/nofap/ - Fappers Anonymous

>>17762

Thank you anon, it just feels like I've had constant trials with nofap and saw the benefits and felt myself getting out of that vicious cycle, but then the self-hatred and auto-destructive comes back.

Maybe I should see a shrink or something, either way, yes, I realize that my behaviours are wrong and I feel is anger against the constant push of porn to demoralize the populace and make them reactive and not proactive.

I spoke to one of my friends about the recent world events and he told me to pray to god, me coming from a muslim family, and being ex-muslim have had a rather sour relationship with relationship.

But in fact, I sat down and prayed to god, no christian god, no muslim god, no jewish god, just the one and only god, and I found myself revatilized and felt walking higher and prouder than ever before.

Do you think that spirituality can be practiced without adhering to any specific religion anon ?

>>17763

By the sounds of it you've got a massive guilt complex, which is normal. You aren't the first person in your situation and won't be the last. Your problem is abit bigger than just a porn addiction, you've definitely got to talk to someone or journal it. Don't keep anything a secret, tell someone the entire thing. A priest or a shrink, but be careful seeing a shrink because they might make you even more of a faggot.

>I realize that my behaviours are wrong and I feel is anger against the constant push of porn to demoralize the populace and make them reactive and not proactive.

Don't have that attitude. It's you that is watching porn, as much as it's pushed it's your decision to watch it and be a degenerate.

>Do you think that spirituality can be practiced without adhering to any specific religion anon

Yeah I guess, but the issue is offloading your guilt onto something else will make you feel more alleviated. I know it sounds weird but it really works, confessing to something or someone else lightens the load alot. Don't be hesitant to get in touch with your Muslim roots either, I'm sure after a talk with an Iman he'd BTFO the fag out of you.

>>17763

hey anon i hope you get better, the thing is nofap takes time, you can be 3 months on nofap and then one day just something snaps and you're back to degenerate behaviour and it just snowballs you to get back down where you came from, you must realize when you get triggered on something just think about how far you've gone and that this time you're gonna fight the toughts and not give in, it is hard, the journey will be filled with ups and downs and i get it, i personally don't think that shrinks can really help you, you're a man, you need to be your own man and just do what you aim to do and never give in, it will be hard it will get you depressed and anxious probably but just try everytime to be better man, pick new hobbies or addictions like gym, looking to up your testosterone and stuff like that, starting anything new is hard but it is worth it in the end, as im writing this im basicly giving even myself advice for future. We're all in this together and alot of people have these problems and don't even realize how degenerate they are, just never be your uncle. I recently started believing in god aswell, whatever you believe in just have faith that it will save you and you will be a better man in future and get a gf.

I know i wrote a wall of text but this is what came out of my brain thinking about this addiction. Have faith and good luck anon, also remember fags are degenerate and don't ever be a faggot again lol. ok bye!

bruh, have you considered saving the money you would normally spend on trans prostitutes and instead hire a psychiatrist?

From my perspective, the despare you feel is the result of sin. We all sin. But in my religion we participate in a Sacrament called Reconciliation. We confess our sins to Jesus. Since we believe Jesus is God, He's obviously very smart and so Jesus dictated that we confess our sins to Him through a priest. Now the priest cannot tell anyone, ever, not even you, the details or even the fact that you confessed. God knows how much we need to have the satisfaction of confessing sins to another and KNOWING that God has fogiven you. I'm a Catholic btw.

>>17761

From my perspective, the despare you feel is the result of sin. We all sin. But in my religion we participate in a Sacrament called Reconciliation. We confess our sins to Jesus. Since we believe Jesus is God, He's obviously very smart and so Jesus dictated that we confess our sins to Him through a priest. Now the priest cannot tell anyone, ever, not even you, the details or even the fact that you confessed. God knows how much we need to have the satisfaction of confessing sins to another and KNOWING that God has fogiven you. This Sacrament also gives you a fresh start, knowing you can begin life anew. Baptist is the first Sacrament you have to get and Baptist frees us from all sin and we are "born again" in Christ. I'm a Catholic btw.

Dear Friend.

What has happened to you has happened to many others. When you get abused, you get injected with negative Energy. The fallen light. Lucifer that is. Three things happen when you get injected with the Fallen light. 1. You Abuse yourself 2. You abuse Others 3. You take the Negative Energy and transform it in a Positive Energy and use it to Elevate your Spirit. There can be No Way Out unless you start a personal connection with the God. Here are my 2 recommendations.

1. Start the Silent Prayer that Jesse Lee Peterson does. A form of meditative prayer without words, that allows your soul to connect with God. I have tried it myself and I cannot recommend it enough. Here is the Link silentprayer.video

or bitchute https://www.bitchute.com/video/Z4e5UdkOnThq/

The road is straight and narrow and a lonely one. Your suffering is an energetic opportunity to bounce upward.

2. I recommend to try the Internal Family Systems type of therapy. This system of therapy does not Diagnose you and gives you a Label. It simply deals with your inner world, your inner Parts that are screaming for attention. When you act on your impulses that is because there is a lot of Pain, Anger, Sorrow and because you lack Awareness, you act upon it to cover it up with pleasure. The greater the pain, the greater the pleasure is needed to forget it. This is the website where you can find a therapist. https://ifs-institute.com/practitioners

The spiritual path will lead you to God, and God will give you the Everlasting Spiritual Food that you crave, and the gift of Awareness. Therapy will help you to fully understand your inner world. This too will give you Awareness, the Knowledge on how to deal with yourself.

God is always there. You Must Seek.

>>17762

wrong

he is a fucking degenerate with no redeeming qualities

he should kill himself. he is OP and a literal fucking faggot

>>17787

niggerfaggotkikejewwhore

>>17784

if you read the bible it clearly states that god will punish all the wicked. telling sob stories wont get you redemption. killing pedos who pimp out little girls might

>>17797

lol

>>17798

Sorry, but which part of the Bible are you referring to? I think punishment can be meted by Jesus, because He can see rue in your soul and/heart and forgive you. The wicked get punished only if they don't feel remorse for their actions.

OP, your post has value if you don't repeat your past actions. If you do that, then your regret becomes hollow and you will probably forget yourself in the process.

>>17823

You'll never get forgiven because you're a kikejew faggot.

"If anyone, then, knows the good they ought to do and doesn't do it, it is sin for them."

>>17762

Thanks for being so understanding, one thing that I've realized by rereading my post, is that I got the impression that I was trying to justify my self-abuse and degenerate behaviour because of past experiences. Although at this moment I am not practicing no-fap, I've gone back to my home country and I have gotten closer to my roots, which unequivocally has reinstated some masculinity in me.

To make a long story short, I think one of the biggest faults that people make is to seek self improvement only when they are practicing no-fap, which can be very detrimental when you relapse.

>You've got to get after the future and not let the past weigh you down.

Inadvertently, by always thinking my past mistakes, I've had the luxury to get to know in specificity my faults, but also where my strengths lie, I've built up confidence from withing not only through no-fap and I think I'm ready for the long haul.

>>17787

>Three things happen when you get injected with the Fallen light. 1. You Abuse yourself 2. You abuse Others 3. You take the Negative Energy and transform it in a Positive Energy

One thing that I think has helped me a lot is this statement you made. Furthermore, I think I can rest easier than most because I've never directed my abuse towards others.

As I'm writing this, being in my homeland for the first time in over a decade, it helped me reflect on the vanity I've had when I'm living in the western world. Mind you we have our faults, but here there is no other options for a man but to conduct himself in a proper masculine manner. The things that would take weeks of no-fap to have, like walking up with your head high, squaring your shoulders, being more assertive or social have come more easily here because people dont let that shit slide here.

Although, I did not see the value of having a connection with God initially, I think that he is the only path for redemption, the only path for hope and the thing that will save me from my past and light up a new path for everyone.

On that note gentlemen, hopefully you are doing well, and let's say that this OP will be a fag no more.

I've been doing a lot of self-reflection about how porn has fucked me up bro, and you're not the only one going through shit like this. I'm even afraid to think how many people are having the same experiences.

The problem with porn is that you always need to find something new to feed the addiction. You start off with stunning looking girls, but soon that's not enough, so you move to old, ugly, obese cunts, d/s, hardcore d/s, a long list of fetishes, but that's not enough. Then comes the scat, piss but it's not enough. You then have the choice of either going illegal (bestiality, underaged, rape, other shit that will get you jail time in many countries), or going legal but up-to-that-point completely disgusting to you. Usually that's fags, sissies, trannies, etc. Now suddenly you've turned from a reasonably healthy straight male, as nature intended, into a phycological faggot, because you can easily get hard watching the new fag stuff, yet the old girl stuff just doesn't cut it for you.

It's not long before you're taking pics of yourself dressed up and chatting up guys online.

I've never met guys for sex, but I was mentally ready to go and enjoy it, despite being married.

Believe it or not, when I arranged a first meet, Jesus Fucking Christ came to me in my sleep and told me it's all devil's work.

Fuck me, I don't even believe in the guy and here he is fucking talking to me. After a bit of a shock I cancelled the meet, threw away the sissy clothes before mrs found out and managed to stay away from it for a whole 18 months, then back to the same shit.

Cancelled the second meet too, but this time because I've realised that I won't be able to look my kids in their eyes if I went off fucking men on the side.

But I wanted it not because I was ever attracted to men, but because of the self-destructive, degenerate nature of the act. And these desires were built up by years and years of porn.

So, although your case is quite a bit more fucked up than mine, there's got to be a way for you going forward.

Can't give you any advice on religion bro - my imho is that shit exists to fuck up your mind, almost like porn does.

First of all stop feeling shit about what happened. That's in the past dude. Everyone does things they regret later in life. If you never went down the porn->fag route, you would have done other shit that you'd be feeling sorry for right now. Relax and think about the future. Porn would have got to you in other ways too. Instead of being ashamed about fucking guys, you'd feel ashamed about wanting to fuck underaged girls, animals or some other shit.

Second, break the PMO cycle if you're on it. For good. Because if you come back to PMOing, you're back in the "porn novelty" spiral and back to self-destructive behaviour.

Once you're free from PMO, your head should clear.

Don't try and repress the faggy feelings inside you. They are not really faggy feelings. They are porn addiction.

You're not missing out on anything by not being an ugly-tranny-faggot-fucker. In fact you're not and have never really been an ugly-tranny-faggot-fucker because you were doing all those things while trying to get yet another high to feed the porn addiction.

You're a porn addict. And porn addiction manifests itself in constant search for novelty, no matter how disgusting.

Understand the porn addiction, kill the porn addiction, get back to having a life.

>>18070

OP here to just to clarify