My ex messaged me about being pregnant a few weeks after we broke up.
She then continued to tease me about how she was going to enjoy aborting the baby and how she didn’t decide on the method yet.
After the deed she went into great detail describing how it went. After a while she met someone else and told me about how much better the sex is and that he would own me in a fight.
It felt horrible but I can’t stop cumming to it even 2 years after.
Almost no day goes by without thinking about her having mind blowing sex. She killed my offspring telling me she doesn’t want to raise another parasite and how good it felt having this parasite removed from her body.
She’s rewarded with a happy life and an achieved, wealthy, bulked man as her new bf.
All girls I had disrespected me sooner or later. The most expressive statement I got was „You’re for abuse“. No matter how much I tried fighting this image with machismo, in the end they all left me broken and begging.
I started accepting the fact I’m just a plaything to them. I don’t know why but it seems to be what I am.
I feel much better and the pain goes away with acceptance and forgiveness.
Is this the right way?