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No.20646
>>20645
Hm.
Why jeopardize something you enjoy for something that might not happen.
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No.20647
>>20646
That's as right as right can be thanks, made me smile and feel like shit at the same time boy do I love contradictory feelings, it sounds as if you've tried though what was the reason behind your confessions?
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No.20648
If anyone else is lurking and has criticism or advice please don't hesitate to respond.
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No.20649
>>20648
I'm in your exact same position, so I have no right to be giving advice.
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No.20650
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No.20651
>>20649
Are you really? How closely does it relate?>>20650
I was hoping you'd be able to aha, so out of the blue you just felt like doing so and you just went for it?
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No.20652
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No.20653
>>20651
It's not important; I only spoke up because I get the feeling I may have been the only one lurking.
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No.20654
My internet is so fucking trash. I've disconnected like 20 times or more today. I DC'd like 7 times within the same match on showdown too. I cant even record this is pissing me off
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No.20655
>>20648
I am not sure how I can help you, but know that dealing with this is like defusing a bomb. I am not sure how to spark love with in someone. All I can say is that if they ever feel love towards you, it's pretty easy to tell if you are observant enough.
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No.20656
>>20653
It's important to me if you wouldn't mind sharing.
>>20654
Holy shit that's rough is it usually that bad?>>20655
I'm not sure how to deal with it either, good metaphor though, is it pretty apparent? What are some signs?
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No.20657
>>20656
Its normally gonna DC here and there, but no. Its never THIS fucking bad
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No.20658
>>20651
Only if I knew it'd go well.
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No.20659
>>20656
I don't know, I've never felt what I'm feeling for that person before, so I wouldn't know if it's love or not. I'll probably just push the thought to the back of my mind and hope it goes away.
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No.20660
>>20657
Is it multiple times a day? My internet used to do the same thing and I received a character ban on DkS3 for my 300+ hour dude.
>>20658
Well how are you supposed to know it will go well? I'm not a psychic aha.
>>20659
Could you explain roughly what your feeling and what you think about how your feeling? Pushing it away will only make you even sadder in my opinion
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No.20661
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No.20662
>>20660
I'm not exceptionally close to the person, but I want desperately to be with them all the time; something like that. The trouble being that I don't think I'm worth their time, not by a long shot, so I just keep my distance.
As for it being sad, don't worry, my life hasn't exactly been rainbows and sunshine.
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No.20663
>>20661
Huh must be pretty handy eh?
>>20662
I understand that, the only time I'm talking to her is when were discussing her game which is essentially me just asking a bunch of questions to keep interest hopefully, vidya or anime and most of the time conversation is kept up because I ask a lot of questions. I feel the same way Im just a desperate loser so I continue to talk and hope they don't just get bored one day and not respond to me again, how do you keep your distance yet talk enough to have formed an attraction? I don't think anyone's life has been that way unless you're a lucky duck, anything particularly sad happen to you?
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No.20664
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No.20665
>>20663
I don't know man, I try everything in my power to try and get them to stop showing interest, perhaps even to the point of slight cruelty. However, that simply doesn't stop them from engaging me, and it honestly confuses me to no end. I guess it's kind of nice to lie to myself that they might enjoy talking to me too, but I know it's just pity, for how little I regard myself.
I'd rather not talk about my life.
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No.20666
>>20660
Yeah it goes out for multiple times a day its a fucking pain
Im actually a psychic empath
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No.20667
>>20664
What could be bad about that?
>>20665
If you think you might love them why would you try to push them away? Any example of cruelty that you've shown? And if they're still enjoying talking to you after treating them badly that's clear that their interest in you due to something other than pity, If that was the case they'd have dropped you I think. I doubt you're lying to yourself, your self esteem is just quite low I'd assume, I'm there with you but I don't try to get people to leave me I just can't get anyone to like me in the first place
>>20666
That's unfortunate have you lost much progress because of it? Also what is a psychic empath?
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No.20668
>>20665
And you don't have to, I could trade some pretty ridiculously shitty experiences with you if you want in exchange
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No.20669
>>20667
Not really, I got set back a day yesterday cause I was up for 30 hours or so and recording was the last thing on my mind. So that was my own fault
A psychic empath is basically some with an extreme form of empathy. I can feel people's emotions as a sort of physical manifestation, so to speak. Like I can read people's intentions and emotional states of mind very well with high accuracy. This is also able to predict past emotions and future emotions as well. But mainly just the present state of mind thing
I also have had some instances of clairvoyance. Like I tried my mom's wedding ring and saw a calm beach. Then a storm came. This signified how the marriage started well, then went bad as they divorced years ago
Funny thing is that a storm happened IRL about 30 mins later and there wasn't much sign of one happening
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No.20670
>>20667
I push them away because I know they deserve better and because to love someone would be to leave yourself open for someone to hurt you. The worst thing I guess I've done is deny the idea that we're even friends, for reasons relevant to the topic at the time. Something you need to keep in mind though, this is an extremely kind person, who I'm sure would want to be friends with everyone they meet; I'm nothing special to them.
>>20668
I already had to spill my guts out to someone today, I don't think I'd be able to do it again today. Maybe if you show up before I go to bed tomorrow.
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No.20671
>>20669
Still pretty rough, sorry for not replying yesterday I passed out and slept all day, did you end up frying? You're pretty good at it then? If you tried to guess how am I feeling right now? If you're serious you might be some kind of real life super hero dude that's an awesome talent to have, my super power is called super pessimism it's pretty helpful hahaha. I'm good at determining that kind of stuff as well at least in person or over voice. That is extremely impressive man how'd that feel?>>20670
Why do they deserve better are what makes you so bad? I'm pretty worried about that as well, but I'd like to think once involved in a mutually loving relationship all of the amazing experiences you go through will trump the shitty feeling when it's over, don't take my word for it though like I said I'm a khv, how could you not being their friend be relevant to the topic? I see well that does make it a bit more difficult to determine whether or not they feel the same about you. I wouldn't put yourself down though man it's a shitty cycle that will lead to a continually depressive mind state I've been deep in that rabbit hole for a while. All good, I'm here pretty much all day lurking I'm just to anxious/shy to post unless I'm drunk, what time is it now for you for a reference?
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No.20672
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No.20673
>>20671
It's twelve minutes past midnight and I'm going to bed.
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No.20675
>>20671
It doesnt work so well as if you're in the room, but I feel like you're kinda depressed, albeit hopeful and trying to relax
Yeah I just ended up doing it. The extraction worked very well. I just got done with a recording too so I have to edit the music in then Im gonna upload it
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No.20676
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No.20677
>>20676
Replace the straw in that pic with my dick is that good with you?
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No.20678
>>20675
Nearly got it, the pessimistic optimism if that's a thing is pretty blatant, but "kinda" doesn't do it justice to be honest. And as for wanting to relax, frankly no I want to do something, fucking anything!! I do nothing but relax and have been since 6th grade, first time in my life I've genuinely felt a want for something as pathetic as that is. Do you do 700 MG's again? Good the extraction went well how was the trip? And sweet! I liked yourv last video so keep up the good work man, is it gonna be satirical or serious?
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No.20679
>>20678
This one is more serious than the others, but its a good 35 mins
I did Delsym this time, so it was basically like 711mg of HBr with some loss cause of the extraction process. Still a great trip. It was time release formula too so I had a really long one
And yeah I only felt the depressed part of it, I just added in the other bits as a guess
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No.20680
good night, neat and nice people~
>>20677
no! bully!
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No.20681
>>20679
Neato! Is it focused pretty heavily on the Pokémon dueling aspect then? That's quite a lot was the fry enjoyable? Learn anything? I feel anyone that talks to me for more than a few sentences picks up on the depression, sorry to be a downer it's not my intention. I'm heading to a park nearby to try and write some stuff down for a story peacefully, I'll respond when I'm back if you're here hopefully
>>20680
Gnite
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No.20682
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>>20681
Yeah it is. I cant say I really learned much, well there was one thing. I really love this genre of music called denpa or akiba pop. Both names work
I wish I had some drive to write, but I just dont. My objective with YT though is to remain productive so that it hopefully helps me wanna write again. Im getting in to therapy soon too
Click embed related if you wanna die from musical loli ear sex
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No.20683
>>20682
Hey I'm back i ended up writing down some rough concepts for the protagonist and the world itself so I'm satisfied for now, left a couple questions for myself. Some trips are pretty uneventful but still pleasant, did you find that genre while you were frying? Don't think I've heard of it before but I definitely see the loli influence haha, I haven't really had the motivation either until I started talking to that girl, she kind of renewed my interest in story creation which I've always been interested in so for that I'm glad. I'd imagine that producing content like you are and putting effort into it will help you get back into that state, was it all rap you wrote or poetry/writing etc.? Your next appointment is early April right?
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No.20684
>>20683
Yes to all. Well I wouldn't necessarily call it "loli music" but this specific one is so it makes me wanna explode in to rainbows
I made a friend over showdown and added him to discord. He showed me that genre
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No.20685
>>20684
Any reason for writing rap rather than producing electronic music or whatever? Looking forward to your next appointment? Exploding into rainbows? Sounds pretty lewd to me man. That's wicked though good job on making friends! Is he a cool dude?
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No.20686
>>20685
Rap was my favorite genre back in the day. I dont really even listen to it that much anymore though. I might honestly just produce shit like you said it depends. I like rap though cause its music + poetry p much
I am
kek I meant like kawaii overload. Yeah he's a cool guy he introduced me to this genre that I really fucking love and linked me to a ton of music like it
Part of why I love DXM so much is cause it makes me feel highly empathic. I feel so connected to people and animals during the afterglow and socializing is easy af
During the trip, however, I prefer to stay alone cause its very introspective and talking to people is pretty tough when you're in a 3rd plat
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No.20687
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No.20688
I'm cute so I can post here, right?
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No.20689
>>20688
Only cute girls like me.
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No.20690
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No.20691
>>20689
I've seen you naked.
I know you're a man.
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No.20692
>>20691
Fake news. I had pants on.
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No.20693
>>20692
And yet I could feel a penis.
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No.20694
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OH MY FUCKING GOD THIS BEAT IS POWER!
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No.20695
I went ahead and did another recording. But Im not gonna double up Im just having it so I can upload tomorrow while still taking a break
I should be more active tomorrow
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No.20697
>>20696
Good morning Americans and good afternoon Europeans.
I've got a
NEW THREAD
for you guys ^^
>>20696
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