/blog/ -I hope nobody ever gets to know me.Deep down I'm horrible.And I'm miserable because I will never be perfect. And that's pathetic, I know. But it's just that it's apparent to everyone else except me. Or so it's made out to be that way. And it pisses m

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Anonymous 03/02/19 (Sat) 18:36:24 No.677

I hope nobody ever gets to know me.

Deep down I'm horrible.

And I'm miserable because I will never be perfect.

And that's pathetic, I know. But it's just that it's apparent to everyone else except me. Or so it's made out to be that way. And it pisses me off.

I'm a monster. I wish I could do terrible things to people. I wish I could be a true demon. I'm horrible. I want nothing but to do the worst things to people, and it's something I can't turn away from. but I will never achieve it and that will drive me mad.

I think about getting so stiff inside of little girls.

Mothers forfeiting their children. Hypnosis. Cuck sex ritual mutilation. Farming for virgins.

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Anonymous 03/08/19 (Fri) 07:44:09 No.678

pssh… nothing personnel.. kid…

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Anonymous 03/13/19 (Wed) 15:40:27 No.684

>>677

Definitely impregnatable, this one.

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Anonymous 03/20/19 (Wed) 14:16:42 No.687

I can only realize how painful of an eye sore my life is when I'm high.

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Anonymous 04/12/19 (Fri) 03:45:48 No.692

You are a fat jobless man.

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Anonymous 07/02/19 (Tue) 05:32:08 No.716

>>687

This has held true.

When I get high. I see how much of a sorry ass sick fuck I am.

Here's an update.

my wife (still legally married no divorce papers yet) is fucking another man with my baby in the other room.

I hate it.

but that's the kind of stuff i used to think about.

I really ruined that relationship.

now i'm just trying to salvage what's left of life.

Now that my story is broken. I don't know what to do. I can't be a normal person. I've already wired myself for extremes.

Those are the only things I can pursue.

I can be more human. I can adapt. But I don't think I can let go of my ultimate dream.

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Anonymous 07/02/19 (Tue) 05:41:43 No.717

I'm just locked into this life of endless work.

i want to indulge.

not substances. human flesh.

i've indulged too much before.

i've got to get stronger.

i'm working out now.

i'm actually getting attention on the dating apps.

one super hot girl. but she has 2 kids. oh well.

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Anonymous 07/02/19 (Tue) 05:49:38 No.718

i want to make a bluepill account

something i use for logging into all those reddit self-improvement groups.

i've got to get mentally and physically stronger.

squats are so hard. they start making my heart pump pretty hard.

i can get better though.

i probably wont be going to sleep for another 7 hours. my whole schedule is fucked up.

i gotta focus. i've got to stay focus on programming this thing.

i've got to get it done.

i am also thinking about doing classes online. i think i'd be a good personality for it.

and i definitely know enough now to get attention for it.

people are going to find out i'm a pedo pretty quickly though.

but i'm not really.

shit. i don't think so.

only when i'm feeling evil.

recently the thoughts have subsided a lot. i think it's guilt. i think it's having that public eye on me.

i've always needed that.

most people get that through their social connections. that's what i've been talking about.

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Anonymous 07/03/19 (Wed) 07:23:24 No.742

just jerked off a guy.

my sexuality is damaged.

i imagined being a little girl.

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Anonymous 07/03/19 (Wed) 08:31:38 No.744

>>742

it's also confirmed that working out will not make your penis size larger

he was smaller than me.

i told him how i had bad thoughts about kids.

for some reason i needed to do that. i guess.

or else i couldn't be that lg

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Anonymous 07/13/19 (Sat) 06:44:33 No.764

i'm doing this alone.

and i'm so close.

i just need to work a little bit more. literally just a few more weeks and I'll be set.

i finally figured this whole thing out.

i just need to keep myself reminded of that and not get lost in the darkness of my past relationship. and these child porn charges.

it's within reach.

i can get everything cleared and I can start a new life over again. and i can be happy.

i can live selfishly;. i'll never be committed again unless she's better in every single way physically.

even then she's probably just using me.

so .. never commit

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Anonymous 04/02/20 (Thu) 18:20:24 No.843

>>764

Believe me, it is good that you recognise this about yourself.

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Anonymous 12/15/20 (Tue) 03:02:50 No.850

>>843

thanks

My project launched.

I need more money. but once i can buy more time everything is going to be amazing

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Anonymous 12/25/20 (Fri) 11:02:12 No.868

I am going to stop smoking and drinking after this Christmas.

I hate everything right now.

I should have never started a family. I should have known I was going to be lonely. I should have learned to let go.

6 days of 2020 left.

I can get this thing done.

I just have to focus. Really hard. and go through everything. Diligently.

This thing has to work.

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