>>12354
Well, it seems like it took a bit longer then that, and now I don't know what exactly I wanted to write originally so I'll give you this instead.
As someone who suffers from some very degenerate fetishes and who has had some very successful nofap streaks in the past I can say nofap does indeed help.
It was around day 50 for me that I began to actually regain some sense off what I assume is the natural position. I wrote about this subject back then too here on nofap, but I”ll reiterate, it was about that time that I at began to experience all of life far more explicitly I could call it?
Who would have guessed that not frying your dopamine receptors would make you appreciate the little things more, the feeling of grass under your feet, the softness of your bed and most importantly in this case, femininity. All kinds of little things like movement, the voice, the eyes, legs, and just everything became so starkly female and alluring, and it's difficult to explain. It's not like you walk around with a boner all day or something, I mean I could look at certain traits of persons in the same way I could look at a painting, it's an appreciation and realization that this living beauty is attainable and able to be possessed by yourself and by finding love.
Who would have guessed that the Greek statues are modeled after people?
But then I fapped to my imagination one day and like three day's later it was straight back to /d/ so that's 150+ days down the drain.
It's not worth it.
>>12438
>I have been trying to do nofap, had a few good streaks, but just relapsed. I feel like shit. Like always, I started with normal porn, and within 72 hours I was jerking off to gay shit. I don't even have any attraction to men IRL, and when I think about doing anything sexual with them it disgusts me, but for some reason, I always end up on gay shit during my masturbation binges.
It just takes time and success to ween off the degeneracy, I can only encourage you to keep trying. A tip for motivation is to write down the days you fap and when you don't, write it down for a whole year and even if you have an entire year of failed streaks and those damn 1's, the outcome might surprise you. Because when you take a years worth of 1's and failed streaks it could very well be the case you only fapped 100, or 80, or even less of the days in a year, and a 265 to 100 outcome feels pretty good to be honest. It can be better and must be better, but it's a show of what you have achieved so far.
>When I first started getting into this degenerate garbage I told all my close friends that I was bisexual (I was pretty far left politically at the time and it seemed like a good thing to do). Now, if I even tell anyone close to me about this I suspect they will just think that I'm just a self-hating homosexual/bisexual.
>Honestly I'm feeling pretty nihilistic about this shit anyway. Even if I can stop jerking off to this stuff, I'm still a fucking faggot for ever doing it in the first place. You can't undoing orgasming to two dudes fucking. Basically what I'm saying is that sexual degenerates should get the bullet and maybe I fall into that category.
To the first point I can say this. If you don't want to have the conversation just life your live like you want it, as a non degenerate, and when they ask about the bisexuality just tell them it was a phase or just straight up tell them it was a misjudgment of yourself fueled by your previous world view. It's in any case a damn shame to life a lie to avoid coming out of the closet as normal.
Then on the second point, and this one is something I had to think about in the past too.
The conclusion I came too is yes, it's fucked up and you WERE are faggot to do it, but as long as you never acted on it and have made the necessary changes in your live to get back on track redemption is possible. Hell, even gays who DID act on their lust could maybe get back to it if they realize why it was wrong, renounce that life and act on this newfound realization.
These are fucked up times we are living in and almost none of us are untouched sadly. In better times we can take a more hard stance on this issue perhaps, but right now we need to offer a bit of redemption to ourselves and the people that want to change if we want to have any chance of getting the rest of society back on track.
Those things are not good and we should not tolerate it, but the alternatives I have seen always end up like grand murder fantasies of the majority of the population, and if they are hones themselves or devolve in to deep, and deep self hatred and hatred of the rest of society for not following true moral path X or Y. So that's why I think we Let's keep in the middel who "we" in this case are need to be like a church with redemption for those who want and can too a certain extent/withing reason.
I hope this helps man.