No.21803
Here's a shitpost depending how you look at it.
I'm currently in 9th grade. Pretty normal kid who is just getting by. But as a person I am getting shittier by the day. In 7th grade I was really smart, like top of the grade, partial nerd to, I had only 2 friends who most of the time hung out with other people. I had myself in a trance thinking I was the shit, silently thinking I was better than everyone else, like relationships are a waste of time, video games are useless etc…
But sometimes things happen. Maybe it was the people I had begun to hang out with more, maybe it was me finally snapping from endless hours of self tutoring and fucking Khan Academy, maybe it was my parents letting me only play 1 videogame for 4 YEARS (KSP). What happened though, has made me really consider what I am even doing with my life.
What really happened was I gave up, burnt out, and tired if chasing my dream of working at SpaceX. I just couldn't take it anymore, and had shown no sign of it before. I crahed, hard. Lost all my relations with my parents, we now get into very bad fights with the police getting involved in MULTIPLE occasions. I didn't blame them either, I don't respect them or care what they want.
Sounds like your average teenage faggotry, until it was so changing that almost nothing from my previous 'self' has been preserved. Only remaining things are the bitter memories of my past which ive desperately try to run from. When I first changed for a brief few months it was actually good for me, as I progressed I started to seem 'cooler' and the amount of friends I had increased by 5x that it had been, which I welcomed at first. But it went to far, me sharing edgy memes developed into a habbit of collecting the most fucked up shit in internet, death gore name it all I was on a mission to get it all.
People started to wonder what the fuck happened, why did a promising kid become such a waste, just bricking computers and framing people at school, and doing nothing but play videogames at home. I quit piano, Khan Academy, Tennis, and moved away from all of the things that had defined the person I was.
So here I am, scared away most of my old friends and just hang out with the 4th riech at school. I wish I could write this off as looking for attention or feeling insecure, yet it just doesn't fit, I simple realized that everything gets easier when you stop giving a shit. 2 years ago you couldn't imagine me saying anything remotely shitty, now I just scream Nigger whenever the hell I feel like it.
I've become a whole fucking new level of loser, for lack of better words, I've gone full circle starting at nerd and going on a journey ALL the way around back to 0. Browsing 8chan because I enjoy it, and the community that it has built up. Ive even started influencing people and dragging other people down a path that leads nowhere.
I thank you, because you have been a place where I feel like I can escape to. A place where I can finally feel like the person that I was meant to be all along, not some product that is expected of me. See you all on the other side.
Füh immer
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No.21808
>>21803
>I'm currently in 9th grade.
Go back to reddit.
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No.21840
>9th grade
then you are like 15 or something?
what is your problem then
give it some more time maybe you can unfuck yourself and you turn out a fine normalfag
fuck off and never come back until you are at least 25.
If you are a failure at 25, then your future is pretty much settled
I wish you good luck OP
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No.21861
>>21840
>If you are a failure at 25, then your future is pretty much settled
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No.21882
Invidious embed. Click thumbnail to play.
Wholesome, fellow 9th grader.
You've carved out a little hole in the world to be a thing. Even and especially a shitty thing. I admire that. I am too shit-intestined to be a thing.
But also please stop screaming nigger bc it gives me nam backs of my eleven y/o mothermilksopped aspie bro on fortnite
Tschaui.
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No.21888
>>21803
>I'm currently in 9th grade.
The fuck are you doing here? this is a board for people who failed, you havent even tried yet
>>21840
>If you are a failure at 25, then your future is pretty much settled
Well fuck me I'm 30, can I hope for a miracle?
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No.21889
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No.21890
>>21889
And of course, you can have all the sex you want by 25 and still feel like a failure. The are ten times as many ways to fail than there is to succeed.
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No.21941
>>21888
>hope for a miracle
sometimes that's the only thing left …
>>21889
Very interesting
I used the 25 figure because that was the age when I really started to lose all hopes.
You can only delude yourself for some years that you are fine and the entire planet is wrong.
But one day you realize that it is actually the other way round.
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No.22421
My high school clique used to refer to ourselves as the 4th Reich too. It was 1987. We graffitized the front of the school with a giant swastika and all we got was a week of detention. We used to yell “nigger” too, but when Lethal Weapon II came out we switched to “kaffir.” We were all in the fast track. I aced the NMSQT and got an award, and two years later was a total dropout. I did drop out, senior year just before graduation. It’s amazing how much of your story is similar to mine, down to small details.
We all outgrew that shit and got serious about life. I bet you’re sure your situation is different for some reason but hey, I got my own shit to worry about.
Thanks for sharing tho. It was really trippy to read this. I hope whatever you end up doing is at least worth your time alive.
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No.22432
>>21803
>As I entered puberty I started to change. I lost interest in everything that defined me as a child, now I just wanted to 'hang out' and 'be cool'. I gave up on my naive childhood fantasies of becoming and astronaut, and I even started fighting with my parents
I notice how you measure yourself by how much you have personally changed, it makes you feel different, and then you project that as if you are different from other teenagers. You're not. All your problems are the same problems that any teen has. I know this because you failed to describe your problems in general terms. Everything you wrote was specifically about you, nothing that describes the human condition.
You can fuck up as much as you like, but please do your homework and be nice to your grandma. You'll be fine.
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No.22439
This doomer shit has become a meme for every faggot normie with 'depression'
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No.22449
>>21890
yeah whatever lol
anything to avoid admitting that the thing that's wrong is, in fact, wrong
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No.22493
>>21803
This is what we call adolescence and puberty. Welcome to it. Embrace it. You are driving head first into four or five years of absolutely confusing anger and resentment for all reality. But it gets better, if you do not unfuck yourself, then you can resent the world for an entire lifetime!
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No.22647
>>22439
I can't wait until the media finds out about it. We'll get some weapons-grade cancer out of that debacle.
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No.22652
please take the self improvement pill, if not for yourself or your peers do it for your ancestors and the western world. you must make good impressions of our movement.
and if you really are doomed after 25 or so you can at least take out a few niggers or kikes.
T.17yo siegetard
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No.22656
>>21803
Jesus fuck you're young. I'm sorry friend, it's my age group that dragged you into this shit and the people before me. 21 y/o here. When I was your age 8chan didn't even fucking exist and all the shit that's been largely contained to this site was open game on halfchan. I don't know when you were exposed but its infectious and if folks like me hadn't bit back then this wouldn't be happening to you now.
Point is, I Dropped out of high school and am stuck cucking through the community college meme now. And not in the good way either, it's cool if you need a calc credit or something for 4 year, not if you're basically taking high school all over again to catch up.
Don't ruin yer life. Figure out what you want and sieze it. If that's spaceX it's spaceX. If it's farming out in bumfuck to get away from everyone or nearly anything else that's fine too. This isn't a competition it's about what you want to be, if you need to compete to get there that's different, but the actual decision to become something you're passionate about and start walking a path is your choice. Don't squander that opportunity. Don't think about it as pleasing your parents, you're right, you're not a commodity and their expectations don't mean shite. But you do need a livliehood or your life will just get worse. You are in the perfect time of your life to figure out what it is you want. Take classes that are unrelated to your interests and see if anything sparks some passion in you. Art, music, theater, psychology, sociology, some science you've never taken and so on. Broaden your horizons until something clicks. Trust me, fucking up high school will make it 10x harder to catch up.
Don't end up like me, working two jobs while being a full time student and living alone in social isolation due to never having time for friends from being so dame busy. Take advantage of high school.
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No.22657
>>22656
Do what this guy says and you'll turn out alright.
also make sure to pick up another language.
Fucking kids on my /doomer/ I can't believe it
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No.22661
>>21803
>I'm currently in 9th grade
What the fuck?
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No.22662
>>21803
>Only remaining things are the bitter memories of my past which ive desperately try to run from.
Man starts over again everyday, in spite of all he knows, against all he knows.
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No.22665
>>22662
Sometimes the good thing to do for yourself is literally forcing youreself to relax a bit. Since now is summer and I got my anniversary summer """depression""" which will last until at least beginning of september, I have urge especially in evening to do something but I have nothing to do and nowhere to go, so I'm getting anxious. I sort of feel like I have to change my life dramatically just for the fuck of it and getting out of stereotype but then I look around me and give up since all I do in my life is running away, changing it and nothing suits me. In these moments, even if you want to make hole into wall with your head (literally), it's good to sit on your ass for a bit and relax, so you can objectively see if you have any real options to see what the fuck is wrong. I'm sure OP in his age has few more options than I have but even if I'm naive enough to try to do something, he can do it without any issues.
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No.22673
>>21803
>I'm currently in 9th grade
holy fuck stop right there. if you have any sort of self-love, GTFO of here and come back when you're 18 years old at least. you're barely 15 and are already rotting your brain with IB content.
Going back to the main topic. OP, you're still too fucking young to say you've fucked up, you have not even tried. Stop watching porn. Start weightlifting and eating correctly. Retake your Khan Academy and piano lessons and start meditating. Think for a second if the few friends you have are really friends. You will yearn to be a kid again with zero responsibilities once you grow up, so better enjoy this last years before shit turns awful.
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No.23308
>>21803
>tfw everyone here is in HS
i expected as much lmao. Glass houses, though.
I wanna just get through this and chase my dream of motor racing. Whether that ends up being cars or bikes idrc. I built a motorbike with a 2 stroke engine and a mountain bike and ride it on the regular. I also own a nice ATV to do shit with. Being a canuck, there's no shortage of places to go on them and i enjoy it alot. I've almost completely dropped my vidya habit and instead go worryingly fast down trails and shit. Vidya is shit compared to it. When you play vidya you just sit down and press buttons, but racing makes me feel alive. The fresh air, the speed, the danger… I'm selling my normiestation 4 to buy more shit for my ATV and bike. Take the engine pill desu
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No.23315
>>23308
Not bad advice especially if you are not bothered by cops on every mile you travel.
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No.23347
>>23315
>cops
>rural canada
???
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No.29366
>>22673
>>21840
>>21882
>>21888
>>22421
Lol at these gatekeepers.
>>22432
Ummm… Isn't that what you failed adults on this board are doing? Using your personal life as the measuring stick of all humanity?
Most of you guys don't even have any dysfunctional family. You guys are just easily defeated by the indifference of adulthood
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No.29375
>>29366
>Most of you guys don't even have any dysfunctional family.
All of them come from bland, boring, milquetoast, Angloid (VPNs are the rightoid's version of white guilt) families who aren't really dysfunctional, they're just average. And the millennial mind can't comprehend average. That you're just like everyone else doesn't compute with them, so they play pretend: they become SJWs, they pretend they're "involuntarily" celibate, they scream and shout online about how they totally didn't ruin the internet, and that saying NIGGER was the height of comedy (that they were kids back then….makes you think, no?) and they gatekeep mundane life experiences like paying bills and wagecucking because they are desperate for any semblance of power and authority. It's the equivalent of a stoned hippie telling off his father who stormed the beaches of Normandy.
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No.29376
>>21888
>The fuck are you doing here? this is a board for people who failed, you havent even tried yet
No, this board is for people who never failed, because they never tried. You're only a "doomer" because your mad that your generational zeitgeist is over. Anyone who unironically calls themselves a doomer and thinks, by posting on this board, that they are one is a fraud.
The women who sell their kids to boomer sexpats are more doomer-like than you privileged millennialoids ever will be.
Sit down and shut up, cope, seethe, etc, etc.
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No.29378
what the fuck happened to this board
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