self control and cravings are a "one size fits all" thing. I mean the brain and prefrontal cortex do not seem to distinguish between cravings for food, porn, videogames or smoking, it registers them all the same as dopamine raising activities-substances and it gets to work realeasing dopamine and other go-get-it substances and processes and in turn it weakens your self control the same regardless of what's causing you self control issues. This is a revelation to me because I WAS DOING IT WRONG by that I mean I had cravings for porn and smoked or ate sugar to "subdue" the cravings not realizing I was in a way feeding them further, the advice of doing something else pleasurable although sound on the surface is actually counterproductive because it only temporary distracts you of what you're trying to avoid while weakening your willpower.

Having learned that I wonder how does one go around truly avoiding relapse and keep marching on. "Resisting" without doing something not further willpower-weakening is harder than it sounds, in part because avoiding true work and effort is what lead me to this. I can't fool myself to keep overinduling in other stuff anymore. I would be a massive faggot if I kept denying the apparent truth I just discovered. Besides this time is different, I have a goal now and a mostly clear vision of what I do notwant to become. Small steps, just that for now, just one step forward for today. Wish me luck broskies.

And good luck to you all as well.

extra/2

I believe this pic is highly relevant for anyone wishing a true and substantial change in his life. It's very related to the whole dopamine and rewards stuff, not only nofap. As you see there's a lot of interlinking and overlapping, you can treat porn-fap addiction as a separate but a hollistic approach might yield better results. My previous posts may seem as demonizing dopamine, im not, it's just that humanity seemed to evolve way too fast for our primitive survival mechanisms to keep up and adapt instead of becoming the bane of some, leading us into a downwards spiral of degeneracy and over indulgence. Not to mention TPTB and you-know-who learned to coopt them quickly and efficiently. We can't get rid of or change the fundamentals of those mechanisms, but we CAN USE THEM TO OUR ADVANTAGE, pic related is pretty much the Nuclear option. I don't think many people have the strength to go through it fully, internet deprivation alone is enought to make some of us insane, at least it would for me. I have the inkling this is how truly succesful and productive people operate (billionaires are probably in a similar spot, I remember once reading about a Central Banker who said "we just can't help it" when talking about typical bankster shenanigans), they are ruled by the same mechanisms but respond to whole different inputs. Even if you think it's overdoing it the pic still contains relevant info nicely summarized, there's a plethora of more detailed and in-depth studes out there if you're curious about them. One day I plan on trying it myself.

Day 24

I went on a quite long stroll today to buy some stuff. I have noticed that about 96% of men I saw, old and young, were either skinny or fat. The other 4% were about my level of fitness, and, you know, I'm not really that fit at all. I guess all the normal people were at gyms/fields/wilderness during that time? I'm probably not a very good person, but that motivated me to work on myself harder.

I wonder how many other countries are like this, though.

>>12989

>only if you have a bunch of shit that you don’t want to share here.

Yeah, that's reasonable. I'll have to forget about this because it would be really bad and really funny if someone found the journal.

>kratom

>It can be addictive

That's bad, it seemed interesting to try out. Gotta avoid any addictions, since they can really mess with my willpower (e.g. PMO)

>>12992

>relapsed on week 11

Damn, anon, that's a shame.

Not much stuff here to comment on since you already figured out your mistakes and even gave some fine info about life improvement. I really hope that you will use it yourself.

>>12995

>pic

That's a lot of quality information.

I, probably, will try that minimalistic method if I ever feel like I'm living wrong and I need to change something.

I may be really wrong here, I'm possibly even lying to myself, but as of now I think that I'm living with my positive AND negative "cues"/"habits" right. I get enough stress, I get enough dopamine rewards. I don't have/do things that can make me feel good from the get-go, aside from, possibly, food first I have to go through the "stress" of choosing, buying and preparing it, sleep possible stress from nightmares or sleep problems. Nightmares are pretty fun, though and the proper usage of restroom no comments here if I put it like that it sounds like a really pitful existence, huh?

But this part:

>I avoided people my whole life, now I'm driven towards them

Is quite unsettling. I'm sure I won't be like this after I complete that week. The poster himself probably had little negative/realistic opinions about people in general before he tried the 7-day ascetic life. Otherwise, I doubt that for someone the pleasure of wasting time on people could prevail the disgust that those people arouse.

It's weird, but I'm starting to like writing lengthy posts. Have I hooked myself yet to another dopamine-rewarding habit/hobby?

Day 25

I had a very wet dream today. I hate them because they make things messy and give me a little false feeling that I relapsed. The funny thing is that I was reading about wet dreams before sleeping. I guess my brain went like "oh, I forgot I can do this".

Also I seem to have more energy now. I wonder if that's because my body decided to unload some spare genetic material.

I fixed some stuff, sketched other stuff and finally got to fully test the "Friday" day of my training regimen. If that's not a productive day then I don't know what is.

>>13002

>spare genetic material

Those were nutritiants your body could have reabsorbed and used elsewhere. I’m on day 81 with no wet dreams. If you want to prevent them this thread has some PDFs from Taoist and Indian sages on semen retention and transmutation of sexual energy. The ones by Mantak Chia involve edging in the more advanced stages that you should avoid tbh. I almost relapsed this week because of it. It does have good hands free techniques though.

>>>/fringe/77412

Day 26

Had a few urges today. None of them survived.

>>13009

That thread is sketchy as hell.

Everything that involves voluntary solo sexual stimulation/ejaculation is masturbation in my book.

Also I have tried no-touch ejaculation a year ago and, well, in the end it felt as bad as regular masturbation. I would not advise anyone to try this.

Day 27

Zero urges.

>>13017

There are 7 pdfs in total. Are all of them useful?

Day 28

Another clean day has passed.

Day 29

Damn it, a wet dream again. Right after I woke up and before I ejaculated, I tried to do what the >>13017 anon recommended to do in the greentext by memory, but I got confused and jizzed anyway.

I have to read how to prevent this because it gets really annoying.

Day 30

Nothing interesting today.

I think I will be updating the journal less frequently after day 31.

Day 31

Finally, a complete month of nofap.

I have been supposed to post anti-fap material, but in the end I just post whatever non-arousing pics I find on my HDD.

Day 32

Yeah, now I am 100% sure I can manage to keep the streak for a year. After that there will be little need to count the clean days.

>>13086

>>13070

Congratulations on one month down. Bummer about the wet dreams but that’s not your fault. It gets better.

>>13082

You will, stick with it.

>>13022

>7

Wew I thought there were less.

>>>/fringe/80884

Quickest one, last chapter only.

>>>/fringe/85782

>>>/fringe/114562

Pic related is from one of these. It’s the absolute last ditch e-break. I’ve only read the last of these three from the same author since some of the chapters are repeats. Other chapters can be skipped since we’re not going to engage in dual cultivation. I must warn you the last one has some drawings that may trigger you.

I downloaded but haven’t got to this yet: >>>/fringe/81457

There’s one more I have to find and post.

>>13047

Second pic might help. Imagine a straw that goes from your balls to your tailbone. As you breath in you’ll learn to feel the sexual energy sucked up to your lower back(sacral pump) then clench your taint to keep it from flowing back. Then your breath out should feel like suction pulling the energy from your sacrum up over your head to your tongue from there it will disperse to the rest of your body or your next inhalation will pull it down to your belly as more energy is pulled up from your scrotum to your back.

Day 35

Nothing much to report. I learnt how to mentally destroy urges or intrusive thoughts/flashbacks that I absolutely don't want. So nothing got me aroused or disturbed in the past three days since my last post.

I should maintain my focus on everything I do, though. If I don't then the brainfog will keep interfering.

I have taken interest in dreams in general and in lucid dreams in particular.

Since humans spend around 90 minutes dreaming out of 8 hour sleep, and they spend 8 hours sleeping daily out of 24 hours, I thought it would be the best to make my brain work to give me as much novel experiences, indo and inspirations as possible.

I'm not sure if I could avoid wet dreams while trying to have lucid dreams, but I think it is worth trying and getting some personal experience out of this.

My goal is not to get pervy wet lucid dreams. Shit like that would be a waste of effort, time and semen. There would be nothing novel, only the degenerate seekings of low short-term pleasure, something that I have been succesfully erasing from my life more than for a month and something than I absolutely don't want back in my life.

So far my results are relatively succesful: I had a crazy-ass cool dream yesterday. I spent a hour writing it down on 3+ pages. I'd share it here, but I don't want to get datamined, this is unrelated to nofap and I'd have to make two or more posts for this.

I had dreams like that before, but they were rare, so I think that the probability of me having one not because I tried to summon a lucid dream is quite low.

>>13097

Thanks for all of that. I checked the pdfs before a bit, but I'll read thoroughly the ones you recommended. Also I'll be very careful with that last file.

Day 41

I see less sense in counting days now. But knowing how many days would be somewhat wasted if I relapse could certainly fuel my motivation at least a little.

Lately I've got aware of that breaking the streak is actually very easy, especially when your mind is tired or when you have sleep problems, i.e when you can't focus and your control over yourself is weakened.

Shit has gone hilarious; I think I have got afraid of masturbating. It sounds silly, when it should not. A mindset like this should be common sense. If I find this silly, then it means I still have a long way to go before my efforts and the time itself will complete healing me from degeneracy that I have been bringing upon myself for the past yeats.

I'm on day 2

I lost my last streak at day 29 but luckily this time for sure i'm going to last longer!

Day 46

Jesus Christ, what's up with the relapses, everyone?

Very few urges tried to disturbe my inner peace. None succeeded. If I were not seeing porn and masturbation as something very silly, pitful and useless then I could get in trouble with nofap by now. I'm glad it's still okay.

Also it's getting quite chilly where I live. I have to be careful not to catch a cold because I have higher chances of relapsing when I'm sick since I get brain fog and can't think properly.

>>13153

>>13160

That's bad. This time remember to stay strong and keep your minds clear. Don't repeat the same mistakes and try your best to avoid making new ones. Don't let even a single urge or a trigger stay in your mind. Lots of people are still progressing with their 30+ day streaks right now, there are no reasons why you can't do that yourselves.

>>13158

Wet dream =/= relapse. Your body just overproduces semen since it is still used to your previous lifestyle where you release your semen by yourself via stimulation.

Good luck on erasing your degenerate fetishes from your life.

>>13163

>You should probably stay off all social media and chans besides this board if you want to get better.

I have a decent setup with the Leechblock extension for Firefox that's helping me stay disciplined when I'm on my primary computers. That worked for a while but lately I've found that it's just as easy to browse porn on my phone when I'm home. But even if I can find a way to impede my mobile phone browsing, I think I need to go farther than that. My attention span has definitely decreased in recent years and I'm becoming aware of just how much potential I've wasted on account of the Internet. I think the solution for me is to block even more websites, or perhaps even disconnect from the Internet completely in order to repair my "Internetted" mind. I know I'm capable of achieving more than I am at present.

I actually just managed a pretty significant accomplishment in my life, and I'd like to use the momentum to turn a new leaf. Relapsed yesterday, so it's Day 1 and I'm getting back in the game for the long haul. Anyone know of a good way to brick Chrome on an Android device?

Day 54

It's going on okay.

6 days until 2 complete months. Or 7? I don't count all the details and I don't really care, since I can spend any number of days without masturbation anyway.

Today was quite a nice day for me, I'm quite happy about it.

>>13170

>managed a pretty significant accomplishment in my life, and I'd like to use the momentum to turn a new leaf. Relapsed yesterday, so it's Day 1 and I'm getting back in the game for the long haul.

I don't think it's a good idea to tie your nofap with your life so tightly. If you keep successing at life and continue relapsing then you will not really get rid of the bad habit and the damage it does to you. A new streak won't make you a new man, you are the one who makes yourself AND your streak.

Good luck on this one.

>using Mozilla (the browser that at some point decided to tell users' privacy "fuck you" by collecting data "for advertisments")

>using Chrome on an Android

>using anything by (((google))) at all

At least download yourself a brave browser for PC and phone. There are alternatives here with more privacy but a bit less functionality though, the list: https://spyware.neocities.org/articles/

Also I recommend to switch your search engine to startpage, both for PC and phone because it censores porn results. It uses google indexes but it's private but its privacy becomes useless if you search for info directly related to you and, as I said, it censores harmful search results by default (you could switch it off in settings, BUT WHY WOULD YOU?).

By the way there IS a way to block sites on your phone. You should find the "hosts" file and input the URLs of harmful websites like you would do on PC. I don't really know the file's location since I acces the file via an app that blocks ads, but I guess you can find info on the net yourself.

Day 58

Thanks to nofap, a little bit of time management and my habit of doing several things at the same time that could be done at the same time without sacrificing the quality of the results, I feel like there are more hours in a day now.

>>13180

>I thought you assholes were just doing memeing

Even if people did that, it's not a bad thing to make a meme of.

If I ever would think that it's just a meme, I'd have to believe in the meme magic, because the benefits of nofap feel too real to me.

Good luck with that streak.

>>13182

I have a disdain for cuckchanners, too, but since nofap board has got his attention and helped him, there is a chance that he could become at least less degenerate.

>>13181

You are officially allowed to post about nofap in my thread if you drop the habit of mashing Enter twice after every sentence or after every small part of text in your post. Who taught you to format text like that? This is extremely unsettling.

>>13174

Almost two months for you, impressive.

>I don't think it's a good idea to tie your nofap with your life so tightly.

Good point. I'll take them on independently. Partially because it's already heading in the direction you cautioned against since I relapsed today.

>using Mozilla (the browser that at some point decided to tell users' privacy "fuck you" by collecting data "for advertisments")

Strictly speaking I'm using the Waterfox fork. I like my extensions and that Quantum shit fucked most of them up, with the deactivation of telemetry being an important bonus.

>using Chrome on an Android

>using anything by (((google))) at all

Yea but this shit's pretty bad. Browsing porn on a Google phone is irrational from so many angles and I'm pretty embarrassed that the primitive part of my brain overrides the rational as soon as I get some free time on my phone.

>By the way there IS a way to block sites on your phone. You should find the "hosts" file and input the URLs of harmful websites like you would do on PC.

It's probably /etc/hosts. That seems a bit extreme and involves some manual work (have to get the IPs of the offending sites, I think), but honestly at this point it's probably that or leaving my phone at work more often. Actually, the combination of the two strategies would probably work best since I want to ween myself off of that life-draining device anyway, just in terms of general Internet usage.

I'm getting better at filling my time, with some busy days ahead, so if I can get that ball rolling I think I can start off with a good streak…Day 0, and from here, onward.

Day 63

My libido has returned, and so did my insane urges.

Nofap has became a little bit more difficult. I won't be relapsing because of this, though, that would be too lame and stupid. Also I would not be able to brag about my 2 month streak on the internet if I just make my progress go down the drain by relapsing. How would I live with this?

Day 70

My libido is still here, but at least I am somehow managing to suppress or redirect it towards productive stuff.

>>13261

Thanks.

>>13285

Remember this feeling. It's not something that you would have if you have been masturbating.

Day ten lads!

I'm surprised by how easy has been holding on masturbation for these past ten days.

I guess the reason I haven't had any urge so far is the experience I collected from my previous streak.

Now i'm using this chart to help myself to feel motivated.

I've got my libido super low to the extent of literally being able to browse hundreds of porn web pages without faping.

Day 77

I had a wet dream.

My libido have got even more worse. I feel like I'm getting close to making a mistake and relapsing, and I don't know what should I do to prevent that.

I just relapsed to this dumb as fuck bowsette meme. the shame is palpable. danbooru sites and 2d will be the death of me

tl;dr FRIENDLY REMINDER FOR ANYONE WHO READS THIS - DO NOT FAP, YOU MAGGOT

Day 78

Day 0

I fucking blew it.

First I just lurk on how to code some stuff, then it escalates into net surfing, where I just watch random videos, then martial arts videos, and, around a hour later, I am looking at an obscure degenerate site, fighting my urges in my mind but edging my male organ with my thighs.

I relapsed 2 times.

I don't even know HOW exactly I did fucked up here aside from letting myself into a shitty site and starting to stimulate my peepee; not having enough brain to close it and move away from the PC to exercise. I had the same mind before lurking around, I was the same person before it, during it and I am still that person same person.

What exact thought was the faulty one? What critical precautionary measure I did not took? Was my resolve to free myself from the degeneracy not strong enough?

Maybe I just should have stayed away from the PC when I'm tired and my mind is wavering and weak.

The bravado I showed off during my streak, the idiocy of my mistake and the confusing despair of the situation make me want to quit nofap because I can't even learn from my mistakes - that's the shit I would write if it weren't for my fucking anger.

If my brain wanted to make me feel good easy by doing it's best to make me fap then my brain is pretty fucking retarded, since I feel shitty right now instead.

I can't think of anything better but doing my every future streak like it's exactly the last one and the evergoing one, no matter how many times I failed before it.

The crazy ass libido is still here, but the urges are weaker now because I exercised after this anyway.

I am simply tired. And angry.

I guess I will start updating the lil' blog of mine daily again until I will hit exactly 80 days of nofap.

>>13339

Thanks for the support. Sorry for being a relapsing disappointment, though.

I want to add to your advice that, if the urges are so strong that they start to block out your rational thought processes, walk away into an open space and do a few sets of squats, push ups, crunches and at least 1 set of around 3 minutes of shadow boxing if you want to make sure that the urges calm down and go away.

These may be non-systematic exercises, but at least you shift the focus to them, so it saves you and your streak.

If you see that your mind and your conscience fail you, then make your body ward off the urges.

>>13340

It amazes me how people who love this forced meme fail to comprehend that it's just Bowser with breasts and a bit different body. It's not really different from obsessing over a degenerate HRT crossdresser.

Just my opinion; I'm not berating you here, since you feel shame for your relapse and you understand that it was not a smart thing to do.

I guess some memes are just simply big mistakes, huh?

>danbooru sites

STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM THOSE, ANON

PUT ALL THE BOORUS INTO YOUR HOSTS FILE

>>13341

Exercise. Find yourself a workout routine and stick to it. This way you will focus your free energy on something productive, and this will lower the chances of your free energy going back into your libido to make you relapse.

>>13342

Fucking idiot.

You were just 13 days ahead to finish the 90 days but you returned to feel the very same sensations when you made this thread.

I'm on day 13 and I feel more energy and motivated but my social skills are still rusty and my confidence is not at the level I want. In short, I continue struggling with social situations.

Day 1

Surprisingly, no urges for now, but I think I have a bit less energy.

I have a little deja vu, it's like my progress really restarted and today feels like the day 1 of my previous streak.

I am irritated and angry at myself, and I get angry rarely. I wish I could maintain this feeling for as long as I need it to help me in nofap, too bad it won't really happen. I need to discipline myself instead somehow, because feelings appear and disappear, but the discipline stays (as long as you don't slack off on maintaining it).

>>13343

Don't repeat my mistakes, be

SUPER EXTRA CAUTIOUS AND FOCUSED

on your hyperactive libido days.

>>13344

>fucking idiot

Thanks.

>>13346

>Remember that you haven't undone most of your progress and if you stay on the straight and narrow you could get back to normal quickly.

I think I will have a higher chance to fail if I set my goal only as to regain the lost progress. Every anon who failed at nofap and wishes to continue should focus on progressing even further than everr.

>>13349

>I've been getting hit hard with the urges lately but still hanging in there.

Be wise, learn from my mistakes and don't fail like I did, especially since we started at the same day.

>Keep persisting.

I feel like that will be not enough. I should go even further than that.

Day 7 Here. I had some urges last night, but I reminded myself that Porn is degenerate and that I'd be better off getting a girlfriend. I went to sleep instead of touching myself. I had weird porn dreams though, I'm too ashamed to share them though. I am focused, and motivated today. It's time to Stop!

Day 2

I suppressed a lot of urges today. Also I had a shitty degenerate dream.

Day 3

Today's urges weren't intense at all.

Day 4

Had some urges again. Right now they appear randomly, without even a hint of a trigger in sight.

>>13368

>What is this shit suppose to be anyway?

A shitty "ironic gay" joke that got popular because of "ironic" shitposters, trannies, perverts and artists that cater to those degenerates. Shit that makes internet a disappointing, disgusting place.

>>13365

All of that crap really sounds like a waste of time.

Good luck on nofappin'.

Day 5

For some reason I had almost no urges today. Days like this make me think that nofap is incredibly easy. Protip: sometimes it is not easy at all.

As I wrote this, I hit my toe very hard by accidentally kicking a door. I would not mention it if I didn't realize that it was the most intense, remarkable moment of my day.

Also I will revise my training plan - I grew a bit bored of it.

>>13382

Oops, forgot the daily pic.

>>13383

btw i really enjoy your taste in pics. not autistic enough to be a gundamfag but the aesthetic is right down my alley

Day 7

Day 8

I took my time writing my post and then deleted the text by an accident, lmao, so I'll cover two days with this one and then write an additional post before the completion of day 9 to keep myself in check.

I decided how I will change my training plan kind of spontaneously; I have read from different sources I checked A LOT of sources how training at evening/night may be more effective than training in the morning/day; and that training 2 times a day is somewhat obviously better than training 1 time a day. I just decided to mash these two bits of into a single choice of training during the day and night at my training days. The main drawback is that this may wreck one's sleeping regimen/habits, but mine are shit anyway, and by introducing a second exercise set that makes me feel exhausted my amount of sleep should jump from 7-6 thanks, insomnia hours to 4 hours, and I feel better from waking up after the 4 hour sleep, so the major drawback is negated for me. (Today I have woke up from 4 hours of sleep and, as I expected, it felt way better than when I slept for ~11 hours on friday/weekends nights)

Also I have noticed that lately most of the time I spend on the net is used for lurking for info about my possible post sub-topics or grammar English is not my first language, but you probably would figure that out (if I still have not written about it) for my blog posts. If this fills my daily dose of network usage, then it lowers the chances of me letting myself acting retarded and relapsing on some shit, so I guess I totally should not stop updating the blog daily after the day 80 (or at least I should leave it at once in two days or something).

>>13384

I wanted to write that blaming nintendo for this shitstorm may be a little absurd, but then I remembered 8/v/'s threads about strange fetishist shit you could find in nintendo's games (aimed for children), so I take that back and I think you could be damn right.

>>13385

Thanks.

Since it's difficult to find effective anti-fap pics, I just decided to post whatever nice, neutral (as in "100% non-arousing for at least 99% people") pics I may find at SFW web-resources.

>>13400

If this autism is non-harmful and perhaps even a little bit helpful, then I don't see it as something bad.

Day 9

Nothing interesting this time. I think I have less energy and appetite now. Also I feel like I'm starting to get sick. Gotta eat some onions, garlic, mustard, peppers and lemons; I cannot afford to have bad health,

Day 10

Yep, I got sick. Not sure if it's flu or if I just caught a cold. The temperature is still not very high; I wonder him much does it help that I chew on lemons, garlic or onions every time I eat something since the moment I noticed I felt sick.

I need to get better before Monday. I don't want to waste too much time on recovery.

Also being sick certainly never helped me in nofap: constant brain fog and sleepiness make it difficult to ward off urges.

Day 11

I feel bretty good.

I had a lustful degenerate dream followed by a few morning urges. Nothing from that broke through my resolve and made me relapse.

Also I increased the dosage of onions, garlic and lemons in my ration. Have you tried eating whole lemons? They taste and feel incredibly fresh. Lemon acid may become harmful to your teeth if its not diluted or if you eat too much, though.

Day 12

Day 13

Looks like I have skipped a day by writing my post for too long again.

I don't feel any better nor I feel worse. Same goes for my temperature.

I have to say that being sick is a quite tiresome waste of time. At least I have almost no energy, so I don't have too much urges for now (today I had none).

>>13432

Yes; it is important to avoid any places that have even a slight possibility to have lewd shit.

>>13435

Welcome to the "Non-degenerate lifestyle" club, enjoy your stay.

Day 33 and I nearly lost today.

I made a thread about it here: >>13437

I decided to push on until at least the end of week 5. And if I must fail after that, it wont be via porn or anything lewd.

Day 14

Today I accidentally got my mind empty. I have to try and remember how have I managed to do that, because normal meditation never worked that fast and well for me.

Also, I am still sick, low on energy and low on urges.

Day 15

>>13436

>Welcome to the "Non-degenerate lifestyle" club, enjoy your stay.

Thank you. I've posted on here a handful of times before, but I've had a porn addiction for years now, and I've known I needed to do something about it for more than a year. I've had limited success; the furthest I got was day twentysomething in March of 2017, which I still think of as "not that long ago" despite logically knowing it's been a year and a half.

And yet here I am, still sick. I haven't ejaculated since my initial post, but I've looked at porn every day and masturbated for at least 40 minutes. It's like candy - easy to think of broadly, but very dangerous when actually imbibed.

One anon in a previous thread suggested I subconsciously sought humiliation or feelings of shame, so if you'll permit a bit of a blogpost then I wanted to tell a short story. I don't expect anyone to read it, but disclosing the information will make me feel better.

A few days ago, I was in the process of deleting some old embarrassing internet stuff, and I happened upon a page buried in my Google account settings which was a list of all my search activity, YouTube comments, etc. My initial reaction was a miffed surprise ("I never thought about what it looked like three years ago") but what really caught my attention was a search for pornography I'd made in the summer of 2015, when I had recently found a new fetish and apparently not been secure enough in my searching.

The fetish was hypnosis, and the search was for a scene from the animated Jungle Book movie where Kaa hypnotizes Mowgli. I'm neither gay nor a pedophile - it's just something about the scene.

To make a long story short, I was shocked and disgusted that 1) my privacy had been so thoroughly violated and 2) I remembered that wasn't the only time I had searched for that scene.

I, just, fuck, man, I don't know how to say it. I felt revolted that this degenerate jacking off to kids' cartoons was the same guy at the helm of my body three and a half fucking years later.

>>13455

>log the days that are most difficult

Yesterday was difficult; I neither looked at porn nor wanted to, and I was out socializing in the evening, which is normally very tiring for me, and the more tired I am, the more likely I am to think "hell with it" and dial up a booru.

It was an honest, clean day one, though. That's something I need to remind myself of. I'm also committed to spending the next several weekends driving around with friends for fighting game tournaments (real Chad stuff, I know), and in the past being around other people has kept me clean. Partially that was because I just didn't have time to look at porn, and partially I didn't want to because I was spending hours in cars/hotel rooms with them. I think it will be a positive influence either way.

I'm trying to be zen about it; pic related is something I read in a National Geographic magazine when I was much younger, and I figure if a guy can walk across the horn of Africa, then I can not look at porn.

Thanks for listening to the blogposting.

Day 16

Day 17

Day 18

I kind of had nothing to write about, so I unintentionally skipped 2 posts while thinking what should go into those posts. I guess next time I should just post the day count and a pic if I don't have anything to write, just like I did at day 15.

Also I should note that I do read every post ITT you anons make, but I don't always have something good (as in "helpful" and "original") to say to every of you.

Forcing myself to write something just to respond would make things awkward.

My urges are present only in the morning, but they fade away quickly, because I force myself out of the bed fast.

>>13454

>so if you'll permit a bit of a blogpost

I encourage anyone to blogpost if they think that it will help them. My personal opinion: I think it is helpful for the poster AND for the reader.

>>13455

>It took me a few relapses to get gud

Only a few? Not bad, damn.

I think it took me a few years to finally become able to go further than 21 days in my streaks.

>>13466

>driving around with friends for fighting game tournaments (real Chad stuff, I know)

I hope you are not ironically implying that it's a bad thing? Because it is not. Experiencing something like that does not sounds like a waste of time.

>pic

So did that man entered the quite useful Mushin state of mind without knowing anything about it beforehand? Interesting stuff.

Day 19

>>13467

>I spent a lot of time browsing 8chan

Don't do that ever again.

Even the most "safe for work" boards have their fair share of triggering content.

Read some science articles/literature next time you feel like you need to use the internet with no particular goal in mind. Don't be lazy and type in any topic that you may have at least the slightest interest in (e.g. diet, nofap benefits). That's better than using a web resource that will eventually make you relapse if you won't stop lurking in it.

>Mushin

>What?

That one "empty mind with zero focus" Zen state that is the most popular and is the most discussed.

Day 0 again. Fucking kill me. Blogpost incoming. Sorry in advance for being a melodramatic faggot.

I was so aware of my desire to do this to myself, I went out in the morning and rode my bicycle around the neighbourhood, then did some chores around the house and watched a bit of anime (old stuff, not new hypersexualized drivel) - all of these are usually enough to distract me from masturbation, but there was something going on in the back of my mind that made me want to do it.

I just feel fucking lonely. Yesterday, I was quite happy when I wasn't getting my ass handed to me in video games, but during the drive back one of the autistic fuckwits in the car would NOT shut the fuck up about how proud he is of being part of gatekeeping (((video game communitites))), by which he means (((discord))) servers run by trannies and dicksuckers. He just kept going on and fucking on about how this server was transphobic, or this one was run by people who were too competitive, or how some guy had been an asshole on the internet, or some other worthless garbage no-one would have batted an eye at 10 years ago. Even when I was a child, I knew the internet was a dangerous place.

He literally said "I'm glad nobody in our scene is racist, or bigoted, or transphobic, or sexist. Like, we've never had someone just sit down at the club and be a white supremacist or anything. If that happened, I think we'd be pretty clear about telling him to leave instead of being like 'ha ha, wow.'" I felt like I was a character in an MP Paint comic somebody drew to caricature leftist bug men. I wanted to veer into oncoming traffic just to spite the stupid half-chink. Fuck.

My hobbies so far have all proven to be lousy with leftist fuckwits: video games, Magic: The Gathering, fighting games, politics - everywhere I go it's just more of the same flavour of bug men and shitskins. I'd love to describe them as NPCs, because that's what they are, but even that has been run into the ground by hordes of social media addicts and cuckchanners to the point it's poison to speak, and if I inform the unwashed masses it's older, I get called a hipster or reveal myself as an "alt-righter" from the darkest reaches of the internet.

I feel powerless. It seems like every social circle I have is filled with human refuse and my only alternative is to start doing things I hate to meet people with whom I have nothing in common.

>>13469

>Don't do that ever again.

I'll take your advice this time and spend as little time on the internet as possible. I have some tests to study for and assignments to do, which will keep me busy.

Day 21

I had a dream about resisting urges. Quite amusing, if you ask me.

My real world urges tried to make me fail over the past few days, but they were the ones who failed.

Also, to say it short and clear, I have a bit more energy in general, and I noticed that I am being more productive as of late. Seeing myself being more productive has raised my mood as well.

>>13474

The bugmen are a fucking annoying bunch and I feel sorry for any human who has to deal with those soy creatures.

>I wanted to veer into oncoming traffic just to spite the stupid half-chink

In my opinion not flashing your power levels and not chimping out are parts of being a non-degenerate, too.

Don't let the leftist drivel go to your head. It's like being angry at a pig for it oinking and shitting all over the farm. If you can't put it down or lock it up then stay away from it; if you can't stay away from it but it isn't exactly physically harmful to you then make yourself unnoticed and don't notice the pig yourself. Erase it from your cognition and respond to it only if it is absolutely neccessary. If that's difficult then just keep being a self-improvement enthusiast and think about the coming of the day of the rope. It may be a false hope and/or a /pol/ meme, but it's the best one there is.

Whenever I have to deal with creatures like intellectually-challenged neurotypicals, obnoxious faggots, retarded females or clingy deranged old people and they, somehow, do start to annoy me, I remind myself that, if I would get my adrenaline and cortisol levels high because of every shit that would like to try and ruin my day, it would lead to shit like https://www.healthline.com/health/high-cortisol-symptoms sorry for not putting the links through archive.org, I'll do that next time when I register. I just try to empty my mind and focus on proper breathing without anyone noticing I think I'm good; no one still noticed me meditating while they banter about some shit or act like hyperactive retarded monkeys so I don't have to resort to excess amounts of violence that would sate my digust and anger.

If that does not help then I think in detail how I beat the shit out of the annoying person in question with my bare hands. I don't exactly lower my guard, but after I am done with the mind process I start to feel incredibly relaxed and positive. For the rest of the day I see the annoying person as the meatbag it is, and I almost start to like them for being the annoying fragile sack of meat and bones they are that somehow managed to irritate me at some point. I still try not to abuse this method because it is too unnatural and it may make me too relaxed in general. The "meditation" calm down feels much more natural.

Also if an old "person" bugs me for no reason I just think that this very person may die from old age or age-related diseases so there is no need to pay attention to their shit, and the stress just disappears, I start to feel good and confident for some reason.

I lurked and, apparently, this method seems to be more than placebo https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/ways-to-lower-cortisol.

>Mindfulness-based stress reduction is a strategy that involves becoming more self-aware of stress-provoking thoughts and replacing worrying or anxiety with a focus on acknowledging and understanding stressful thoughts and emotions.

>Training yourself to be aware of your thoughts, breathing, heart rate and other signs of tension helps you recognize stress when it begins.

>By focusing on awareness of your mental and physical state, you can become an objective observer of your stressful thoughts, instead of a victim of them.

>Recognizing stressful thoughts allows you to formulate a conscious and deliberate reaction to them.

This info should be especially helpful for you if you happen to be the type of a person that has difficulties in resisting their lust during stressful times.

>but there was something going on in the back of my mind that made me want to do it

Could it be all the stress you have gathered + the cathartic "fuck it, I've had enough" response? It may be a useless meme advice, but, next time try to counter such feelings with "fuck it, I'm not fapping today" thoughts, even or even especially if you don't even feel like thinking in such a way. Be the enemy for your darker, primal, degenerate side - annoy it with your persistence even if you fake it until the libido gets tired of your shit and you start to find ways to suppress and control your urges.

>>13480

>I felt like I fucked up nofap in my dream… It kinda does feel like I lost, I was suppose to resist that shit

I had that before, too. Don't let it disturb you. I'm sure that's brain just trying to make you feel like you failed your streak (when you have not) so it can succumb you to degeneracy.

As I said, I had a dream about suppressing my urges. My brain and the sub-conciousness are probably quite confused if they show me this in my dreams. I don't find it amusing anymore - that's just hilarious.

Day 23

The days went well.

I had a nap and dreamed about resisting urges again.

The real urges are rare, but they appear quite randomly and unexpected. When that happens, in the first 15 seconds of that I experience something that could be described as "hyper overdrive rapist mode." I don't like my mind being in such a state at all, but I find it quite interesting how dehumanized, "focused," energetic and wild the feeling is. If it weren't for the degenerate, lustful nature of the feeling and the way it forcefully shifts my focus to something I don't want to focus on, I would not feel much discontent from it.

>>13486

>testosterone is spiking

>more prone to getting angry

I don't want to break it for you neither I want to be a smartass, but if you get irritated easier now, then it's unlikely that your testosterone levels got drastically increased, even if you have more energy. I think something else made you energetic, and you just have got the spare energy that you could use on emotions (e.g. anger) from that.

>>13489

>maybe taking it easy could be good advice for you as well

I just wrote what is on my mind when I encounter stressful situations. I act pretty chill even while I deal with weirdly irritating people. Those edgelord thoughs only help keeping my stress, adrenaline and cortisol levels low, they don't make me lose control.

Even when I have to respond with hostility towards hostility, I still keep my cool somehow.

Day 25

I have been getting bombarded with very intense urges as of late.

They really make me tired, but there is no way to get rid of them but to refocus and endure the crap until it goes away.

Fapping would make everything far, far more worse.

Sometimes I feel like an attention-whore sperg because of namefagging, but I think it should not be a problem if it helps me nofap.

Day 27

I have a bit fewer urges now.

In the past 2 weeks I gained a bad? habit of getting short daily naps whenever I felt too tired, but today things went out of control and I slept for 7 hours when I got home.

Next time I will force myself to stay awake, otherwise it will be bad if my spontaneous napping will shift my "active rest" time to nighttime - it would be difficult keeping myself in control.

>>13515

Yeah, I guess I have put too much thought into it.

>I could never namefag when talking about this because I'm too ashamed

Think about it this way: if you start namefag blogposting then it will be even more ashaming for you to relapse

I'd not advise anyone to namefag without a good reason, though, because anonymous imageboards just weren't created to be filled with namefaggots.

>>13517

>Go ahead and post your autistic images if you want, Anon.

I don't get why you said that, but don't worry, I never intended to stop posting these.

Relapsed for a couple of days but today is day 3 and I feel comfortable saying that even though I still have a little bit before I go to sleep. Reading my promises in >>13488 seems like someone else wrote them, though.

I was walking around the neighbourhood for an errand a couple days ago when I had a bit of a realization as to how I relapse:

>I am in control when around other people and during the day

>when I returned from a day of hobby stuff recently, I sat down at the computer and thought "this is a bad idea" before doing exactly what I knew was a bad idea

>this pattern has repeated itself for many of my relapses

I think I have an easier time breaking my promises to myself late at night when I'm tired. In addition to the simple fact of being exhausted, there are one or two deeper-seated causes:

>I find it genuinely easier to fall asleep when buzzed on dopamine, which is disproportionately powerful because I've had trouble sleeping as long as I can remember

>I don't need to live through as much guilt compared to what I would when relapsing in the morning and feeling bad for the rest of the day (I measure my streak days in sleeps, not in 24hr increments)

>I can "start again" really quickly the next day, which makes me feel good in the morning because "I'm doing the right thing and making a change" even though I shouldn't be starting over again

The final point there reminds me of something I did a lot when I was a kid renting games from the local TV store: I'd get through the first few levels, then restart the game and play through it all over again. I only have a few clear memories of this (thought a boss was scary, save data corrupted) but I'm sure I did it more often. The feeling of knowing absolutely everything about a level or environment made me feel good, and succeeding at objectives I knew beforehand was much easier than going into them blind.

On one occasion, I actually remember being disappointed the save slot 4 in Call of Duty: Big Red One wasn't corrupted because it meant I had to play through stuff I didn't know like the back of my hand. I think this was an omen, because I still feel scared about the unknown, even when I know I can handle it - general anxiety about my career, business, education, etc.

I don't recall having this realization before, even though the subject has been on my mind plenty. I think the general social tension I've had with my hobby groups - the bug men mentioned in >>13474, and an increasing number of trannies - has made me feel worse. I hate the illiterate curry niggers I go to school with, my parents are literal drumpfers who can't discuss anything approaching controversial, and my common interests end at video games with the people in the local fighting game scene.

In all my life, I've met exactly two open conservatives - one was a Catholic cuck who broke ties with me due to a disagreement about counterfeit Magic: The Gathering cards and I don't see the other too often, although I've known him for years and he's a good man.

To make matters worse, I feel stressed because there's a general on /v/ which someone in my local scene knows about, and that means if I post anything "incriminating" it may be traceable back to me. Some stupid half-Chink (not the one from the previous story) found the one place on the internet I can be myself and he may or may not be watching it and whispering everything he thinks I say to other members of the group.

>>13513

I have nothing but respect for you, man. We're all in this together.

Day 31

I am really tired, so I won't write much.

The urges are still trying to haunt my consciousness. Also I am really failing hard to resist the need to take daily naps these are way harder to resist than my libido. They don't seem to make my sleeping habits worse, though.

I don't think I could reply to some of your posts properly now, so I will do the least I properly can and advise you to keep your mindset clear from anything sexual.

Pushing out the parts of your mind that prevent you from achieving your goals is crucial if you want to achieve anything at all.

Day 32

>>13571

It's healthy, I think? I consume different types of breads (I rarely eat the ones made from white wheat, though), grains; meat (I try to separate as much fat tissue from the meat as possible before cooking or eating (some cholesterol is left in the meat anyway, so I think I receive enough of it); also I don't eat pork a lot because it contains quite a lot of fat tissue and I just happen to dislike fatty foods), fish, broth (and soups in general), chicken eggs (boiled, fried, omelettes), cheese, (mostly fresh) vegetables and fruits, olive oil, etc.

I don't really drink anything much besides water, tea, dairy stuff and, rarely, coffee.

Also, as I mentioned in some of my posts before, I refrain from eating sugar or anything that contains it.

Also no alcohol (pretty obvious), no junk food, no suspicious shit with food additives, corn syrups, margarine or palm oil; I'd expand the list further but it's better if you lurk on your own.

I have considered a lot of actual diets, but, in the end, I just decided to settle on basic principles like eating healthy and balanced, 5 times a day and not overeating.

Why do you ask, anyway?

>>13466

>driving around with friends for fighting game tournaments

At least you weren’t alone.

>Thanks for listening to the blogposting.

That’s why we’re here.

>>13467

>Only a few? Not bad, damn.

Admittedly my addition wasn’t too terrible. It was about once a day with stills of solo women(3D) outdoors when I finally called it quits. Plus, I had already built my willpower quitting cigarettes, gluten, soy, and gmos. I also have the added motivation of becoming God-tier for my newborn daughter. On the one hand she’s helping me spend less time in /pol/, on the other my wife is extra busty and gibs-ing milk so the past month has been easier and more difficult tbh. Last weekend I had my first nocturnal emission after 21 weeks. I had had a few lewd dreams before but either resisted in them or woke up in time to meditate and cool off. This time I woke up just as it was happening. The good news is that I didn’t feel ashamed or like I lost/relapsed, because ultimately it was out of my hands.

>Carlos.png

It was more of a ffs kind of feel.

>>13482

Exceptional post lad. This will help me deal with these two glitched NPC’s at work. They basically puke (((Adam Sandler)))-esc buzzwords at each other at full volume. I’ve threatened to throat punch one before, but he’s back at it(NPC programming). You’re an insightful man DM; I’m glad you’re here forever. ;^)

>>13520

>I'd not advise anyone to namefag without a good reason, though, because anonymous imageboards just weren't created to be filled with namefaggots

It would help if this board had id’s tbh. But imo you’re right, the namefagging increases the shame and is helpful.

>>13545

>I think there is something in my heart which does not want me to get better, but I am not sure how to find and eradicate it.

Your heart wants you to get better. It’s probably some part of your false ego that thinks it has to feel this way to be “yourself”; just because that’s been default mode for so long. You true ego wants you to get better and to reach your full potential. If you can’t go camping, try at least fasting from Internet/vidya for a few days in order to actually hear your heart. Which by the way has it’s own nervous system, millions of “brain” cells, and is effectively an electromagnetic radio.

>>13556

>I think it's just the human desire to cling to routine, for nothing to change. We may not like to admit it, but we got comfortable being degenerate losers, and change hurts like a motherfucker.

This, plus neuro chemical feedback loops make our struggle very difficult. It’s why degeneracy will be normal until the last kike is cornered and roped. Remember anons, just being here and wanting to change makes you better than all 5000000000 NPC’s and 90% of the normalfags that have souls.

SIEG HEIL

Day 35

I have a lot on my mind I would like to write about, but not today. If it's important, then I will write about it next time; if it is not, then I will simply forget about it by the moment I will write a new post.

Life is giving me a lot of unavoidable shit lately: random intense urges, retarded situations I can't do a single thing about, incredibly stupid and shitty people trying to give me trouble.

I don't really feel anything much about it all. There's no anger to push me forward, there's no irritation that would make me make mistakes, there's no despair that would try to ground me down.

Maybe I am just getting too sensitive and starting to give way more attention to the things that were always present in my daily life.

>>13593

>I had already built my willpower quitting cigarettes, gluten, soy, and gmos

That made me think: what if people who are having trouble with nofap focused more on quitting more minor things like the ones you listed? Would that be more effective than entirely focusing on nofap or focusing on everything equally?

>>13595

>A high intake of carbohydrates can cause drowsiness and you mentioned your were sleepy, I know carbs make want to nap all day.

That could be the main reason of my little problem, but after experimenting for a few days by cutting off my carb intakes by ~35% and still seeing that I'm getting more and more tired but somewhat less in general, up to the point where my body does not tries to sleep as soon as I accidentally touch my bed, as soon as the noon passes, I have understood and concluded that it's rather natural, as I have to be active right from the start of the morning and keep at it until I can relax at home.

Also, I write my posts during the evening- late evening period (when I am already tired), so that could warp my perception and memory into falsefully thinking that I were not as fresh during the day as I thought.

>>13614

>it's almost the current year+4

>nothing really changed in the world since TCY+0

>except for the date

I ended up going full retard on Halloween night and fapped. I was on day 57. I got massive urges to fap all day on Halloween and my will power had been exhausted late into the night.

Definitely wasn't worth it.

And I fapped this morning as well.

Back on day 0 but all is not lost.

Honestly I'm proud of making it that far at all with since my previous streaks were less than 30 days.

I'm pledging to not fap for the remainder of November, plus 2 days into December since I'm (re)starting late.

Day 40

Time flies quite fast, huh?

I remember writing the day 78 of my previous streak lIke it was yesterday.

Things are going okay for me. The urges that I sometimes receive are not strong enough to bother me.

Also, I have managed to finish some things I had some trouble with and start some other things I have been wanting to start for quite a long time.

I felt a bit smug and disappointed at the same time when I got reminded about the no nut November meme IRL, because I don't lurk around the places with the fresh seasonal shitty memes unless I search for info about certain shitty memes.

It just presents nofap like it's a meme and makes the people exposed to it reinforce the fapper mentality with shitty "ironic" humor.

Barely anyone takes it seriously. It's just another thing to joke about.

Not that I care about it too much, though.

>>13629

Thanks. Stopping or failing now would be too much of a waste.

>>13736

Nah, man, I was just quite busy in the past few days. I wanted to update the blog earlier, but I thought it would be better to do it when I have actual free time (as in, "free time where I don't have to do anything serious"), where my chances to fuck up and relapse are higher than average.

>>13648

Personally I tried cutting on multiple harmful stuff with mindset like: "If I can't do something as simple as stop being lazy/indisciplined/overeating/eating sweets, then how will I stop myself from fapping?" Then I taught myself to become disgusted by a single thought about doing something I really don't want to do. Of course I applied the same thought processes to the PMO. Worked quite well so far.

>>13668

>>13704

Damn, I don't even know what to say or what to suggest to help you. I just hope that you will do better this time. Don't let any demon, spook or stray lustful thought get in your way.

Also that's a nice gif.

>the blackpills lowered my spirit/will

What blackpills, anon? Could you tell us about those, as long as they are SFW? Maybe we could discuss these blackpills so you would become less affected by them in the future. After all, it is just information.

Day 45

The urges are intense as shit; they just don't want to stop appearing. Neither do I want to stop resisting. For every second of my brain craving to unleash the lust I make sure struggle and resist at least two seconds.

That aside, my overall performance got somewhat worse. I think it's because I don't want to do the things I currently have to do. I guess it's just impossible for me to perfectly well do the stuff I am not 100% interested in.

I think it's time to post the reaps of the borning inner monologues that I have been having for too damn long. Right now I feel like my mind is full of insight, and every ounch of that insight is full of clarity.

Sometimes I even don't know myself what I want to do. As if I am not honest with myself whenever I think that I have a dream, a goal or a result which I want to achieve.

What would I even consider "being honest with myself"? Doing what I feel like doing (that is not self-harmful like fapping n' shit is), like sleeping and/or daydreaming 24 hours a day? My mind would be in complete unrest then, as I would be thinking that I am just wasting my time.

I think about optimizing my time and actions very often, and I am not satisfied at all. But why do I care about it so much? Do I have a good, solid reason for it? Would my life become meaningful for myself if I managed my time and actions perfectly and I knew about it? I don't think so.

It's like I want to build the perfect car out of my life/myself, but I have no idea for what reason do I do that; what exactly should I do with it? Where do I drive to? Should I make a killdozer instead and ram shit until I am out of fuel?

Strip this man of his hobbies, mental self-defense mechanisms, personas he wields, the bravado and lies he have been collecting and keeping in his mind as truth and you will just get a guy who wants to die. It can't become any more stupid and vexing than it is.

There it is - the retarded inner struggle a lot of people have, where the person's body, brain and survival instinct tell that exact person to live, bribe him, lie to him and make him lie to himself, and the person's mind points out how futile the life and being themselves are, and then it helps the person to reach certain conclusions.

Should a person become an animal and listen to his body, or should he be a human and listen to his mind? There's just no right answer, and answering "yes" or "no" to both questions at the same time is not an original nor better option.

When you are dead, you can't do anything anymore. When you are dead, you don't have to do anything anymore.

Also I find it incredibly fresh, satisfying and enjoyful to destroy or delete anything that I create. It's like I realize my freedom that is actually quite limited, open up new possibilities and bring myself closer to the state of "clarity" at the same time. I try to refrain from trying to create anything especially anything good, because I think I could get addicted to this shit, and I don't need that.

I know for sure what I don't want to do: things like wasting time, becoming a degenerate or letting in any of the addictions or bad habits in my life. I don't need any of that, as, honestly, everything is already shit as it is. I guess that qualifies as a good reason.

My fingers can't keep up with my thoughts well, so I guess I will stop here. I wrote enough, anyway.

Day 46

The day went alright.

I forgot to mention that I have been having a wet dream once in every 2 days in the past two weeks. Both the mess it makes and that certain feeling I get after it piss me off.

Day 47

I had a bad time sleeping because of another wet dream (actually not even a dream, I just woke up because of an ejaculation).

Many sources tell that wet dreams are not a bad thing and they are a sign of recover, but, surely, there should be a reliable way to at least make them appear less often? Maybe I am not suppressing the lust good enough?

It feels like my nofap progress is being stalled.

>>13875

>have you seen a doctor about that?

No. I don't think it is a good idea to seek support in nofap from the (((doctors))) that are usually against it, because, as you said:

>They'd probably just tell you to jack off.

By the way that would be true only in the best case. I'd expect a shit-tier (((suggestion))), like taking female hormones or using a hooker.

>Good job on day 42 anon.

Thanks (?) That was day 46, though

Day 49

It seems that, unlike the urges, the wet dreams finally left me alone.

Day 50

Another clean day.

I have to mention that most of the urges I had in the past two weeks were actually just very intrusive sexual thoughts. They are not a problem anymore. At least for now.

Day 54

The urges have struck again. I was not at my best when that happened, so, instead of instantly warding them off, I just got confused and then I got lost in thought. No relapses, by the way.

Day 60

I guess it's time to update the log.

A few days ago I understood that persistence is the only helpful trait I have.

Mindlessly crashing into my problems over and over again until they disappear and then forcing my way through have been the best method for me to live my life.

That's how my nofap is partly done. Whenever an urge arises, I tell my brain "no," "nope," "I don't want to," "I don't have to do this" or "nah, fuck that shit" until it gets tired and the libido forgets what it had been trying to do.

It doesn't work so good when I am mindful about it. I guess it's just because I am not focused enough if I have at least a single thought to spare.

Day 66

This week has been somewhat intense for me, and, surpisingly, I had very few urges since my last post. My guess is that it's because I had to be busy, and I kept myself even busier than it was required for me.

Day 68

Yesterday urges were intense as hell. I don't exactly know how I managed not to start lurking for porn or relapsing, but my streak is safe for now.

Apparently I have reached

Day 74

The nocturnal emissions are a rare thing for me now, and the daily lustful thoughts/urges are so half-assed that I have no trouble suppressing them.

The only difficult problem I have is that I am prone to oversleeping. I have already read about this topic and I made some preparations ready to prevent this next time.

Also I have lots of things to do; it is overwhelming, I am barely able to keep up, and knowing that I have to do it not to gain anything good, but only to avoid something terrible, does not helps. The thing is that I am really glad I am on nofap, because, if it were old me, then I'd break down from the pressure and waste my precious time on PMO. I would just clutter my tight schelude with useless shit, the worst type of procrastination.

Now, as I at least partially erased my ability to do that, it got a little bit easier pushing forward just thanks to the very thought about this.

>>14162

Nice to see you alive, too.

How much it felt easier to nofap while nolurking?

Day 85

I haven't noticed that this streak surpassed the previous one a few days ago. I even forgot I am on nofap because I don't have too much free time to think about it.

I'd say it's easier to nofap now. Nothing bothers me but a few occasional/random boners that disappear as quickly as they appear.

It's nice to be free from succubi's control.

Now I am very intetested in living through complete 365 days of nofap. It's not that I weren't interested into it before, but now this is my next goal.

Day 90

I HAVE AWAKENED

Day 96

There's still some time before it is 2019 in my timezone. I guess right now would be the perfect moment to make another post.

The urges bother me only in my dreams. I try to brush them off there, too, though.

Also my life is currently on the bright side. I wonder how long it will last, and how devastating and challenging any future changes will be. It is kind of exciting.

>>14286

I'm sure you will be able to become whoever you want to be, at least because it is not impossible.

>>14291

Yes indeed.

>>14302

Do not worry, I am currently working on it.

I hope the next year won't treat you all terrible.

Day 4 and I've already had urges to fap since yesterday.

>tfw randomly get reminded of cam whores and porn scenes for the dumbest reasons

Its gonna be a tough journey.

>>14332

I hope you are doing good; I saw this and thought you’d like it.

>>14379

It takes about 21 days to start feeling normal stick with it.

Day 104

A three-digit number of clean days already? Never really thought about me getting this far during this streak.

Today I had a worrisome dream, if not a nightmare, about me running away from a literal embodiment of degeneracy. Fucking succubi, get the fuck out from my dreams. I should have entered lucid dreaming mode and nuked that monstrosity away from my subconsciousness.

Surreal things aside, I am starting to lose my discipline because of myself thinking it is okay to slack off "a little bit" during holidays. Sabotaging myself and any progress that I have made in anything would be the worst holiday present I could ever have given to myself.

I have to go back to disciplining myself as soon as possible, even if I will be not good at it. I will be starting today.

Also I am feeling somewhat good, and I even have not been having serious urges nor I have not been hitting any flatlines since my last post. I should be cautious and get mentally prepared for bad shit to happen, since nothing good could last for too long. This knowledge does not hinders my motivation, though.

>>14383

I can't just ignore a pic of WH40K's Dreadnought. Fukken saved

>>14355

Just don't get burnt out to the point of relapsing by the next year. Don't let the cycle repeat itself.

>>14335

Speaking of guiding, I wonder if I should make a new thread once this one reaches the bump limit? It's mostly just a personal blog, but it may be helpful and motivational for someone who sees it on the first page.

Day 111

I fucked up my sleep schelude in a weird way a few days ago, so now I wake up very early and I go to sleep very early.

I get especially tired once the noon starts.

The point is that I have managed to do some stuff (mostly interactions with normalfaggots) I thought I would not be able to do (especially in a tired state) without dropping any noticeable spaghetti. I have impressed myself a little.

Also I'm getting daily dangerous woods, but my old methods of warding those away are still working well.

>>14468

Thanks man

Day 118

Today a ton of absolutely unrelated weird shit has happened to me. Actually, it had been going on since yesterday, and it still happens. I probably should get paranoid about it, but I don't feel like it.

I wonder what kind of unexpected bullshit I will have to deal with tomorrow.

Also my diet got worse because

>muh finances

>muh lack of time

So I have decided to supplement myself with <4 tea spoons of honey (a gift I got from my family some time ago) a day. I don't really like the taste (too sweet), but I need those fucking calories and vitamins, especially during winter. Kek, I guess that concludes my noglucose streak?

So far it looks like the only objectively positive piece of news I have is that I am getting back on track to my full training regimen. Thankfully I haven't degraded too much during the small period of time when I have been taking everything too easy.

Day 123

Suddenly, my life started to feel like it's on easy mode.

Also I am being clean for 4+ months, nice.

>>14671

What if I told you that every plane pic I have ever posted here was actually a pic of a transformed mecha?

Here you go, though.

Day 2

Okay, long story short, I fucked up on day 130/131 when I grinded on my bed while being half-asleep after almost waking up at night. There's no excuse for this shit, especially if that led to nutting. The nofap gods have not ignored this: they gave me some brain fog and a swollen peepee as a punishment.

I think the realization of this failure brought me back to my senses for a moment, though I still feel somewhat hollow. It motivated me to finish up some stuff that I have been postponing.

Though I'm really tired of me being able to do my best at anything only after I fuck up something (not on purpose). But the most awkward/fun thing about this is when "my best" is not enough for a result I would be at least satisfied with. It's that kind of determined momentary mindset that discipline can't give to you. It is incredibly helpful, but it burns itself out at the worst moment.

Still, I am glad I weren't too much emotionally invested into this streak. Otherwise, I'd be a depressive fap-marathoning wreck right now.

I hope you all will have great luck, grit and grip on yourselves. At least someone has to have these, right?

>>14927

Am I sure? Oh yeah I fucking am.

I can't seem to have a good streak as of late, so I will just lay off the internet for at least a month, but first, today I will prepare myself for a week of what >>12995 anon suggested a long time ago here.

I have to start going full-autism mode in other aspects, too, if I ever want to see at least a glimpse of a result. The way the things are, I wish to get beaten up half to death for losing my grip on myself. Such mindset is counter-productive, and I will have to make it go away by making things right.

Day 11

I kind of forgot about this thread and about being on nofap. My streak is perfectly fine, though.

I think that test week was effective. I mostly drew stuff, slept and exercised, though I felt anxious about postponing some of my projects, especially as I kept having a lot of good ideas. It weren't so obvious back then that, if I booted up my content-making hardware, I would actually waste my time on streak-breaking shit instead of anything else.

I won't try to keep this thread too active. I want to minimize my exposure to the internet, and there is a chance that I could slip and lurk around infinichan.