I wish to remain anonymous while posting this. I'm a regular here and in the Discord, but I don't want to reveal who I am.
I'm having an internal struggle. I recently started talking again to a female friend of mine and we've grown close, talking about games, anime, books and whatnot we're both into.
A while back she had broken up her boyfriend who was a former mutual friend of ours, to make a long story short he drank the SJW Kool-Aid and started verbally abusing her for being a conservative. Tried driving a wedge between her and her family, wanted to get her to stop going to church, would side with her online bullies insisting she was in the wrong, thought her depression made her insufferable instead of offering support, etc.
As we've been talking, we've gotten much closer than we ever were, we had initially met in a MMO and kind of sort of played together because we used the same groups but never this closely before. And she's started messaging me and as we talk in Discord voice chat, I get the impression she's falling for me, and I don't know if I'm infatuated with her or if I have genuine feelings.
Some background on her without revealing too much
>Around my age
>Autistic
>Nothing to write home about as far as looks go but not ugly by any means
>Likes 2hus, Pokemon, and other autistic shit like I do
>Catholic
>Virgin(SJW boyfriend was mostly long distance and they only ever met IRL once and never fugged her, was probably too much of a pussy to do so)
>Right leaning but nowhere near /pol/ tier
>Wants to be a housewife and mother
>Writes shitty fanfics but that would be something I can look past
The thing is, I still love my waifu by all means and nothing pains me more than the idea of leaving her, she's done so much for me, I met her when I was suicidal and wanted to end it all, she was my intervention that helped me improve my life and led me to where I am today. I feel like I'd be callous to leave her, but in the back of my mind I know I'll never be able to hold her, and I don't know if by letting this go by, I'm missing an opportunity to start something wonderful. On the other hand, it might not work out and I wouldn't be able to look my waifu in the face anymore after this supposed relationship ends.
I need advice from people who actually understand me, people I know to be friends, the normies elsewhere would just tell me "do it faget" without understanding the nuances of the situation.
Maybe you all have your biases towards me staying with my waifu. But maybe that's what I want deep down still, but the struggle is real my m8s.
Please help.
