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09abfd No.12677

Hydrus dev, I'm pretty sure I invented the proof to the big bang. If I get popular, I'll shout you out.

That's not why I made this thread, though. I'm so anxious I feel like vomiting. I never said this out loud anywhere, but besides porn I have nothing else in my life besides Hydrus. I use Hydrus extremely casually, anyway. But Hydrus helps sort porn, so… I was gonna shout it out.

I was gonna shout out my two favorite artists, too. I didn't have any plans to shout out anything else… So I imagine it'd be a huge influx of traffic.

I can't handle this at all. I never asked for this at all. No one will believe me until it happens anyway.

I have an appointment to show it to someone next week. It's fucked. I wish I could just be in protective custody and sleep for 20 hours and it'll be better then maybe.

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09abfd No.12678

Well obviously no one cares. I don't know what I expected.

I mean I know what I expected. But I actually did sleep on it for a bit, and maybe I compensated for it emotionally a bit better. But it still sucks. I'm just gonna straight up blogshit at this point.

No one loves me. Like actually no one loves me. You hear people say all the time that no one loves them. But no one loves me.

I have a boyfriend. And as soon as I say that, everyone will laugh and virtue signal about how funny and socially unacceptable literal fags are, cause wew, epic level of discourse on le bumhole of the internet and all that. But I'm not sexually attracted to humans. At first I thought I was enough for my boyfriend. But I'm not. Ever since I realized that I was indoctrinating myself into knowing happiness from humans, cause I couldn't read anything; I vaguely tolerated some subject matter with humans, but criticizing or justifying anything human was socially unacceptable, since all I knew started from… socially forfeit…

For example, I don't like eyes. Not on some perverted being evil to humans shit, but earlier than the precedent for entertaining the thought of humans, I don't feel eyes should exist. To me no one should even "look" at anything; they should just have memory of their surroundings, so the precedent for learning isn't there: it's just knowledge. It's a lot of shit that if you say out loud, people just call you autism. But now I can articulate it across a formula.

I was a really vulnerable person… for virtually all my life… when I get famous, I guess… Every action I've ever made will be blown up and archived and used against me. There were a lot of abusers. I lost a lot of time to abusers. They'll get big names because I used to be vulnerable. More vulnerable than I am now.

I didn't even… really mean to say anything… I don't have anything to turn to… the only thing I've ever willingly consumed from a human, besides indoctrinating myself into liking humans… was emotional expression… like, what a bitch likes, type shit. I want to live vicariously through someone, type shit… In my opinion it's fair, but I only ever had two people in my life who offered me emotional expression, and they were scared of me, when I asked them for it when I was in an abusive relationship… like you know how females mention they have a boyfriend, or something, to push you away without saying no… I thought they were my friends, but they made me feel less than alone… so I'm not allowed to say hi to them again… otherwise, I lost time to an abuser… and, I realized the little I manage to be wasn't enough to be anything for my boyfriend… so I indoctrinated myself into changing, for him.

I'm really alone. I know that maybe sounds cruel, but it doesn't change that I couldn't say hi to my boyfriend and be mutual with him, by being what he wanted me to be. I'm still emotionally working on myself, to be that, for him… even if the formula itself can be carried by humanity, at this point, had they had it…

I didn't really have anything to say… I don't lead the worst life, but I wish someone just told me I was enough, I can be mutual with them… provided my consciousness knows comfort from that, it's ok. No one tells me that. No one comes into my life to tell me I'm enough.

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ca1a61 No.12679

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>Hydrus dev, I'm pretty sure I invented the proof to the big bang. If I get popular, I'll shout you out.

nani?

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c46358 No.12680

wow schizoposting very cool here have attention

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09abfd No.12719

Ok, well… I guess definitely for sure no one cares… so I won't come back…

I came back because I had to revisit sites that I planned to abandon forever… the password for those accounts is too weak… Some of them aren't the weakest, but I figured I didn't properly fathom the scope of what would happen, so I need to change them to 64-character generated passwords beforehand…

I was straight banned from some sites… others I haven't logged into for years, and that date is visible to anyone looking at my page… It's… well no one cares, so… so I guess I'll still shoutout Hydrus… but this is cruel, to me… you could at least tell me outright you have no empathy for the weak and you undermine discourse being possible since you find communication insulting to yourself…

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372cfa No.12725

>>12719

I care, mind telling me what kind of proof you discovered? Don't need to be specific, I'm not very smart but I'm curious, is something like a mathematical theorem or something like that?

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343299 No.12728

>>12719

just lift brah

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c46358 No.12738

>>12719

I have no empathy for people who use and cultivate their "weakness" to manipulate other people into respecting their delusions and egocentrism, no.

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fc796c No.12774

are you famous now op?

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d5a17d No.12791

>>12719

The majority of people view the weak with disgust, that's the hard truth. It's kind of cruel that society pretends otherwise.

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299d4b No.12842

>>12678

>>12677

>>12719

Sorry, I got caught up in the duplicates work last week and haven't checked the catalog for new threads in a bit. Assuming you aren't giggle-posting, it sounds like you are having a truly hard time. I sympathise deeply, but I am afraid I do not believe that happiness or self-esteem comes from getting love from others. I love you as a fellow Anon, but I am skeptical that repeating that sentiment would validate you.

The only one who can make your brain work right is you. As long as you believe you need affirmation from others to feel correct, you will be open to further abuse.

I strongly recommend you start getting exercise, if you do not already. Go for short walks every day. If you can scrape together a few bucks, get these books:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Feeling_Good_Handbook

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Meditations

They are on Amazon and also in the library. If they ask, just say you are getting Feeling Good for a friend.

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363578 No.12851

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wow very cool

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4d547c No.12860

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27a3de No.12912

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>>12678

Stop lying about being the dev. Stop lying to yourself to achieve social results you don't actually want. Stop lying in saying that you didn't mean to say anything. Stop lying because if someone gave you what you asked for, you'd push it away because you didn't trust it.

Don't lie. Ever.

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