No.15002 [View All]
Post stories of your misery or just gripe about the horror of your existence.
Ill start. here i am up past midnight before i get up at 7 tomorrow and then go straight to class then from there to work. FInish at 1 and then take the hour long walk home on the streets filled with the dysgenic homeless and drunks. It is like my life is on hold for those stupid shifts i spend 30 hours a week attending to.
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No.24410
>>24404
Government employees. That's why a lot of people want government jobs, even if they pay less on paper. They are also well unionized, and it's impossible to fire civil servants and teachers (Especially in Chicago) even for repeated incompetence and under-performance due to red tape and legal complexities. Needless to say, their base of sympathy is dwindling. SJWism replacing workerism as the basis of left-liberal politics in America might not be a bad thing after all.
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No.24658
>>15343
>am I the enemy now? Have I told out my antigovernment beliefs for an easy life?
Maybe we should wait until you are the one who pulls the trigger in some scenario. We're all complicit until we cross the line.
>Would you do it?
Probably
>>15371
no calculus you say?
>>15378
this
>>16565
but anon, there is no situationism, only situationists
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No.24901
>>24398
Real work is when you hate it and real value is when you help big brother get bigger , every boomer knows that.
Forget about goods and services, real economy is about substeinance of the machine.
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No.24904
I just want happiness. I just want to enjoy something, something to pass the time, something to give me reason. What is the point of existence if you can't even enjoy anything in it? Am I so alien to be unable to enjoy what others find enjoyment in?
Books are a boring medium, but so is television. It is all passive, lying there and just watching endless repeats while consuming and therefore endlessly destroying media. Music is slightly better as you can dance to it, but at the end of the day it mostly just provides noise to shut out the world around you.
I should like games. Yet it feels like every attempt to play a game results in me getting miserable about the game's mechanics. Either it has forced updates, DRM locks, lacks any real gameplay in favor of a story, lacks random generation and thus has no replay value, or requires you to find hidden objects/solve puzzles. Or it is just a mindless RPG with no real challenge besides spending X hours in it grinding. I end up more stressed from touching games.
My flesh is itchy. I have constant headaches. It feels like endurance to even move, to even breathe. Existing in this world is a challenge, one that seems to offer little reward. To live is insanity.
I can't handle physical actions. Trying sports results in just injuring myself, while taking walks results in being attacked by bugs. I tried martial arts for a while while being yelled at for "not trying", since everyone assumes that is what is happening due to how incompetent at reality I am.
So then I seek some sort of belonging, something to do to pass the time. Humanity at least can offer diversions. Of course, I just end up being hated. Either due to being too depressive or being too autistic. Tried a psychologist, they yelled at me and told me I wasn't trying, that I am just a narcissist and need to accept that I am a lot worse than I think I am. The wait for a new one means I am stuck without much of an option and thus am twiddling my thumbs once more.
All I want is something to make me happy. Yet going to Reddit resulted in me being unwelcome due to being too abnormal. Going to 4chan resulted in me being unwelcome due to being too abnormal. I keep trying, but it just is that I am too unbelonging in this world. It is a curse I didn't even want, I never asked to hate everything other people liked.
I don't even know if I know who I am. I want a mental companion in the form of a tulpa, but my last one abandoned me as I was too pathetic. Since then I had tried getting one in the form of a waifu, hoping that finding someone else's creation would in turn lead to more structure and thus less animosity to me, but the problem is that I am just unloveable by 2d girls. Everyone with a waifu feels like Chad to me, to have such confidence that you can say this girl belongs with you, this shining example of perfection, just is a level of pride that is incomprehensible to me.
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No.24926
>>24904
I feel so similar to you I can't express it enough with words.
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No.24928
>>24904
enjoy the madness
honk honk
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No.24939
>>24928
>honk honk
You totally ate the /pol/'s cock didn't you?
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No.24987
>>24928
[spoiler] Honk honk friendo… it is painful being sadclown…
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No.24997
>>24939
I ate 4 cheese pizza today
Dr. Oetker Ofenfrische
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No.25032
>go to community college and get a degree in programming
>its been 9 months since i graduated and i cant find anything
>parents getting increasingly anal because its been almost two years since i quit my min wage job
>end up working at a shartmart, at least its quite a bit higher than min wage
>the job is very physical so its helping me lose weight since i let my health go down the drain with constant beer drinking and nights skipping gym for programming on a pserver for a game for experience over 6 months
>coworkers are all amazed that i cant find anything, and theyre 'bruthas'
fuck
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No.25033
Gotta get up for work in 6 hours… can't fucking sleep. I want to die, I fucking hate working at Amazon. Lately they've been forcing us to work overtime, for about 2 months straight, during the time of year where it's not even busy season. I only get 1 day off now, and it's Sunday so I can't even go to chick-fil-a to eat something to relax me or get anything done, like paying my rent. So I have late payments because of it. I fucking hate this place and Jeff Bezos needs to fucking hang himself. Even worse is the feeling of being watched all day while you work due to cameras and security at every turn, and not allowed to do anything except be a robot. We aren't allowed to listen to music, to talk with coworkers, or do anything but robotically do the same motions again and again for 10-12 hours, 60 hours a week. I've created a friend that I talk to in my head now, because I have no one else to talk to at my station. It's just the sound of moving conveyer all day, with nothing but thoughts. It sounds good at first, but it becomes its own special hell after 4 years of doing this. (yes I've been here for 4 years)
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No.25057
>>25033
I know what you mean, bro.
>4 years
kek fuck that I couldn't stand two months of that. How do you stand being in such a hellish environment for 4 years? I would have offed myself or embraced the hobo life. Anything to get away from literal robot work like that.
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No.25058
>>25057
I stand 4 years of it because I think I might be fucking insane and autistic. I honestly don't know why I'm just not being a NEET right now. I think it's because I'm so desperate to pay off my student loan that I'll take being a robot slave for a few years to do it. I've actually managed to make a good dent in it, and that's the only solace this job brings me at all. I just need 1 more year and I'll probably have it paid off. Just in time to get a shiny golden border on my Amazon worker badge because who needs a raise. A little border on your badge really shows your loyalty!
Fuck.
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No.25061
>>25058
And you haven't been able find any other place that has even a little bit better work that pays about the same in that time?
I've seen a dude in your situation before, but he got saddled up with leadership responsibilities on top of it because of lazy managers. And he just took the abuse until he snapped.
I keep thinking I'm just a low endurance bitch, who tries to get out of tough work by pretending it's the job and not me, but I honestly think torturing yourself with work like that is edging on insanity.
But then again, if you got a ton of student debt I understand it might not be so easy to say "fuck it, I'm out".
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No.25066
>>25033 (checked)
Dude, this is the most dystopian, doomer fucking thing I've seen.
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No.25068
>>25061
The student debt fucked me. I graduated in 2009 during the recession, so there were no jobs anywhere. I was unemployed for a few years and the loans ballooned to the point that I became a slave for Amazon and sacrificed my soul to them in exchange for freedom from debt slavery.
Either way, I am a slave. I have no choice in the matter.
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No.25069
>>25033
I hope that you're actively looking for another job like I am; warehousing is true hell when you don't have subhuman IQ.
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No.25074
>>25058
I quit after 2 weeks at amazon, place is hell on earth. If you never worked at amazon you will never understand how cruel it is. You are nothing more than a robot, I was in inbound stow, peep peep peep I heard the peep of my scanner during sleep.
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No.25082
seriously I think this is the only thing that is worse than being homeless
trapped in a wagie job that is paid only a little more than homeless level plus all the waste of time and stress you get
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No.25122
another day of waking up and sitting there with the thought of bills piling up and my contract ending in 2 months and the increasing chance that they arent gonna give me an extension fucking me out bad. dunno how im gonna smoke or drink with this shit now.
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No.25188
Weld Anon back again. I caved and told them I got a job. Turns out that because my job counts as rehabilitative, I'm entitled to an extra 100 bucks from them every week, and also they owe me money because someone fucked up paperwork which was caught by the lady I talked to, so I'm getting a lump sum. Dunno how much. Being good and honest paid off for once, thanks Netherlands Moral Anon.
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No.25198
>>25188
wew nice job m8. Happy to hear that.
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No.25316
>miss alarm
>show up several hours late
Its all errver
>apologies to boss like i just ran over his dog
"Honestly i didnt notice, you're kinda forgettable"
…thanks?
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No.25318
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No.25320
>>25316
>imagine there are people who are ABLE to wake up to alarm in scenarios where alarm isn't compliant with their sleep schedule
This is not about laziness, it's just beyond my physical abilities. No matter how much alarms I set up, I always wake up when I'm ready for it. Like today, 3 alarms rang and I woke up 2 hours later.
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No.25489
keep getting yelled at for the simplest mistakes. Like mess up, boss finds out, turn my head to look right and boss is literally in my face like some wannabe ufc fighter. other boss throws shit when nothing goes his way. One time something hit me. They constantly slam doors on people on "accident", and we had a new guy get hired who was looking to get a second job on the side. He wanted to work full time at both places, but since he needed a day one of my bosses had off and there was nobody to fill his role, my boss intimidates him into quitting the other job. If I'm getting yelled at and I ask to not be yelled at, I get sent home because I have the attitude. Funny. They won't even hire a new guy even though we're under staffed, so I work three different stations(I'm a cook) and sometimes all at the same time. I need this job, though. I just got a new vehicle that I'm making payments on and I'm helping my dad pay bills because his kidneys failed and can barely work. I'm applying to 100+ places every two weeks and I have interviews 2-3 times per week. I always get the same "We'll call you" response. Did welding school and graduated, but there aren't jobs in my area. If there are, they want people with 5+ years of experience. I've had a few weld tests for a couple jobs, and even though I passed, they want someone who can hit the ground running and won't need OJT, unlike someone fresh out of tech school. Only had sex once this year. I want to raise a family and take care of my dad so he won't have to work. I also want to start a farm, but I'm stuck in this rut.
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No.25558
When I first started I thought working with robots in a lab was really cool and could be a great experience and fun. Then I saw that I was only sometimes gonna work with them and they just wouldn't give me anything to do and keep letting my manager down by not being able to do anything. Also heard manager yelling at someone and they mentioned me being a big disappointment. The constant failures I keep having really are making me push for fucking anything that smokes nicer than usual just for a little glimmer in the day.
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No.25560
>>25558
>smokes nicer than usual
what do you mean?
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No.25563
>>25188
What you were on the NEETbux and got a job and only get an extra $100?
Idk if I understood correctly its pretty vague.
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No.25575
>>25560
I start rolling my own stuff. It feels better for some reason to me to do it myself, and I feel like im getting a better smoke feeling. Could just be psychological, but I'll take any comfort I can get nowadays.
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No.25579
>>25563
I have a brain injury from an assault a bunch of years ago which gave me a nervous breakdown and rampant memory loss. The extra money would be less if I made more money at my job.
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No.25584
>>25575
Oh. Yeah I don't smoke so that went right over my head lol
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No.25607
>>15002
for a year I worked at a "gold ribbon school" which means (regulated by jews). in the time working there I had to deal with regulations which allowed cognitively disabled children to participate with normally cognitive children. this means like a HAWK I had to watch all of them, as their campus supervisor. it was very hectic, and at some points I even had adult faculty members who had seniority harass me. was even able to document glow nigger activity. I am now training to be certified as a bar-tender so that I can make more money. I have personally learned that if you're working harder than what you should put up with your pay;you're doing it wrong. I was very attentive to all the children, so kids parents would get me gift cards,make me posters, or generally kiss my ass like no other supervisor on their grounds, but I was fair, and was able to teach them etiquette expected for their age groups, along with teaching them what's ahead, and what's to come from learning from the future, by giving example of IRL students as shits happening. administrators didn't like me getting sick continuously from un-hygienic children. I missed over a month of work;lmao even though this was fairly common with a lot of adults working there already(I'm 22). To give you an idea of how bad things were working there here are some pics, and a good ol' document.
http://www.saugususd.org/Investigation-Information---October-2017/
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No.25608
>>25607
should also mention i attempted to report him with my findings, and was told to give it to the sheriffs who obviously are in on all this shit lmfao;no lady i'm not going to get suicided in the back of the head, because you want me to follow "protocol" like a good goy;do it yourself.
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No.25636
>>25607
Are you fat by chance? That's usually an invitation by itself for the bitches to lay into you.
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No.25782
applied to the SCC a while back, had a phone interview, and got selected to join a crew of wilderness firefighters. I really hope this goes well. I can't do kitchen work anymore. I can't put up with construction jobs going to foreigners. Some fresh mountain air should be good. Maybe doing work for the national parks won't be so bad. Won't pay well, but I'll be training in first aid and I'll try to get a permanent job with a hotshot unit.
The city kills.
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No.25783
>>25782
also
>politely not bumping because double post so forgive me
it sucks, I'm relieved that I'll be leaving the hellhole I used to work at, but I'm losing my friends. I'll have to make entirely new friends, and make entirely new memories, but I'll miss the old memories and the old friends. And a cat I was taking care of. Going to make sure he has a home before I leave, so I don't just leave him out of nowhere on the street. That image breaks my heart. Like, you have this cat who hangs around your yard and chills with you and doesn't go anywhere else. Then you leave one day. He'll still be there, on the porch, waiting for me to get back home, but I'm not coming back. So I'll make sure he has a home. But I'll miss him. Not that I'm some psycho who thinks animals are kids or anything, I just hate abandonment, and animals just don't understand. I don't like pets because they always die or you have to give them away.
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No.25787
>break out of living with abusive family
>move to brand new apartment block
>nice neighbors it's all good
>a recurring sentiment echoes through everyone's lips:
>This place will be a ghetto in 5 years.
>have shitty zoomer pilll-popper neighbors below
>off their tits on MDMA all the time, in one instance climbing up the balcony because they thought they heard cops
>it was me having a smoke on my balcony
>this is 4 floors up
>they eventually get evicted for being noisy freaks within 2 months of living there
>peace at last
>fast forward 9 months and the other big ghetto in town gets bulldozed
>around that area you can still smell rot and drugs, enough to burn your nostrils
>new neighbors below - shell suits and freaky alien-like proportions
>horrible snaggle-toothed smiles
>methheads
>suddenly my nose is burning with the smell of rotten tobacco and cheap deoderant coming through the windows
>start getting really anxious over weird shit, childhood traumas flaring up like nothing before
>hallucination flashbacks to getting mollestered, abusive parents on my sofa screaming at me, etc.
>have to flee, start smoking weed habitually to keep me calm
>sort of works, but every time that smell comes in my heart goes from 60-70bpm up to 120-130.
>now too paranoid to call the cops
>too paranoid to visit in-laws
>eventually the poisoning gets so bad we have to go to the hospital
>guests have to go to casualty too
>landlord insists it's all in my head
>despite my guests getting kept in the ER overnight over it
>get hospitalised AGAIN the next day, nearly having heart attacks on the reg since quitting pot
>instructed by doctors to flee the house and never go back, forget about your shit just flee
Became homeless for a month, still needing to pay rent on a place physically uninhabitable.
There's a happy ending to all of this but it doesn't feel right for this board.
*sip*
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No.25805
>>25787
I feel exactly what you feel. I was molested by a babysitter, so when I smell certain female fragrances or certain female body odor it brings me back to that and I shut down. I haven't had a relationship in a while, mostly because I prefer women who smell like nothing, but I've been trying to put those emotions towards something else. If it wasn't for a certain woman I met, I might not've developed this, but she was that kind of woman you wanted to make a family with. I just didn't know how to deal with the emotional shutdown if she smelled a certain way like I mentioned before. Long story short she helped me slightly get over those feelings, but she thinks I'm crazy because I keep leaving her and wanting to come back. I told her everything and why, but I don't think she's ready to be with someone she considers unstable despite me actively trying to help myself (thanks to her which I let her know). That was 3 years ago. Now when I smell those smells I get the overwhelming feeling of impregnating a woman instead of shutting down. I know I'm probably not healthy.
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No.25806
I am a preschool teacher so I get bit by and beat up by small children every day. I work exclusively with completely retarded people and interact almost exclusively with unfit parents.
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No.25813
>>25805
If it ain't meant to be, it ain't meant to be. Stay in touch but just carry on with your life and appreciate that she got you over that hurdle.
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No.25814
>>25082
Yeah, I imagine the pain and discomfort of being homeless eventually becomes ordinary, or at least like anything else you just get used to the shame of being a bum on the street begging for water and a bite to eat.
I was walking on a beach the other night and saw a guy in a tent just camped out. For a moment I wanted to be that guy. Down here it never gets too cold, the rain can be unbearable for a few months, but at least it's a good substitute for a shower.
Working 8-12 hours for minimum wage for years on end at the mercy of shitty supervisors and wack management… that's not a good life.
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No.25821
>>25814
>still on minimum wage after all those years
Know how I know you fail at life?
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No.25840
>tfw planned on breaking lifting prs this summer
>dad makes me get shitty internship
>feel myself wasting away sitting at a desk for 8 hours
> get home late because commute
>have very little energy to lift
>no time to do anything else
>spend birthday at work
>no time for nightwalks
Only get 1 week of free time before college starts again
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No.25841
>>25840
do you at least get paid?
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No.25842
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No.25843
>>25821
I'm not on minimum wage and I never said that I was you fucking retarded ching chong. Do everyone a favor and go get extradited to some mainland prison. Your kidneys are more valuable than you might think.
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No.25871
>>25843
Why are burgers so salty?
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No.25884
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No.25947
>>25787
OMG THIS IS MY STORY
I just haven't got to the ending yet…
Very same thing happened to me.
I'm currently unable to move though.
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