>>34858
Well, last year was crappy because not only I didn't pay much attention to school attendance but because my ruskie furienwaifu was left in agony after being stabbed four times by a creep in a park.
I still have 9 subjects left pending and guess what? I'm in an arts school. Yes, I'm a failure at life.
Oh and my lovely girlfriend (who's two provinces away) left me because I'm a dick who doesn't/didn't pay good attention to her too much, suffered ranting and jealousy attacks and uhm let's say I was given another chance after a quick break up involving a no contact rule for about half a month, but this time she says she doesn't love me anymore. She left me last tuesday after coming back from another province, I noticed she didn't talked too much with me, only sent me nudes once after some nice chat, and the days before we talked nice… I don't think this is true though, because this last time I didn't do anything bad to her… this is making a wreckage out of myself. She didn't love anyone else before, she was pure before meeting me, she was… different, I made her change a lot, I think.
And without her, no, I'm not going to be the same, that means two years gone in vain and I want her back before anything else. She said she won't change her mind, that's her decision, blah, blah… but in the end I think she loves me (she told me she appreciates me) but… how do I gain my girlfriend back? Man, I'm suffering a lot and she doesn't look like she gives a damn fuck! In the end, I'm not as cold as steel, I'm soft, you know? I'm a charismatic, joyful, /pol/-style prankster alpha male, not the brawn-and-Chad-y type of alpha, I gain respect from others by giving them advice, being all nice but somewhat cold, and obviously being humorous all the time… but with her, these last months, uhm, it's hard because it's like she doesn't stand me anymore. It's like I'm damaging her and I really don't want to do it anymore, and I swear I'm changing and I'll change! But oh God, I don't want to switch to anyone else, she's special enough to be mine… huh…
I want my girlfriend back, NOW. WHAT DO I DO?