>I need some advice here,this place is much better than halfchan
You've come to the right place anon. My advice is this: you get some alcohol, and then get some benzodiazepines. Their brand names include Xanax and Klonopin. I'm sure there's others, but those are the two main brands. You can probably go to a psychiatrist and get them prescribed to you relatively easy, just say you have anxiety.
Next, I want you to set some time off for yourself, draw a bath, make sure no one's around. You need
a) your alcoholic beverage of choice
b) your new pills
c) a razor blade (any kind will do, as long as it's sharp)
My next suggestion is that you get in the bath, get nice and toasty, take some of your pills and start drinking! You will probably want to dwell on why you're a loser, why you're so pathetic that you almost paid for something as trivial as sex (millions, no- billions of people get it for free!), and what decisions in your life got you to this point. Remember that razorblade? It'll come in handy now!
Now I'd like you to cut yourself just like you did before, but this time it's important that you go down the street instead of across. Cut along your veins! Not too hard, but enough to split those veins wiiiide open. Obviously there will be lots of blood, but you're already used to that, right? Anyway, once you've sufficiently cut both of your wrists open, lean back, relax, and enjoy the reaps of your efforts! Your job here is done. Close your eyes, and take a nice nap, it'll all be over soon.
Hope this helps.