/nofap/ - Fappers Anonymous

>>17344

Nice dubs, I should hate porn for all the time I wasted in it, and though I know its vile, I'll have to hate myself also because full knowing it I still kept wanking it every waking hour I still choose to indulge myself in it, I want to take other mindset, the one that's suggested in the book I posted consist on just realizing how porn and masturbation don't actually do anything good for me, and instead are just taking away my health time and prowess, so I'm a fool if I want to keep being in the trap.

Still, thanks for the advice, if what Im doing doesn't work your idea will be my plan B, hadn't thought about it that way until now.

Day ONE completed, onto day two…

2nd day completed, I've had no stressful situations either at home or on the job yet, so maybe that's helping but I'm not compelled to return home and jerk off since I made this resolution, up until last week my routine was wake up, work, get home, fap, I'll have to remember I don't need to fap when I do get stressed though, since I justified fapping for two hours in the early morning daily on having stressful days, only to make the next day worse because of that.

3rd day went by and all is well still, I notice my humor is better at work, I'm less jumpy and don't get all discouraged when something goes wrong, still haven't felt any urge to fap yet, also I'm trying to establish a routine and be more active, get more sunlight and shit.

>>17355

i'm glad for you. Around 10 days i got withdrawl symptoms, some get it sooner some later, don't worry about it when it happens. In my case it only lasted for 2 days.

>>17357

Thanks for the heads up, I believe I got to the point where I want to take NoFap seriously at last, I thought I was taking it seriously before but no, I thought I would always have another chance to kick my addiction, that there was still time, no, there isn't, and there is not a better time to quit than now, I don't want to enter my thirties wasting all my time being a slave to masturbation.

4th day is in the books, better get busy this weekend.

5 days total, my longest streak in a very long time, I just came after what were about three hours of tugging my half chub, that was proof for me that I didn't want to be fapping again, other times I go without for a day or two I get fully erect when relapsing, still I couldn't hold it anymore and came, was thinking of stopping all the way through to no avail, no good will come from dwelling in the fact I set myself up for a very depressing and uneventful Sunday, what I did wasn't part of my plan anymore, but the force of routine reigned in the end.

Gotta evaluate this last session, and remind myself of what is at stake.

My post didn't went through yesterday, I fapped again on sunday, so today is Tuesday and is again my Day 1, if I manage to get through it of course, will bump when I break my record, posting for accountability.

>>17392

Meant to say fapped again on monday, It didn't even feel good, my sexual drive is on the floor, and still, If I start, I can't stop until cumming, no matter how much I think it's not worth it, o matter how I'm not even hard, I can't start.

I'm on ground zero again, got horny humoring the idea about maybe start talking to girls more, those who seem to like me and see where it goes, but then rationalized I won't do it anyway because of all the years I've spend avoiding female contact in the first place, which is fine, starting a relationship isn't a priority, but the fact I can't get any can't be the fuel that makes me masturbate, I gotta cut the supply.

I want to better myself, stop using fapping as an excuse and the cause for being a lazy piece of shit and sleep through the day, 1st day starts again today.

>>17412

I failed again, prey to the behavioral conditioning, I sat at the computer to look up something and ended up browsing porn, no cheating though I won't be fapping the rest of the day tomorrow I'll start anew.

I'm fucking weak, couldn't go a day without, I'll be starting fresh on sunday, no matter the temptations, at least after fapping and coming here to confess I don't fap again in the day, but that's not good enough, next time I want to fap I'll come here instead and read through all my posts, then will decide if my resolution is still strong or if I want to keep making excuses pathetically again and again.

>>17414

No.

Don't come here again.

Don't even visit the internet for the first 3 weeks.

>>17415

OK, haven't really tried a Internet shutdown, so I'll be doing just that, to shut down the temptations straight, I'll start by cleansing my computer of all remnants of fapping enablers, like skype, and set again the filters of porn sites I have unchecked time and time again, have to now that my mind is clear after fapping, I'm pathetic I know, that's why I'm trying.

Almost a month since my last post, and I have been fapping like 6 out of 7 days a week since, just finished todays session, I plan on refocus and set myself goals, have been living like a pig even unable of cleaning around my room these last months, I just loiter around and play videogames, those have replaced my morning faps , but I still come home at night and fap binge, it has to stop.

Just washed my cum rag, I won't ever soil it again with my seed, been two days clean, will keep going.

I'm pathetic, I could refrain myself for only three whole days, I'm tired of speaking empty words, here's to a whole week free, I know shouldn't be counting days, and I will not, every time the temptation arises I'll do something else, will look into things I want to do, my time is limited and almost up, I must escape this lethargic way of life.

I managed to stop myself mid fap tonight, will try to complete Sunday fapless and count it as day one, I could stop by remembering my initial resolve, since I'm getting older closer and closer to thirty by the minute, If I'm gonna be a wizard I better be in the best shape I can to confront life head on.

TO FAP IS TO DIE

TO FAP IS TO DIE

TO FAP IS TO DIE

==TO FAP IS TO DIE=

TO FAP IS TO DIE

TO FAP IS TO DIE

Yesterday I stopped mid fap also, I'm on the right mindset again.

>>17466

2 Days strong, I will continue.

Just could go clean for three days, I won't let it slide though, next time it will be four or even longer, I forgot to keep busy and avoid temptation, I can't continue on checking if my sex chat partners are online, I have wasted enough time and energy in to that, damn, more than I'm willing to admit. Bumping my shame in hope of burrowing the porn that's been posted recently.

>>17470

Almost four months in and I can't break it off, but that's why I called the thread diary of a madman to begin with, only a madman expects different results while doing the exact same shit again and again, my sexchat partners bailed out and I was able to get a level head again, I fapped a little into monday but if I manage to not touch myself again, I will still count it as day one still, I am filling my schedule with things, albeit slowly so I hope to not fall in the trap by mere boredoom, this can't be the rest of my life. Let's hope corona-chan spare us, cause If I were to day soon I'm sure I'll die a fapper, who wants that?

Severed a tie, after cumming, still less things will attach me to this vice and all that counts towards the end.

Just blew the most pitiful load ever, my dick kinda hurts when semi erect on mornings, resenting my death grip and apparent phimosis, I ruined the chance of starting fresh Monday, sucks, but I will get my shit together from now on, I need to keep my defenses up since I still got to work through this pandemic, the only thing I ever do apart from rooting away on the internet and fapping need to change that, can't keep throwing my life force away.

With all the shit going down currently I don't know what to think, If 8chan is to die, so be it, though I'll miss lurking /v/ and the like, I will just do weekly progress posts here until I finally break free from the PMO prison or the site bites the dust.

Las week I could go Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday without fapping or porn, fell to the trap again entertaining and chatting with a girl I have on skype, and went down and came, I didn't feel like thrash, opposite of how I feel when I use only porn, but still, a live of getting pleasure through sexcam and sexchat only is not a life I'm willing to live through, I'd rather just go without if I can't find a partner at this point since I continue to have brain fog all day and lack motivation to do anything else than wasting enough time on the internet until the night comes and is time to fap again.

I will take it seriously this week, wouldn't want to return a failure again, wouldn't want that if the site disappears the last post I made was how I can't get a grip on my life and continue to fap the days away, good luck everyone.

Could only stay clean monday and tuesday, I just went and fapped with porn on wednesday and chat on thrusday, closing with a video call on friday and came 4 times saturday while procrastinating on shit I wanted to do. All those times I could have stopped, all those times I just proceed with what I was doing as my normal routine, knowing well it wasn;t what I wanted to do, but doing it still for pleasure sake, more so to kill time yesterday, but I'm declaring it now, my pp is off limits from now on, I can't even get hard anymore, and it hurts after I death grip it until I cum, so, I need to stop

It's been my best week yet, 5 days without cumming, I fapped a little before stopping myself Tuesday and Wednesday but that's progress, though I just went and ruined it today, full knowingly I allowed myself to glance at porn and fantasies, definitively a most enjoyable fap than doing it daily that's for sure, but it's not about that, it's about looking for something more valuable than just being an animal injecting himself with pleasure. I've been able to think about old little projects I wanted to do, better start with that.

Another week and weekend wasted, I know I'm not trying hard enough.

Last week I fapped through the late night of Sunday and the early Monday morning, I'm a mess, remained clean through Tuesday and Wednesday but on Thursday I relapsed, obligated by "insomnia" that I convinced myself I had and then fapped to get tired and sleep, I'm ashamed to myself for that, and for this, just wasted the extent of the last 6 hours entertaining sexual thoughts and fapping my bruised dick, culminating in cumming with a half chub, I don't wanna write another failure next week, the time I spend is incredible, have to find something to do instead of laying around being depressed and napping the time I'm at home, I won't write another failure next week, I see fapping to porn for what it is now, a futile activity devoid of meaning and purpose, a drug that drains the very life from anyone addicted to it.

Been two weeks since I last updated, I'm not progressing, though every new fap I become more and more convinced I'm wasting my life, though force of habit is strong, still have not made any changes in my routine, but I'll try and remember the sorry state of my dick to deter further faps, It can't get really erect, it's all chafed and has burn friction spots, and I hate how it feels after cumming, as it had cum trapped still inside of it, lingering, forcing me to squeeze it all out I can't go on like this.

>>17529

OP here, It's ok, I'm sure if I could just have the occasional fap every other week and leave it at that I wouldn't see it as a problem either, I believe the reason for wanting to quit is when it's everything you have going on in your life, and that's what it feels like for me, fapping It's essentially all I do besides working and binging Youtube.

>So, you have sex chats?

There are free old school chat rooms floating around with adult themes, some are only IRC wrapped around a web page or something.

> what you think is going on in the minds of the people you sexchat with?

Can't truly tell, as for myself just hopping from private message to private message, fishing a response from some witty comment having to do with their nickname as the spark for a conversation, roleplay, sexchat or more.

There's a female there?

I've meet several, but not as many as you would think since I've been hoked to this shit since 2011 or earlier, also there's dudes posing as females, traps, gays, you name it.

>How were you able to find someone like that?

By talking to them, like I described engaging in sex chat and writing sex storys involving us, you know, women are more easily excited by what they imagine than from what they see yada yada,

>and this is a female that apparently enjoys it? Enjoys the exchange?

I believe they do, with most of them from writing filth that gets them hot I end up getting a video call or some nude photos at worst before they disappear and I repeat the sick cycle again.

To address your next points I only ever gotten two "regulars" one of which cut ties from me some time ago when she got a boyfriend and told me she now felt embarrassed and guilty getting naked on cam, of course I let her go, though regrettably, I wrote back to her at times I had no luck when looking for new girls, last thing she told me was try to reach her on certain days at certain hours but I stopped pursuing her then and there, this was after she tried me to get to roleplay with both her and her boyfriend, which I didn't like since I'm cucked out behind the screen while they get the real thing, before all that, after our hour long masturbation sessions we used to talk about the time we were wasting so we both wanted to quit, sometimes she deleted her skype and then made a new one and added me again, up until the break up, would have liked to keep her as friend but that's impossible now.

The second "regular" with which I fapped just last week acts all slut, she enjoys I denigrate her, talk down to her, and even tell her how I would make her submit and rape her, things I was adamant at first but regretfully end up conceding more and more, and all to look at her tits and pussy again and again, both of them of course got around in their online sex forays heydays so I would be foolish to think I'm their only one source of entertainment, though since I was looking only for pleasure I didn't mind, what matters If I don't want them for wifes? that's what I thought, of course, now that I want to stop, what I think is, either stop pursuing sluts online or live pathetically the rest of your life, since solitude is something I may or not embrace, not sure yet, outlook is not so good in that regard, but at least I can better myself instead of living to cum and work only.

>Remember that you are actively helping some other person harm themselves as well.

This I know, it's just I don't wana do a 180 on this last girl and start preaching her the gospel, better to cut all ties and not look back, but that sounds terrible now that I typed, maybe I will indeed tell her my intentions to quit and bid her farewell inviting her to try and do the same, sound like the best thing to do.

Thanks for your input anon, it helped me to lay down all these years of pahetic carrot in the stick pursue of dopamine.

I can't believe I have not been able to stop touching myself for even a week since starting this thread, this is the week I finally abstain and consciously avoid the situations that make me take out my dick and tug it. Force of habit is the thing that keeps me fapping flaccid until I cum ruining my dick, libido and life.

Shit, dread, but at the same time apathy, I've been living in apathy for the past months, I've started projects and goals to reverse the inert state in which I encounter myself time and time again, the most I have gone without fapping lately has been 4 days, all I ever said here has been for nothing, the girl with whom I skype with has been ignoring me so that should be a signal, I don't want to spiral down anymore and end up pathetic, so I will abstain from fapping, and of course I'm only here because I just relapsed, it will be a long monday.

NO FAP WEEKEND LETS GO!

Starting over today, now I'll mark the days.