>Be me last year
>25 year old virgin borderline ricecel (asian incel)
>No driver's license, working as a cook for barely about minimum wage, never even kissed a girl before
>Feel extremely miserable seeing couples of any race or sexuality
>Decide to try and get gf
>Start using dating apps and approaching women on the street
>Begin spending large amounts of paycheque buying clothes and gambling on bitcoin hoping to make a quick fortune, all to impress women
>Everything I do fails
>End up losing half of my savings on bitcoin exchanges (bitmex mostly) while i just wear the same 3 pieces of clothing every day
>Get 1 match/per week on dating apps and conversations never go anywhere
>Volunteer at a charity and meet a nice girl who works there
>I stalk her on the internet and finds out she is a devout christian
>Start learning about different denominations, God, start reading the Bible and visiting /Christian/ just so that i can become her ideal man, even though i dont believe in God
>She quits her job before i can confess my feelings and i never see her again>I continue reading the Bible, doing 5 hour study sessions during off days
>What started as preparation for LARP becomes actual fervent faith, and i begin praying to God often, even in public
>Quit my s—ty cooking job
>Still have short periods of intense self loathing and blackpill reading, but in the end i always come back to God
>I don't really care that much about being undesireable kissless hugless virgin anymore, i just want to show God how much I love Him
> "For the sake of his great name the LORD will not reject his people, because the LORD was pleased to make you his own." (1 Samuel 12:22)
>If I dont have a gf until im 35, i will be fine with that, as long as I have God, though i do want to get married and start a family eventually with a good God-fearing woman
>First thing I'm going to do after lockdown is get baptised
I just want to thank you, /christian/. You were absolutely vital to the formation of my faith. (I'm still here every day). It's so awesome to laugh and learn alongside my brothers in Christ. May God bless and protect every one of you :)
- K.L.