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>>45725

that was when i was six or so, remember it like yesterday, playing with my dick in the shower, it was extremely i tingly, can’t reproduce it now, it was really intense. Don’t remember the second first actual thought

>>45725

Aren't you supposed to have sent me a free pizza first? Internet Strangers usually work that way when they're predding on a teenager.

In our time, relationships are necessary for any person and this is really very important and not easy. To do this, you should actively communicate and get acquainted on the Internet. After all, if you have enough dating and communication then it is especially convenient and easy for you to do it with the help of dating sites on the Internet https://www.datingsitesinau.com.au/ I think this is a great opportunity for a variety of people to find communicate and new acquaintances. And it's really worth it.

>>45725

so, let me make sure I understand this...

you're a dude who wants to discuss ejaculations

with other dudes that you've never met before?

...........really?

WHY ?

creepy, tbqh

>>45725

I dunno, man........ I'm pretty weirded out by this.

I don't discuss other mens penises or sperm

and I do NOT discuss my penis or sperm

with other men, especially random strangers

I'm just curious WHY this is what your mind focuses on

I mean, seriously.....

I'm not "homophobic"... because "phobia" equals "fear", and I'm not "afraid" of a faggot, any more than I'm afraid of ANYBODY....

I've been overly comfortable in my own skin since I was 12 years old, when I "found myself", which has nothing to do with sexuality, but I've also been completely confident in my heterosexuality ever since I was 16 and working the door of an adult nightclub and a gorgeous 36 year old blonde hair blue eyes registered nurse named Joy grabbed my arm and dragged me away from my post at the door and took me home and sexually assaulted me and I never left her apartment for 4 years.

And I grew up in Atlanta, so obviously I've had a ton of gay friends, obviously, so I don't have any issues with faggots.

And I used to DJ in stripclubs for almost 10 years, plus I also Deejayed at dance clubs during the same time, so I've always had TONS of "friends" in real life, even though 98% of them were not actual "close friends"...

But I've been lucky enough to have met a lot of REALLY, REALLY CLOSE, GOOD FRIENDS in real life... Buddies... Dudes.... Pals.. .

and with those really close friends, I've had TONS of abstract, off the wall, bizarre, shocking, hilarious conversations.... And sure, TONS of extreme conversations about sex or fucking different girls... No holds barred... Full Metal Jacket shit...

but this is different. This is creepy....

This reminds me of sitting on a Subway train, and a complete stranger sits down next to me, and he wants me to tell him about me masturbating...

fucking weird, man

>>45725

I'm going to do you a HUUUUGE favor, dude....

I'm going to put things into perspective for you:

>>45725

what the fuck are you doing with your life, dude?...

how old are you?...................................

Obviously, I'm aware that you're young

but I'm guessing you're not THAT young

When I was 12, I made a conscious realization about myself and my place on this planet, and I decided to let go of all the negative self defeatist geeky nerdy childish awkward uncomfortable weird self-imposed boundaries I had created for myself, and that had become an obstacle for me, and created awkward social anxiety situations...

I self actualized, basically...

If I'm going to use someone else's terminologies (which I don't like doing) then I guess you could use the term "self-actualization" to describe what I'm talking about...

My life was very awkward and uncomfortable up to that point... But once I freed myself of all my geeky nerdy awkward behaviors and thought patterns, suddenly I found myself connecting with people on an adult level...

At the age of 12, I actually stopped hanging out with other people my own age, and specifically surrounded myself with adults, with college students inviting me to their Frat Parties at UGA

I started associating with older business people

and I learned A LOT................................................

Lori McClendon......

Her name was Lori McClendon, and she had big boobs, and she was Louis Mandell's girlfriend...

Louis was one my inner circle of close friends. I was 15, and she was 17... I was very awkward because I had never had sex before... I had no idea how to smoothly initiate a sexual scenario with a girl due to my inexperience...

Lori solved that problem for me!! She quite literally forced me into it, and after the first .00027351 milliseconds, all of my fears and anxieties had been erased, and I became an "old pro"...

So I lost my virginity, but a couple months went by and I didn't get another girl... I was working at an adult nightclub, because at the age of 15, I was carrying myself like an adult, and I had the aura of an adult, meaning I gave off a more mature self-confident energy, one that I had learned by hanging out with older people when I was 12, 13, 14, and 15.... I simply walked up to the owner of a nightclub in Atlanta, and by the time our conversation was done, I had been hired as the doorman for the nightclub.

(Believe it or not, I know it sounds bizarre and far-fetched, but it's 100% true... I got hired to work the front door of a busy night club when I was only 15 years old)

You wouldn't believe how many crazy, totally insane, unbelievable, wild as fuck experiences I had working at that nightclub.... Like the night two guys got into a really bad fight in the back parking lot, and one of them grabbed the other one by the ears, and BIT THE SKIN OFF HIS FACE.... A gigantic chunk of his face got BITTEN OFF... That was particularly horrifying at age 15....

And the women !!! WOW!!!

You simply would NOT believe how hot the women were, and this was a long time ago, so people's social and sexual behavior was much more extreme than it is these days... So I was 15 years old, and I was having hot as fuck chicks hitting on me and flirting with me, and I witnessed the hottest fucking girls sucking dick and getting fucked right there in the back of the nightclub! It was crazy !!!

(At this point, it's important I pause to tell you that THE BEST YEARS OF YOUR LIFE are already behind you, and you've literally sat in front of your computer, watching anime, playing video games, and chatting it up in image boards, and wasted thousands and thousands of amazing opportunities in your life - opportunities that you will never get back again, and you keep allowing them to slip through your fingers like so many grains of sand)

.....so........

I had already stretched Lori out, and blown my load into her, but I was still a bit nervous as to whether or not I could smoothly approach women with a comfortable warming sense of self confidence.... I was halfway there....

And then Joy grabbed my arm..........

WHAT ARE YOU DOING WITH YOUR LIFE, MAN?!!!

Why are you fixated on childish, embarrassing, cliche, trendy, infantile, effeminate Asian cartoons?

Why are you a video game sissy boy?

What the fuck were you thinking @ sci-fi fantasy?

WHERE ARE YOU GOING WITH YOUR LIFE, SIR?

EXACTLYWHYARE YOU ASKING RANDOM STRANGE MEN TO DISCUSSTHEIR EJACULATIONS?

because the internet doesn't make you 'anonymous'

Any more than a guy on a Subway train is 'anonymous'

I don't have to know somebody's name to be able to read them like a book, and size them up for exactly who and what they are.....

I can see somebody at a distance, not even close enough to see the features of their face clearly

And I can read them like a goddamn book

We all carry our souls on our sleeves

As much as we try, we can NOT hide who we truly are

>>45749

We are truly nothing and can only act as something. We can act any role if we believe in it.

>>45750

This is true.....

In fact, everybody has always wanted to "be a famous actor" where they get paid money to play the role of somebody else...

But little do they realize, they've been playing different roles their entire life

There's an old phrase, "Life Is a Stage", and that's exactly correct

Because wherever you go, whoever you have to deal with in life at any given particular moment, you WILL 'become somebody else', adapting to that particular situation...

If you fail to do this, you will forever be lost in an awkward obscurity of uncomfortable disconnection

We all have to adapt... Otherwise we will never connect and complete

However..............

There's a very important caveat

>>45752

But doesn't that contradict your claim that we cannot hide what we truly are? I guess not if by who we truly are you mean the role we are currently playing.

All of the greatest actors in history (professional actors) have said the same thing regarding their trade:

They simply play the role of THEMSELF, put into different situations and scenarios....

They do not play the role of somebody else

>>45756

I just answered that question

In life, we are actually not playing the role of somebody else in different situations

We are always playing the role of OURSELF, put into any given abstract scenario

>>45759

Define "ourself"

Because even if somebody DOES try playing the role of somebody else, other people can see right through it

Very much like a bad actor in a movie

As humans, we all have an innate ability to see through somebody

>>45760

That's actually an entirely different conversation, that could last for hours, and fractally dissipates into way too many tributaries and metaphysical capillaries

So.............

the YOU that you are going to be........

who is it?

>>45761

What is our self? At the bottom of our being what is there beneath the act?

>>45765

A: a scared child

>>45765

And you'll never lose that scared child

But by the time the average guy is 15 or 16, he has learned to compartmentalize the scared child

And that's the defining moment of your life

Ask yourself...

If you were playing the role of yourself in a subway train station... Surrounded by hundreds of busy commuters....

And your character got onto the subway train, and took a seat next to somebody......

does the script include an impromptu conversation you initiate, asking the other man to tell you details about him masturbating?

Because in life, you are NOT JUST AN "ACTOR'

You're also the screenwriter

You're also the guy that writes the script for your half of the interaction with other human beings

And I'm not being an asshole... Trust me... I'm honestly not trying to be an asshole here

But......

I'm not the type of person who picks up a guitar to play somebody else's music... If I'm going to pick up a guitar, I'm going to play MY OWN SONG

It might not be to your liking, but I'm okay with that

Because I'm playing it for myself, not for you

If you like it, that's fine and dandy with me

And I'm an artist as well, and if I pick up a paintbrush, I'm NOT going to be reproducing somebody else's painting

>>45772

But we also switch roles, adapt to different situations. So in the situation of shitposting on 8kun such script seems odly fitting. The real question is what are we doing here in the first place.

And you could say I'm a bit of an "expert" amateur ad hoc screenwriter

We all are

And if I'm going to write the screenplay of my life, I guarantee you it's not going to include trendy cliches like anime and video games and awkward pseudo homosexual latent conversations with other men on image boards

Fuck no...

My life isn't 4chan.org/r9k

>>45776

obviously, too much time on our hands

And apparently a certain amount of dysfunction

but being here isn't really the problem...

not necessarily

to me, it's not the "nightclub", but more the CLIENTELE

This doesn't have to be a THEME nightclub

Just because there's a current quickly fading fad, a trendy cliches "Pirate's Night" theme happening at night clubs DOES NOT mean you're going to catch me with an eye patch

I'm never going to put a plastic hook over my hand and wear a black vest with horizontal stripe shirt underneath, and the pirate's hat....

Lol you've got to be kidding me

And just because you are in an image board doesn't necessarily separate you or I from some milquetoast middle-of-the-road losers using Facebook, or some creepy horny losers using a mobile chat room like MocoSpace or the old bulshit flash chat room website MBUZZY

This might be an image board, or what when I was younger we used to call BBS

>>45778

Ok wise one, I have an entirely unrelated question someone with your experience might answer.

Can you seduce a dominatrix and if so, how would you approach the situation?

But just because we are in an image board, it really doesn't separate us from the chatroom geeks

We're having a conversation

This is a lot like a coffee shop or a tavern

>>45785

YES YOU CAN and I have, several times to be candid

>>45787

The only reason anybody ever tries to convince themselves they are in control, is obviously because they feel a self perceived lack of control

That's the only reason anybody would ever even mention it...

It quite literally NEVER enters your mind unless it's already in the back of your mind

>>45787

But if that's what you need to keep telling yourself, then please feel free to continue.....

The audience is eating their popcorn, and they've actually seen a lot of characters just like yours in other movies before...

If you're watching a movie and one character appears, and his t-shirt says IM IN CONTROL

You can guarantee the plot line is going to involve his lack of control

plan ahead with your screenplay

>>45787

And of course you just so happened to be standing CARTOONS about other men ejaculating

Because you wrote a screenplay

And your character is stunted in an infantile cartoon state, and awkwardly fixates on MENS GENITALIA

scanning"

Sorry I use speech to text and it quite often makes typos, even though I go out of my way to try to pronunciate everything correctly, including the actual pronunciation of my punctuation

>>45785

And while I am not particularly wise (I continue making idiotic mistakes all the time, and I'm quite literally old as dirt) I in fact AM overly experienced

And quite often experience equates to wisdom

So I'll take it with a grain of salt, but allow me to address your question regarding the bondage and discipline sadomasochism topic :

>>45785

I believe the actual question was "HOW WOULD I APPROACH THE SITUATION?"

simple...... I would approach it the same way I approach every situation....

Understanding human nature

I would approach it with the realization that she is a human being....

And as human beings, we subconsciously manifest behaviors, before we self-actualize, and realize that we are all writing our own screenplay and playing the role of ourselves in a different situation..

And those behavioral patterns usually indicate what the person is trying to hide

it's like somebody who's trying to convince themselves that they are in control

They're trying to exude an image that is untrue... They're trying to pretend they have mastered their weakness

As humans, when we are lost and still haven't "found ourselves" yet, we have a tendency to try and "project" an opposite, false image of ourselves...

One of CONFIDENCE, hoping it will serve as a defense mechanism, and prevent people from "seeing behind the curtain", keeping them from realizing that we are terrified by our lack of self-confidence....

Bondage discipline sadomasochism is a perfect example of this

Trust me I've dealt with tons and tons of BDSM people, both male and female....

They are the most confused, insecure, misdirection giving, discombobulated people of all!!

But they want to compensate for this disconnection, so they spray paint a prefabricated cheesy trendy 'elitist' false image...

It's intended to be intimidating...

It's intended to make other people perceive them as being 'elite' and 'so misunderstood that they are untouchable'

It's also extremely UNORIGINAL

It became uncool several decades ago... It's like somebody suddenly becoming "goth" in 2025

That was a cheesy fashion trend that died in 1983

And people with bondage discipline sado-masochism personas are OBVIOUSLY telling you their fears and weaknesses....

Just like the guy who tries to convince you he's in control

Fetishes are widely misunderstood by the average person....

They have nothing to do with an actual sexual interest.... NOTHING....

Drinking champagne out of a stiletto IS NOT SEX

Getting spanked on stage at a bondage club while wearing predictable trendy black latex bondage wear and nine inch nails thumping over the speakers IS NOT SEX

Having control issues IS NOT SEX

Trying to exude a Persona of 'master' or 'slave' IS NOT SEX

These are all intentional Misdirections... Like a little boy performing his amateurish "magic show" performance at the elementary school talent show....

Fetishes are nothing more then a distraction technique, Incorporated by psychologically weak humans, intended to mask unresolved psychological issues from their childhood

Drinking champagne from a stiletto has nothing to do with bondage or discipline.....

But it's still in the same category.....

While BDSM people are CLEARLY dealing with unresolved inner conflict regarding a lack of power or authority or control, drinking champagne from a stiletto qualifies for the same category...

Same with foot fetishes.....

Shoes and feet are at the farthest point of your body, all the way down at the end of your legs, the farthest thing from a sexual organ...

Feet have nothing to do with sex......

And that's exactly why foot fetish losers fixate on feet... Because THEY'RE ASEXUAL

BUT WHY DO THEY TRY TO PRESENT THEIR FOOT FIXATION AS AN ELITE MISUNDERSTOOD SUPERIOR SEXUALITY?

ANSWER: because they want to hide their dysfunctional sexuality....

They realize they have a disconnect... They realize they are sexually stunted due to unresolved psychological problems....

But they don't want you to know that

So they spray paint an alleged 'mysterious' sexual facade... A false image, designed to make you think you are not sexually experienced enough to understand the superiority they are indulging in

FETISH PROPLE ARE ASEXUAL

They don't like sex.......

If they enjoyed sex, they'd be getting their dick sucked, or they would be sucking dick....

But instead they're wearing cheesy trendy black plastic fashions, listening to cheesy predictable trendy nine inch nails music, getting paddled on stage, drinking champagne out of shoes, or avoiding sexual scenarios by pretending they are interested in her feet....

Basically, THEY ARE THE ONES WHO DRESSED UP LIKE PIRATES

Completely unoriginal

And you can see right through it like a ziplock sandwich baggie

NOW :

A bondage and discipline girl is confused... She's clearly showing you behavior that demonstrates her confusion....

Because unlike other uninitiated idiots, you don't fall for her behavior, but instead you see the source of the behavior

She's QUITE LITERALLY telling the world that she has not found herself yet....

She's uncomfortable in her own skin

She's got some unresolved psychological issues, and instead of resolving them, she's the type of person who chooses to hide, and hold up a false image of herself to prevent you from finding out how afraid she is of herself

and THATS WHERE YOU COME IN.....

She's not looking for BDSM

She's looking for somebody who will help her find herself and she can finally stop presenting a false image of herself because she will no longer be afraid

She's looking for somebody she can trust, who will help her free herself of her self-defeating thoughts and behaviors... She's looking for somebody to hold her hand and introduce her to herself

So she can finally LIKE HERSRLF

If you want to come get in bed with a BDSM girl, you're not going to be participating in her prepackaged predictable trendy behavior pattern

You're going to be the one to make her realize how stupid and infantile that particular behavior is

Because she's not playing the role of herself

She hasn't reached that point yet

she still thinks she's supposed to be playing the role of somebody else

You can be the one to gently guide her in the right direction

Because behind that "terrible actor in her cheesy movie you've seen a million times before" is a human being

She just doesn't know whether or not she likes that human being yet

HOWEVER...................

You've got to ask yourself HOW and WHY did you encounter this person ?

Metaphorically speaking, you've generally got to "already be in a bondage nightclub" before you bump into a confused BDSM actor

I guess what I'm trying to say is I tend to wonder how you ended up communicating with her....

And whether or not it has any possible connection to your own fears and tendencies to behave the same way she's behaving

and if so.........

Then this is THE ULTIMATE OPPORTUNITY for two confused young people to self actualize together

and if not..... This is the perfect opportunity to be her savior, to introduce her to herself, to help her hold up a Looking-Glass and like the reflection she sees, a reflection without any black lipstick or black plastic cheesy trendy fashions, for predictable tired cliche behaviors

Her true reflection

TO BE SUCCINCT:

to SEDUCE (remember you chose the word seduce) a "dominatrix", you immediately eliminate her erroneous belief that she's convincing you that she's a dominatrix

She definitely isn't a dominatrix

She's simply somebody who feels a lack of control and authority or confidence, so she wants you to think she is a master of all of these subjects

dominatrix = afraid

Help her vaporize her self doubt

And you're never going to do that by participating in her preexisting, prepackaged, prescribed, predictable pattern of behavior

Just like you're never going to find a self-confident cool woman when she's dressed up like a pirate on pirates night

Unless you're the type of person who's also dressed up like a pirate.....

In which case, to be perfectly candid, neither of you are cool or self-confident

If you're engaging in sex with her, there's two ways of approaching it....

Are you interested in having her go through cliche scenarios involving her 'psychological dominance over you', or are you interested in inserting your penis into her, bending your dick head against her cervix, while you have two fingers in her asshole, her face pushed against the headboard, telling her what a stupid piece of shit she is while you blow incessant loads into her ?

Because domination and control IS NOT SEX

and SEDUCING somebody means getting them in bed

Are you somebody who wants to climb into bed to play a predictable cheesy role in a predictable cheesy screenplay, not getting your dick sucked, but instead indulging a confused woman who wants to convince herself that she is a badass?

But most importantly :

Is that really worth it?... If you're investing time, thought and energy into seducing somebody, do you really want to begin by running their obstacle course of psychological weaknesses?

Or would you rather skip that wasted energy, and Target somebody who has actually found themselves, and start at the beginning without a preemptive introductory course beforehand?

HINT: BDSM girls ARE TERRIBLE IN BED

THEY ARE AWFUL LAYS....

Boring as fuck....

Once you have exerted immeasurable effort introducing them to themselves, and you finally get them in bed, it will take you 3 years to turn them into a good piece of ass....

Literally... Because they've spent their entire life NOT being a good piece of ass, so three years is actually pretty fast when it comes to playing catch-up

ITT: Virgins tryna pretend they know what orgasm is.

So what? Orgasm! Super, super!

Of all the BDSM girls I've dealt with and bent over and fucked them in the shit hole, NONE of them were worth a shit....

Similar to a somewhat damp elastic burlap bag of jello

>>45829

I suppose you're not real good at paying attention?

That's what this thread was INTENDED to be....

But quite the opposite happened

so, yeah.........

fuck BDSM

It's so predictable and unoriginal

It's fucking embarrassing as shit !!!

It's exactly like wearing a pirate's hat and an eye patch and a plastic hook over your hand

And trying to convince everybody that you actually ARE a pirate, and that's your real true inner personality, not a cheesy predictable trendy theme night

Jill.....

Hmmm..... JILL..........

Let me go online and find a current photograph of Jill before I tell you about her

(I haven't seen Jill in 26 years, so she's going to be a lot older then the way she looked when I was fucking her)

Hold on I'll be right back

Ooops !!!! Another God damn speech-to-text typo

JILL*not jim

She was 17 and I was 26....

And she was hot as fuck !!!

She dressed immaculately, super sexy, super self-confident, an AMAZINGLY talented artist and illustrator... She carried herself with a remarkable sense of Elegance and Grace and class for a 17 year old...

Super super smart...

She could hold a conversation with a millionaire or a guy under a bridge, and either one would be blown away by her award-winning personality

She moved into my apartment the same day that I met her...

We went to my place, I fucked the ever-living shit out of her (I basically raped her to be quite honest, although it was not against her will, I basically just sexually assaulted her violently... Not with punches and fists but with my dick...) I beat her down like a punk, and within an hour she told her parents she was moving out...

We lived together for years....

Through the highs and lows the ups and downs

We did it all, just like with every other girlfriend or wife I've ever had... Through the thick and thin, we were a team

Then one day she found out her parents were getting divorced...

She also found out her mother had been cheating on her father for almost 20 years

.... And as smart and cool and self-confident and classy and sophisticated as Jill was, the scared child resurfaced

... and she started behaving in a strange anxiety pattern....

And believe it or not, her anziety and fear and uncertainties manifested in her suddenly becoming interested in BDSM

.... And the next thing I knew, she began buying cheesy predictable trendy cliche bondage fashion clothing....

And she began listening to nine inch nails, and other trendy cheesy pre-packaged predictable music... Pseudo heavy metal angry frustrated bulshit pre-packaged trendy music....

And she wanted us to start going to a nightclub called THE CHAMBER

And I would stand there in the nightclub bored as fuck, surrounded by people wearing metaphorical pirates costumes, all of them trying to convince each other that they were actually NATURAL BORN PIRATES

And Jill would get on stage and stand there, dressed up in her ridiculous black plastic bondage clothing, with bullshit music playing over the speakers, and some OBVIOUSLY GAY MAN dressed up in even more ridiculous embarrassing predictable trendy bondage fashions, and he would be 'play spanking' her...

No sex.. nothing sexual at all....

This was all a distraction technique, a transparent misdirection attempt...

THESE PEOPLE WERE AFRAID OF SEX

And after all those years of stretching Jill around my cock, bending and pushing and folding the block of modeling clay into my Pygmalion masterpiece, suddenly JILL BECAME TERRIBLE IN BED

why ?...................

because the scared childs image of her motherssexuality or lack thereof had been shattered

But this was not my first foray into the subject

By the time I met Jill, I had already dealt with countless BDSM girls in the nightclub scene, and in my bed....

I already understood the entire premise, including the true source, and the end result

.... So I allowed Jill to indulge and explore that side of her psychology, even though she also knew exactly what I knew...

She actually already understood the false pretense of fetishes.....

But she still ended up falling into that predictable pattern of behavior....

It's funny how life's journey, our destiny, seems to have an inherent course planned for us, with twists and turns often landing at the most inconvenient moments....

But also quite often landing AT THE PERFECT MOMENT.....

... Like the night I left Jill at the apartment, and I went to buy pot with my buddy who called himself "Cap'n America"....

and a Swedish blonde hair blue-eyed chiseled nose rose petal lipped DROP DEAD GORGEOUS 18 year old named DEBI walked up to me and asked me "what are you drawing?"

And I showed her the napkin I was doodling on...

It was just a quick doodle, sketched out of boredom while I waited for Cap'ns weed connection to arrive...

A picture of a woman with a cat's face....

And Debbie asked me, "so when are we going out?"

And I told her, "obviously, tomorrow night"

And she toyed with the collar of my shirt, and coyishly said, "you'd better impress me!"

And I said, "I already did"

Debi was FROM SWEDEN......

100% Aryan Scandinavian blue-eyed blonde

HOT AS FUCK !!!!!!!!

exactly like some kind of airbrushed Budweiser swedish female ski team advertisement

You wouldn't believe how gorgeous she was.....

her last name was almost impossible to pronounce correctly... The configuration of the consonants didn't even make sense to me.

Jill ended up finding some confused effeminate guy who was into BDSM....

Because I ended up marrying Debi about a month later

And of course although I wasn't there to watch, and would have no desire to see it whatsoever, I'm absolutely positive Jill and her effeminate BDSM "boyfriend" went down their path of INFREQUENT UNCOMFORTABLE TERRIBLE SEX....

while Debi and I had found a connection with real methyldioxyamphetamine....

Sticky Brown sassafras MDA, not it's weaker Down syndrome cousin called MDMA

She and I were intertwining ionically, intermeshing sexually, face shifting in and out of each other

PHASE-SHIFTING*

MDA (methyldioxyamphetamine) triggers and fires certain regions of neural synapses, regions that are normally not triggered, regions that actually connect to "ESP", interpersonal extrasensory perception...

Debi and I weren't just 'fucking'.....

we were PHASE-SHIFTING in and out of each other

Oddly enough, Debi WAS MOLESTED as a child....

but instead of allowing that childhood trauma to become an unresolved destructive psychological issue in her mind, she did the exact opposite...

She actually used it as an opportunity to become a much stronger person... Much more self confident

Meanwhile, Jill had become unraveled, self-destructing in a downward spiral, all because she found out her mother was a sleazy whore behind the scenes....

(and I've got news for you : ALL of our mothers were sleazy fucking whores, nut buckets, sperm canisters... And that's exactly how YOU were born)

But Jill couldn't handle that...

and Debi was hands down, one of the top 10 best pieces of ass I've ever had in my life....

WHAT THE FUCK ???!!!!!?!??!!!!!

THAT VIDEO IS NOT THE SONG I WANTED YOU TO HEAR !!!

That's listed as the "lyrics" version of MY LIFE by Oingo Boingo... and while it has some of the lyrics As the thumbnail, the music is not by oingo boingo at all

this is the right video....

I would really like to know you better

But sometimes I'm afraid that it's not meant to be

I would like to believe in something higher

But I can't get a grip on all the little things

When the night comes I cannot sit still you see

And the years they have not been so kind to me

Got a gallery of figures standing all in a row

And every single figure has a soul of its own

But I never look back

Never look back

Don't turn your back on me

My life has come unraveled again

Like so many threads

(Hey yeah) my life has begun unfolding

In so many pieces

(Hey yeah) my life has come unraveled again like

So many threads in the wind - drift away - drift away

There's a time and a place

For understanding

And a time when action speaks louder than words

And I don't seem to get no indications

And I don't know how to get through to you

And when time like the pyramids

Has worn away

All the mountains and the valleys

Of the words that we say

We have got to make sure that something remains

If we lose each other we've got no one to blame

So never look back

Never look back

Don't turn your back on me

My life has come unraveled again

Like so many threads

(Hey yeah) my life has begun unfolding

In so many pieces

(Hey yeah) my life has come unraveled again like

So many threads in the wind - drift away - drift away

ANSWER: UNRAVEL HER BDSM FOOLISHNESS

life IS a contradiction

>>45725

pssst!!! hey, you.... yeah, you.....

... .... ..... ....... grow up

>>45725

other men's orgasms have nothing to do with where you want to go

>>45725

TRUST ME..........

>>45825

Suprisingly enlightening, thank you.

She is a pro-domme in her late 30s. I met her as a paying customer, as a kid with too much money and time on his hands who wanted to get spanked. I quickly realized how ridiculous the whole thing is and I supect she shares the same sentiment but refuses to admit it to maintain the act.

She openly finds me cute and charged me half the usual price. We spent more time just chilling and talking in her house than doing actual bdsm stuff and it's her non-dominatrix persona that I'm actually attracted to.

Oh you don't know how right you are - she is indeed very vulnerable and this is so obviously as you say in the back of her mind. During our first seance she tried so hard to make me feel as scared and vulnerable as she is but realistically it's her that's stuck in her house with me. A small thin woman and a mother of 2 kids just invited a weird loner with not much to lose expecting him to give her money and it's me who is supposed to feel scared? lol.

I definitely don't plan on doing more bdsm play with her as neither of us can take it seriously. But I can't let her go. I want to go through with it, make her open up, release the curtains, drop the mask.

>>45862

You're welcome.... But more importantly....

thank YOU......

Thank you for giving me an opportunity to return the favor I had given to me so many times when I was younger, and the older people I was hanging out with taught me a lot about life, simply by telling me a few choice stories about THEIR life.

Believe it or not that's why we're here

If you have children, it's your job to convey and pass along your knowledge and experience, and perhaps they can save time in their own lives and avoid wasting energy and emotions needlessly...

And even if you don't have children, it's still your job to pass along your experiences to younger people...

So thank you for this opportunity to let me do what I was supposed to do....

The real subject is whether or not any of it is applicable, whether or not you can read between the lines... And whether or not youre willing to actually apply it to your own template

If there is any one particular lesson I should try to convey at this moment... It's THIS :

OVERTHINKING THINGS IS YOUR BIGGEST ENEMY... Because you are highly intelligent, you have the capacity to overthink things too much.

Overthinking is procrastination... It's "stalling"... holding onto your fears

The best years of your life have already gone by you... There are 11 and 12 year old kids out there ready to challenge you... Overthinking things has left you stuck in a stagnant state, a stasis, capitulating and vacillating while others simply greeted their teeth and took the leap...

Grab the bull by the horns at every opportunity

Because you won't get those opportunities again

and SOMEBODY'S definitely going to grab the horns, so it might as well be you...

You're going to fail and you're going to fuck up and you're going to repeat mistakes

But don't let that be a reason to sit and overthink things anymore... Set your sights on the target, AND TAKE IT

>>45867

YES SIR !!!

You have an opportunity to find somebody who is second best, not good enough for you, insecure and trendy, and who will NOT be a facet of your growth

GRITTED*

Life is amazing and exciting, and very scary

So you've simply got to grit your teeth

And jump in the ring

I definitely don't remember my first orgasm

It's definitely not worth remembering.

Masturbating is not interesting,

and certainly not a topic I'm interested in discussing

Not my own masturbation

Not your masturbation

Not his masturbation

I'm not even interested in HER masturbation

It's just kind of a strange tangent, an oddball topic, but not one of the cool oddball topics...

It's just uncomfortable and pointless and confusing because nobody gives a fuck about this

I can't even remember the details of fucking Lori McClendon very well...

The only thing I really remember about it was how I looked in the mirror afterwards and I smiled

Before losing my virginity to Lori McClendon, I used to see the reflection of an insecure scared confused uncertain child... I saw the reflection of a guy that no girls were going to fuck... Why would they be interested in fucking that reflection I saw?

It's strange how success breeds success

and it's not about faking it until you make it

Because faking it doesn't matter

Only making it counts

So you don't fake it

You find your way

To actually making it somehow

And with each success comes a deeper sense of self confidence... The smiling reflection begins to be perceived by other people...

And one success breeds the next, which breeds the next, and with each subsequent lair of the snowball, the inner core of insecure ice becomes harder and harder to remember...

And soon the snowball is rolling through neighborhoods picking up houses and buildings along the way

LAYER*

I'm an old school computer guy, having first started with the old commodore Amiga

But I'm no longer a computer guy these days

I actually got burnout

And believe it or not although I hate to admit it

I definitely become a phone fag

And I'm using speech to text

And because I always use speech to text if possible

Because I don't hold phones up to my head when I make phone calls (they are microwave ovens without protective shield doors) so I always use speakerphone...

And I don't give a fuk about gestures or any of that bullshit... Im not going to be swiping and gesturing

and I'm sure as fuck not going to be typing with my fingers

Because I can simply verbalize what I'm trying to say, and get in so much more content than anybody typing on a keyboard...

But the technology still has its glitches and flaws

And although my speech recognition engine is Wells familiarized with my particular speech pattern, I'm afraid all too often modern day technology still gets it wrong here in there

See?....

I just said "here AND there", but as usual, speech-to-text thought I said "IN"

Nothing is perfect in life... If you demand perfection from everything, you're in for a miserable life of frustration and disappointment

People aren't perfect either... Stop daydreaming about perfect relationships with the perfect woman or the perfect man... If you're gay... Because I don't hate faggots, it's okay to be gay, but it's not okay to pretend like you're not and waste your life presenting a false image because you're afraid to be honest with yourself...

And just like women, technology isn't perfect either

But you find a happy medium, and you learn to accept each other's flaws... Because God knows I'm not perfect either

And I suppose occasionally I dart pronounce things clearly enough... So I can't blame it all entirely on the speech-to-text technology

God damn I just realized that's a terrible blurry photograph of the canvas...

LOL I never even really realize that before...

Now that I think about it, the photograph was taken a long time ago, with a shitty camera, and these days they have badass high-resolution cameras in a pinhole... In a goddamn bubble gum vending machine wristwatch...

And come to think of it I actually painted other reproduction in my life... I used to know these two guys that owned a teen club, a nightclub for teenagers with no alcohol many years ago called PLASTIK....

Then the idiots decided they wanted to follow a trendy fad (you'll find following trendy fads is the way NOT to be cool) and suddenly decided they wanted to turn their night club into an "Art Gallery/Nightclub", which had already become a boring trend back then...

And they were both Rich. Loaded. They paid me out the ass to paint a GIGANTIC reproduction of the Mona Lisa on the entire circumference of their gigantic concrete dance floor area....

And it was huge....

And one man standing on that dance floor, looking out in all four directions at the massive slab of sealed concrete around you... It becomes almost overwhelming, exactly how are you going to draw the image of the Mona Lisa convincingly, when you're dealing with scaling it perfectly....

But it was simple.. I went old school... No projector or traced patterns on paper...

I simply drew a grid over a Xerox copy of the Mona Lisa, and drew a much larger grid on the concrete floor... And square by square, I drew an exacting template of the Mona Lisa's features with a large black sharpie permanent marker....

Then I bought the basic colors of exterior paint,

Red, yellow and blue.... Some black, and some white...

With those five colors, I can create any color in the palette basically....

And I took a roller pan and a paint roller on a pole, and just like I was painting the side of a house, using massive strokes, I lay down the first layer, a very basic color by numbers under layer

Then I came in and began adding light and Shadow, the entire time I mixed my colors with muted tones of brown and green, so it appeared aged

Then I did my final blending and blurring

And when it was finished, you could go upstairs to The atrium area that looked down on to the dance floor....

And I'm proud to say

IT WAS PERFECT !!!!

I'm not bragging...

I'm simply being honest...

Somehow I managed to pull it off

it looked EXACTLY like the original Mona Lisa painting, complete with aged blemishes and cracks and oxidized colors...

I got her expression perfectly somehow... It was well worth the $12,000 they paid me.........

==But people are stupid. Humans suck. Life is unfair. Nothing is perfect.... And as much money as those two douchebags spent on the painting, amazingly enough, 2 weeks later they changed their mind, and turned it into a "teen juice bar" and got rid of all the artwork they had on in the building, completely scrapping the gallery idea

Life is so weird sometimes

.... Just take a deep breath and exhale slowly.....

and let go.......

and say it.......

The saddest pirate on the seas....

All alone once again...

When he kidnapped her, he treated her like his Queen

And all was well.......

Until that cursed morn'.... when THEY popped up on the horizon....

And boarded his ship....

And the worst part was

She Wanted To Leave !!!

And now, once again, he's one of them

>>45862

you're smart

>>45913

mesmerizing!.......

you owe it to yourself to learn the nomenclature behind the word "mesmerize"...

and thankyou for expanding my consciousness regarding NOBODY GIVES A FUCK what to the it words talk you typed did that uhh said things.

>>45925

huh?

Nagash was WEAKKKKKKKK

>>45725

Me and my best friend started sucking each other off at a very young age. Probably at about 8 or 9 years old. I sucked him a hell of a more than he sucked me but I absolutely loved it even though both of us were too young to cum.

When we would have sleep over I would literally suck his cock all night long.

One day we were at his house and his parents were at work so we knew we had the house to ourselves for the entire day. It wasn't long before my friend got horny like we, so we got into his bed and I started giving him a blowjob.

Right in the middle of it my friend suggested we take a bath together. It sounded good to me so went to the bathroom and got into the tub. We took turns washing each others bodies and especially our cocks. I sucked him off as I washed his dick and he even sucked me off in return as he washed mine.

We stayed in the tub and played with each others cock for a bit but we were extremely horny so we climbed out and went to my friends bedroom and climbed in his bed, both of us still completely naked.

My friend must have been really horny because once in the bed together we got into a 69 position and as soon as I started sucking his dick, he started sucking mine in return.

I was really into sucking my friends cock but the blowjob he was giving me felt incredible and so much better than all the other times he had sucked me off.

In fact it started feeling so good that I just could not concentrate on sucking his cock as the pleasure he was giving me with is mouth was blowing my mind. The blowjob he was giving me just felt better and better and better and I felt like I was going explode, but I had never had feelings like this before so I didn't know what was happening.

I just let him keep sucking me until finally I just could not take it any more and cum exploded out of my cock and shot into his sucking mouth. He didn't even get mad about it. About 3 spurts of cum had shot into his mouth before he pulled his mouth off of my cock even then as cum was still oozing out of my penis he was very curious about what it was and he ran his fingers through it. Smelled it, and even licked some of it off of the head of my penis.

While I continued to suck him off, he grabbed my cock in his hand and jacked me off smearing the cum all over my dick but before long he took my cum covered cock back into his mouth and started sucking me again.

It was about 3 months later that he came for the first time. I was sleeping at his house in the same bed as him and as usual as soon as we were sure his parents were asleep I started playing with his penis and then slid down and took his cock into my mouth.

I must have sucked him off for close to an hour before he started thrusting his cock into my mouth faster and faster before exploding into my mouth for the very first time. I remember cumming in his mouth, so I returned the favor and kept my mouth on his penis and continued sucking him until he had finished cumming. I didn't swallow his cum but I did let him cum in my mouth and I just loosened my lips and let the cum drool out of my mouth and down the shaft of his cock.

It took me a long time before I started swallowing his cum, but after that first time he came in my mouth, I just continued letting him cum in my mouth every time I sucked him off. Then when I was really horny I would swallow his cum, and eventually I started swallowing his load more and more until about a year later when I was swallowing his cum every time I sucked him off.

>>46864

ngl, sounds like a dream, when i was a kid (around the same age) i was horny asf and i had none to fool around with, most thought im weird, i found some kids and tried it, but i just wanted to kept going lol, once you try it, its like heroin which ive never tried, but so addictive...

>>45765

there is no real you, no self, there's nothing beneath the act

theres nothing, you are nothing