Pls don't, you'd just end up right where you started, you wont die. You'll fail to die, come too, and your life moving forward will be "weird". Everyone will be slightly altered, you'll be deeper in hell.
You will also however fuck the timeline of the people you love as they will branch into the world where you are dead and lost to them, and where their love cant reach you.
Unnatural death like suicide always reverberating unnatural effects on consciousness. Fracturing the collective IAM
Understand while you might be trapped now, there is always a way forward offered by nature. Find yourself anon, and find peace. For you sake, your family, and your community.
You are loved deeply anon.