/doomer/ - Doomers Club

>>18471

what i get from this is that it's a healthy relationship and you argue about sports which is cool

>>18474

I figured somebody would've said that lol. What i meant, though, was that I had no relationship whatsoever. I probably should have just not bothered with the gif, but yeah. I can safely say i'd have been better off adopted or aborted.

>>18477

oh well then yeah that gif was way off lel. parents do suck.

i guess my experience has been along the lines of everyone is selfish and walks around with their heads up their ass, and everyone needs someone just like them to distract them from the rest of the world and make everything better. your parents should do a pretty great job at that also, but just appear to be the former group of people–the selfish ones with a mind only for what they want.

>>18479

Yeah. I just figured someone would've swapped the word "playoffs" for relationship in their head, that's all lol

my dad is an actual cuck and I have so little sympathy for him that I don't bother telling him about it and risk breaking the marriage due to how that could jeopardize finances for me. My mom is decent most days but her occasional flip-outs mean I can't develop any significant relationship with her. They pay for my education so I play nice and all, but I feel little emotional attachment to my family. I've been let down when i needed them most, I've been carted across the world against my will because of my retard of a father and I resent him for it.

>>18488

>my dad is an actual cuck

Mine too.

>My mom is decent most days but her occasional flip-outs mean I can't develop any significant relationship with her.

Mine isn't decent, but yours sounds exactly like mine otherwise.

>I've been let down when i needed them most, I've been carted across the world against my will because of my retard of a father and I resent him for it.

Same here, anon. DId your father not teach you any life skills and then blame you for not knowing any also?

>>18469

Hello Dr. Shaneequa

Thank you for asking about my wellbeing.

Nobody ever gave me so much attention.

Here is my survey

>mother

her parenting style smothered me. I never had autonomy and was basically a pet to her. My entire life I was basically her immortality project to make herself a monument that would fulfill all the goals she failed to fulfill in her own shitty life. My sister is into psychology and told me she thinks mom is a narcissist person.

>father

daddy was a weak fagget and let mommy run rampant with her insanity. And he would tease me for not being manly enough or weak when he was not better at all and let himself be bossed around by his wyfe. Cluster A faggot met his Cluster B psycho dream girl. Too cliché to be true…

What I feel for them is not even hatred. It is more of a type of disgust. For them being such subhumans and failing completely as parents. But not only that they bitch about their shitty lives entire time typical slav behaviour and everyone else is to be blamed but not them. Funny huh? Work 30 years your ass off with nothing to show off. No promotion, no savings, no career, no own company.

>but we didn't have the oppurtunities you had

>we were not born into a rich country

daddy used to work for literally illiterate kurds at their restaurant. How come borderline monkeys like them can open a restaurant and be successful but he couldnt. This is what disgusts me.

<Everyone else is to be blamed

I mean yeah they were both retards and met each other it seemed to good to be real but why did they think having children is good idea for them. They could ahve been happily frustrated subhumans in some 2 bedroom appartement alone now instead of shitting out children that are all unhappy in life.

How do you feel Shaneequa?

>>18493

just got out of an argument with my stepmom lmao.

>16

>planning on running away soon

>gonna get the cops called on me

>mulatto so hopefully end up shot

But yeah like wonderful >>18488 and >>18491 here, I've been moved around a lot. I was in California 2 years ago, where i finally struck it big and fell in love with a lovely little pinay. now i'm beyond alone and obviously worthless. my parents (mom and stepmom, dykes) blame me for everything, saying i'm lazy, disrespectful, and overall a sack of shit; contrarily, every chance i've had at anything adequately good at getting some euphoria out of me has been snatched, and more often than not it's at their own hands. every time i try to present this, they say i'm bitching though. death is the only thing i look forward to now, as it's the only reasonable alternative to happiness in the eyes of any true intellectual, and happiness is out of grasp. (some of this is incoherent and a lot is lacking, sorry i'm extremely scatterbrained from the argument. all of the arguments are them spewing dumb shit they've already said and means nothing, and they all make me even angrier than the last)

>>18498

damn... so you a virgin?

forgot to mention i'm in florida

>>18493

Better than having savings and some security but losing it all because of addiction, that's what met my father.

>>18469

I think I'm long beyond phase of blaming my parents or something. Not trying to be macho "get over it dude" type here, I'm just a bit fucked up in head, I can't really focus on past, as if my past even isn't mine anymore, as If I was born just few months ago. I feel no connection to it, not to good or bad things, I'm right here right now, going berserk. A lot changed recently but I can say that after large part of my life when things settled up a bit, I started having good relations with mother, we talk more than we used to, well we almost didn't talked in past I guess. I think it comes with age maybe, I don't have to pretend anything anymore so we can talk like two human beings. So I don't really know what my relationship with parents or family is, it's something I guess.

>>18503

Don't be so rude to him.

He got shot 6 times last tuesday

It is part of a series of shootouts between 2 rivaling montengrin crime syndicates.

He is victim #40

A few weeks before, another mobster was shot in Spain in broad daylight in front of his wife and kid at some cafe. Last year a lawyer of one of the rivaling crews was shot.

The dispute is about a 200kg cocaine stash that went missing in 2014 from some appartement in Valencia and ever since they have been genociding each other. The leader of one gang is jailed already and the other is fugitive.

This is how you do it guise. Let the normies take care of themselves

And they use all types of assassination. Car bombs, snipers, drive by shootings.

And there is no end in sight…

>>18491

yeah, he was completely absent from my education and now lectures me constantly because I don't have "enough discipline", which sounds hollow coming from a boomer who rots his brain in front of MSNBC every evening. It's so infuriating because I put in a lot of effort and *have* improved my life over the years despite the shitty circumstances, but every social failing is a great moment to bash me over the head with his opinion that I'm just a little bitch that had it coming.

I'm becoming more at peace with the lot that I've been dealt, but I don't think I can ever really forgive the moral failings of my family. It takes a special kind of coward to value reputation over his own blood.

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>>18493

what you said about being disgusted resonates with me a lot. I used to hate the world; I'm working on acceptance and better alignment so that's in the past but disgust lingers like tar when it comes to my family.

>>18497

I know that feel anon, the one (1) time I actually develop affection for a place and ask to not move back until I finish the semester he coldly told me he didn't care about my feelings and told me to go start packing. This was several years ago and yet is one of the memories that persist most when I think of my father. Him being a cuck is just him living his own hell, I don't believe it's my job to save him from it.

>>18508

I know what you mean about growing up. I don't like my parents at all but can still go visit for a couple days at a time no problem. It's just that the niggling feeling of "this isn't right" won't leave, it keeps getting worse with every day and I have the urge to leave civilization and meditate on the AT for a couple months with a copy of Evola's Intro To Magic stolen from the library.

>>18514

yeah that is what I noticed as well a time ago

It was not hatred. It was just this feeling of disgust that I had

It took me a few years to understand the difference between those

>>18514

>I used to hate the world; I'm working on acceptance and better alignment

Only if I could feel something else than either extreme hatred or love, sometimes they are both the same, I'm slave of the emotions, I always was. I wish this could be changed.

>It's just that the niggling feeling of "this isn't right" won't leave, it keeps getting worse with every day and I have the urge to leave civilization and meditate on the AT for a couple months with a copy of Evola's Intro To Magic stolen from the library.

It's understandable, I felt the same way at certain point in my life as well.

>>18519

I think that hatred and love are very similar. Loving the world and wishing destruction upon it are arguably the same if it's in accordance with the Will, no? Bottom line, whatever we feel right now, I am consoled by the fact that it's better than blindness.

It's interesting that you write about being a slave of emotions- what's your astrological chart like?

>>18523

>astrological chart

You mean zodiac sign or what exactly?

>>18501

>maybe if I ran away from home at age 16, I might have ended up dead or in some crime gang but at least I would not be a pathetic waste of oxygen

I know how you feel, anon. Where I live, it wouldn't be too hard to end up the former since the government uses my city as a dumping ground for every degenerate around. The drivers are also atrocious too, and suicide rates are rising because there's nothing to do.

>>18493

>daddy was a weak fagget and let mommy run rampant with her insanity.

So did mine, although he also let mommy cuck him with some coworker who pumped and dumped her. They briefly separated, with her insisting that the guy who ditched her WAS a good guy after all (despite obvious evidence he was a manwhore who was banging her other female coworkers) and that I was somehow bad because I wanted no part of the drama

>h-h-h-how dare you don't validate my adultery, anon! No wonder I keep saying I regret having you!

>her parenting style smothered me.

My mother's parenting style was basically batshit insanity, shilling for Israel (seriously, say anything even remotely skeptical of them around her and she'll rant for ages), and pretending to be a devout Christian (raised Catholic, but has as much genuine faith as the Jesus Chatline hosts). Whenever I went out with her as a kid, she'd insist people were staring at us, giving us the evil/stink eye, judging us, et cetera. She literally claimed she would start recording these people, but never got around to it. I couldn't have friends stay over at my place because "reasons," which to this day I still don't know, and I lost them as a result. My mother would spend her days fixated in front of the television, shit talking my father (claiming she regretted marrying him, claiming she wouldn't have kids if she could do it all over again, etc), and generally being a bipolar cunt (she could be happy the whole day and then all of a sudden just snap). She has a hikki sister and a normie brother, but I don't know anything about them because my mother never bothered to help me have a relationship with them. Her mother was persona non grata in my house - she shit talked her even more than she did my father - and her father died in a car accident, and she doesn't talk about him period.

>I never had autonomy and was basically a pet to her.

The fucked up thing about my mother is that she'd bitch that nobody wanted to help her around the house. I'd offer her my help constantly, but she'd either insist my father do it and then bitch when he wouldn't, or just skip to the bitching. I wasn't even a pet to her - I was just THERE, y'know? In classic bipolar cunt fashion, she'd praise me as a "sweet boy" and claim I was oh-so-awesome, but yet she hung no pictures of me on the walls. She didn't share baby pictures of mine. She couldn't tell you anything I did in my youth, largely because I did nothing because of her "reasons" or the fact that we were always "too poor" to do anything. I literally feel like I went to sleep in my crib and woke up the cripplingly depressed man I am now - my childhood is an insurmountable gap, a total blank on my personal timeline.

>My entire life I was basically her immortality project to make herself a monument that would fulfill all the goals she failed to fulfill in her own shitty life.

This was more my father's thing - my mother basically told me to my face she regretted having me, and the sad thing was that I actually told her I wish she hadn't. For a split second, she and I actually bonded on something. How fucked is that, anon?

>My sister is into psychology and told me she thinks mom is a narcissist person.

My mother was all sorts of things at once. I literally have tracked this shit - it's that bad.

>And he would tease me for not being manly enough or weak when he was not better at all and let himself be bossed around by his wyfe.

My father was the exact same. He was cucked by my mother, yet came crawling back. He is routinely treated like shit by her, but insists on letting it go. He basically has done nothing other than quit job after job because he was "screwed" by somebody, neglect to teach me anything whatsoever and then whine about how I'm not like the other kids (gifted kid burnout was practically my middle name growing up) - I literally lost my best friend because of him; I severed ties simply because I was so fucking tired of my father comparing me to him.

>anon, your best friend has parents who love one another and love him, a fancy house, tons of money, and live in a good part of town. Why can't you be more like him, despite having had none of that whatsoever?

I even didn't disclose to my parents I had a crush on a girl me and my best friend knew because my father was the kind of jackass who'd honk at random girls as he drove and tell them I was "interested" in them. The girl I'm talking about used to tell me her mother beat her with the belt, and I didn't feel like inflicting my parents on her. We lost touch, but I do know she's with somebody now and from what I know of him, he's pretty decent. She didn't have as many advantages as my best friend did, but she still had it better than me.

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>>18530

>Cluster A faggot met his Cluster B psycho dream girl. Too cliché to be true…

But it is the case with my parents. Bonus points awarded to me, though, as my brother is essentially a blend of both of them. Your sister is into psychology? All my brother's into is dropping out of high school and blowing tons of money he doesn't have (unless he steals it from our parents, which he did to the tune of over $1200. They not only discovered he did it, but did NOTHING about it. Still haven't, by the way.)

>What I feel for them is not even hatred. It is more of a type of disgust.

Same here.

>For them being such subhumans and failing completely as parents.

I hesitate to even call my parents parents - they felt so much more like two random people I had to live with simply because the law demanded it.

>But not only that they bitch about their shitty lives entire time and everyone else is to be blamed but not them. Funny huh? Work 30 years your ass off with nothing to show off. No promotion, no savings, no career, no own company.

Exactly my parents right there - my mother basically worked dead end menial jobs and my father was either on the road as a trucker (all the while whining about how he "deserved" better) or loitering around at home because he quit his job again because somehow people kept "screwing" him. It wasn't that he was a lazy good for nothing asshole or anything, no, it was because people were out to undermine him. Even funnier, my father would gladly let my brother rot away after dropping out, but was ALWAYS on my ass over the slightest mistakes. Seriously, he had a photographic memory when it came to this shit - he literally would spring shit from YEARS ago on me. He didn't beat me - he saved that for my mother before he "found Buddha" - but the emotional/psychological abuse was rampant as fuck. He was adopted as a child, but I know nothing about his bio or adoptive parents. His side of the family is basically a blank, like he's a random NPC in a Sims game.

>but we didn't have the oppurtunities you had >we were not born into a rich country

My parents used to blow money on all sorts of shit like smokes (mother), moving us to a town with no real prospects (father), moving us into expensive houses we couldn't afford (father) and then wonder why their finances were as shot as an AIDS victim's immune system. It was all MY fault, though, somehow.

>daddy used to work for literally illiterate kurds at their restaurant. How come borderline monkeys like them can open a restaurant and be successful but he couldnt. This is what disgusts me.

Maybe our fathers are related somehow, because yours and mine are exactly the same. Mine, though, never worked in a restaurant - the only time we ever went to one was when we went to the Chinese buffet over and over again. If we had dinners at home, it was usually pasta over and over again (like how on Daria, the Morgendorffers kept eating lasagna over and over), or some other shit like sausages my mother would usually overcook/burn because she'd rather be watching the television or she was ranting about my father again. This is, of course, assuming my dropout brother didn't eat everything in the house again because he had no job, no school, no friends, nothing.

>Everyone else is to be blamed

That's my "family" in a nutshell.

>I mean yeah they were both retards and met each other it seemed to good to be real but why did they think having children is good idea for them

I don't even know how my parents met, what compelled them to fall in love/get married, and why they even thought of having kids in the first place. They didn't even hang any pictures of themselves up on the walls. I used to ask about these things, but all I got back was the usual BS.

>They could ahve been happily frustrated subhumans in some 2 bedroom appartement alone now instead of shitting out children that are all unhappy in life.

Exactly. I honestly wish my parents have given me up for adoption or aborted me. I mean, when your father cares more about shitty made for TV movies and your mother more about how meanies are "bullying" Israel all the time, it only stands to reason either choice would've been better.

>>18512

>yeah, he was completely absent from my education and now lectures me constantly because I don't have "enough discipline", which sounds hollow coming from a boomer who rots his brain in front of MSNBC every evening.

Swap MSNBC for YouTube/Netflix and that's my father. My father nowadays does nothing but hatewatch vloggers he's jealous of because they're out actually doing shit while he's stuck with nothing.

>It's so infuriating because I put in a lot of effort and *have* improved my life over the years despite the shitty circumstances, but every social failing is a great moment to bash me over the head with his opinion that I'm just a little bitch that had it coming.

That's exactly how my father is - my mother, on the other hand, just makes it all about her - she is a professional victim to the max. I often told her to give Joan of Arc her life back because she literally ties herself to a stake at every opportunity. I don't talk to my brother, though, because he's in his own little world.

>I'm becoming more at peace with the lot that I've been dealt, but I don't think I can ever really forgive the moral failings of my family. It takes a special kind of coward to value reputation over his own blood.

Same here. I can't forgive either, because it's my family that made me into what I am: a misanthropic, antinatalist volcel doomer patiently awaiting World War III so I can get myself vaporized and call it a life. I can honestly say I'd probably be some sorta normie were it not for them, because growing up, I used to lose myself in true crime stories about kids like Polly Klaas, thinking "well, at least I'm not like them," but now I'm like, damn, I'd give my life so those kids could live theirs again. I'm dead serious - if God Himself or whoever said anon, are you willing to die so that (insert murdered kid here) could live again, I'd gladly do it, no questions asked. I would finally have a purpose other than to sit on this imageboard and constantly crying in my sleep because I feel the suffering of others too much for my own good. Ever see the Fifth Element? There's a part where Leeloo refuses to help humanity because of all the shit she's seen us having done - that's how I feel. Even if my family was even average, I feel like I'd still end up a doomer or something similar simply because of all the degeneracy around me.

>>18534

I got it done but I don't really feel like being doxed by spiritual means.

>>18537

>Moon

>Leo

all gfs I had were Leos. Does it mean anything?

>>18537

very understandable concern if it's any consolation it's not a uniquely identifying set of info. I'm mostly curious as to how much water you have in your chart–Pisces, Scorpio, or Cancer. It's not a requisite or anything, you might just have a lot of Mars energy or w/e, but it's worth it for me to ask, at least.

>>18536

if you don't believe then why are you asking me about it? If you scroll down the site generates a series of descriptors, check those out.

>>18538

leos are qt as hell, I had a crush on one late last year. It was a short-lived affair, but leos are very fulfilled due to their sign being ruled by the Sun. It's like having an Aries Mars or a Cancer Moon–it just fits.

>>18539

>If you scroll down the site generates a series of descriptors

I was afraid you were going to say that, I wanted a reading from a professional magician.

>if you don't believe then why are you asking me about it?

Dunno, just felt like asking.

>>18539

I'm Pisces, in that chart except sun - pisces ==> 2 more pisces, 1 scorpio, no cancers.

>>18540

They were capable of having long term relationships which I was interested in, don't know. I know I was always biggest enemy to Aquarius people but I don't understand this stuff that much.

>>18541

>masculine 10

>feminine 0

check this out:

>masculine 5

>feminine 5

Maybe that's the source of emotional shit.

>>18544

So 5/5 is what you got? well, I'm pretty emotional myself, so I'm calling bullshit if what you mean is that lacking feminine points means I'm a stoic person.

hey, HEY! back to the shit parent expositions, dickmouths!

>>18546

But I want to predict my future using astrologic magic to win the lottery.

>>18541

I'm not a professional magician by any means anon, I am a student at best. In any case my hot take feat. absinthe and my experience with my gemini best friend:

your sun and mercury being in gemini makes you a bit nuts when it comes to communication. You're probably talkative and quick-witted when given the chance to talk about things you actually care about. Having your venus in aries means you are by nature very direct about your romantic desires and the such. It also makes you a bit naiive.

Leo moon is very cute, probably makes you a bit insecure and you really enjoy feeling cared for. Having Leo, ruled by Sun, in the Moon is a little nuts. It's probably making a bit hard for you to deal with your inner realm, since your very nature is at odds with it.

>>18543

I have little experience with aquarius people, but i can imagine why you'd struggle with them. Aquarius is ruled by Saturn as well as Uranus, which is.. at odds with us.

>>18544

nice, I have 7 masc and 3 fem. You being that balanced is pretty blessed.

>>18545

feminine=/=emotional. Read it as ying vs yang if you will, but astrology operates on a realm above human biology.

>>18545

>Potential issues: tendency to be led astray, lack of experience or inability to apply experience practically. Lethargy, over-sensitivity, and emotionalism.

>It is natural for you to question tradition. You are, above all things, an individualist. You naturally rebel against that which is established.

>You are sensitive to those who are suffering, although you are not usually taken advantage of. You are humanitarian and may have a special connection with animals.

>You have a fertile imagination, are full of inspiration, and very emotional - all qualities that you may use on the professional level.

>He is brave, knowing how to take risks and possessing the courage of his convictions, honest, imposing, and sharp. He has a great sense of, and respect for, justice. Organizational sense. Selectivity with friends but is not overly influenced by them. Taste for splendor.

>Potential issues: changing and numerous affections. Emotionally demanding and proud. Brooding when attention is not forthcoming.

>There is a conflict here between the head and the heart. Your emotions tell you one thing and your mind tells you something else

>When nervous or excitable, you talk up a storm. Moodiness is a characteristic, definitely, and an especially subjective nature makes you prone to hypersensitivity. It usually has to do with the fact that you take in so very much from your environment.

>Can be provocative in speech or communications, often challenging and contradicting, and seeing the flaws of a situation. This might be someone who holds back his sensuality.

>Misanthropic, with a sullen humor.

Fuck me, this shit is pretty accurate, I'm getting paranoid.

>>18548

>You being that balanced is pretty blessed.

How's so?

>>18549

no need to be paranoid anon, take a peek at Crowley's writings if you want. These descriptions aren't prescriptive, and there's nothing wrong with being in alignment with them.

As for the balance, it gives you good understanding of both sides of the coin of venus-mars, female-male, moon-sun etc. No chart is better than any other as long as you are living correctly, but in my opinion it's better to be balanced than slung all the way on one side.

Dad is somewhat ok. Mom is the world's biggest critic, and usually never had anything good to say about me. Dad just wants me to have a better life. Both are still married to each other and are in their 60s

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Moon in Aquarius

Moon in Aquarius people are extremely observant. They are life-time students of human nature, loving to analyze why people do what they do. This often stems from a detached–even shy–personality, especially in youth. Whether due to character or conditioning, Moon in Aquarius people often grow up feeling "different". Although rather sociable, they are often loners at heart. Many have strong egos, or at least powerful defense mechanisms, and most Lunar Aquarians will do their best to be the most unique and unusual person they can be. Their inner feeling of loneliness–that they don't quite fit in–puts them on the outside, looking in. There is a very idealistic and progressive streak in Lunar Aquarians that is admirable indeed. However, when the Moon is in Aquarius, natives often will deny the more irrational qualities of emotions–such as jealousy, possessiveness, and fear–in an effort to be "above" what they consider "pettiness". When this goes too far, Lunar Aquarians can be emotionally blocked, distant, and detached.

Lunar Aquarians can be very willful, especially in childhood. With age, these natives generally learn to handle their strong needs. Their desire for independence is powerful indeed, no matter what their age. With a quiet Sun and/or Ascendant, their desire to "shock" others is not always apparent until a relationship becomes comfortable. They are generally proud of their family members, boasting just how unique they are. When their families are ultra-conservative, the boast will be that they rebelled against all of that!

Although given to temper tantrums and willful behavior in youth, Moon in Aquarius people often grow up feeling that messy emotions are unappealing. They often pride themselves for being cool-headed, detached, and "above" what they consider the more base emotions. In the process, they can end up alienating others–and themselves. Although Lunar Aquarians can be especially adept at understanding others' behavior and motivations, they can lose touch with their own–simply because they have identified too strongly with what they aspire to be (and these aspirations are often super-human). The Aquarian tendency to be humanitarian shows up powerfully in Moon in Aquarius. However, their kindness and concern for others is generally more a broad philosophy of life. With people close to them, Moon in Aquarius natives can seemingly lack compassion, as they often fully expect others to be as independent and detached as they are! In close, personal relationships, however, Lunar Aquarians generally give others a lot of personal freedom, and they will tolerate and enjoy all kinds of idiosyncrasies in people around them.

Moon in Aquarius people are rarely flighty people, but they can be unreliable when it concerns the little things in life. Often, this is simply an assertion of their independence. In the long haul, however, they are rather constant, as Aquarius is a fixed sign. As long as they have their own space and the freedom to be themselves, however kooky that may be, they are trustworthy and loyal. Lunar Aquarians generally make wonderful friends. They'll make a point of leaving nobody on the outside. Many will fight for other's rights and crusade for equality. What may be surprising is that Moon in Aquarius people have a lot of pride. In fact, when they've been attacked in any way (especially regarding their character), they can become very inflexible and cool. It can be difficult to know just how sensitive to criticism Lunar Aquarians are, simply because they hide it so well! When their character or behavior has been criticized, they tend to dig in their heels and keep right on doing it. They fully expect others to accept them exactly as they are, or they don't have much use for them in their lives. These sometimes maddeningly unpredictable people are nevertheless quite charming. They have an unmistakable stubborn streak, but when left to be themselves, they make unusual and endlessly interesting people to be around. Life just wouldn't be the same without Lunar Aquarians' unusual spin on the world and the people in it!

Short description:

He is sociable, intelligent, and lucid. Thanks to great sociability, he has many friends. He is modern, original, inventive, non-conformist, and is likely to bring new life to everything he does.

Potential issues: He is eccentric with sharp mood swings. Complex love life.

(cont., last one)

Ascendant in Cancer

These people come across as gentle creatures. There's something familiar about them – they're the guy or gal next door. When they enter a room, they don't walk in with a splash. Instead, they move to the sides and weave their way inwards. These people have a familiar feel to them. Because they are rather sensitive to their environment, they can get flustered easily, especially in public. Their first instinct, when threatened or on unfamiliar ground, is to protect themselves. When new situations present themselves, they can immediately withdraw or act shy. Generally, these people come across as caring people. They seem quite sweet – even innocent. Usually, these people appear unassuming enough to be quite approachable. Some Cancer Ascendants, however, have retreated into themselves so much as to be quite the opposite.

Since Capricorn is on the Descendant, Cancer Ascendant people are looking for structure and security in their partner and their relationship. These people function best when their partner displays strength, financial and emotional stability, and know-how. In fact, many Cancer Ascendants prefer it when their relationship has well-defined rules. Security is the basic need, and they are generally more than willing to give up some personal freedom in order to get it. In some cases, Cancer Ascendant people can surprise their partners. Why? Because they come across as rather unassuming, family-oriented people. When it comes to marriage, they have a rather matter-of-fact, practical approach.

how do I fare?

>>18571

why are modern women so psychotic? like yea its a shit deal about your dad being an asshole and nobody wants that but your mom legit sounds like Miss Cleo with schizophrenia.

though my situation is the opposite its my mom who plays down my accomplishments, my dad tries to at least be accommodating.

>>18572

There is so much that the post leaves out.

We were in a religous cult for about a decade. And we left and got out. And things were seeming to be pointing upwards and better but then the divorce happened. And all the weird shit came out.

My dad thinks mum tried to poison him. But my mums was telling me she was worried about her own health situation and that if she died suddenly that to get an autopsy.

My mum had made several odd comment here and there over the years. I often wondered if there was anything that I could have done to change the outcome, were there a series of small and large actions that I could have done to ensue that I exist in a different world line to what I experience today.

Further back in the past, the year 2005: I would have won a scholarship in my home country if I stayed for one more academic year. Just stayed for 10 more months. I was in the final year of high school. But hey we got Canadian residency, the parents didn't want to come Canada. My older bro got accepted as a transfer from the 3rd world uni to a top Canadian uni. Me and my younger bro was sent up here to go to Canadian highschool. Like fuck. D academic system was completely different. Why the hell the younger brothers' futures are being sacrificed to that big fat cunt? Why did older bro let it happen? Isn't he supposed to look out for the welfare of the younger kids, the same way that I was concerned for my younger bro? I asked and pleaded multiple times to stay. But there is only so much you can do when all you get is violence for having non compliant opinions.

And mum that cunt. The way i see things now, she never stood up for us. Didn't care. They both cared more for the success of the first born.

Man i fucking worked my ass off, took 8 subjects, volunteered, made side money tutoring and tried to get my younger bro to go school. He just stopped going. Older bro didn't give a shit. My dad was being a cunt to me over the phone that it was somehow my responsibility to get him to go to school.

I don't know why i wrote all this out.

>why modern women psychotic?

They always were less than men. Unable to rationalize. Unable to keep their feelings in check. Women in control is a mistake. Everything is their fucking feelings. Childish, stupid, superstitious, conceited.

Women had no evolutionary pressure to be anything more than an attractive mate capable of creating babies. Men needed to be strong, capable, industrious and intelligent to survive and to win mates. Not only is having women in control a mistake, raising men with feminine values is a detriment to those men and to society as a whole.

>>18577

>They always were less than men. Unable to rationalize. Unable to keep their feelings in check. Women in control is a mistake. Everything is their fucking feelings. Childish, stupid, superstitious, conceited.

Women had no evolutionary pressure to be anything more than an attractive mate capable of creating babies. Men needed to be strong, capable, industrious and intelligent to survive and to win mates. Not only is having women in control a mistake, raising men with feminine values is a detriment to those men and to society as a whole.

does my autism figure into why I'm so opposed to my mother? my maternal grandmother was sweet and never like my mom.

one thing I had to add was that I left atheism years ago because they tried force feeding progressive/feminist crap into the movement. after that I turned my life over to God.

>>18505

why is your state so fucked up, anon? no worries, I'm from Ohio, the filming place for Gummo.

>>18583

well, i'm originally from philadelphia, and florida has in common with phi, along with lots of other big eastern up-north cities, overpopulation. it's just that there's such a variety of humans in FL that no other state, except for maybe california, can really boast. you know how shitty humans can be. and florida isn't enough space to keep people at zen; there's too much to worry about. not to mention the state is crafted so that the rich can retire. i don't know man, i'd never in a million years say i'm from here, and i'd definitely never call it "my state".

>>18599

Why are they trying to keep rich boomers alive?

>>18620

2d is an emanation from the 3d world, nice meme but enslaving yourself to an "idealized" desire isn't any better than pinning hopes on some 3dgirl.

>>18629

>>18640

Right. But it's a means for foreveralones to take advantage of supernormal stimulation to help keep the >tfwnogf's away. Not healthy but neither is alcohol nor image boards. Furthermore has the advantage that jacking off to cartoons doesn't risk child support or jailtime for "sexual harassment".

>>18643

oh, i agree completely. At the cost of sounding like a complete clown, I only partake in drawn pornography for ethical reasons tfw slav, and being able to differentiate between fiction and reality is easier when you're looking at cartoon space aliens.

>>18653

I find visual novels work even better than ecchi moeshit.

>>18661

Lel

At first, I did not understand which character this was supposed to be.

I did watch Naruto back in the day but didn't see it right away.

Mighty Guy would be proud of her *thumbs up*

>>18669

I haven't watched a single episode of Naruto. I just like the Kawaii side of globalization.

>>18688

I'm not OP. Just forgot to delete the name field…

goddammit

>>18740

Take out the dumb brown third worlder bit and replace it with pseudo-Christian Zionist (so much so I'm surprised she didn't just try to convert entirely) whose certifiably batshit insane and your post would be exactly how I felt. At least I got away from them - I wish you the best of luck, anon.

>>18640

>cosplaying as sailor moon

>not as sailor pluto who has darker skin

Probably what some orbiter paid for tho

>>18627

So whats like living in redneck central?

>>18643

>jacking off to cartoons doesn't risk child support or jailtime for "sexual harassment"

Neither does regular porn

>>18661

>Though the big reason they chose to jerk off to chinese girl cartoons is their purity fetish resulting from their suspicion of (and hostility towards) adult sexuality.

Probably, hentai doesnt do shit for me anymore but back as a kid I liked anime (not enough to go to cons or sperg in public) and I would have a few hentai folders. Point is I liked hentai because I liked anime, think is like pokefags liking pokemon porn tho in my defense at least I jerked to animated representations of people and not animals. Like, I also watched looney tunes and played starfox but I don't like furry porn.

Absolute typical npc boomer parents. I know the boomer meme is overblown but holy fuck is it real with my dad. The only things my dad will talk about is TV or vacations, and if I try to bring up something heavy or deep, he will zone out while I talk, wait for me to finish, and change the subject to the aforementioned.

Example

>Me: talking about how I feel my life is going nowhere and I don't know what to do. (if you're a parent and your kid says this, it means give him some fucking advice)

>My dad: Yeah… so I'm goin to vegas next month! Cool huh?

>Ask for advice about girls

>"heh women, can't live with em, can't live without em, am I right, son?"

It's was disturbing as fuck when I actually thought about it. No life advice, no traditions, not even a sense of humor that isn't repeating simpsons or animal house quotes. I realized this about him probably around 23 (I'm 30 now), so well before boomer and npc memes came about. But boy do those describe him perfectly.

The weird thing is he isn't stupid. He began poor, he's smart with money, great at planning and logic, great charisma, (in terms of persuading people and making friends) and a top sales rep at his company. If I asked him the secret to his success, he would probably say something like, "Well son, you wanna make an omelet, you gotta break a few eggs." I wish that was a joke.

My mom I can have a decent conversation with, but she was always overprotective, coddling, and very anxious. Always talking about worse case scenarios and worried about everything. When we do have a meaningful conversation she seems to forget it and never brings it up again. That's about all.

I don't know how the fuck I exist from these people. I'm open to your armchair psych explanations, maybe they'll at least make a modicum of sense in my life that has made none so far. For now I'm gonna keeping drinking.

Have a bad relationship with my mother, we havn't spoken in 5+ years, Have a good relationship with my dad, he has a fucked up sense of humor and a grim outlook on life like me.

>>18914

Are you that retarded, anon? Get your doll put in your own account and say no if she asks for it. if she's stealing your giro then it can only be because you're letting her.

Poor. Father calls me an "Alex Jones watching loony" because one time I told him that Epic Games paid for Fortnite screen time on Big Bang Theory (his favorite show) and that most Amazon user reviews are faked. One time I told him in anger that people like him who don't listen to anything except what's on the TV and confirm pressures onto others are what cause school shootings, not guns, and he simply responded aghast back at me and declared himself the arbiter of everything right.

It was at that point I realized that "optics" are a worthless endeavor and that nornies don't deserve to be saved from their upcoming genocide. They aren't fit to lick my boots and in the very small chance there is a political revolution I wouldn't care at all about their quality of life, they would exist to serve me.

>>18932

>Big Bang Theory (his favorite show)

>not disowning your father for being a brainlet

why, anon?

Do you really watch that aut-right mong alex jones, though? Why?

>>18932

>confirm pressures onto others are what cause school shootings, not guns

>he simply responded aghast back at me and declared himself the arbiter of everything right

Typical leftist behavior.

>>18936

I don't watch Alex Jones. His antics are annoying and he's a grifter, and if you really want to be a conspiracy theorist all the information is there online for you to find, you don't need some boomer to tell it to you.

>>18937

He calls himself a "conservative." So yeah, a leftist.

>>18942

Because they are. We call them progressives driving the speed limit. Most of our "conservatives" were progressives back in the 50s and 60s but then the progress went a little too far and they got sick of it, but still don't mind the progress they fought for.

That's assuming they even recognize social changes to begin with. A ton of our conservatives now are "fiscally conservative but socially liberal" which is a fancy way of saying "I'm totally okay with trannies grooming our kids but if you want affordable healthcare you better work for 40 hours a week with only 6 days off a year, goy."

>father

Just short of nonexistent. Parents divorced when I was barely 4, and afterward he continued getting deployed left and right until I was around 15 and he was finally able to settle down. By that point I hardly wanted to speak to him, not because I dislike him or anything but just because I never saw any reason to get to know him. "He's my father" isn't enough of a reason. The few times I spoke to him, he came off as an autist who's more self-confident than self-aware, turning him into the type that tries to be funny all the time, even when it's not appropriate, and laughs at his own humor.

>mother

Was already distant when I still lived with her, and now that I'm on my own it's growing even more distant. Growing up with a single mother fucks you up, and while the damage has already been done, at least getting away from her allows me to live in a way that brings some semblance of happiness.

>>18945

Every tranny institution that is allowed to speak to children is grooming them, by spreading their mental illness.

Most people have a very stupid idea of paedophilia anyways. Normies cannot be trusted, they either need heavy propaganda to give them correct opinions and failing that, they need to be forced.

Okay, I guess. My mom likes me enough, and my mostly absent father values me as an extension of himself. I don't really care for either of them.

i ruined my parent's marriage somehow. i destroyed my little brothers' childhood by being a selfish piece of shit. I'm deep down the filth. i wish die in my sleep.

i wish i could go back in time. I'm ready to pay half of my life for it.

>>18942

They're leftists by virtue of being controlled opposition. The American left has the right completely under their control to act as a boogeyman as well as play the role of the strawman during debates.

>>18949

Wow, you went off the deep end quick….

Serves me right for trying to have a proper conversation with an idiot yank, i guess.

Have fun with your autism, broskie.

>>18968

Whatever spic, no one here thinks you're stunning or brave for your willingness to play along with the delusions of the mentally ill.

yooooooo this thread kinda took off. parents are fucking idiots mentally unfit to raise kids. end of story.

>>18968

using autism as insult is just pure reddit at this point

>>19056

using reddit as an insult is pure reddit at this point.

>>19063

<EVERYTHING IS REDDIT

goodnight!

>>19137

Thanks for the gold, kind stranger.

>>18469

Dad is an oldschool conservative /fit/ dude who was a jock in high school

Mom is also a conservative, but a bit loony.

I get along with them fine. Once they're dead, I'll have no family left that's worth a shit and will probably kms.

>>22534

>saikopasu

>soshiopasu

the difference is that psychopaths are born

sociopaths are made

>the kid that loved torturing cats and birds with his pellet gun in elementary just because it was fun to him

psychopath

>the charismatic and successful business guy who sabotages his my mom's cuntorkers just because fun

psycho

>the guy who puts his pocket knife in random peoples car because it is fun

psycho

>if I could get away with it

no body, no murder case =)

>>22534

Parents are overrated, in a sense that you can indeed remove them from your memories.

My relationship with my parents?

Jeez where do I start.

My father was a drunk, he then started abusing drugs, eating marijuana resin, he'd eat enough for several spliffs, my father then developed psychosis, he'd have delusions of me pulling faces at him and calling him names and so he'd threaten and attack me with knives, swords, golf clubs, axes etc, I'd lock myself in my room so he smashed the door of the hinges, this was a regular occurrence as was smashing furniture, and bashing holes in walls, he's also talk to people that weren't there.

My stupid mother didn't believe he was unstable, she thought he was doing stuff when drunk, even after he'd given up drinking but was still acting this way she still refused to accept he was mentally unstable, she say he has a bad temper.

So shit continued until one weekend my father was full in psychotic running around the street and hiding behind bushes from the voices (what a pussy hiding from voices) this lasted the weekend after which my mother chaperoned my father to a GP but the GP told my father that he didn't want such mental health problems on his medical files as it would ruin his life, so the doctor suppressed it and never reported my father t the social services

One day my father whilst psychotic tried to murder me, he attacked me and tried to beat me to death with a metal vase after which he phoned the police and claimed I'd tried to murder him so the police got involved, my mother is from a generation that doesn't snitch on their husband so she refused to tell the cops that my dad was the guilty party but she admitted I did nothing wrong, also my father admitted he'd attacked me, also I was cut and bruised and the metal vase was there as evidence and so police believed me but they tried to help my father by giving him special treatment as in they didn't arrest him not take photos of me nor my written statement, instead they reported it to the social services whom cane my home and spoke to my family, my father denied being ill and claimed that I was ill in the head, my stupid bitch mother thought that if I got registered as seriously mentally ill the government would he me a home and benefit for life and I'd never have to work so my mother lies to the social services making them think I was ill, the social services then accused me of being a violent undiagnosed schizophrenic and they put me in a psych ward for a psych eval where they threatened and tourtured me and tried to make me go on record and say I hear voices and hallucinate, I refused and so they eventuallly discharged me telling me that I'd passed the asessent, they discharged me in writing and on computer files, they also told my parents and lawyer that I'd passed the assement and been discharged however they secretly refused to let me go and tried to hold me there as an undocumented prisoner, so later that night I escaped or to put it another way - they stupidly left me alone with a upper middle class 24 year old psychiatric intern, a posh white guy with dreadlocks whom was into extreme unicycling, so I threatened to kill if him if didn't get the keys and unlock the doors and let me leave, he claimed I'd go to prison if ikilles him but I pointed out to him that as I wasn't officially being detained there then I wouldn't be a suspect, there lie that is been discharged that morning have me an alibi, so he did as he was told and let me leave XD

In the years following I've had death threats from the authorities so I now don't leave my home.

My parents don't believe any of this, they claim I'm crazy and they've told my friends, neighbours and relatives that I'm mentally ill and they say I've been in a mental hospital, they never tell the true version of events and so everyone now thinks I'm schizophrenic even though no such thing is on my medical files nor do I take meds, I nacre have done nor have I ever been prescribed antipsychotics.

The authorities didn't get me to frame myself but they did achieve one thing, during my five days of threats, abuse, beatings and torture, on the last day I started ticking, after being dischaeged I developed more and more tics as the months passed, 13 vocal tics and 12 motor tics, it became clear to me that I'd m developed tourettes due to the abuse I'd suffered in custody, of course I can't go to a doctor and claim this as the authorities wont tolerate such accusations so it's undiagnosed although it's clear that o do have it, there's nothing else it could be.

Having developed tourettes I then realised that my mother fours TVs occasionally and garbage has den her entire life, so it must be in the family. I recall my grab once told me that as a young child my mother apparently did strange things with her face (grinnace) and her parents were worried if teachers noticed she'd be taken off them an put into an asylum so her parents stopped sending her to school and moved to a different town regularly so as my mum had missed the start of term ans so missed enrolling her in school and so her parents would have an excuse not to sending her to school, they moved hous regularly every 8 moths so my mother never went school.

Growing up I saw my mum make strange noises and occasionally pulled a strange face, oh and she occasionally shouts swear words when she sneezes, but she doesn't do them often, having grown up with this I became accustomed to it and didn't really notice it anymore, it wasn't until I developed tourettes that I realised that my mum had it, my mother however denies having it and gets extremely angry at my suggestion that she has tourettes, as for me having it, she claims I haven't and that's crazy and that it's a delusion of mine l, even though I haven't been diagnosed as suffering from a psychotic illness ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I want leave the country and claim asylum but my parents won't hek me and worse as they wrongly assume I'm ill in the head then they've warned me that if I try to leave the country, or apply for a passport or attempt to contact a lawyer of embassy or go to the airport, then they'll report me to thevsurgirites and claim I'm psychotic and gave me kicked up, they also won't let me leave the house unless they chaperone me and iknobky aloud to go somewhere if they agree, I'm basically a prisoner abs have been for years now, I keep telling them I'm gonna go to an embassy and get help, and I warn m parents they'll go to prison for what they've done, but my parents just laugh and say they'll tell the embassy I'm crazy and also tell the British authorities that I'm delusional.

and I thought my parents were bad …