Pedo hikkis 引きこもり 11/09/17 (Thu) 01:27:36 82bb91 No. 1630
Are there any pedo hikikomoris on this board?? and what do you guys do to cope with having your attraction towards children?.
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引きこもり 11/09/17 (Thu) 03:10:34 099c79 No. 1632
I've been thinking about this subject for a while, but how many hikkis are hebephiles because they stopped socially maturing after they receded into their hikki state? I grew out of this real quick once i realized what i was doing but i found myself looking at pictures from middle school because that was the last time i felt any social sexuality. That period in my life was the last time i looked at a girl and thought about the future in a tangible way.
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引きこもり 11/09/17 (Thu) 04:26:42 82bb91 No. 1635
>>1632
>how many hikkis are hebephiles because they stopped socially maturing after they receded into their hikki state?
This is me like i have said before i feel like i never grew out of the teenage stage in my life and now i am stuck in a never ending adolescence like most hikikomori are i feel like a teenager in an adult body.
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引きこもり 11/09/17 (Thu) 07:54:54 6f9ddc No. 1638
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引きこもり 11/09/17 (Thu) 09:36:55 eab120 No. 1641
I kinda suspected the same from Michael Jackson. I don't think he intended to be a rapist or really hurt kids, but maybe he did, who knows–all I know is the adult portions of his childhood sucked ass, so he became a childlike person to surround himself with the only happy innocence he could remember.
They say pedophilia can't be cured. But if people really want it to be cured, I wonder if dealing with that delayed development in the mind could help.
I think if people actually gave a shit about their kids–like, listen to them, help them understand adulthood, give them proper chances at success–there'd be a lot fewer pedos out there to 'worry' about.
That's just my thoughts, though, not my judgement. I feel for you guys. I'm in a similar situation (but not with children) so I can sympathize with living a life where your attractions are seen as sickness… Do any of you want to 'change,' or is it too big a part of you to consider? With what I've got, I don't wanna change. I just wanna stay away from everyone.
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引きこもり 11/09/17 (Thu) 10:41:45 82bb91 No. 1642
>>1641
>I think if people actually gave a shit about their kids–like, listen to them, help them understand adulthood, give them proper chances at success–there'd be a lot fewer pedos out there to 'worry' about.
That is a good point anon.
>Do any of you want to 'change,' or is it too big a part of you to consider?
To be completely honest i wish i didn't have these feelings but i do and i recognize that it's something that is apart of me and that i can't get rid of it so i will have to live with it forever until death.
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引きこもり 11/09/17 (Thu) 11:27:57 748ba8 No. 1643
>>1632
I certainly am.
Luckily though, I deleted the risque pictures folder that went around my school back in the day years ago in a flight of paranoia and I'm not visually sexual anymore to really care so I don't go to any dodgy sites either.
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引きこもり 11/09/17 (Thu) 13:39:03 bc813f No. 1644
>>1630
i just know that it is seen as a very bad thing in our society so i just restrict myself, it is not hard for me
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引きこもり 11/09/17 (Thu) 16:30:47 63feaf No. 1648
>>1632
I'm often attracted to teenage girls, and I've been tempted to find the sites where teenage content can be found, but whenever I feel that temptation I try to remind myself that I'm an adult and snap myself out of it. I don't want to feel this way, but sometimes I just can't help it.
>>1641
>I kinda suspected the same from Michael Jackson
Some people swear he was a pedophile, others claim he was framed. Either way, I feel sorry for him.
>They say pedophilia can't be cured
I hope that isn't true. I know that here in the US, people will classify a problem as 'incurable' simply because they don't want to take on the responsibility of actually working through the problem. So who knows.
>I think if people actually gave a shit about their kids–like, listen to them, help them understand adulthood, give them proper chances at success–there'd be a lot fewer pedos out there to 'worry' about.
I agree.
>>1642
>i recognize that it's something that is apart of me and that i can't get rid of it so i will have to live with it forever until death.
I know that feel. I hope we can both find something healthy to fill that void in our lives.
>>1643
>I deleted the risque pictures folder that went around my school back in the day
There were a couple times in the past were I collected a few pics and vids, then felt guilty and deleted them. Now, when I come across material like that, I try to click away from the page as fast as I can, so not to fell tempted to download it. I try to redirect my focus to something else I'm attracted to, or I just close out of my browser entirely and play a game for a while.
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引きこもり 11/09/17 (Thu) 16:32:57 b428a3 No. 1649
With lots of loli and fantasies, while loli isn't really legal where I live and thought crimes aren't a thing (yet) its much less likely to get thrown in the slammer over then the genuine thing or the gray area of photos.
I just see it for what it is; an attraction. A part of me that I might not like mind you, but its just a part. Plus I'm still very attracted to good some T&A's.
>>1644
I think the irony is many of the people in power and celebrities constantly preach about how being attracted to children and teenagers is wrong, yet a good lot of them are fucking child molesters anyway.
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引きこもり 11/09/17 (Thu) 19:08:59 4b6e9b No. 1652
Yep.
Though not exclusive, it is primary, and also not the explicit cause of my reclusive behaviour. It does add to the feeling of being ostracized, however.
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引きこもり 11/09/17 (Thu) 22:13:58 82bb91 No. 1654
>>1648
>There were a couple times in the past were I collected a few pics and vids, then felt guilty and deleted them.
Same here back in 2016 i use to collect pictures and videos from mostly Masterchan but i deleted the entire collection i had out of fear and paranoia that the feds would find me now i try to stay away from stuff like that but sometimes it's hard but i am still trying because someday i hope to get out of this lifestyle and live a normal life but that is just a fantasy right now.
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引きこもり 11/10/17 (Fri) 01:58:55 eab120 No. 1661
>>1654
It's probably for the best to avoid the real deal, pic/vidwise. It can get really addictive, if you have the kinda personality where you're into collecting things & obsessing over 'em. (I know that might sound weird, but it's a really common trait I've noticed among pedo porn addicts.)
I'm not here to force morality on anyone, so it's not about that. (That's up to you.) All I know is that in certain countries, getting caught with that shit can ruin your life whether or not you have a job or friends. It's the last thing a hikki needs.
Loli/drawn stuff is different though. Generally where I live, nobody cares about it unless they find out you have the 3D stuff, & use the loli art against you as an extra nail in the coffin.
I dunno what to think about "lolicon leads to IRLlolicon." Personally, stuff in fiction keeps me from caring about doing anything IRL because the 2D alternative is safer & more legal. Is that just part of being a social recluse-type? Or does 2D really act as a stepping stone for a lot of people into 3D?
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引きこもり 11/10/17 (Fri) 02:17:34 82bb91 No. 1662
>>1661
>It's probably for the best to avoid the real deal, pic/vidwise. It can get really addictive, if you have the kinda personality where you're into collecting things & obsessing over 'em
True this actually happened to me about 5 years ago back in 2012 i was downloading regular porn from a file sharing network called Ares Galaxy but i stopped out of fear that i could download some hardcore cp video by accident now i just stick to the free porn video sites like Porn Hub,
>In certain countries, getting caught with that shit can ruin your life whether or not you have a job or friends. It's the last thing a hikki needs.
True that is another reason why i got rid of it.
>Does 2D really act as a stepping stone for a lot of people into 3D?
I would say that Lolicon is like a gateway drug that will eventually lead to you wanting to find 3D it happened to me anon.
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引きこもり 11/10/17 (Fri) 02:40:02 b428a3 No. 1663
>>1661
Personally, I'm of the mind that its more of a "They were always into it, they just don't know till they found it" kind of deal. Porn addiction might lead you to some more illegal material and once your hook on that, its very hard to stop until you call it quits or it loses its luster and you move on to something else. Trying to quit cold turkey is extremely difficult for any addiction and being a hikki makes it MUCH worse.
But for sure cut the real shit if you can as that can and will ruin you much harder then isolation ever could. If the feds don't, the constant paranoia will.
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引きこもり 11/10/17 (Fri) 04:32:19 82bb91 No. 1665
>>1663
>But for sure cut the real shit if you can as that can and will ruin you much harder then isolation ever could. If the feds don't, the constant paranoia will.
This is so true.
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引きこもり 11/11/17 (Sat) 17:01:47 63feaf No. 1698
>>1663
>Personally, I'm of the mind that its more of a "They were always into it, they just don't know till they found it"
In my personal experience, that is not entirely accurate. Way back when I began browsing 4chan, coming across cp/jb would evoke an unmistakable 'what the fuck' reaction from me. I was repulsed by it and turned away from it. Over the years, I began to tolerate it. As my emerging addiction to porn persisted, I began to delve into more hardcore materials, which eventually lead to cp/jb.
However, even the first few times that I found myself fapping to that kind of material, it wasn't even through an attraction to children or teens, my pleasure actually came from the adrenaline rush of doing something that I knew was strictly wrong and illegal. The dangerous nature of the situation is what got me off. It wasn't until sometime later that I realized I had built up an attraction to the material. Since then, I try to avoid that stuff wherever it may be, both because I don't want to land in hot water with the authorities, and because I'm ashamed of myself for ever letting things get as far as they did.
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引きこもり 11/11/17 (Sat) 18:51:01 b428a3 No. 1701
>>1698
For me, it was the kind of the flipside. Cheesey pizza would get frequently dropped ages ago back on 4chan before the images got auto banned or mislabeled videos and pictures on Limewire but I'd still jerk the nerkin to it even if I found it disgusting at first before just becoming desensitized to it and alot of other nasty shit growing up on the internet was a mistake . I didn't actively start seeking illegal material and didn't realize my attraction until much later though and much like you it was more the thrill of it being so forbidden at first and gave a huge dopamine rush before coming down to disgust and hate of myself for going down that road.
While loli doesn't give that same rush, it doesn't make me suicidal or as guilty for fapping to it.
The desire to go back to it crops up on occasion but I think back to how deeply it affected me and it ain't worth it at all.
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引きこもり 11/12/17 (Sun) 00:06:17 82bb91 No. 1708
>>1698
>However, even the first few times that I found myself fapping to that kind of material, it wasn't even through an attraction to children or teens, my pleasure actually came from the adrenaline rush of doing something that I knew was strictly wrong and illegal.
So you liked the tabooness of it??.
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引きこもり 11/12/17 (Sun) 01:33:18 63feaf No. 1715
>>1708
Sort of. You know that feeling when you stand on a high-up ledge? That heart-pounding, spine-tingling feeling when you know the tiniest slip could seriously hurt or kill you? That's what I felt. It's like what >>1661 said: "getting caught with that shit can ruin your life." It was the feeling that if I got caught, my life was over. So risking my life in that way gave me a sensation I don't often feel.
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引きこもり 11/12/17 (Sun) 01:51:15 82bb91 No. 1719
>>1715
>You know that feeling when you stand on a high-up ledge? That heart-pounding, spine-tingling feeling when you know the tiniest slip could seriously hurt or kill you? That's what I felt.
Yes i know that feeling that is actually how i felt when i found 4chan /b/ as a whole and seeing all the fucked up shit including the cp and jb for the first time when i was younger i think spending too much time on image boards was a contributing factor in me finally realizing my attraction years later while in isolation as of recently i've been trying to steer away from looking at illegal content but i still look at legal content.
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引きこもり 11/12/17 (Sun) 17:17:56 497bb3 No. 1757
>>1708
i think that aspect is liked by most males
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引きこもり 11/12/17 (Sun) 22:29:43 82bb91 No. 1759
>>1757
>i think that aspect is liked by most males
True
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引きこもり 11/19/17 (Sun) 23:49:17 82bb91 No. 1888
>>1652
>Yep.
>Though not exclusive, it is primary
Same i am both into young girls and women my own age and older even though i am non-exclusive i do get depressed at times because of the hatred and stigma towards pedophilia and pedophiles i do wish i had an lgf to cuddle kiss and love but at the same time i do realize that i can't because of how society sees us.
>It does add to the feeling of being ostracized, however.
Same
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引きこもり 11/20/17 (Mon) 01:04:48 63feaf No. 1889
>>1888
>i am both into young girls and women my own age and older
I'm that same way. In the past, I have been attracted to girls as young as 12, and women as old as 60. I think it stems from my loneliness to the point where I would accept love in whatever form it would come to me. In reality, however, I would want to date a girl within 5 years of my own age.
>i do wish i had an lgf to cuddle kiss and love
Although I have found young girls cute in the past, I would never want to have a loli gf, nor do I condone such a relationship in others. However, I do understand the attraction that many people have to young girls, especially people like us who withdraw from society. I think it's important to have an understanding of these things, and I think if society tried to be more understanding of pedo/hebephiles, then it would be much easier to help these people move past their attraction and feel less ostracized by society in general, maybe even find women their own age to have relationships with. It would be a good first step if nothing else.
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引きこもり 11/20/17 (Mon) 01:38:04 82bb91 No. 1892
>>1889
>. I think it's important to have an understanding of these things, and I think if society tried to be more understanding of pedo/hebephiles, then it would be much easier to help these people move past their attraction and feel less ostracized by society in general, maybe even find women their own age to have relationships with. It would be a good first step if nothing else.
Agreed
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引きこもり 11/20/17 (Mon) 03:09:42 49309b No. 1895
Sometimes I wish I never found 4chan.
Pizza was indeed dropped there from time to time. Also "models" stuff from Candydoll and shady Russian sites. It was the beginning of a depraved downward spiral that no doubt helped fuck my life over.
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引きこもり 11/20/17 (Mon) 04:47:31 82bb91 No. 1896
>>1895
>Sometimes I wish I never found 4chan.
Same
>Pizza was indeed dropped there from time to time. Also "models" stuff from Candydoll and shady Russian sites
Now that rarely even happens on there anymore it all happens over here on 8chan now with history just repeating itself.
>It was the beginning of a depraved downward spiral that no doubt helped fuck my life over.
I know that feel anon i know that nobody technically becomes a pedo and maybe those of us who found 4chan back in the day were always pedos and just didn't know it and when we found sites like 4chan and 8chan and becoming hikikomori and spending too much time on online imageboards may have activated those feelings to the surface.
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引きこもり 11/20/17 (Mon) 04:50:31 82bb91 No. 1897
>>1638
>Define "children"
Anyone under the legal age of consent.
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引きこもり 11/29/17 (Wed) 11:22:16 6f9ddc No. 2043
>>1897
I forgot I had posted in here
Well then I guess I qualify. What can I say, 3dpd porn of a girl that might be on her early 20s or even 18, but has clearly had a million cocks/plastic dicks on her, it barely does anything to me. I live off doujins and asmd of girls, mostly around 14, because the feeling of purity/innocence gives me more of a boner than anything else has ever done. I might be fucked, but I like to think it says a lot about society too
It could be worse, I dont like anything like toddlercon, only girls that have just barely developed sexual attributes. Also, I know there's a fucking line between 2d and 3d and I'd never touch a real little girl
>>1632
That is an interesting point, I happen to like girls that are the same age as the girls in my class right before I started isolation. It is a huge coincidence
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引きこもり 11/29/17 (Wed) 22:47:27 82bb91 No. 2051
>>2043
> I guess I qualify
What do you mean by this anon??.
>That is an interesting point, I happen to like girls that are the same age as the girls in my class right before I started isolation. It is a huge coincidence
Same here
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引きこもり 01/17/18 (Wed) 04:59:40 5c5442 No. 3775
>>1895
>Sometimes I wish I never found 4chan.
>Pizza was indeed dropped there from time to time. Also "models" stuff from Candydoll and shady Russian sites. It was the beginning of a depraved downward spiral that no doubt helped fuck my life over.
Sane here going down the never ending rabbit hole that i should have never gone down tbh.
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