>>27117
>use faith as escapism to my beta personality
and Friedrich Nietzsche nailed it
if you are interested in that topic research what nietzsche said about religion. he said alcohol and christianity are the worst inventions of europe.
It is all one giantic cope. Basically they take all the bad characteristics of people and elevate it into something holy or good
>you are unable to have sex
>well then you are pure
>you cannot beat the bullly from school because you are a coward
>no you are in fact kind for forgiving him what he did to you
>you see successful people walk past you but you are happy with the little you have (poverty) and see no reason to become like them
>wow, you clearly have no gram of envy inside you, what a pure heart you have
This is what he means. It was a very interesting thought to me and funny how you fit that description on the religion stuff
>post-fap repentance
>feeling like shit
Schopenhauer describes this phenomening like this:
<and after ejaculation, devil sits right next to you and laughs about you
If you are interested in those philosophical aspects, I recommend you to research Schopenhauer and Nietsche
However, if you are seeking for a solution to suffering they will not give it to you. Both of them were life time shizo weirdos and died alone in poverty in their appartements. There is no solution for when you are fucked in the head so much that normalfags want nothing to do with you anymore
Now to your question
>I really love her but I really don't know what to do
Did you talk to her?
If you love her and she loves you then why don't you just enjoy your time together.
I don't understand the obsession with sex. If your dick is really exploding then just find a hooker or something or fap until your dick is sore.
And I doubt your gf thinks of fapping as cheating on her. But I think you should tell her you think of her when you fap.
And very important is for you to find out if she faps too. Because if she does, she can obviously not be an asexual.
Maybe she has one of those complex things about thinking she is not beautiful enough for sex or something.
Maybe she is just scared and if you take away her fears everyone is happy in the end.
Literally the best you can do is to just openly talk to her and find out your both positions and what you want from life
If you are too different about what you want in life then you have no future anyways and it is best to not waste each others time
For example if you want children but she doesn't you will not have a future as a couple but it does not mean you can spend quality time together and have a good time
In any case I wish you good luck in this story and I hope we get at least one happy end story done
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