No.49710
Tall. White. Above average attractiveness. Early 20s. Dropped out of college. Small apartmemt in the city. Hard wood floors. Google fiber. Well paying job in advertising. Deep insecurities. Trouble connecting with people. Disillusioned with capitalism. Looking for a greater purpose in life. Lonely.
I feel like a cliche. I'm sure that a lot of you on here don't feel like you fit in with society either. Everything you've tried doesn't work but you have enough to be grateful for that you don't know how to appreciate. I don't know how to make it better either. I've seen therapists and none of them have helped. Tried online dating. Meet ups. Nothing
Sorry in advance for the blog post, but at least I'm trying to post something genuine.
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No.49711
There's nothing i, or anyone here, can do to save you.
You are the only one that can save yourself, but… Do you need saving at all?
Breaking is indeed needed in order to build.
Do not chase illusions of objectives, stop wasting time being a slave of your own desires and frustrations.
“The mind commands the body and it obeys. The mind orders itself and meets resistance.”
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No.49713
Even if this feels cliche (meaning other people also feel this way), noone really is willing to come forward. This thread hopefully will be relevant and helpful to a lot of other people
As for suggestions, my 50c is maybe take up an art form. Anything ranging from bonsai, painting, scribbling, whittling, playing instruments, writing poetry, dance, wood carving…
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No.49716
Your mommy said you were special and now you feel like you are wasting your time being lazy.
Newsflash, you were never special smart boy. You just didn't care what they said and you did what you wanted.
Now you are doing what you want. Exactly what you want.
You don't want to do anything.
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No.49719
I think those of us who are disenfranchised for whatever reason must learn to live with it.
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No.49724
>Look for things that interest you, look for jobs that are applicable to that.
>Save up brouzouf for online/night classes, work it around your schedule.
>Get degree
>Go to Church
>Lift (seriously)
>Get a job you like.
You can do it meng.
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No.49738
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No.49740
>>49716
im america we are slaves until we move out of our parents'
we are actually more like trained monkies that do what our parents and schools want.
if you're lucky you have escaped that matrix and are on the path to total greatness like me.
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No.49741
>>49724
>>lift
fuck you, zyzz
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No.49764
>>49740
Oh don't worry, you're still a slave anon even after you move out.
Now go work for The Man like a good prole.
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No.49793
Sure is underage b& in here.
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No.49799
>>49710
OP I don't want to call you a fucking pussy but you're making it very hard for me not to
>Small apartmemt in the city
Stuck with my parents, can't afford a place
>Early 20s
Early 30s
>Dropped out of college
I dropped 4 times, last one due to major depression which as it turns out might be incurable since I already tried every pill out there and pharma megacorps are not making any new ones because they rather make boner pills
>Google fiber
I got a shitty DSL 30MB connection which is already way above average in my 3rd world country
>Well paying job in advertising
Congrats, I been unemployed for years so I'm practically unemployable now
Is not that I can't work, simply that nobody wants to hire someone who has a major gap in his resume because I couldnt even go outside for a while
>I've seen therapists and none of them have helped
Same, but then again if I didn't talk with my therapist I would have nobody to talk to at all
>Tried online dating. Meet ups. Nothing
Same here, meetups are full of fuccbois and tinder bitches never reply
Anyways sorry for the rant I'm just too fucked up
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No.49800
>>49710
I would kill to have google fiber where I live
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No.49807
>>49800
This, Fiber is only in snobby upper class neighborhoods where I live
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No.49824
>>49799
You could be me except for a few things. I never went to college, I'm a highschool drop out and I've never had therapy for anything. I'm not depressed I don't think, but I just don't go outside a lot or talk to anyone who isn't close family. I can't go outside without intense feelings of dread, jej. I can only go out at night when there's no one around.
I've been employed sporadically in the past but only shitty jobs that are usually done by immigrants. Even then I have to lie on my resume to get the job. My whole resume is in fact one big lie.
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No.49830
Welcome to white male early 20s problems.
Get a hobby. Get a pension. Be grateful. Chill the fuck out. Don't do drugs. You are not super human. Lower your expectations a touch (just a little). Relax. You got it better than shitloads of people, you just don't know it yet. That takes a while to catch up.
Assess the job. Assess your outgoings and lifestyle. Can you change job and continue to be comfortable? Yes? Good. Do it. No? Why? Break it down and work out if you can down size and stay happy/comfy.
Take your time.
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No.49832
>Disillusioned with capitalism
>job in advertising
"man capitalism is so terrible, but I don't mind if people pay be to perpetuate the worst parts of it".
Kill yourself.
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No.49834
>>49824
Do you live in a dangerous area? which country?
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No.49844
>>49834
I don't live in a dangerous area, I'm just mentally ill I guess. There's probably a medical term for it, anxiety or something but I've never sought professional help. I wish I did live in a dangerous area. I'm less afraid of actual danger than I am talking to people in meatspace.
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No.49847
>>49844
>I'm mentality ill
>didn't seek professional diagnosis
Self-diagnosis is not the answer.
>>49844
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No.49865
>>49710
Have you ever considered helping someone in need? I mean not to actually help, but help just to make you feel better about yourself. Leave your fucking fort of sorrow for a minute, go down, just to see people with real problems. Go and give a tramp a few bucks, he's going to try to convince you you are the next fucking messiah. Help your family, help your friends, help anyone so you can forget what a pice of shit you actually are.
But you are not going to do that, are you? Because that requiers you to put in some effort and resource, and you are not willing to sacrifice any of the luxury that capitalism gave you. It's much easier to shed a few teardrops over your fancy google fiber connection every now and then isn't it? You rather waste that brouzouf on teraphy, because it makes you feel important for an hour.
Fuck your empty words, your posessions, and especially your well paying job in advertisement. I feel no simpathy for you.
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No.49890
>>49710
I don't get it. why do you have "deep insecurities"?
>Tall. White. Above average attractiveness.
try being a short, shitskin, and being ugly. you don't know half of how insecure I am. I think about killing myself every day. I won't do it, though. But I would trade 20 years off of my lifespan to be white. or tall. or not ugly, maybe. I would say to be grateful for what you do have but we all have problems anyway. just use what you do have to your advantage. are you a supreme autist or something that you can't fit in?
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No.49895
>>49865
>Leave your fucking fort of sorrow for a minute, go down, just to see people with real problems.
Maybe he should try visiting some support groups
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No.49901
>>49890
>I would trade 20 years off of my lifespan to be white.
Clayton bigsby that you? Why though? How many whites want to be black? Being white comes with its own series of sterotypes: Can't jump, can't dance, can't fight, week, feminine, nerdy, no soul, evil etc. I hear it works with women though - not that i'd know.
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No.49920
>>49895
He was supposed to become the support group.
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No.50077
>>49901
Who really cares about stereotypes? As a street shitter I have lots of stereotypes, like that I smell bad and eat curry. I don't. (I really try to distance myself from all those things) but the point is the stereotypes don't matter. what matters is the truth, that I am unironically genetically inferior in being short, weak, and ugly. I have to work harder to make up for that. If I didn't I'd have it easier. And maybe manage to get a gf. I'm autistic so probably not. I know it sounds fucked up but whatever.
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No.50086
>>49799
> simply that nobody wants to hire someone who has a major gap in his resume because I couldnt even go outside for a while
Learn to lie. Very, very rarely HR departments even bother to verify/ask for references.
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No.50219
>>49901
The grass is greener and all that shit but those are not real problems chummer, half of that is shit blacks made up to make fun of you guys
Me? I'm a white latino which means I'm white enough for leftards to call me shit over a privilege I don't have but not enough for other whites to think I'm white like them and invite me to their club
The currybro has similar problems, he's not a protected minority so he has no race card but they still give him shit for not being white.
I also knew a black nerd and well you think have it bad? he was surrounded by an entire community of violent retards. Like chris rock says
>theres nothing a nigga like more than saying "I don't know"
Even my community has its share of dumb fucks, but not to that level. No latino I know of thinks el zorro was real but you got blacks thinking wakanda is a real country
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No.50272
>>50077
>genetically unfit being short weak and ugly
My dude, you just haven't transcended the autism of not understanding genetics. Blaming anything on "genetic inferiority" is stupid because genetics isn't about superiority or inferiority. It's about what works and what doesn't.
Not meaning to nitpick but holy fug.
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No.50277
>>50272
>genetics isn't about superiority or inferiority. It's about what works and what doesn't.
>genetics aren't about what's good or bad, it's just about what's good or bad
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No.50770
>>49741
>fuck you, zyzz
Not him, but lifting brings tons of physical and mental advantages.
Do you have a big goal in life, one that will take several decades to achieve? Being fit and mobile in your 50's really helps with those things. Also, you'll be able to enjoy things once you're 70 as well because you will still have good enough muscles to function.
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No.50771
>>49865
Didn't expect to see a moralfag in here.
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No.50794
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No.50875
>>49710
You need a way to affect the world around you. Something that lets you create.
Obviously, I can't tell you what to do with yourself. But I can say this: The desire to change the world is human nature. You have to work out for yourself what "change the world" means for you.
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No.50876
>>50272
>>50277
Y'all shazbots need to shut up. OP didn't ask for ways to suck /pol/ cock.
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No.50898
>has job in advertising
>all kinds of personal problems
coincidence?
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No.50899
>>49832
>he wants to work outside of his interest
Nice try porky
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No.50903
i WONDER IF THERE'S ANY GOOD CYBERPUNK STORIES ABOUT BEING ALONE IN THE CROWD.
fuck caps lock was on but I refuse to retype that shit.
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No.50922
>>50899
>self ownership means working for a boss
>the only way to be creative is creating cooperate propaganda and this is somehow a good thing
Seems like you're a little spooked yourself there mate
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No.51132
>>50272
>It's about what works and what doesn't.
well, being short and weak doesn't work as well as the alternative. clearly one is superior than the other.
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No.51137
>>49799
>Same, but then again if I didn't talk with my therapist I would have nobody to talk to at all
Shit, I've not got (diagnosed at least) depression, but this just made me realize that I've only talked to two people outside of my family in more than a year.
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No.51138
when i am feeling dissatisfied with how my life and the world is now, i like to think about the future. the only thing we can be certain of for the future is that the world will change, because it is in the nature of things to grow, evolve, and decay. whatever kind of state the world is in now, that state will decay and then the world will change and come into a new state, and maybe the next state of the world will be better for you, if you are still alive to see the new state of the world.
you can only hope that it will be better.
speaking of the future, the year will be 2020 soon enough, can you believe it?
in the 20th century, people were expecting there to be flying cars and other advanced kinds of technology. what kind of technology do you think will exist in the year 2020?
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No.51140
Meditation and breathing. Get to know the human and the transcendental within. The truth of who you are beyond the ego and the social image of a tall white man in his early 20s … No material possessions or social situation will bring you to the truth of who you are. Get to know the purpose of life, not just your purpose. It's time for you to log in dear fellow. Here's some help if you're willing:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G5_sbzSXs0E
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gheLYL7x1ho
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hzvT0vy5cjE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iM_jSJzsNfw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-eu9GfHCpVo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fcPWU59Luoc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AeK2MBxmWoY
You are the cosmos not just a pack of meat, get to know your true core, the unconditional love that imbueds all. Surrender to the Supreme, no religion, no dogma, simple sitting in observation of one's oneness with all.
You're gonna have to change your food (vegetarian) and your water. Sadhguru is your man for the technicalities of the body (REAL yoga - union of mind body and the emptiness beyond).
My heart's with you.
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No.51151
All my keys are depressed, except F1. Help.
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No.51175
>>51140
Sounds like jerking off on the idea of being special boy in front of a mirror.
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No.51176
>>51175
Nothing & nobody is special … If the plants and animals and insects go away, we go away. If we go away, they thrive. How about special?
Be still and know that I am God: Jesus.
Stacking negative emotions and mind made BS - belief systems - (too many self related thoughts and self talking) is what makes people sick and depressed. It's ok to feel like shit at some point, but that's a sign one must go within and see the truth of the self and the truth of the world. The illusion of self. Know your place in this cosmos. Feel the inherent compassionate background silence in which all sound happens. The Creator's space, the Kingdom of Heaven.
From very young we're conditionned into this materialistic world where we seek to fill an inner feeling of expansion with objects rather than simple existence and beautiful fulfilling life experiences. We forgot that all of this is divine and not ours.
We think social status is fulfilling and we strive. Strive not and humble yourself in front of the mighty creation of the Creator. Science is BS, all is BS compared to intricacy and fine tuned work that is this universe we witness. And yet, skepticism rules our hearts and we see no truth nor do we know peace in our hearts.
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