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Hey man, what's wrong with Gurdjieff? Before I became Christian, I, whilst I never got to the point where I was seriously studying his books, I'd at least gone so far as to pirate them. I had a desire to practise what he preached. I don't know if I have some kind of undiagnosed ADD but my attention-span was weak and so this idea that I, with particular practises, could more easily be in a state of "self-remembering" was very hopeful to me. I looked forward to being able to create a more conscious version of myself as opposed to my usual mind-wandering self and, not only that but, according to him, I'd also be able to create a soul for myself as well so after I die, I'll actually survive.
Admittedly, there is a sense of superiority as I rise into conscious behaviour unlike the masses who, as Gurdjieff says, walk about in their days like a trance-like state. He either compares them to machines or say they are in a dream of sorts but nonetheless, that is overshadowed by the fact that I clearly needed this. This is a religion that could address my life-long flaw. After all, it's not like there's any aspect of Christianity that's advertised as a remedy to ADD-like symptoms. I mean, I suppose you could pray for it but that wouldn't have been convincing to my former self.
There is one slight concern I have with Gurdjieff and that's the fact that he would supposedly get really emotionally riled up and start shouting obscenities at visible non-laity members of the Church if he ever saw them. Such irrational behaviour struck me as odd and I had no reasons to be in favour of Christianity in those days.
I believe I recall reading that he held the opinion that Christians originally practised a better version of Christianity that had better prayers but they moved away from that stuff and so their prayer became dead. I didn't know what the Saints did to deepen their prayer life so when I saw those words, I immediately thought of people reciting words during Mass and I thought it made sense. So there's definitely some anti-Christian sentiments in what he says but doesn't it have good to it?
I still have a soft respect for him, after all this time and I as of yet see no reason to discard it.