A couple of weeks ago something happened though.
After having a terrible period of fapping once a day for almost an entire month I started spiraling downwards, not only depression started getting more deep in my persona but I couldn't actually stop, I "needed" to fap at least once before going to sleep, I would get flashes of sick images, mostly traps and hypno femdom stuff. I even started having pain in my testicles and stomach at the same time but it didn't seem enough for me to stop the urges to go deeper in degeneration… Until one day I actually stopped myself, and started analyzing my feelings, the discomfort in my balls, and my stomach turning over and over, I focused, and focused and focused more… and I was able to achieve a moment of clarity. Nothing that triggers this response in your body can actually be beneficial to your health. No matter the propaganda of "you better fap annon, otherwise you'll get prostate cancer".
>focusing in the discomfort caused by fapping so you can feel discomfort when you attempt to fap
This was followed without noticing by…
I have started doing chores, I have found that I can occupy myself with shit that I actually didn't know it needed doing. Cleaning thourougly the house, ordering my years of tax related paperwork, cooking for the whole week, preparing healthier desserts to have ready when the need for sugar attacks and also a very important thing that helped me change my mindset as well, started to get rid of my toys (not sexual shit, although I have a couple of those and seem to be the hardest part yet even though they are stored away and I don't even get close that box anymore).
As a total wagecuck wizard I have tons of action figures, hundreads of them scattered all around my apartment, since I don't have a girlfriend to take out on dates or even try to get on tinder and get to meet someone, really? inviting someone to Virgin Town? that sounds retarded.
>do chores, tons of them, invent chores, keep yourself busy enough and then add even MORE chores
Then…
* Something that I feel has helped me as well is K9 application, be sure to install it and use a password that reminds you of your goal "dontgiveup" "youcanmakeit" "dontruinit" "getclean" . It is a simple blocker that blocks the access to porn and shady sites like chans in general. You can even set it so it blocks any custom page you desire. I think that browsing a lot is also part of the problem with restraining yourself from the freedom of the internet so I truly believe that K9 is MUST for all of you out there actually trying to break the cycle and be FREE.
>K9 your best friend in this endeavor
I started thinking about what caused me to fail in the past… and I always came to the same conclusion "2 weeks is a lot anon, you deserve it"
* The key is not keeping count of the days you have been clean, with a mindset like that you are bound to fail in the end, you will eventually reach a "big enough" number to make you feel like "its ok to have a small fap now, its been ages since my last time" no, it doesn't work like that, my longest streak was 1 month, I was feeling so good and happy with myself that I indulged in a quick fap as a reward… needless to say that same week I was back to fapping once a day to degenerate shit. I honestly don't think I can keep a schedule of "healthy fapping" thus I must eliminate it completely from my life
>try to aim for "no more fapping mindset" instead of a "30/60/90 days"
You can kill your urges, if you avoid the places that are more likely to cause them…
* I don't come often anymore around here because being in 4ch or 8ch feels like tempting my luck in a moment of weakness, remember, urges of "just watching" lead to urges
of "just edging" which lead to "accidental cumming" or "give up cumming"
>stop coming to places like this so often, in fact limit your internet browsing MORE, that will reduce your relapse chances althogether.
