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Post your progress, updates, blogposts, and just (not-counter)circlejerk with other anons.
Since the other thread isn't bumping, might as well make a new thread so you all can shame me for breaking.
>Be OP
>Take nofap to get a healthy sex drive again
>Who knows how many weeks in
>GF keeps rescheduling dates because workaholic (I have reasons to swing by where she works so she needs to really try to think of an excuse if she starts cheating)
>Constantly see personal kink (pantyhose) everywhere
>3:00am no sleep because stress
>"Fuck it, might as well litmus test for how well nofap is going!"
>Look up decent vids for kink, intending to see if my willpower reached the point where I can last for one hour without fapping
>Figure accomplishment will help me sleep
>Last for 45 minutes before going for lotion
>Mfw don't even produce that much cum or joy after failing my streak
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No.9830
>>9784
Day 52
Just 1 day, and i will have broken my previous longest attempt in the beginning of this year.
Along with that is some very good news about my hand. The plaster went off 4 day's ago, and i have almost regained full control of my hand. It barly even hurts anymore, only when i stretch my hand and when i clench a fist.
I don't know if nofap or my young age have anythig to do with this, but healing a broken bone in 24 day's is not to shabby, even if is say so myself. Personaly i think it is mainly because of my age, but that nofap has helped by keeping my body in higher condition than it would otherwise have been.
On the other hand he nofap has been difficult this week. I managed to not edge for a few day's, but i have still not beaten it. Gotte work on that.
I'm going good for the rest, i'm on my longest nofap yet after all.
>>9810
Very good, keep it up.
>>9824
It depends on your goal. If your goal is to never watch porn again you would fail if you looked at porn Intentionally.
Nofap for me is, first of all to not orgasm, wet dreams are exampt.
Then it is the goal to not fap, this includes edging.
The third goal is to not look at porn. This means wat i have allready writen down, and also looking at porn accidentaly stumbled upon, for to long.
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No.9839
>>9810
Day 92
I dreamed about fapping to porn last night.
What the actual fuck.
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No.9854
Since dopamine recepters take 18 months to heal, so far I haven't never been feeling,after all, any nofap effect. Just my usual-normal attitudes which any normal man has. nofap works because of Pheromones. Testosterone produces Pheromones. ergo: workout, during nofap, to become a pheromone magnet(also don't use shampoo,deorant, fragences they wash them away) Next year ill do 1000 burpees a day. I am intensily preparing,although, at a meager pace. Now it's time for caution. tomorrow it's time for intesity. Even if it's a lot it must be done. i recall an athlete saying 1k burpees is,like, 3 thriatlhons together?Anyway you know that desperate, Thanatic feeling of seeing a woman beyond your reach. an offense to your Self!! change that.
If you were put in a cage with a man and a woman;what would happen?? Would you able to destroy the man and claim the woman for yourself? Train until the answer is "yes." tl;dr DEHUMANIZE THYSELF,AND FACE THE BLOODSHED
>day 211 btw
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No.9855
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No.9857
Okay please don't give me shit but I'm only on day 2.
How long did you guys have to go nofap and noporn to return to normal sexual function? Not just physically but mentally.
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No.9861
>>9855
But is my theory correct or not scientific?
i don't want to be suffering so much if the pheromone range will not increase
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No.9873
>>9778
just 2 days to complete my first month , i have a good control until now , but feels a little bit down
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No.9904
>>9830
Day 57
I surpassed my previous record earlier this year by about 4 day's, feels good man.
NOFAP JUNE HERE WE GO!
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No.9915
Day 98.
It's 4 AM.
I just came home.
Everything sucks. I got a ride home from a good friends gf. If not I would have kicked some windows in on the way home.
I'm fucking frustrated.
I'm a fucking 24 year old virgin and I don't even manage to talk to girls on a fucking free for all everyone's drunk party.
It's the same everytime. I fail to balance the line between "drunk enough to be social" and "so drunk that I'm antisocial".
In addition to that, every reaction from girls I get seems to be "eww, not that guy". (Not even trying to talk to them, but passing them, bumping into them etc.)
Knowing that my parents got married at 30, basically on the premise of "we won't get anything better anyways" doesn't help my confidence a bit. My sister isn't attractive. Even if she wasn't my sister I wouldn't look at her twice. And I can assume I'm similarly (un)attractive. (Your sister looks like you with long hair lmao).
>inb4 lift
I've been lifting for 5 years and guys are mirin', girls don't give a shit because I'm ugly.
I've gotten fat because since I started nofap I'm going out every week and drink 15+ beers, which is a fucking days worth of calories.
I'm going NA (no alcohol) for 2 months now because I got some important exams coming up, maybe getting leaner helps somehow.
>inb4 fix your diet/sleep/whatever
I have clean skin. my dark eye circles go from "holy shit you look half dead" to "you look tired as fuck" - depending on how much I sleep (usually 9 hours).
I've not fapped in 98 days. My friends know. They - we - joke about it.
Still I'm too autistic to talk to girls.
My eye-contact game is 10x better than before.
My sex drive is 10x higher than before.
My motivation to go out instead of stay home and fap/game is 10x higher than before.
Still I'm always either to sober to be social towards strangers, or I'm so drunk that I'm antisocial (i.e. "that drunk guy").
I should just kill myself.
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No.9943
>>9904
Day 62
I have reached the two month mark.
It has been hard until now, and it is has been a hard battle almost every day, but i will make it.
>>9915
Maby you should learn to be social without needing to drink alcohol.
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No.9953
>>9839
>>9915
Day 101
Had another nocturnal emission last night. Once again dreamt something sexual and could (and still can) pinpoint the exact time I started cumming. Woke up, cleaned up a bit and went back to sleep. Woke up in the morning with the hardest erection of all time. Didn't fap.
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No.9955
>>9953
This made me wonder: Is sexual "performance" in wet dreams any indication for the real life?
I've had 5 or so wet dreams since I started nofap and I always came the second something happened (i.e. I start sliding my dick into her vagina, I immediately start cumming and woke up She hugs me and grabs my dick, I immediately start cumming and wake up She sits on my lap and starts grinding, I immediately start cumming and wake up)
This feels like I barely need any stimulation to start cumming, which kinda sucks were I ever to manage to get in an actual intimate situation IRL.
However, I think I read somewhere that dreams basically happen within seconds - especially when they end with something happening IRL, like falling out of bed or so. Essentially my brain makes up a story when something is about to happen so it "makes sense" when I wake up to it, but it feels to me like I've been dreaming the whole thing for a long while.
Like last night: I was somewhere, a few things happened, I talked to people, I walked around, then I find myself in a room with a pool across from a girl in a bikini, she comes up to me, we start dancing, she grabs my dick, I immediately cum.
It could be that just dreaming about a girl touching my dick made me cum.
It could also just be that I was rubbing my dick against the mattress or whatever and that stimulation combined with month-long abstinence made me cum and my brain just made up a whole surrounding story when it realized I was about to ejaculate.
But the issue here is, I was always laying on my back when I came iirc. There was no way I was rubbing my dick against something other than my underwear or cover which don't really give any resistance. And changing from "on my belly" to "on my back" in my sleep seems a bit unlikely.
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No.10019
>>9955
I have the exact same problem. And I believe switching to sleeping on my back will help with this, as I've read it a few times here and on other places.
But how to get the habit is another problem though as I can't fall asleep on my back, for now.
My cousin once told me he got used to sleep on his back after he broke his arm and had no other option than sleeping like this. And in 30 days he got the habit. So I guess it's not that hard, you only need to persevere for a few weeks.
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No.10020
>>9915
Game is a practice, you need to see the whole lift/nofap/healthy lifestyle as ways to help your path towards getting a proper gf. You shouldn't think these practices are ends like "if I stop masturbating I'll get a gf", it's more like "if I stop masturbating I'll be more eager to go out" and so on, as you stated. But then, there's still the path to self-confidence and game that you have to practice.
Nofap is only the first step towards success, not the end.
Nofap is not a magical formula, only something to help you get where you want to get, but you still have to climb that mountain by yourself.
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No.10027
>>9915
>I fail to balance the line between "drunk enough to be social" and "so drunk that I'm antisocial".
Man stop fucking drinking so much. Learn your limit. I used to go to parties and get completely trashed and then had to learn the hard way that nobody wants the dude who gets sick and breaks something/trashes the bathroom hanging around. Drink slowly, drink low alcohol stuff or have a few shots and be done with it for the night. And as far as finding women goes, there's got to be another sticking point (probably multiple) to your game somewhere. Nofap is one component of your lifestyle, no woman is going to hear about the dude that doesn't touch his dick and get wobbly between the legs instantly.
>I've gotten fat because since I started nofap I'm going out every week and drink 15+ beers, which is a fucking days worth of calories.
There's a sticking point.
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No.10035
>>9953
Day 106
Been feeling like shit recently. Basically since >>9915
At least I managed to drink less this weekend.
I'm feeling the worst since I started nofap. I'm tired, depressed, frustrated.
I changed nothing recently. I sleep the same, I eat the same, I exercise the same, I do all the small things I'm supposed to do for "self-improvement". But I feel like shit, whereas two weeks ago I felt great.
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No.10036
>>10035
your brain is rebooting. it's craving the dopamine it was used to getting, eventually it adjusts
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No.10069
>>9943
Day 70
I have surpassed my longest streak by almost 20 day's, I feel content.
I have gone a long way, from a max of 15 day's in 2015, to the failed nofap 2017 that lasted 53 days, to this. Let's go over what has changed since then.
I almost can't remember how it was before I started nofap, I have been on an almost continues streak since the beginning of this year after all. Reading my previous journal entries has helped with reconstructing my experience.
At the start of nofap I felt demoralized, energy less, slow of mind, these were the first things that changed around day 12 to 15. By at hearing to my own moral standard and rejecting common weakness I regained confidence. By retaining my vital fluids I spared my energy for worthwhile actions, and by clearing my mind of often multipliable daily orgasms I regained the ability to enjoy and understand reading. Rereading my old post it becomes clear just how deep I had sunken. Not long after these first few big changes, routine set in, any of the previously named changes had worked most of their effect and the rush wore off.
The second set of changes happened around day 23 and beyond, these were mostly mental changes. I became more sharply aware of the kind of life I was living and what I was missing. I was missing purpose, I was missing a goal and structure. I was living from day to day with no end in sight, and it made me miserable. I wrote often of the things I wanted to do, or the things I had changed in my life that had changed already, all in the pursuit of changing the direction my life was taking me. It is this state of mind that among other things brought about the end of my nofap 2017 try, I failed at 53 days.
I remember this period quite clear still. In the streak I may had become discontent with my state of being, but I had also relearned a lot of feelings. If anything was made clear with my relapse it was not the physical benefits that makes nofap worth it, it is the rediscovery of feeling that is the most important. When you're fapping you feel nothing and all feelings are numbed, if you're happy it is almost nothing, if you're sad it is just a distraction, you listen to music and it's just background notice and when you think of love it is not there. During my streak I could look at pretty girls and really appreciate beauty, I could think about what kind of girl I would like and get that flutter in your chest, it is almost surreal to re-Imagen the difference to how I experienced things during and after my first try. If I am being honest I would say that nofap has made me almost as unhappy as it has helped me.
Of course these changes I promised myself and did change were vapor and I'm in almost the same daily routine as the start of the year, still just a student with almost no discipline and just a vague goal, but I am happy with the experience and the change of mindset, at least now I am capable of changing my situation.
cont.
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No.10070
>>10069
The next try was almost impossible, I think I lost almost 2 to 3 weeks of time in just getting to a streak of 10 days, but 10 days I did reach. In this final try I have not had the same big changes as experienced the first time, I again got a boost in energy, I again regained a clear mind, again I relearned to feel and experience to the fullest and again I re found why these things made me miserable the first time, but I did found one new thing. I learned to enjoy the now to now experience more. Indeed it is a dogs life and I want to change, but the now has it's moments too and it is in the now that I make the future. I am displeased about my slow to no progress on changing my life, I had thought I would have been in a better place by now and it will take work to get out of the rut I'm in, but work I can do even if it is hard. Writing all of this has helped also in remembering where I came from and what has changed until now, even if I don't like giving away so much information on myself and my thought process, but more on that later. I feel confident that I won't fail nofap again even if it is hard sometimes. As I have stated before, the trick is the self and will, you will yourself to life and all the thing you are capable of are already in yourself, you only have to cultivate them. That is why I think some people can get such a kick out of nofap in just 40 days or less and be cured almost immediately without much effort and other have almost no change even after close to 200 days of nofap. One of them know how and what to cultivate to reach his goal almost immediately and the other has more difficulty to change his life around. I think this has a lot to do with how much a person is willing to change of his life as a whole as opposed to just not fapping anymore, but it's all subjected to what goal you want to reach. If nofap is your only goal, just tackling your addictions should be enough to eradicate it, if you want to be a better person, get a gf, get a job etc you'll need to do a lot more.
Lastly, why would I take the time to write such a big, pretentious blog post?
Well, two reasons. Firstly, I no longer feel that I get anything out of maintaining this diary. I am well capable of maintaining my own nofap, and have been for some time now, the board also has tried up after the death of last years hype and I have gotten bored with answering the same questions over and over. Duo to this coming and posting has become more of a chore than a helpful activity.
Secondly, I no longer trust the management of this website, Jim has been behind the crashing of at least 3 major image sites of which 2 were anonymous and every time the users lost their info to the highest bidder. For this reason l no longer want to provide them with any more of my info and will refrain from posting except in the most rare cases. They can consider this my parting gift, everything I posted in this post I have posted before, so they get nothing new out of me.
That is all, everything I have written has been my experience and might not connect to yours. As always, stay strong, good luck and don't fap ya cunts.
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No.10071
First day, I will try for at least 5 months.
My last relapse was in the first week of June after 57 days.
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No.10083
>>10035
Day 110
I FEEL IT
I WANT TO RAPE AND PILLAGE
TO CRUSH MY ENEMIES, SEE THEM DRIVEN BEFORE ME, AND HEAR THE LAMENTATIONS OF THEIR WOMEN
IT BEGINS NOW
THE TIME OF FEMINIZED CIVILIZATION IS OVER
NOW THE ERA OF THE BARBARIAN BEGINS
BARBARISM OR DEATH
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No.10085
Day 1
Decided to start today, to really attempt. Usually I jerk it in the morning, and I usually put on some music. But in my subscription box was a video by Jayme Louis Ricardi, and I watched another, and a couple more. Then I reminded myself of his video on spartan simplicity, get rid of that which you don't need. Then I saw his video on not needing to keep busy with frivolous stuff, that being busy isn't always productive and being productive isn't always busy. Eventually I'm going to ot have internet when I buy my land and build a house, but while I'm finishing my two years best I can do is meditate and be by the water as much as possible.
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No.12523
Day 4,
I feel weird. I wanna fuck my coworkers.
One is lesbian and the other said that is a virgin in a random chat.
I really need to fuck someone.
But it's under control. Avoid porn really helps.
So the biggest effort is to not want to look at porn.
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No.12525
Well, if this thread is being revived I think I'll post too. Just hit 48 hours since the last time I masturbated, although I'm trying to stop counting days so much and I'm trying to shift my mindset from "let's see how many days I can go without masturbation" to "I won't masturbate anymore".
Going on nofap has made me realize that I had masturbated so much I was functionally asexual. I had been masturbating on average 4 times a day since age 9. This is the first time I've stopped that, so I'm starting to feel a real strong sexual attraction to girls IRL.
It's funny because I seem to be going through at 18 what most boys go through at 11 when they start to 'notice girls'.
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No.12527
any of you develop an imaginary dwarven voice that gets angry whenever youre about to relapse?
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No.12530
DAY 26 I HAD A LOT OF CONFIDENCE BUT THEN MY HAIR TRImMER BROKE AND I HAD TO WALK AROUND WITH HALF MY HAIR CUT AND it was hard to have a lot of confidence so I don't know who I am any more.
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No.12533
>>12530
why not go to a barber shop to have it fixed?
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No.12534
DAY 2
Was at day 6. Then I relapsed for two days. Now I'm on day 2 soon to be 3. I know I can do it, I've read the posts and journal entries in this thread and I want to experience what they have. I've spent near on 7 years fapping. If not daily then at least once a week. I will not say what it was that got me hooked, only that I was looking for something that would make me happy. Thus far it has only brought me misery and anguish. When, not if, I break myself of this habit I shall finally crawl back out of the rabbit hole
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No.12535
>>12525
FUGG I MESSED UP
Well, not going to let it get to me and go on a 3-7 day fapping binge like usual, right back on the nofap train for me baby.
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No.12537
>>12533
Long story but I had to go some where to charge battery for my razor but now I am all good. NO FAP changing your life is real, I got into confrontation with angry dike at school today (day 28) and handled it amazingly well with good funny retorts, I use to be really socially retarded. I feel really lied about by the experts to be honest for telling people that it's good for them. dam jews.
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No.12538
>>12537
is that the dike? she looks surprisingly hot tho. make her a girl and fuck her to death, anon. i believe in you.
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No.12539
>>12538
She's not hot you must have been on no fap for decades to be this horny.
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No.12540
I want to give up masturbation, porn, and video games for good. I give up video games and come back to them now and again. I've just deleted the last of them from my computer. I need to sleep and can't think of anything else to say.
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No.12541
>>12540
Interesting. I don't do any of those things.
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No.12542
DAY 4
Not feeling too bad. The thought of fapping does pop into my head every now and again but so far it is easily dispelled by work or shifting my focus. Nothing else to say or report other than to encourage all of you to keep up the good work. Our efforts shall not be in vain.
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No.12543
>>12542
Good work. I'm on day two now. I'm craving porn all the time. A few months ago I quit coffee and tea and expected my energy to return eventually. Realized today that I was fapping it out.
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No.12547
YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.
I think I just passed the 2 weeks mark, I am not sure about it because I realized that keeping track of the exact amount of days since I last fapped was making me more and more anxious about it.
Yesterday I had my first erotic dream, I am not proud to say that in involved me having sex with a famous trap, then jumping on a bed with a different one, massiging his tits and then trying to throw them down using jujitsu I shit you not at the beginning of the dream I must admit that I was starting to feel aroused but then when it came to the part that involved jumping on the bed it all started feeling wrong, even the gropping of fake tits…
I found a little bit a leak in my boxers but it was a very small amount, I think some part of me is feeling the degenerate thoughts desperate attempt to remain attached to my brain while I'm beginning to get clean for once in my life… if I ever felt I had a chance of claiming back what was taken from me is right now.
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No.12551
DAY 49
I'm still not sure why I'm even doing this. I guess the reason why I stopped fapping is to figure out what the point of all of this is.
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No.12554
DAY 5
Had some urges upon waking up. But getting out of bed and moving around helped with it. A busy day ahead, so there will be no relapses today.
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No.12565
>>12554
Ah waking up is always were the struggle occurs when that big elephnt trunk wants a little tug.
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No.12584
I'm on day 6. How many days can I go before hitting the point of killing fetishes. I want to cure my sexual exhaustion and be confident again but keep my fetishes. I tried searching on google but every mention of fetishes has to do with wanting to get rid of them.
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No.12591
>>12584
Why would you want to keep the sick filth that you've been programmed with? It has to go.
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No.12611
>>9488
I'm back
Managed to get into not bad college, pretty satisfying major but still am a faper. Sometimes i feel even worse than in highschool because here I actually have to do something. For the last year, stress made me really anxious. Spent many hours in front of computer, not only watching porn but. also youtube. Still don't have friends. My attitude changed a lot though. Once I went over a month without computer and porn and boy I felt so alive. And I am right before finals again. Hope everything will go smoothly.
You know what is the worst thing ? I got moments when I didn't really care to do important things. Exam tomorrow. Watch porn or mental porn (YT) for hours and hours.
For the last couple days watching porn but managed to stop myself. I know it technically counts as relapse, but as i managed to stop myself, which is good I'll keep it this way.
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No.12612
>I have been fapping since age 14.
>Addicted to video games and my computer at that age too.
>I started to slowly isolate myself more and more since then too.
>My parents would feed me and that is all the social interaction I would have because they were working constantly.
>I'm not fat but I'm unhealthy.
>Go to college and uni.
>Drop out and become a neet for 2 years.
>12 hours a day on the computer and occasionally fapping for hours with no social interaction.
>Finally get a job and hope to improve myself.
>2 weeks in and I just want to kill myself or walk out.
>Never felt as low as I did in those 2 weeks.
I never noticed how bad it all these habits were until I started a new job as I was trying to improve myself but instead I just wanted to kill myself. I have never felt like this. It was as if I was experiencing huge withdrawal symptoms. As soon as I quit I went back to my normal routines instantly and there was no shitstorm brewing in my mind. I also think I've become more stupid and eroded my mind. Does anyone else feel like this? I'm just wondering if its possible to undo the damage I've done to my brain with the constant rush of dopamine and quit all of the habits.
Anyways… day 1 of nofap.
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No.12626
>>12612
Fucking hell mate, are you me?
Last month, I too, got a job and made it to two weeks before I quit.
In my case it was a shitty company too, but I think I understand what you mean.
I do think it's fixable though, just find something you want to do, or are good in and try to build up from there. In my case I try to work out on a regular basis, have standard bed times and do things I don't want too do now and then to work up my stress tolerance and more.
Day 2 now.
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No.12633
>>12626
Fapping makes everything more stressfull. Seriously. It made me fail my driving exam, once or twice. The third time i went a week nofap and eventually passed. It makes you sensitve to everything. Litlle thing may break you. After some of the faps, or sitting hours on the computer I feel so powerless, trembling, regreting. I'm even showing some symptoms of mental illness (what may be truth by the way) Don't worry though. Acomplishing targets will make you stronger. Hang in there.
I don't know what will future bring. I'm not ablle to work at my fullest. Can't focus. Being like stunned. Well experienced much worse things for sure, but still wasting lots of time and focus. I know, what I want. I know what's the way to it. But when chose lies ahead of me I choose the easier one. I'm just abble to complain. Maybe I just have to think positive. Modern world doesn't present any philosphy, doesn't say how to live. It wants us destroyed. Still we have religions, but they may be hard to introduce in modern life. Maybe life will change one day.
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No.12640
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No.12717
Alright, after a long break, I'm back to journaling. I'm not sure if anyone uses this board anymore, so this is mostly to myself. I just hit day 3. Woohoo. It gets easier each day. I've quit imageboards for the most part. I would always be browsing them and accidentally find porn then relapse. I nearly masturbated tonight to the thought of one of my professors. She isn't even all that attractive, she's in her mid-30s, kind of chubby, obviously a body that has had several children. Wtf. Been drinking olive oil like "Earn Your Way To The Top Survival" or "no fap no root" as he goes by here suggested. I do think that, combined with working out, have increased my testosterone a bit. Still a fat fuck. Unfortunately I'm having a lot of trouble getting below 270 lbs. I might try IF but the only problem is I'm 18 and still live with my parents and they freak out whenever I do something like that because despite being even fatter than me they are convinced that I will somehow harm myself by trying different diet alternatives.
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No.13280
>>12717
How are you doing, man? Did you lose more weight yet?
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No.14147
Day 1. It's been tough ever since she broke up with me I've been more stressed out and jerking off more. This time I will change things.
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