No.31557
Yes I know you've seen this thread a million times. tonight I tried to kill myself. the gun didn't fire, the round got stuck in the chamber somehow. I was grinding my teeth waiting for everything to go dark but after pulling the trigger I was still here. I just had to share this with someone, I have no one else.
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No.31559
I wanted to kill myself last year. Details are exhausting and I don't remember much.
I'm not really convinced about living, but I think dying isn't the right choice.
I started therapy. Please do the same, OP.
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No.31561
>I was grinding my teeth waiting for everything to go dark
I might be mistaken, but that sounds like you're not mentally ready to depart to gensokyo yet. I guess the gun thought so too.
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No.31566
Please don't kill yourself.
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No.31571
well did you fix it yet??
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No.31574
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No.31577
Make sure to chop yourself up and send yourself to the jp mansion so we can play hangman with your body.
On another note, drugs of course, proper dissociative therapy would even give you a chance to feel literally nothing. Just like what you were waiting for.
If you're good at meditating thoughts away, it can feel like pure emptiness for years without judgement from your ego of any sort.
It's not really anything crazy special. Kind of really hard to tell whether its enjoyable or not in the moment. But interesting nonetheless.
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No.31584
Don't rush it OP! Suicide is for people who are irreversibly empty inside, not for those who feel frustrated at the moment .
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No.31589
>>31584
I agree, I often think about suicide aswell to cease the pain of living.
But these pains are just temporary, there will be brighter times.
Maybe we can work together on tackling the things that make us sad
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No.31605
I think we should have a thread where we say all our worries and what bothers us. It kind of helped me when I could explain in detail what eats me up inside.
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No.31639
Dudes. My brother just misread this OP as 'I've been grinding my teeth a million times tonight'. Which is veryk cute of him.
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No.31649
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No.31655
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No.31656
>>31655
does he look good in a skirt
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No.31657
>>31656
He looks very manly in a skirt. He should wear them more often since his leg muscles practically burst his pants.
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No.36614
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No.36619
I have a feeling the rabbit is behind this.
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No.36620
Please don't suicide
You know why
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No.36633
Use a knife you faggot,you can't trust firearms.
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No.38161
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No.38166
>>31557
So I lost the old era or /jp/. My question is: how many different rituals have been tried to go brb Gensokyo? I remember one involving drinking some stuff but nothing more.
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No.38167
>>31557
>gensokyo is full of youkai
>so is hell
You know OP, maybe that's fate telling you that you oughtn't to blow your brains out just yet.
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No.38169
You don't go to Gensokyo if you kill yourself.
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No.38177
>>36633 this
"The bullet is a fool, the bayonet is a sage."
-Alexander Suvorov
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No.38185
your headcannon becomes real in gensokyo if you shoot up a synagogue
leave a mark on this world larger than what it left on you
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No.38187
>>38185
Please stop using that shitty word, "headcannon".
It's tumblrs shitty attempt at giving crappy fanfiction more validity.
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No.38191
>>38185
>>38187
Not him, but you have to admit that with the nuclear-sized holes that Touhou lore has, you have to fill something up with your view of things.
I agree that that word is misused 99 times out of a hundred, as I hate with all my essence all that tumblr-like fanfiction hell. Although do you have any other way to call it?
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No.38194
>>38191
What nuclear sized holes?
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No.38196
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No.38197
>>38191
I call it "my own interpretation of things which is in no way canon"
There's only one person whos allowed to make something canon, and that's ZUN.
People always bring up that stupid argument that touhou has no story/lore and that anyone can just make shit up as they please, but the truth is that theres plenty of characterization if you stop being lazy and read profiles and printworks.
But these dumb assholes who use the word headcanon like to ignore it, because the actual canon personalities contradict their shitty interpretation.
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No.38200
>>38197
No one said that those are canon indeed.
Also the word 'headcanon' literally means 'canon only in my head' so yeah personal interpretation. At least that was the original meaning of it.
But lots of people prefers to totally ignore this.
Oh I know well that. Touhou has plenty of characterization, but at the same time there is stuff that is unknown - for example the backstory of most characters like Sakuya to say one.
tl;dr What I mean is that is ok to add personal stuff where canon is not detailed/present, but rewriting canon to your preferences or saying that those interpretations are canon is stupid.
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